dance like a butterfly

Lao Lin's words are undoubtedly the first painful blow to my old Han on the road of same love.This kind of blow is enough to make Lao Han's young and passionate heart that is still flying in the sky quickly sink into the abyss.

My old Han staggered, and his already pale face became numb.He wanted to laugh, but found that he couldn't do it. He wanted to cry, but he couldn't cry, his expression froze, only the dazed eyes were still staring at Lao Lin, and he opened his mouth involuntarily.

Old Han couldn't figure out why he thought he had such a good relationship with Chen Hanzhang, but he didn't show his words at all, and kept himself covered for so long.

Lin Wenlong didn't expect my old Han to react so strongly after hearing this sentence.My old Han's infatuation and loyalty to Chen Hanzhang made Lin Wenlong jealous.Originally, I wanted to redeem the embarrassment caused by this little soldier's rejection of me, and at the same time let him know the real side of the person he loves so foolishly, and take the opportunity to satisfy my revenge psychology.However, Lin Wenlong didn't know whether to be happy or heartbroken with Lao Han's stunned expression now.

My old Han is not an idiot, let alone a fool.In his view of love, his lover must love himself as deeply as he likes each other.But Chen Hanzhang hid it too deeply.Whatever happened to me, I always told him without concealment, and he didn't even tell me about the engagement, so who exactly did Chen Hanzhang think he was?Now, I am in the icy and snowy Northwest, thousands of miles away from Xinyang in the south of Henan, where I miss him, and because of him, I have to sleep with Lao Lin despicably, while he enjoys his girlfriend’s love there, The contrast in the middle is so strong in Lao Han's heart. !

"I don't want to destroy Chen Hanzhang's good impression in your mind, but seeing you like this for him, I have to remind you that this world may not be as simple as you imagined." Thinking of Chen Hanzhang's every time to please himself , Thinking of the scene at that time, I immediately felt sorry for this very real little soldier in front of me.When you are sick, you need to get an injection. It hurts for a while, but it is cured.

"What else do you know about him? What else did he hide from me?" Lao Han had forgotten that the person opposite him was his regiment leader, and his thinking had stopped.

"Hehe, you can ask him yourself." Captain Lin felt that some words were hard to say.

Lao Han didn't say a word, opened the door, raised his legs and walked out.

That night, Lao Han suffered from insomnia.Leader Lin's words stimulated my old Han to keep thinking about all the time he and Chen Hanzhang spent together.Chen Hanzhang's strong physique, the amiable smile he showed when he saw him, the greedy eyes when he touched his body, the sturdy movements when he was training in the field, the versatile performance that made his heart beat during the tea party, and the motionless posture when he was on guard, Lao Han really couldn't accept the connection with Chen Hanzhang that Lin Wenlong was talking about now.

People who have not experienced deep love will not have this heart-wrenching feeling, and those who have not experienced deception will not have a profound experience of it.

After that night, Lao Han became a little reticent, and suddenly lost his energy.Several times he wanted to call Chen Hanzhang and ask him why he was so separated from him, but when he walked to the phone, he immediately gave up this idea.People like Chen Hanzhang who don't regard themselves as their own are just asking, what's the point.Chen Hanzhang never promised himself anything from the very beginning. He never said that he would be with him for the rest of his life. If he is engaged now, is there anything wrong with getting married in the future?I only blame myself for having too high expectations of others. Is it true that I am a little stupid?

When thinking of Chen Hanzhang, it is more yearning and tenderness. Although the pain is like thousands of ants nesting in his heart, my old Han has not yet psychologically planned to give up Chen Hanzhang.Now, there is only one more person to share Chen Hanzhang's love with him, but this person is a woman.He believed that Chen Hanzhang liked him, and Lao Han could feel it from the stimulating words that made him blush and heartbeat when he called him again and again.

Maybe Chen Hanzhang was afraid that he couldn't accept the fact that he was engaged, Lao Han sometimes thought so.The big deal is to give part of one's own city to others, that's all.My old Han backed down step by step. In his heart, having this love is better than nothing.

My poor old Han figured this out and slowly accepted the fact that Chen Hanzhang was engaged.He began to eagerly look forward to the 28th, the day they agreed to talk on the phone every month.

However, on the night of the 27th, when Captain Lin summoned my old Han again, he dealt the most fatal blow to my poor old Han again.

In the scene that happened before leaving last time, Lin Wenlong could clearly see the emotional impact on Lao Han.When he was passionate, Lao Han acted very carelessly, which made Lin Wenlong a little unhappy, but also a little secretly happy.

"You won't be like this, are you still feeling sorry for Chen Hanzhang? Everyone will get engaged and married." Lao Lin comforted.

"Well, it's nothing." Even though he figured it out, Lao Han still felt unhappy when he heard this.

"It won't be long before my transfer order will come down." Lao Lin glanced at Lao Han to observe his reaction.

"Then, congratulations, Captain Lin." Lao Han smiled. He wished that Lao Lin would be transferred tomorrow, and it would be best not to see each other again for the rest of his life.

"Do you want to go with me?" Lin Wenlong attacked with a smile.

"Go with you?" Lao Han never thought of this, "Head Lin is making fun of me."

"What's the matter? It's normal for me to transfer a small soldier by name. When I transfer to the division headquarters, you will be my orderly. In this way, we can be together often, and you will know me better .I didn't tell you before, do you know how much I like you?"

Lin Wenlong hugged my old Han tightly.

Hearing Lao Han's story here, everyone knows that this is an important moment to change Lao Han's life and destiny. Anyone who has been a soldier will not misunderstand what it means to a rural soldier.But the saying that character determines life is an unchanging truth.

"Thank you, Commander Lin, for your kindness. However, I want to retire and go home after my service period expires."

Lin Wenlong was taken aback, he had never seen such a fool.For a soldier, this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.First follow the head of the army, then get various training opportunities step by step, then wait for the opportunity to get a small cadre, then get the opportunity to be recommended, then study, and finally whether it is staying in the army or assigned to the local public security department.This is no different from a carp jumping over a dragon's gate. It is something that many people dream of, but this little fool and little donkey in front of him doesn't appreciate it!

"Why? Tell me a reason, why did you ask to retire?"

"I don't have big ambitions." Old Han said lightly.

This bland tone angered Captain Lin, what's the matter?Make yourself seem to be begging him.

"This has nothing to do with ambition! Is it because of Chen Hanzhang?" Seeing Lao Han biting his lip and not speaking, Lao Lin immediately became angry: "Let me tell you, you are really a passionate seed of infatuation!"

Lao Han couldn't refute Captain Lin's words.He doesn't envy the rich and powerful.He grew up in the ancient capital of the thirteen dynasties. Although he said he was not born in the city, even though he did not even finish high school for two years, he listened to a lot of Qin opera in the fields. He knows what loyalty is, and what is truth and goodness.Wealth is always fleeting. Isn’t there a saying that goes, “You can’t be poor for three generations, and you can’t be rich for three generations”?Between heaven and earth, what things last the longest?Only true love!

Thinking that he was infatuated with Chen Hanzhang, but Chen Hanzhang was hiding it in front of him, which made Lao Han a little disheartened.Don't many people say that the army is a melting pot?Isn't it said that the army can exercise a person's will?It is true that more than two years of military life has sorted out his life rules and tempered his hard-working spirit, but in the field of emotion, he has hurt himself after being so hot.He didn't want to stay any longer, and he didn't want to look at other people's faces against his will for an iron job!

"You did this for Chen Hanzhang, do you know that Chen Hanzhang is only for himself?", really angry, Lao Lin couldn't suppress the fire in his heart no matter what.No wonder some people say that a stubborn ball doesn't drill into a urinal. This Han Jun is that stubborn ball!

"There is nothing wrong with him thinking about himself." Although he was very sad for Chen Hanzhang these days, when Lao Lin said something wrong about Chen Hanzhang in front of him, Lao Han couldn't stop defending Chen Hanzhang.

"Hi? You really know how to promote high style, and you even took care of Chen Hanzhang!" Lao Lin glanced at Lao Han, "Did he call you today? Did you ask him about his engagement?" ? Since the relationship is so strong, he may not be so loyal to you, right?"

Hearing what Lao Lin said, Lao Han felt that something was wrong, he muttered in a low voice: "You mean he called you today, right? But it's nothing, you are the leader who supports him and reports his thoughts to you It’s also a reasonable thing.”

Even though he said this, Lao Han felt particularly uncomfortable.

"It's not what you imagined. In other words, you never agree to me, but Chen Hanzhang is different. We have already done this before meeting you!" Lao Lin laughed. A bit of obvious provocation and mockery.

"You're talking nonsense!" Lao Han broke free from Lin Wenlong's embrace and sat up from the bed.

"Hey, is it necessary to talk nonsense about this matter? You can go and ask him yourself! You think Chen Hanzhang will protect you, don't be stupid!".

Looking at Lin Wenlong's expression, listening to his tone of voice, and then thinking of his perfunctory performance when he was with Chen Hanzhang the last time, and remembering that he was called away by Captain Lin's servants, Lao Han suddenly felt Understood.This Chen Hanzhang, for the sake of his so-called future, did not hesitate to sacrifice himself to Lin Wenlong. Old Han suddenly felt powerless as if he had been struck by lightning.

From the perspective of common sense among gays, it should be like this. It may be tolerated to share a relationship with a woman, but it is absolutely not tolerated to compete with a man for a lover.

My old Han said that he didn't even know how he got out of Lin Wenlong's bedroom that day.

My old Han's first love died just like that.

Lao Han said that suddenly, he felt very, very stupid.

"Did Chen Hanzhang call you later?" I hugged my old Han tightly. While deeply despising Chen Hanzhang, I felt that my old Han was the most miserable and pitiful person in the world at that time. I feel sorry for him so much!In other words, Chen Hanzhang may be far superior to my old Han in terms of appearance and business ability, but why can't his advantages be directly proportional to his integrity and kindness?

"He did." Old Han replied softly.

"Did you pick it up? What did you say?"

Lao Han said, "I just said a word, then hung up."

Lao Han never told me what he told Chen Hanzhang, although I was looking forward to hearing his original words at that time.But what's the point of knowing it?Not long after Lao Han's first love died, Lao Han was demobilized.

"Later, did Lao Lin never look for you again?"

"I did, but I didn't go again. He was promoted soon. In the army, I never saw him again."

"Then Chen Hanzhang never called you again? Before he transferred to Xi'an?"

"No more."

"So, with Lao Lin and Chen Hanzhang, didn't anything happen to you again?", I know that asking Lao Han is really stabbing his heart with a knife, but I must know!I hope Lao Han's answer to me is no.I naively thought that according to my understanding of Lao Han, after leaving the army life, he no longer needed to look at Lao Lin, no longer under his control, and of course there was no need to commit himself to anyone.

"Also!" Old Han sighed deeply, looking at the ceiling with a particularly blurred gaze.

I was extremely shocked, this is not Lao Han's principles of life!How could such a powerful old Han be willing to accommodate two people he no longer cared about?

Old Han turned his face and looked at me fixedly: "Xiaohui, there are many things in this world that are not as simple as one plus one.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop. After being demobilized, my brother had to get married for various reasons.After marriage, there is not much happiness at all.It doesn't matter if you are an accountant or run a dairy farm.But since becoming the village head, he will encounter many difficult things to deal with.No one above can't solve these things.When Chen Hanzhang and Lao Lin both moved to Xi'an, and when they knew that I was the village chief, they came to me one after another.When I am very lonely, when I can't relieve my depression, what else can I do?Brother hopes that someone can watch over him for the rest of his life, but thinking of the original situation, he is very discouraged.I waited until I saw you, and my brother suddenly became excited.A person who is running towards the age of 50 has the idea of ​​having a love for the last time. I hope we can help each other!Brother hopes that from now on, you will be the same as brother and never associate with others. If brother can do it, if you promise brother, you must do it too! "

Lao Han grabbed my hands and tightly covered his chest. His hands were so hard, as if he was not holding my hands, but two bright red hearts.

"Brother, I will, I will. Don't worry."

With such an old Han at the booth, what else can I not be satisfied with?Gone, has become a kind of past.I can't be that big fool who competes with myself or others, owning Lao Han and treating Lao Han well will be all my happiness in the future.

"Are you tired? Go to sleep." Lao Han reached out to turn off the wall lamp, and hugged me tightly: "I apologize to you because of my past! I hope you don't care about it. Who doesn't want to give their favorite What about a completely blank emotional world?"

"Brother, stop talking, stop talking." I wrapped my arms around Lao Han's neck, pressed my lips together, and blocked his mouth.