dance like a butterfly

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In case my old Han and Chen Hanzhang have any skin-to-skin relationship today, should I still be nostalgic for this world?

Thinking of this, I am manic!

This world will never begin for me, and it will never end for me.However, my life is better again because of Lao Han. If Lao Han betrays me, this world will be meaningless to me from now on!

The winter night is so quiet, but my heart is beating wildly, and my tears are venting like a waterfall.I walked back and forth in the room, like a headless fly, like ant tribe on a hot pot.

I can't search for Lao Han's footprints in Xi'an like flipping through a book, and I can't leave Xi'an to go back to my hometown in Hua County like before at this time, and I can't run to a place where no one can be found like I used to avoid Lao Zuo place.Yes, I have to wait for Lao Han to come back. When he comes back, I want to ask where he and Chen Hanzhang went and why he didn't answer my phone.If at this time, your old Han and Chen Hanzhang's old relationship is difficult again, I, Hong Xiaojun, don't want to live today!

Since ancient times, it is definitely not a single person who died for a holy love. As long as I let you Lao Han know how much I love you with my death, then I am worth it!

Suddenly he felt pity for himself.

Suddenly, he wanted to kill Chen Hanzhang again.

But when I think of Lao Han, his amiable face, and his appearance in my arms, my heart aches.

He covered his face with his hands, only to realize that the tears that had slid down his face were already dark red.

The room was in a mess, as if someone had passed by.I neither sit nor stand, my heart is as empty as water spinach.

I don't know how long it took, the pain in my hands and heart revived and then became paralyzed, and after being paralyzed, it revived again.I think I must look like a madman.I dare not go to the bathroom to look in the mirror, I am afraid I will scare myself to death.

Suddenly, I heard some noises.There seemed to be footsteps coming slowly.I listened carefully, yes, it was the sound of footsteps, and the sound was very similar to what Old Han usually looked like.However, the voice was unhurried, it was so gentle, as if hesitant.

If it was Lao Han, why did he walk like this?Was it because he did something wrong, and when he came home at dawn, he suddenly realized that he felt sorry for me?Or is he making excuses for his mistakes?

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt that the blood on my body was cold, and I shivered all over.

The footsteps gradually became clear at the door, and then stopped suddenly.That's right, it was him. I heard the sound of the key being inserted into the door, and before the key could be turned, I opened the door.

It's Lao Han!It's him!

Seeing me suddenly open the door, Lao Han was taken aback, "You?"

His complexion was not very good, a little gray and a little tired.I couldn't tell if the weariness was a debilitating reaction to lovemaking or something else.However, when I saw the strangeness flashing across his eyes while he was surprised, a pain of disappointment suddenly rose strongly from my heart.

Grabbing him by the collar, I dragged him into the room like crazy, and closed the door behind me.

Without saying a word, I slapped me across the face.I wanted to ask him loudly, but I didn't say anything. I was like an angry lion who had forgotten the language. I couldn't remember what I wanted to say. All the words turned into a howling lament.

However, I only had the heart to hit this once, and I couldn't do it anymore.But I don't know how to do anything else, I can only vent my grievance and depression by dancing my hands and feet.

Old Han, don't you know that I love you?No matter how good Lao Zuo is, I just ignore him!

Old Han, don't you know that I love you?In order to be with you, I don't even know how to face my family in the future!

Lao Han, you don't know how much I care about you, I care about everyone in your family, I care about your children, I will never get married in the future, I will not have my own children, and I will make up my mind to take your children as my own Same!

Lao Han, you don't know how much I care about you. In order to be with you, in order to prevent you from worrying about me, I can give up such a good job!

Old Han, I am prepared to be sincere and determined to go to the end with you in this life.However, one Chen Hanzhang made you lose contact with me.At the beginning, didn't you tell me that I was not allowed to turn off the phone, and that I was not allowed to be contacted?But, you...

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Whatever you say is redundant now.I have lost order and logic, and I have lost my mind.I just feel that this person I love is no longer the person who vowed to be with me back then.

I just feel that in his heart, I am like an old brand-name suit, which is no longer as valuable as before.

You old Han did a trick to coax me, you can't get rid of your old lover when you see him, in order to prevent me from catching him, and in order to be free, you simply find another place.

I must be crazy, maybe my crazy appearance scared Lao Han.When I danced wildly like a ghost, when I slapped him in the face hard, he didn't dodge.

Maybe, when he finally understood that it was not an option for me to go on like this, he stretched out his arms to cover me, and he wanted to wrap my arms around me.

"Get your dirty hands off!"

"Don't touch me, your dirty body, don't come near me!".

I yelled hysterically.Although my voice is very hoarse, the voice is so vague.

"Don't do this, don't do this, you listen to my brother, Xiao Hui."

"I don't listen, I don't stop. I will kill you today, you liar!"

I frantically struggled for Lao Han's embrace, my heart was barren.I have no more tears.

Lao Han still held me tightly, his face with the red mark of my slap pressed tightly against my chin, his eyes were bloodshot, that kind of struggling after fatigue, so obviously.

If I hadn't lost contact with him tonight, if he hadn't gone to a place I couldn't find with Chen Hanzhang tonight, and seeing his expression, I would have felt very sorry for him, and I would have given him a lot of warmth.

"Xiaohui, don't be like this. Brother knows it's wrong to leave you alone at home, but you have to listen to him. If you are like this, my heart is like a knife! Come on, brother will take you to wash your face first, look, The blood on your hand, why is my brother like this!"

The first half of what Lao Han said was for me, but the second half seemed to be talking to himself.

my face?You are like this, I still care about my face?My hands, my blood, whatever!

Lao Han's words, in my opinion, are not as affectionate and righteous as they used to be.To me, it is so empty, more like a kind of charity out of charity.I struggled desperately to break free from his embrace, I started to hit him with my forehead, and grabbed his ears with my teeth, I wished I could bite him to death!

"If you are not relieved, you can fight."

Lao Han let me go suddenly, and stood there dumbfoundedly like a prisoner with his hands down.

Lao Han's move was really unexpected.In my imagination, Lao Han will do everything possible to find some reasons.Maybe, when I beat him, kicked him and bit him, he would go into a rage.If this is the case, I must fight to the death today, even if Kong Wu is strong and his blood is not fading, I must fight him to the death.However, when he stood silently in front of me with such an appearance of allowing me to slaughter him, my heart softened unconsciously.

The slap I swung again couldn't go on no matter what.

I stuck in place like a mallet.

Finally, all the reasons for my bad mood came back to life, and I also regained my ability to express myself: "Say, are you going to want Chen Hanzhang or me? Don't expect me to agree to you stepping on two boats!"

My voice sounded like a ghost.Until now, I have only a little understanding of the kind of old Zuo's heart that others sing for joy and I feel sad.

"What are you talking about?"

Lao Han shuddered, and gouged me out with knife-like eyes.This look is very complicated.

"How many times have you played with Chen Hanzhang today? There are endless tricks, right? Of course, the first love, I can imagine. Since you still love him, since you don't care about me, you can tell me clearly. There is no need to let me go. You are tired of playing." Now, I can also bring you tea and water, hand you a hot towel, beat your legs and shoulders, and send me any leftovers."

When I said these words, I felt that my whole body was icy cold, and the blood was dripping out along the cardiovascular system, which was cool and hot.Now I feel that the pain of flesh and blood is too cheap for him, and the harsh language should be more powerful!

"You are crazy, what are you talking about, who do you think I am?"

Lao Han's face suddenly turned red, and his body moved a little.

Seeing the impact on him, I suddenly felt an inexplicable joy.

"I'm crazy! I'm crazy because of you. Come and see!", I stepped forward and grabbed his collar again, and pulled him into the bedroom. "I wish I could tear you up like your clothes! You still know how to come back? Tell me, what excuse did you prepare for coming back this time? You want to deceive me like a three-year-old, don't you?"

I can't express my resentment towards him, only the pieces of clothes all over the floor can prove how resentful I am towards him.With you, Lao Han, I don't expect you to support me, and I don't expect you to give me vanity satisfaction.However, I want to love you with dignity, and I want you to know clearly how much I care about you.I can keep from saying these words, but since I met you, I have never put you on the top of my heart!

Seeing the scene inside the house, Lao Han's face turned red and turned white.Suddenly he laughed, and sat on the edge of the bed, he sighed a long time: "Xiaohui, Xiaohui, what do you say about you? If it was in the past, I would definitely argue with you, but since this The second time my sister-in-law came to Xi'an and said what my brother said, my brother just..."

"Don't talk about the second sister-in-law!"

I interrupted him decisively, "Just talk about yourself. If you can't say what you did today, just say, are you going to want Chen Hanzhang or me! As long as you say you don't want me, Well, I'll go now! I will never pester you again. "

I don't want to argue with him anymore.Noisy, I'm tired.It's not that you can't eat grass in your head. I'll give you enough opportunities, Lao Han. After passing this village, there will be no such shop again!As long as you say that Chen Hanzhang still has to communicate, then we will break up.

"Haha," Old Han suddenly laughed again. "Why are you so naive? What do you think I will do with him?"

"Is there nothing wrong?", I wouldn't believe it even if I was killed.

"What do you think will happen?" Old Han asked back.

Seeing his expression and tone, I panicked.But I regained my composure immediately.

"How long are you staying at the Hyatt?"

"what's wrong?"

"Where did you go from Hyatt?"

"how do you know?"

"Don't ask me how I know! After I left, when did you wear the clothes? Chen Hanzhang didn't leave after seeing me. He also took off his clothes and rolled with you!"

Thinking of when I left, Lao Han was still naked with his body that made me fascinated forever, and thinking of the resurgence of their two old lovers in the middle of the night, my head became dizzy.I really fucking regret why I left the Hyatt Hotel so obediently at that time, and waited for Lao Han to come back like a fool.

"If you say this, what good will it do you and brother? You are relieved and happy, right?"

"Humph", I wouldn't be so perverted to entertain myself with your bad things, would I? "Why did you set the rules for me at the beginning? Why didn't you answer my call today, and then turned off the phone later? Are you afraid that I will disturb your harmonious rhythm? Are you afraid that I will cause trouble for you?"

Old Han laughed, his pale face was so ugly when he smiled.His straight teeth now make me look ugly at all.

"What's the matter with you? You always go into the wrong place, as if I really did something that I can't see you. Xiaohui, brother, tell you, brother didn't do those things, really didn't!"

"I do not believe!"

"How can you trust my brother's words?"

I am silent.No matter what you say is black, no matter what you say, I will not believe it today.

Lao Han's smile was a bit hippie, and his expression was so unscrupulous.I was caught by his hand, and even though I was still struggling to break free, his warm belly, the tufts of thick fluff on his abdomen, and his smooth and strong skin made me obey in an instant.

However, in my crazy state, I will not easily believe anything he said, and I have a lot of reasons for myself: since we were together, since his "disease" was cured by me, he has been like this With a strong body, even if you toss twice at night, you may not be weak.People say "Thirty is like a wolf and forty is like a tiger", which is talking about the sexual ability of adults at different ages. What can you explain by being tough?

I still withdrew my hand indignantly, "Who are you fooling with this? Maybe today you are used as a mattress for others!",

I don't know what's wrong with me today, it seems that my purpose is to say something that can hurt Lao Han, to make him uncomfortable, and to comfort my own wounded heart.

"what?"

Old Han was stunned.

I quickly looked for clues on his face that he was lying, but apart from being surprised, he was the kind of helpless after being wronged.

"Xiaohui, don't be like this. You know, it's not easy for us to get to where we are today. It's a bit too much for you to treat me like this. Why are you so aggressive and persistent?"

It's not that Lao Han's words can't move my heart, but I still wonder what they did.Now, can anyone give me a reasonable explanation?How can I swallow this breath?If I don't understand this matter, how can I live with you old Han with a lump in my heart?

I have no intention of humiliating Lao Han.I know it's very unnatural for me to do this.I know I'm willful, and I also know I care about it.But, Lao Han, you should also understand my love for you.Old Han, I am not humiliating you.Since I love you, I must love innocently!

In front of this love, we have no status, no distinction between rich and poor, no distinction between old and young, only open and frank!

I gestured towards the door.

Seeing that I was about to go out with my unkempt hands, Lao Han shouted: "Don't go! If you want to see it, I'll show you off! Sigh, second sister-in-law..." Lao Han wanted to say something later, but finally didn't say it.

I stopped when I heard the words, turned around slowly, and suddenly saw two tears bursting from Old Han's eyes.

My heart tugged.However, now is not the time for me to soften my heart. Thinking of this, I continued to keep a straight face.

With trembling hands, Old Han turned his back and began to untie his pants.

Under a pair of dark blue trousers, there is a pair of black wool trousers, which are full of elasticity and wrap around his sexy buttocks.I know very well that in addition to a pair of thermal pants, there is a pair of maroon boxer briefs inside the woolen pants, and there is a basket of things that I can't love enough in my life.

To be honest, Lao Han can do this, I almost believe what he said.I feel a little bit regretful, if I really wronged him, will it cause a hard-to-heal rift in our relationship!Will I regret it forever?

I glanced at it from afar and couldn't bear to look any further.

However, just when I was about to turn my face away, I discovered that there was a red mark on his left buttock.

My fascination and familiarity with Lao Han's body let me know that this mark is definitely not the red birthmark I am familiar with, because there was absolutely no such mark on Lao Han's body before.

I walked over and stroked it with my hand, and the red scar became lighter. As soon as I moved my hand away, it became as clear as a projection.That pattern is clearly someone's lip print, and there are some tooth marks faintly!