dance like a butterfly

How many windows have you wandered through and how many hotels you have stayed in before you feel that it is not wrong to be separated

Are feelings for browsing or for collection so that every day will be unforgettable

How many sufferings have been endured, how many eye sockets have been wet, to know that sadness is the legacy of love

Wandering a few double beds and changing beliefs a few times before the rings can be exchanged without hesitation

transfer the warmth of one person to another's chest let the mistakes made last time reflect on dreams

Everyone enjoys being in fear like this before refusing to be a lamb for love

Memories are the moonlight that cannot be grasped, it becomes dark when you hold it tight, the false background disappears into the clear

The sun is shining on the body and all karma is forgiven

Love does not stop, how brave it takes to drive to the end of time

Candlelight illuminates dinner Can't find an answer Love is not a warm dinner

The sheets are covered with petals Hugging it to grow too crowded to open to other soils

Emotions need someone to take over and be close in exchange for expectations, a vicious circle of expectations that bring disappointment

The short ones are always romantic and the long ones are always dissatisfied Burning perfect good youth Change a wife

Don't be disappointed, it's for the most beautiful ordinary

When I listened to the song "Love Call Transfer" by Eason Chan, I was stunned repeatedly.

It seems that in this song, I can vaguely see my own shadow.From lonely extravagance to changing partners.From wanting to escape from Lao Zuo again and again to finally sticking his face on Lao Han's chest, to repeatedly struggling with guilt and expectation, to now tightly holding on to Lao Han's love.I can't see the future, but I comfort myself strongly.I hope that after I burn out my youth, Lao Han can accompany me to the end of my life with a smile all the way.

Early the next morning, I said: "Brother, if you have something to do, go and do it yourself. I'm going to the company. Go and quit!"

Old Han smiled and said, "Brother, I will send you there. If your bosses don't let you go, I have something to say."

I flatly refuse.

If you resign, you resign. What are you doing making such a big noise?

Old Han saw that I was very determined, so he didn't insist anymore. He smiled and said, "There will be no problem, right?"

I made a promise: "What's the problem? It's this time, if I go back on my word, am I still a man?"

"Then, you won't have any more worries and complaints?"

Lao Han laughed and aimed at me out of the corner of his eye.

"No, with a lifetime of free meal tickets like you, what complaints do I have?" I deliberately teased him.

He punched me in the chest, smiled and went about his business.

Since I lived in Yaxin Garden with Lao Han, I seldom take the bus when I go out.It's so strange to be sitting in a crowd of people rushing to work now.Outside the window, in the sky, the sun is struggling hard to squeeze out of the clouds.Although the red sun was not as warm as the seasons in the past, it still painted the long-awaited golden color and shone on the faces of all kinds of people, adding a joy to people.With an MP3 in my satchel and earphones in my ears, I stopped the setting on loop playback and listened to Eason Chan's "Love Call Transfer" over and over again.

After the second sister-in-law left for a few hours yesterday, she called and said that she had arrived home.

On the phone, I vaguely heard Lao Zuo coughing.Although his voice is very low, I can still distinguish it clearly.It must be Lao Zuo who sent the second sister-in-law back to Hua County.

For a long time, Lao Zuo has been kind to me. From my struggle and resistance at the beginning, to my gradual recognition, to today's pretending to be numb, I really doubt whether I still have true feelings.In front of Lao Zuo, I was so heartless and ungrateful, but he was consistent day after day.Until now, I really don't understand what he is still insisting on with a hopeless expectation.

It is impossible for me to go back to Lao Zuo again.It is also impossible for me to share the same bed with Lao Han again.But what can I do?Should I really persuade Lao Zuo to change his thinking and let him find a life goal for himself?Find someone you like again?

If it's really what the second sister-in-law said, can I persuade him?For the sake of Lao Han, should I meet Lao Zuo less often?

Suddenly, I felt very ridiculous.Isn't there an old saying: "There is nothing in the world, and nothing is disturbing"?I was too nervous, old left, the more nervous I was, the less I paid attention.Forget it, let's live with the situation, as long as we have a sweet and sweet love with Lao Han, harden our hearts and ignore Lao Zuo, and live our own lives with a dull head. After a long time, Lao Zuo may change his mind.

It didn't take long for the company to arrive.

The doorman Lao Zhang saw me and was overjoyed: "Hong Xiaojun, it's been so long since I haven't seen you. It's really rare. I heard that something happened last time. It's all over. You don't know how many people in the unit are nervous about you."

I laughed, took out a good cat cigarette, handed over one, and exchanged a few greetings with a calm smile on my face.

Find the chairman and take out my resignation letter.The chairman was very surprised: "This is fine, why did you resign? Are you crazy? Is there something wrong with the company? Is it because of this accident?" His face was full of confusion and surprise.He hurriedly called Minister Ma.

Not long after, Minister Ma arrived: "Xiaojun, have you really thought about it?"

"Think about it."

"Is there any wiggle room?" he asked.

I shook my head.

Minister Ma sat down and began to lecture me.To say that I am young and ignorant, to say that I have worked so hard to enjoy the benefits even if I do not start new business, to say that I do so is tantamount to making money.Finally, he said: "Who would be willing to leave a salesman like you?"

While the chairman was busy with the matter at hand, he also tried his best to persuade him.

I just smiled and didn't speak, I couldn't explain my reasons clearly.

Seeing that there was no hope of persuasion, Minister Ma said: "Since you are so desperate, it is useless for me to say anything. Well, the door of the company is open for you at any time. No matter when you want to come back, I welcome you on behalf of the company!"

Although there is a lot of reluctance, seeing Minister Ma's sincere retention, I still feel a kind of satisfaction of being retained and affirmed.

It took half a day to complete the formalities.On the one hand, the previous business procedures have to be handed over, and the sales department has to write a letter to the business unit to notify them of the personnel change of the salesman, and to call the other party's supervisor.Since the seven or eight businesses in hand are very normal now, and the other company is running healthy, it is not very troublesome.In addition, I went to the finance department to collect all the salary commissions so far, and this morning was so hastily passed.

Before lunch time, Minister Ma informed me that he would invite me to dinner at noon, which was regarded as a farewell by the company leader.

I did not excuse.Although I have worked in this unit for two or three years, I have never offended anyone.Not only has created considerable benefits for the company, but also everyone has been getting along very well from the doorman to the canteen, from procurement to the upper-level leaders.

I called Lao Han and said that I would not be going back at noon, and explained the reason.Old Han laughed: "Drinking today is a matter of course. However, don't drink too much. I guess you are almost drunk, brother will pick you up!"

I still drink too much.

Although it is said that many salesmen are still in other provinces and have not returned, all those who are at home have been notified by Minister Ma.Just like that, a large table was full.This persuasion, that persuasion, looks like a strong man who will never return.During the meeting, another member of the board of directors turned around. This one said it was a pity, and the other shook hands and hugged each other dearly, making the scene like acting.

Before the banquet was over, Lao Han drove over.

When I saw Lao Han, I was already blushing and tongue-tied.

I patted Lao Han on the shoulder and introduced to everyone: "Here, this is my brother! My brother! Surname, surname Han! My brother!"

Seeing that I was staggering, Lao Han hurriedly supported me, smiled calmly, and said in a high-pitched voice, "My brother drank too much. Don't make fun of me! How about this, everyone is welcome to the northern suburbs. I will be the host and get drunk with him." Fang Xiu! Come here today, seeing him like this, he can't drink any more."

Maybe it's because people get emotional easily after drinking, and my tears came down for no reason.After all, this is the first unit where I really poured a lot of effort into my short career.For the sake of love, for the love that I pursued so hard and that is not understood by ordinary people, for the brother who I am willing to accompany for the rest of my life, the brother who is like a parent, even though I am so reluctant, I still give up.I don't have that feeling of nothingness at all.Although Lao Lin and the second sister-in-law relieved the burden in my heart before, for Lao Han, I feel that the sacrifice I made is still very great.

Close your eyes and think, the ancients said it well, there is no such thing as the best of both worlds, in order to be with you, Lao Han, there is an abyss in front of you, I also recognize it!

All of a sudden, everyone flocked up.Seeing that he couldn't leave, Lao Han smiled and took all the wine that was toasted.

Minister Ma said: "Old Han, stop drinking, you still have to drive."

Lao Han said: "It's okay, I just call and ask someone to drive."

I know that Lao Han is trying to make me happy and let me walk in a beautiful and bold way.Alcohol has long been a burden for him.

Not long after, a white Santana with a blue bar was parked outside the hotel.Two middle-aged policemen got out of the car.After careful identification, one is Chen Hanzhang, and the other is unknown to me.

Someone began to whisper: "What's the matter with Hong Xiaojun, I know some people with background."

I also heard someone say: "The people he knows are all middle-aged people?"

Although the scene became lively, I was more or less in awe of the police.In addition, Chen Hanzhang didn't want to be nostalgic, so he exchanged some perfunctory greetings, but the banquet broke up anyway.

Lao Han drank in a hurry, and his face was already red.

When I woke up, I found that I was not sleeping at home, but in a hotel.

Fortunately, there was no one else in the hotel, and Lao Han was snoring softly, his angular face looked so cute.

She couldn't help but hugged him and kissed him lightly on the cheek.The dazed old Han came to his senses, and turned his arms around me.He didn't open his eyes, raised his jaw, and opened his mouth.

I know he is waiting for me to kiss him.The bottom involuntarily stood up.Sticking to his lips, smelling his faint smell of wine, tongues entangled with each other, I don't know how many flowers fell in my dream.I don't understand why in such an environment, when the thick double bed curtains are drawn, when the gentle orange light casts a halo on the unusually quiet room, when a mature man like Lao Han quietly Lying beside me, when the room is filled with the faint scent of orchids, when the air is warm and comfortable, my heart will bloom like a lily!