dance like a butterfly

Unexpectedly, the second sister-in-law's words made Lao Han blush again.

In all the days I spent with Lao Han, this was the first time I saw him look abnormal like today.

He took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, as if he noticed that the second sister-in-law was staring at him with a smile, he avoided his eyes, held the lighter in his hand, and was not in a hurry to light it.

"Second sister-in-law, in your heart, do you suddenly feel worried about me? Well, it's strange to say that the more I want to behave better in front of you, the more mistakes I made today."

The second sister-in-law said: "Brother Han, I'm not a girl, I said you, your temper is too hot. I know Xiaojun, he is stubborn. I am really worried about how long you two will stay together. "

What the second sister-in-law said really surprised me!I stared at her in astonishment, speechless.

My second sister-in-law never spoke like this in front of people before.She never embarrasses human beings.You know, what he's complaining about now is Lao Han, the head of a village in the city of Xi'an with a population of several thousand people, a man of great prestige and glory, and a man with whom I'm determined to spend my whole life. spouse!

Lao Han's face turned red and then white, white and red again, his hand holding the lighter began to tremble, after a while, finally, he lit the lighter, and the fire instantly warmed his serious and excited face, his The tip of the nose started to sweat.

I squeezed Lao Han's hand under the table, and Lao Han suddenly realized something. He turned his head, looked at me, and in turn, grabbed my hand, grabbed my knuckles, and rubbed it repeatedly. .

"Second sister-in-law, don't worry, today's situation, I promise not to let it happen again!"

Old Han said respectfully.

"As the saying goes, 'Which person doesn't talk about others before? Who doesn't talk about people later?', no matter how you say it, you are still a face-to-face person, and so is Brother Zuo. In such a crowded place at the station, it's hard to guarantee that you don't know each other. You or the old leftists, if it spreads about you all, who will benefit from it? Besides, if someone with good things asks the bottom to find out why they fought? Who knows what the consequences will be?"

"To be honest, second sister-in-law, I was also confused at the time, and I really forgot about it. I just remember to vent my anger on him before talking about it."

"It doesn't matter if you take it out on someone, but it will be a big trouble if you make a bad guy. If there is a mistake, there may be more than one or two people who are unlucky."

"Oh." The second sister-in-law brought up the stakes in it all of a sudden, and I couldn't help feeling flustered.The kind of evil consequences that never happened are invisible, and who is not afraid of them again and again.

"I won't do it again, I won't, please rest assured, second sister-in-law, don't worry."

Lao Han was suddenly very docile in front of his second sister-in-law, which made me feel at ease.But thinking about it carefully, as the only insider in my hometown, and the only person who recognized and supported our relationship, even if Lao Han had some complaints, he naturally dared not say anything, let alone what the second sister-in-law said was not wrong.

"Sister-in-law, eat something, you must be hungry."

Lao Han is a person who does not give up easily. I am really worried that what the second sister-in-law said will make Lao Han too embarrassing, so I can't help but secretly worry about Lao Han.

I started to call the waiter: "The food is cold, can you warm it up?"

Lao Han laughed: "What's still hot? Serve the second sister-in-law hot dishes? What's wrong? Let's serve some more!"

The second sister-in-law hurriedly stopped: "I'm really not hungry, no need, I ate it when I came here in the morning. I'm not hungry at all now. So I didn't stop you from ordering these dishes. I think you urbanites should eat as much as you like." ordered."

Lao Han was in a hurry: "Have you eaten? What did you eat for breakfast? So early?"

Lao Han couldn't think of it, but on this point, I believe that the second sister-in-law is not lying.He is a hardworking person, if he has to do something in the morning, she will get up early to cook.

"I stewed egg custard for my dad, and I fried poached eggs by the way. I'm really not hungry."

Lao Han believed it this time, looked at me and said, "If the second sister-in-law is not hungry, let's go back. I feel uncomfortable staying here."

The second sister-in-law looked at the food on the table: "Let's take these away, don't spoil them."

Lao Han said: "Second sister-in-law, there is no need to pack. Let's go to Xi'an Restaurant at noon. Let's go back and look at the house first. Don't sit down too much. You won't be hungry at noon."

The second sister-in-law pursed her lips and laughed, "No one on this table moved a chopstick, and patronized the talking ones. Are you really pampering Xiaojun like this so that he can't live a good life?"

Lao Han was embarrassed and didn't refute anything anymore. He asked the waiter to pack the bag and carried the food bag with me, and told the second sister-in-law to go downstairs carefully.

Sitting in the car, the second sister-in-law didn't talk much, she kept looking out of the car window.

Strangely, at some point, a piece of golden sunlight shone dazzlingly through the clouds and shone down.In winter in Xi'an, after the first heavy snowfall, the sky has always been so gray.The misty gray sky is like someone's cotton cover, which always gives people a very depressing feeling.However, now the sunlight seems to have injected a clarifying agent into the gloomy air, and everything began to become extremely clear and three-dimensional.Sunlight - shot on the white snow, shot on the ancient city wall, shot in the forested reinforced concrete urban jungle, making this winter instantly clear and dazzling.

"Second sister-in-law, look, as soon as you come to Xi'an, the sky clears up."

Old Han said with a smile.

The second sister-in-law said: "Where did Brother Han say it? It's a coincidence that you said it differently."

Old Han slightly turned his head back: "You come to Xi'an this time, you have to persuade Xiaohui well, he has been looking for work for me these two days, I really can't do anything about him!"

The second sister-in-law smiled and said: "People say that it is difficult for an upright official to decide on housework. You are also men a few feet tall. Don't you expect others to persuade this and that for the rest of your life? Isn't this exhausting?" It’s better to rely on your neighbors than to fight yourself’, isn’t it?”

Old Han was frustrated, he didn't speak anymore, he drove the car without saying a word, turned around the north gate, and drove all the way north.

The second sister-in-law also stopped talking, and I asked softly, "What is my second brother doing now?"

"He, there's not much to do when it snows."

Lao Han suddenly got excited, "Let the second brother come to Xi'an after the New Year, let the eldest brother come with me, and I will find some construction work for me."

The second sister-in-law said: "Brother Han, what you said last time, the eldest brother kept teasing my family, saying that there are people in the city who are easy to handle, and it is easy to be an official in the court. If my father finds out about this, Very angry."

Lao Han said: "Why are you angry, uncle? The eldest brother and the second brother also earn money by their ability and strength, not by stealing!"

I said, "Brother, you don't understand my dad's thoughts. He appointed him because he thought he wanted to cause trouble for you. My dad's temperament is that he never asks for help all his life. Don't worry about my brother being in the city. After all, being so far away from home, my two brothers have a bad temper."

Old Han smiled and stopped talking.

Seeing that he was getting closer to ** Square, Lao Han talked more. When he arrived at one place, he pointed and said: "Second sister-in-law, look, this China Resources Supermarket was a flooded pond many years ago. There are no fish in the pond. , full of toads, the croaking sound is really noisy at night in summer. Also, look at these office buildings, they turned out to be abandoned brick factories. The large exhibition hall in the distance is where my old cow field site."

The second sister-in-law said with a smile: "The changes are big. Our countryside is not as good as the city, and it will never become like this."

Lao Han's face immediately brightened: "I will go to Hua County another day and tell my uncle that I will let the eldest brother and the second brother come to the city, and I will not let them suffer."

"I don't recommend that they come, it's not a good thing." The second sister-in-law said.

"Don't worry about it, leave it to me." Lao Han argued.

As we talked, we arrived at the gate of Yaxin Garden.

In the room, the second sister-in-law cheered up.I was busy packing breakfast for my second sister-in-law, and Lao Han took her to look around here and there. "This is our home, what do you think, Second Sister-in-law?"

"It is more spacious than the previous house, and the furniture is also very good." The second sister-in-law praised.

Without much effort, I put breakfast on the table: "It's time to eat, everyone must be hungry."

Add hot milk to each person's cup, take out the bread from the microwave oven, and then have a plate of ham sausage, a plate of stir-fried tender gourd, and a plate of fried bun slices.It's not a big deal to pack these.

The second sister-in-law looked at me with a smile: "Xiaojun, you are very quick, my sister-in-law really didn't see it before."

I blushed, "When you were at home, you didn't give me a chance. With you here, how could I get into the kitchen?"

Lao Han said: "Second sister-in-law, don't say that, the environment trains people. He must have learned a lot after traveling alone for so many years. If I could meet Xiaohui a few years earlier, I would definitely take care of her. several years."

Maybe everyone was a little hungry, but Lao Han was in a hurry to eat. He had just finished drinking the milk in his glass when the phone rang.

After answering the phone, he said apologetically to his second sister-in-law: "I'll go out for a while, and I'll be back in a while."

"You're busy."

Lao Han said to me: "You talk to the second sister-in-law, and I will be back in about an hour."

After New Year's Day, the Spring Festival is coming soon, and I know that Lao Han's affairs will gradually increase.Murakami's affairs are messy, and I don't want to ask too much.In addition to relationship problems, I am not a very good person, and I don't need to ask him why.

Lao Han left, and there were only the two of us left in the room, "Second sister-in-law, you must be angry about what happened today."

The second sister-in-law said with a smile: "Don't talk about it. My sister-in-law asks you, have you really thought about your whole life?"

What the second sister-in-law said made me suddenly feel inexplicably sad, and I felt unspeakable sadness in my heart, my eyes were foggy, but I couldn't shed tears.

My life is destined to be different from ordinary people.Since I don't feel psychologically towards the opposite sex, what else can I do?However, I also have my own love and my own sexual requirements, and they are so urgent!There are tens of thousands of handsome men in the world, but I prefer middle-aged men in my heart!From Guo Jingqi's passing moment of sexual enlightenment to the real Lao Zuo, the past that made me fascinated, and all the unforgettable episodes with Lao Han made me tremble, and I was immersed in it and couldn't wake up. There is no escape.Lao Zuo is a kind person, but his kindness cannot arouse my true love for me.I am obsessed with my obsessive desire for Lao Han.

I hugged my head, and the big tears finally fell on the dining table drop by drop.

"Xiaojun, don't be sad, you have grown up. You have your own opinions on many things. You have walked your own path. Seeing you on this path, it will be difficult for others to pull you back. But, Between two people, no matter who it is to, it is a kind of harm. Do you understand?"

"I understand this."

After such a long time, not to mention others, but the price paid by Lao Zuo alone, when I think about it, I feel ashamed to death.

"The punch left brother received today, among ordinary people, who can bear it? Not everyone can understand the hurting feeling in the heart. I heard that he divorced for you, and now he lives in your Yuxiangmen house? "

I am speechless.I can only nod.

"Oh, look at all these things you do all day!", the second sister-in-law complained.

If possible, I pray to God to let me turn into a dog and a horse in my next life, and make up for the unforgivable mistakes I made to Lao Zuo!

"What do you think about Brother Zuo in the future?"

"Didn't he say it today? He only sees me as a brother. After a hundred years from my dad, won't he go to Hua County?" I asked back.

The second sister-in-law sighed: "My brother Gua, can't you see this? Brother Zuo is such a person who values ​​love and righteousness, and his words are half-truth and half-false. It's not because he has heart for you! On the one hand He has feelings for Hua County, and he talks about his father. But I always feel that he is still waiting for your change of heart! People say that the authorities are obsessed with bystanders, and anyone can see it!"

Second sister-in-law's words hit my heart like a heavy hammer.

The farewell embrace with Lao Zuo on the snowy ground, Sanfuwan and Lao Han's impulsive and calm confession today, is it really like what the second sister-in-law said, is it really an illusion?

Second sister-in-law said such a thing, what does she want me to do?