dance like a butterfly

Lao Han didn't hide anything from me, he told me many details about Chen Hanzhang and Chen Hanzhang without reservation.

Listening to Lao Han's words, while I was jealous, I was full of gratitude to Lao Han.

I know that Lao Han really fell in love with Chen Hanzhang at the very beginning.

The kind of emotion inspired by a person in adolescence is like a person who wakes up from a long chaotic dream and sees a round of gushing sun when he opens his eyes. The light in my heart.This kind of light may linger in his heart for a lifetime. Although he doesn't want to think about it or be mentioned again now, the fiery and persistent faith in the past will always be the most magnificent dream in his heart.

Today, Lao Han said it completely without any hesitation. Apart from memories, he wanted me to know more about his past. In front of me, he just didn’t want to keep any secrets, lest I would cause trouble again.

"That team leader Lin Wenlong, is he the current Lao Lin?" I asked softly.

Lao Han touched my face, put his palm on the scar on my left face, and rubbed it for a long time: "Yes, it's him!".

I have never been in the military.A lot of knowledge about the army mainly comes from the ear sounds given to me by Lao Zuo and Guo Jingqi.However, I really know that a small squad leader like Chen Hanzhang, such an inconspicuous little role in the army, not to mention a regiment leader like Lin Wenlong, is a lower-level leader like a battalion commander or a company commander. I seldom visit him in person.However, Chen Hanzhang is so popular, is it just because of his application for joining the party?Is it just because of his good handwriting?I was full of doubts in my heart, and I said: "A person at the level of Captain Lin, in the eyes of you little soldiers, is it like a child looking up to an adult?"

Lao Han didn't answer me.He sighed: "Later, I found out that during an occasional walk, Commander Lin saw Chen Hanzhang and I making out together from a distance!"

What Lao Han said shocked me!

"Then why didn't Captain Lin arrest you on the spot? And punish you?"

I know it's too much for me to say Lao Han.However, I guess that the reason why Lao Lin didn't do that, but took the initiative to find these two young soldiers in the name of patrolling the battalion later, there is a deep meaning in it.Thinking of Lao Lin whom I have seen twice now, I seem to understand something.

"If Lao Lin had really done this at the beginning, the fate of my brother and Chen Hanzhang would not be what it is now!".Old Han smiled wryly.

Like a suspense novel that has just been opened, I am eager to know what happened next.

Lao Han could never forget Chen Hanzhang's beaming expression that day.

Hugs, kisses, passion, still proceed as before.When the enthusiasm subsided, when Chen Hanzhang was sitting together holding Lao Han's hand tightly, Lao Han said: "I feel that you have been playing with me all the time!"

"Pastime? How is it possible?" Chen Hanzhang's smile condensed on his face: "Can't you see it? Don't you know how much I like you? I have never felt this kind of affection for you before for anyone else!"

"I may not be able to say it, and I can't say it well. I just want to say that I have grown up so much, and I have never felt this way about you to anyone. I need this feeling." Chen Hanzhang looked at Lao Han blankly. Looking at himself, he held Lao Han's hand tightly in his palm.This honest and honest person is so cute!However, he knew that his parents had been waiting for news from him.He knew that his parents had already targeted one of the girls he had befriended, an ordinary-looking girl whose parents were high-ranking officials.He couldn't resist the temptation of utilitarianism, although he liked this young man from the countryside that he liked very much.As long as he is with this person, he wants to dedicate everything to him.However, in this life, if a person wants to live a comfortable life, he can't just focus on feelings. Power and position and the vanity of being envied by others are also what he wants most!

"Didn't you say that the head of the regiment hinted that you were going to join the party? According to your conditions, if you joined the party, wouldn't you be able to climb up slowly? Enter the military academy to study, get promoted, and stay in the army. Maybe you can really make a name for yourself. I think there is no hope for me. When you get promoted, what am I, Han Jun, to you?" At this point, Lao Han felt a little sour, and felt something suppressed in his heart. It made him uncomfortable.

"What nonsense are you talking about? In the future, even if I become the commander of the army, I will not abandon you. Who said you have no hope? If you can change your bad temper, stop holding it like a stuffed gourd , I will give you a hand in the back, and you will definitely have a bright future. Believe me!"

This is the first time that Lao Han and Chen Hanzhang talked about their future.Surprisingly, later on, Chen Hanzhang really jumped up as he expected at this time.It was also seeing the change of Chen Hanzhang's position and identity that made Lao Han change a lot after his demobilization.He went from running a dairy farm to being a village head, step by step until today.However, there is one thing that he can never change, that is the inherent stubbornness in his bones.

For a while, my old Han was worried all day long.

He was afraid to see that Chen Hanzhang had a partner.He also clearly knew that he couldn't stop Chen Hanzhang.If I don't like women, I can't let them be single for the rest of my life, right?

He was also afraid that Chen Hanzhang would quickly be promoted from squad leader to platoon leader, and then from platoon leader to battalion commander or higher.He was not jealous of Chen Hanzhang's abilities better than his own, but he was afraid that one day, he would lose his first love.

The sound of the trumpet in the morning would disturb his nightmares, and he could not fall asleep in the middle of the night. Hearing Chen Hanzhang's slight snoring on the canopy bed next door, he could not fall asleep in the middle of the night, feeling a little pain in his heart.He didn't know how long it would be before he could hear such snoring again.When the lights were blown, he would sigh heavily in his heart, the bone-piercing love made his eyes bloodshot, and slowly withered away, making him unable to cheer up for a long time.

However, Chen Hanzhang is steadily taking steps towards his ideal in his own strategizing.He would hug Lao Han tightly when Lao Han was waiting for him on the top of the mountain, conceal his excitement and wait for the passion to subside, and then tell Lao Han lightly: Captain Lin went to talk to me again today. Tell me to work hard and say that I am going to be trained as a propaganda officer.Of course, he didn't tell Lao Han that Lao Lin looked at him a little strangely today, and his attitude was more affectionate than he imagined.He also didn't tell Lao Han that he seemed to see something in the head's eyes.

After hearing these words from Chen Hanzhang, Lao Han was silent for a long time.Something was tearing at his heart.He only felt pain, but he was powerless.He could only hug Chen Hanzhang vigorously, even though he was so hard, he felt that Chen Hanzhang's heart had already flown, and he began to distance himself from him.Lao Han couldn't say anything, his eyes were red.

"Are you crying?" Chen Hanzhang said.

"No!" No matter how bitter his heart was, Lao Han still forced a smile on Chen Hanzhang.

"You've lost weight!" Chen Hanzhang touched Lao Han's face, "Look at your face and your hands, you've lost weight. There are still bloodshot eyes, did you not sleep well at night?"

Lao Han didn't speak, and rubbed against Chen Hanzhang's radiant face.

"Han Jun, don't be like this. I feel uncomfortable when you are like this. Maybe we can't be together like a husband and wife forever, but I will always have you in my heart!"

Chen Hanzhang was not without emotion.

With the arrival of family visits, for Lao Han, the scene he least wanted to see finally appeared.When Chen Hanzhang left before his vacation, Lao Han sent Chen Hanzhang to the train station.That night, two hours before boarding, they took a room in a small hotel next to the station.

For the two little soldiers with deep feelings, this hug before parting is tantamount to a prelude to parting.

The long kiss was burning like fire.

"Will you miss me every day after I leave?" Chen Hanzhang asked.

"I don't want to!" Old Han tightly hugged Chen Hanzhang's waist and pressed him on the bed.

"Don't want to?" Chen Hanzhang was surprised that Lao Han said that.

"If I miss you again, I'll miss you!" Old Han whimpered.

"Hahaha, fool! I know you miss me, that's why you say that. I miss you too. Every night."

Chen Hanzhang's words can only make Lao Han more enthusiastic.When Chen Hanzhang unbuttoned his military uniform, revealing his strong and thick chest, the temptation from the depths of carnal desire and the deep love from the bottom of his heart made Lao Han boil.

In order to repay Lao Han's persistent love, Chen Hanzhang responded very thoroughly.The bed, the chair, the table, and almost every utensil in the room that can accommodate them has become a hotbed of their love.

Gently stroking, clinging to each other, violently probing, and repeated madness, are not enough to describe the passionate scene of two passionate young people who want to be small.They tried all the tricks and positions they could think of, and finally, with the regret of not merging with each other's soul, the two lay on the bed and hugged each other, staring at each other and panting heavily.One with satisfaction, one with regret.

After Chen Hanzhang left, Lao Han was depressed as if he had lost his soul.

One of the biggest advantages of Lao Han is that he never talks about right and wrong in front of his comrades.He buried his love and longing for Chen Hanzhang deeply in his heart.The short family leave is so long for Lao Han.

When thinking about Chen Hanzhang, he went up the mountain alone.The wind picked up, and the chilly wind passed over the pine branches, the red willow mixed with fine sand particles, and blew into Lao Han's eyes.

"Han Jun!", he was rubbing his eyes when someone called him suddenly.

Old Han was startled, it didn't sound like Chen Hanzhang's voice, he turned his head.

The hazy moonlight fell, and a person stood a few steps away, rubbing his eyes again, Captain Lin!

Lao Han was very surprised, why did Captain Lin come here at this time?Lao Han looked around, there were no outsiders on this hill except them, tall pine trees and low shrubs.

He felt incredible.

"Hello, head!"

The group leader laughed, "Why are you wandering around here alone?"

"Reporting to the head, it's not time to sleep, and it's not my turn to stand guard, and I don't have anything to do here."

Old Han is very respectful.Chen Hanzhang has said more than once how the leader is, although he is very unfamiliar with the leader, and he can't say he has any good impressions, but subconsciously, the awe of the superiors makes him have to see the leader every time. Just nervous heartbeat.

Head Lin seemed to be prepared, and sat down on the big rock with a smile on his face: "Don't be nervous. I'm not here to ask questions. Come, sit down and talk."

Where does Lao Han dare to sit?The head of the group didn't mean to leave, but still wanted to talk to him.What will the captain say?This made Lao Han feel terrified.

"I know you have a good relationship with your squad leader. He is about to join the party, don't you have any ideas?"

Seeing Lao Han standing there straight, the head of the group thought about the stubborn donkey that Chen Hanzhang had described before, and smiled.

Lao Han's mind was spinning rapidly.What does the head of the regiment mean when he talks like this to a little soldier like me?How would he know that I have a good relationship with the monitor?Didn't Chen Hanzhang also write me an application for joining the party, did I copy it and submit it?

"If you behave well, you will join the party soon!" It seems that what Chen Hanzhang said is right, this Han Jun is a boring gourd, Lin Wenlong laughed in his heart.

As the team leader, you don't have to say such things to me.Isn't there an instructor?Aren't there many subordinates like battalion commander, company commander, platoon leader and squad leader?If I do something wrong, it will be with Chen Hanzhang.If it was discovered by someone, it wouldn't be the case today that it would not be punished.Besides, you regiment leader, if you really need me for something, the correspondent orderly said, I am not always there!It doesn't have to be a cold day, let's eat cold wind here.

A series of inconceivable questions swirled rapidly in Lao Han's mind, but he was completely puzzled and stunned.

It would be great if Chen Hanzhang was here, Lao Han could still discuss with him, but unfortunately, he is the only one now.

"Leader of the report, joining the party organization has always been my highest goal in life. I will definitely carry the steel gun well and strive for meritorious service." Lao Han mechanically read it like a primary school student who memorized texts when Chen Hanzhang gave him the party application. written words.

Head Lin tightened his smile: "I told you, don't be nervous. I'm not inspecting the work, so just treat it as if you're having a heart-to-heart talk with me! Come on, sit down and talk, don't be restrained!"

Head Lin had no airs at all, and pointed to the little stone opposite him. This Han Jun is really cute, and what Chen Hanzhang said was right.

Like a captive, Lao Han had to be obedient and sit down nervously.

He really didn't understand why the head of the regiment, who was eloquent and calm at the meeting of thousands of people, was suddenly so amiable in front of such an inconspicuous little soldier like him.