dance like a butterfly

I have been depressed in my heart for so long, but the words of my second sister-in-law seemed to make me fall into the eternal sadness and confusion again.I can't tell what kind of emotional route I have followed in my past and present lives, and I am stumbling and stumbling to live.But at this moment, the words of the second sister-in-law alone can hardly make me feel purely happy for the transformation of Lao Zuo. The emotion that I couldn't escape in the past dragged me into the cycle of reincarnation that I have been trying to get rid of again!

"I don't know! I don't know! I really don't know!" I covered my face with tears streaming down my face.

"From an outsider's point of view, you are happy, even enviable. However, between the three of you, everyone feels uneasy and hurt. Especially Brother Zuo, he got nothing, and Divorced. All he has left now is pain and loneliness, and a kind of hope."

The second sister-in-law's words were very light, very soft, like muttering to herself, but to me, every word was like a steel needle piercing my heart.

"Stop talking, if you continue talking, I will go crazy, and I don't want to see this now!"

I know that in the hearts of my family in Hua County, Lao Zuo has deeply moved everyone.I am a man, if I were a woman, in the era when my parents ordered me and my matchmaker said, my father would give my hands to Lao Zuo, be grateful to him, and even think that I was a burner. The blessings of Gao Xiang who have been cultivated for several generations!The second sister-in-law's recognition of Lao Han before was only due to her respect for my choice and her vague understanding of Lao Han's surface. Today's conflict between Lao Han and Lao Zuo Station has made the second sister-in-law think differently about Lao Han.

"Okay, sister-in-law will stop talking. My sister-in-law asks you, have you completely given up on Lao Zuo in your heart?"

"Yes!", I did not hesitate.There is no turning back when the bow is opened, and a good horse never turns back.

"You want to live with Lao Han wholeheartedly, don't you?"

"Yes! In my heart, I only have Lao Han now. No matter whether he has money or not, no matter whether he is sick or old, I will be with him!"

"Have you thought about it? No regrets?"

"Think it over! No regrets!"

I have nothing to regret.Lao Han hit me before, Lao Han is very domineering, but he doesn't love me at all, I don't blame him!No matter how good Lao Zuo is, after all, for me, it is already a kind of past.Whether I can be a brother or a friend in the future, Lao Zuo will go far away or even become blurred in my heart after all.

"You—you have your own reasons for choosing this way. My sister-in-law has nothing to say."

The second sister-in-law sighed, and seemed to be silent for a moment: "It seems that Lao Han said he has two children?"

I rubbed my sore eyes, "One daughter, who is about to graduate from college. One son, who is in the second year of junior high school, lives in school and rarely goes home."

"Oh, so. How did they treat you?"

"pretty good."

"Xiaojun, listen to my sister-in-law. Since you plan to live with Lao Han for the rest of your life, you must treat Lao Han's children well. Just like treating the people in your own family and even treating them as your own children, you must also treat everyone around Lao Han kindly. One person. You have to be patient when you encounter problems. As the saying goes, "Take a step back and the sea and the sky will be brighter", and you will not die if you suffer. My sister-in-law sees that Lao Han has a bad temper. You are still young. Think about Lao Han and listen to him. He is in When doing things outside, if you lose your temper with you when you encounter something that doesn’t go your way, you have to bear it and reason with him later. The old man said, 'everything prospers with family harmony', and this is always true."

My heart trembled. I originally planned to tell my second sister-in-law about Lao Han's resignation and let her give me some advice, but now it seems that it is unnecessary.Her words suddenly solved all my grievances, and I suddenly understood what I should do.

"You don't need to worry too much about things in your hometown. I have me at home. I have lived in the city for a long time, and it is really boring. I will go back and stay for a few days to change my mind. If you like Lao Han, just guard him and make him happy. Let him worry about you all day."

The second sister-in-law's words warmed my heart.

"My sister-in-law is leaving. If Lao Han comes back, just say that I have other things to leave first."

I was very surprised. The second sister-in-law came all the way from her hometown and left in such a hurry without even having a decent meal. What's going on?In Lao Han's heart, the second sister-in-law is no different from an elder, how can I explain when he comes back?

"There's nothing else, what are you doing in such a hurry?"

I stood up and stopped her.

"My brother Gua, I just want to leave while Lao Han is away. When I came, my father specially asked me to go and see Lao Zuo. Today Lao Zuo left in a hurry. In addition, Lao Han was present, and my sister-in-law did not talk to me. He talks a lot. No, take advantage of this time, my sister-in-law went to talk to him, hoping to solve the knot in his heart, and see if it can be beneficial to you and Lao Han in the future."

I have nothing to say, second sister-in-law's hard work, this kind of affection, I can only appreciate it.

"wait!"

I hurried to the bedroom, took out 5000 yuan from the small cabinet in the closet, wrapped it in "Hua Shang Bao", and stuffed it into the arms of my second sister-in-law: "It's almost Chinese New Year, and I haven't been back for a while. It should be given to the children." I added some clothes, and I’m going to buy new year’s goods soon, this is a little bit of my heart!"

The second sister-in-law doesn't want to live or die: "You keep it, it's not easy for you in the city. There is no shortage of money at home. Sister-in-law will tell you something more, stay with Lao Han, let's not be greedy for money. It's the same sentence, you can't die if you suffer , greedy for cheap will kill people. Don't let Lao Han look down on us Hua County people!"

After all, put the money on the TV cabinet.

Seeing that the second sister-in-law was determined to leave but couldn't keep her, I had no choice but to send her to the gate of the community, blocked a taxi, and sent her to the car. I said, "Sister-in-law, come out from Lao Zuo's place, give me a call, I'm relieved!"

"I will fight myself, you go back."

Suddenly, the second sister-in-law turned her back and stopped looking at me, put the back of her hand against the tip of her nose, and trembled a few times.

I know, the second sister-in-law is in tears.

On this early sunny winter day, the family love brought by my second sister-in-law warmed my heart. It seemed that I met my long-lost family in a different place and made me feel that Hua County is so close and far away from Xi'an.But the second sister-in-law, who had hoped to see me standing in front of her unscathed, chubby and happy, but an indistinct emotional entanglement entangled her heart like a mess.The sudden distrust of Lao Han, the sympathy for Lao Zuo, and the helplessness towards me made her heart that she couldn't let go tighten up again.She wouldn't even eat a meal at Lao Han's place, and I'm sure she wouldn't be able to eat at Lao Zuo's place either.

The bright winter sun made the street wide and lonely. Seeing the green Fukang carrying the second sister-in-law round the corner and disappearing, I suddenly felt a little dizzy.

I swayed, staggered a little, and held on to the wall beside me.

The walls are as cold as iron.

"What's the matter with you? Xiaohui?"

A middle-aged woman's voice came from behind, so familiar.

"Nothing!" I forced a smile and turned around.It was Snow Screen, and she got out of the taxi.

"Is it really all right? Why do I think your face is not good?"

Maybe I didn't have a good rest during this period, a series of things happened one after another, I suspected that I was a little anemic.

"Maybe I didn't have a good rest last night. I'm really fine."

Xueping smiled, her eyes were a little weird. "Will the sister-in-law come to your house and drink some water?"

"Okay, it's rare for you to come here."

Some days there is no snow screen.Such a shrewd woman always gives people a sense of security, not to mention that she is Lao Han's right-hand man.It was definitely not as simple as wanting to drink a bowl of water when she came to my house.

"I saw you sending someone off here from afar, who is that woman?" she asked with a smile.

"My sister-in-law. My second sister-in-law!"

"Oh, that's it. Why don't you let her stay in Xi'an for a few more days?"

"Farmer, there is a lot of work at home."

"With a handsome guy like you who is excellent in all aspects, your brother is not far behind, and your sister-in-law must be the most capable and virtuous! Hey, what's wrong with your face?"

"Going uphill!"

For Xueping, I don't need to hide anything.The trip to Fengde Temple in Fengyukou was recommended by her.

Xueping let out an oh and said nothing more.

When I got home, I made tea for her, and she sat on the sofa in the living room and looked around.

"What are you looking at?" I asked.

"Have you brought nothing from the mountain?"

"Yes. The old abbot sent us a Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva."

"What? Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva!"

Xueping turned pale with shock.

"Is there something wrong?"

"What about things?"

"My brother took it back to his house!"

"Do you know what Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva does?"

I don't know much about Buddhism.When I was in Fengde Temple back then, when I heard what the refined bhikkhuni said to me and Lao Han who seemed to have insight into everything, thinking about it made me shiver like a cicada.Seeing Xueping panic like this today, I couldn't help breaking out in a cold sweat again.

"Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva is used to suppress ghosts!"

I suddenly regretted it a little. If I had known that Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva was used to guard the house, I should have persuaded Lao Han to give up.Lao Han's woman has never been happy in her life, and now she is being bullied by Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva for her unwillingness!

"Are you saying these will work?"

"Why doesn't it work? I invited it back from the temple and prayed devoutly. It will definitely work."

He taught philosophy of dialectical materialism in school.I am very puzzled, now, some beliefs in the past have been shaken after hearing Xueping's words.I don't understand why many phenomena can't be explained in a society with such advanced science, and I don't even understand why the words that there has never been a savior sometimes seem so empty in the face of thousands of years of folk customs.

Suddenly the doorbell rang, I went to open the door, and Lao Han came in with a happy face.

"I'm back, I kept my second sister-in-law waiting for a long time, let's go, I'm going out for dinner!"

Looking back, he saw Xueping, and said, "Oh, you are also here, just in time, let's go eat together!"

"Second sister-in-law is gone." I said with a smile.

"Going away?" The smile quickly retreated from Lao Han's face, his disappointed expression was clearly visible, his face was as ugly as a bare rock.