dance like a butterfly

A red cloud appeared on Meimei's face.It seems that it is too much to say about my father, and I regret my recklessness, but the words have been spoken, and it is based on my own thoughts, so I have to pause for a while, don't say anything, silently look at me and wait for my reaction, and the words in my hand The plates were creaking.

My heart skipped a beat, and my blood surged.

I remember that time when Lao Han saw me off on the platform of the station, he was reluctant to leave, and finally he couldn't help but hugged me.The flight attendant standing at the door laughed and said that we looked like gays, and I blushed.Of course, the conductor is an outsider, so I can ignore it.However, when the word "homosexuality" came out of Meimei's mouth, I was really taken aback.

I panicked in my heart. If this little girl really caught me with something, Lao Han and I dare not say that it is time to part ways. At least, a storm must be inevitable.Along the way with Lao Han, I have gone through all kinds of hardships, and I can't stand any more troubles!

Meimei, Meimei, what are you going to do!Do you want your dad to go back to the days when his relationship was not settled, or do you want me to go away in the dark with unwillingness and helplessness in front of your dad?

But I changed my mind, what if Meimei was just cheating?I asked myself, since this period of time, there is no one who has held the handle. The most obvious thing is to buy a house in Yaxinyuan. But, does this mean that we are a gay couple?

I know that at this moment, as long as I have a little careless words, and my mind is a little restless and I say something that is not satisfactory, today's affairs will be difficult to clean up.Although I am not fully sure about Meimei's mentality and thoughts, I understand that I must overcome this hurdle by myself today!What if this girl is just tricking me?What if this little girl is testing me?Anyway, I'm several years older than her, right?I have traveled all over the world, how could I show my timidity in front of her?

"What is homosexuality? Do you think your dad looks gay? Do you think fourth uncle looks gay?"

I straightened my mind and went to meet Meimei's flickering eyes.

"This..." Meimei didn't expect me to categorically deny it, let alone ask her such a question.

A girl, she wouldn't designate her father as gay without any evidence!

"Do you think homosexuality is a very manly person like your father? Do you think fourth uncle is like a coquettish woman? Do you think that the relationship between the same sex and them who have a good relationship is homosexuality?"

I looked into Meimei's eyes, pretending to be innocent and righteous.

I know it's not kind to talk to a pure but precocious girl like this against my will, but do I have any other choice?

"What did fourth uncle say? Who would want their father and fourth uncle to be gay? I didn't mean to arrange you. Blame me for saying the wrong thing, don't take it to heart!"

Meimei was actually conceded by my one-sentence question!

This makes me so excited, I am really grateful and scared!

This little girl actually tricked me and almost made me fall over today!

"Hehe, Meimei, you must be wondering in your heart. Your father and I are neither related nor related, and there is such a big age gap. How did two people who can't beat each other meet and get along? So close? How come your dad is so nice to me all of a sudden, and I asked your dad to buy a house in Yaxin Garden, right?"

"Fourth Uncle, why do you think so? Who do you think I am?"

Meimei felt embarrassed and began to throw away her armor.

"I live at Yuxiangmen, and I live opposite Zhang Wenqing, neighbors, we have a good relationship."

Thinking of Zhang Wenqing makes me feel uncomfortable, but now I can only use him as a shield.

"Uncle Zhang and my dad have a good relationship. Of course I know this. My dad must go there often, so you know each other. Besides, my dad saw you alone in Xi'an, and you are such a likable one." People, I just recognize you as my fourth uncle. It's normal to help you buy a house."

Mei Mei borrowed the potter's wheel from the slope and smiled shyly.

I also laughed.

"Fourth Uncle, forgive me for thinking wildly. Actually, I was worried about my dad. Think about it, my dad is a very strong person, and his temper is also very stubborn. For many years, my mother has been a little bit like that. I know my dad is very upset. It's easy. It's really not easy for him and my mother these years. As a child, can you feel better when you see this? People live a lifetime, and they live with energy. Being alone in the family, anyone would be unbearable. But, I feel, since I met you, my dad seems to be a different person. All day long, his mental state is very good. But, as long as There is something wrong with you, and he is simply restless. Even I am jealous of you when I look at it."

Meimei looked at me shyly, lowered her head, and was still rubbing the clean dishes.

I can imagine what kind of life Lao Han has lived for so many years.If it were me, I would definitely suffer more than Lao Han, maybe I would have gone to a temple to be a monk earlier!Old Han, my dear poor old Han, why didn't God let me know you earlier!You have suffered and suffered in the past, as long as I can, I will definitely make it up to you!

"Fourth Uncle, I want to tell you that it's easier for you to talk in front of my dad now. Maybe you can talk more effectively than me now. Just tell my dad and ask him to pay attention to himself and refresh himself. Find a companion. He can’t suffer himself anymore. I don’t have a mother now. Although it is right for a son and daughter to respect the elderly, it can’t compare to a caring person in front of me. According to my father’s own conditions, I think It shouldn't be a problem to find a better woman. Fourth Uncle, what do you think?"

At some point, the little girl's eyes were already filled with tears, and she raised her elbow to get it on her face.The little shoulders shrugged and shrugged, with an indescribably pitiful look.

All of a sudden, I realized how Lao Han felt when he said he wanted to break up with me when he came back from Hua County last time.

should i leaveShould I leave Lao Han and let him continue?Should!

For Meimei, I should!For Haohao, I should!

But can I leave Lao Han?For Lao Han, I can't!For myself, I can't!This man named Han Jun has firmly absorbed my soul and made it impossible for me to find the way back!From the tenderness he gave me at the beginning, (when the tenderness is everywhere, my whole world is a warm color), to the fiery temper he has cultivated for many years, (when this temper gives me a sense of security that can last the sky ), Lao Han’s heart is already my home!As long as he still loves me, I can't escape!I don't want to leave for a minute!

However, when Meimei looked at me with expectant eyes, my heart was severely burned by her weak eyes.

"Well, Meimei, according to my fourth uncle, I will tell your dad what you mean in detail. As for what your dad will do, I can't say. You know, many things don't always follow others willing to go."

I feel very shameful and mean.Because, I'm pouring cold water on Meimei.

"Fourth Uncle, you have to talk to my dad well. As for the others, I still have a way."

Meimei's eyes were shining brightly, as if as long as I told Lao Han, the matter would be more than half successful.

I smiled helplessly and nodded to her.

The moment I lowered my head, I realized that my smile was accumulated from endless suffering.

Growing up so big, I have never been so hypocritical and dirty.Obviously he was a comrade, but he didn't dare to admit it in front of a little girl; he obviously didn't want to say such things to Lao Han, but he still promised Meimei.

Hong Xiaojun, Hong Xiaojun, you are too disgusting!

Back in the living room, Lao Han sank deeply on the sofa, smoking a stuffy cigarette.

I didn't spend much time in the kitchen, the ashtray on the coffee table was already full of cigarette butts, and the room was filled with smoke like heaven.

"Oh, Dad, what did you do? You don't feel sorry for yourself and you don't know how to feel sorry for others? Don't you know how harmful second-hand smoke is to other people's bodies? Really!"

Meimei came in, complained to Lao Han, rushed to turn on the ventilation fan, and then ran to open the window.

Lao Han raised his head and saw me standing beside me without speaking, as if he understood something, "What's the matter, are you tired? It seems that your face is not right."

"It's nothing. I'm really tired. I want to go back." I said lightly.

I think the children have finally come back, and it is time to get closer to Old Han, and it is not appropriate for me to stay any longer.I am really too tired today, I have to integrate into this family, and I will work harder in the future.

"Alright, I'll see you later."

When Lao Han got up, he didn't intend to keep me.

"Fourth uncle, why don't you go, play CS with me, you promised me."

Haohao suddenly opened the door and came in, grabbing my arm and shaking it back and forth, with a mischievous look on his face.

"This kid got it. Your fourth uncle is very tired today. Let's play with you tomorrow!" Old Han smiled and stroked Haohao's head.

Haohao threw me away in disappointment: "Fourth Uncle, you should come early tomorrow. My sister's ugly friend will come tomorrow."

When Meimei heard about it, she came over and grabbed Haohao's ear with a smile: "What are you talking about, what are you talking about? You are handsome! Everyone else is ugly!"

The two siblings started laughing and making a fuss again.

This is a kind of happiness that is always far away from me, and I can only envy my eyes.

When I went out, my family came to see me off politely.

I turned around and waved to them, and walked into the cold and lonely winter night.

There are street lights on the street.Turning the corner, a mournful song is being sung in the front room of someone's house:

Yellow Rose, don't cry, you are the most beautiful of all the flowers.

When you are hurt, don't be sad, don't let the teardrops wet the stamens.

don't let me see your sadness

i will break my heart for him

don't ask yourself right

love is beautiful

Even if you bid farewell to the spring sunshine, you still have to be open

……

I don't want to miss the spring sunshine, I must be open!

Rubbing my eyes, I realized that although my eyes were sore, there were no tears.

All of a sudden, he bumped into someone, and heard that person scold: "You are so fucking blind, how dare you bump into your uncle, you are looking for death!" down.