dance like a butterfly

I just realized now that Lao Han's desire is so strong!

Thinking of our first meeting, although the love came so quickly, Lao Han was very reserved besides hugging me tightly and saying Brother Xiaohui likes you.It was the first time I had a substantial relationship with him in Langtaosha, and he was in unbearable pain, even though my words were not of the thick type.

He never refuses my urgent requests for him, anytime, anywhere.It really made me feel pampered like a child in his presence.Sometimes I think, if I am not gay and I find a woman to marry, I am afraid that I will not be able to do whatever I want like this.It is fascinating to have such a lover who is like a father and a brother.The longer we are together, the stronger the sense of dependence that makes people extremely happy, why don't you want to live with him for the rest of your life?

That time, in my house at Yuxiang Gate, in order to tie his heart, I played a little trick and made him enter me for the first time, even though it didn't feel good to be entered.I always thought that he would take it lightly, and it is unlikely that he would have such a stronger request.However, I was wrong.I was so selfish back then, thinking too much about my own feelings, and never thinking about him.Such a mature man full of masculinity may have been the active party in a gay relationship, but he was willing to sacrifice so much physical pleasure for me, just to love me too much.However, since that time, Lao Han found that I was not stubborn and unchanging, so he became more active and experienced.

People say that thirty is like a wolf and forty is like a tiger. It seems that there is nothing wrong with it.

Generally speaking, because Lao Han didn’t talk too much, and what he did was very emotional and devoted, and he always observed my feelings with great attention, lest he would cause harm to me.As the back slowly opened, I endured it, and gradually the weird feeling of discomfort disappeared.Although I can't say it's a pleasure yet, seeing my sweetheart enjoying the process so much, my physical rejection gradually disappeared.

I love his fair skin and angular face so much, I love his shapely body too much.People say that a good man has hair all over his body, so no matter what Lao Han does, in my opinion, he is extremely sexy and passionate.

When he panted, clenched his teeth, puffed up his cheeks and closed his eyes, he jumped up from the highest point of the wave and fell powerlessly into my arms. When I washed his sweaty body, I hugged his body tightly. Sometimes, this sense of mutual ownership is so distinct!

I love him so much, and I am so afraid of losing him.

However, since I want to have him completely, I must know everything about him, and I believe this is also his wish.

I lit a cigarette, and I put it in Lao Han's mouth.

"Brother, are you tired?"

Lao Han looked so handsome smoking.His resolute face was hidden in the mist, like a shining pearl behind a tulle.

Lao Han took the cigarette from the corner of his mouth and licked his lips. "It's a bit boring. Really, it's strange. Ever since I had you, I have always had the feeling of spring on a dead tree. Although before you, my brother was not as pure as a piece of white paper, but no one gave it to me. I feel like this brother! I always thought that this will be the same for the rest of my life. Who knows, the gods have pity on me and sent you here. My brother is fascinated by you. You, you are an out-and-out little fairy It seems that I really have to go to the temple to burn incense!"

Old Han smiled and pinched my face.

I was crawling on top of him, gnawing on his chest intently.

I opened my eyes wide and shone brightly: "Brother, don't say that Xiaohui is a goblin, which makes me feel like a different kind. I am not a fox. If I were a goblin, I will kill you." Confused to an overseas fairy mountain with no one, just the two of us, see the bright moon and pines, see the photos, see the clear springs and stones, see the snow in the Xiling, and see the Dongwu Wanli boat! Don’t see Chen Hanzhang, don’t see Zhang Wenqing again. It’s just us Two, look at the green water in spring and the rising tide, and look at the bright moon in the sky in autumn.”

Old Han said with a smile: "I, Xiaohui, are really a poet and writer, and I speak sour words. Although your words are a bit false, but I really like it!"

I gently grabbed his tired, spineless mass in my hand, and said seriously: "Okay, let's be serious now. Things that make you enjoy yourself like this today can't happen again in the future." , anyway, you are also about 50 years old, always like this, the body can't bear it. I can't let you pamper and coax me all the time, I have to take care of you, otherwise I can't justify it to your children. "

Old Han stared at his small eyes: "You think brother is too old, don't you?"

"What's the matter! I don't want you if you are not old. Find a young one, who can bear my temper? Isn't it Han Jun who eats me?"

"Haha, I am willing to listen to this. It should be said this way, isn't Han Jun the one who is lucky enough to eat you and let you be my daughter-in-law willingly?" After finishing speaking, he let go of me, curled up into a ball, and put on a face ready to be beaten. look.

I was just about to pounce on him and pin him under me, when I suddenly had an idea and changed my focus.I said: "Brother, today I will be a daughter-in-law. Now I will ask you another question, please don't get angry, okay?"

"Ask, brother, say what you want." Lao Han didn't even think about it.

"I remember the last time you were hospitalized, an older man brought a young man to see you. According to my feeling, that old man is also a comrade."

Having said that, I looked at Lao Han and said nothing further.

Because, Lao Han never mentioned this person in front of me.I didn't have a chance to ask again.But today, I have the right to know these things, because I have already planned to move to Yaxinyuan, and I have already planned to be with Lao Han and never be separated.

As long as Lao Han still has such a relationship hidden in the dark, it is a potential danger to me, and I really don't want to lose Lao Han.

Lao Han glanced at me, and immediately looked elsewhere.

There was almost no trace of panic and horror, but I still noticed it.

"Brother, what's the matter? Did I say something wrong? Should I not ask?"

Lao Han's cheeks sank deeply, and he took two big puffs of his cigarette.

The cigarette paper turned from white to black in an instant, and the shreds of tobacco turned red and slowly turned to ashes. He wrung out the cigarette butt in the ashtray.

He looked at me calmly and stroked my neck: "Xiaohui, I will talk to you about this topic later, okay? Be good, be obedient. Brother promises that from now on you will be my relatives, the dearest and dearest relatives. Except You, no one else will fall into my eyes!"

I'm a little disappointed.

At the same time, I also feel that this may be the biggest secret of Lao Han.I can't predict whether this secret will determine the future fate of me and Lao Han, but I confirm one thing, that person should be a very important person to Lao Han.

I am not as calm as Lao Han, and the unhappiness in my heart is written on my face.Didn't you say something?Why do you just avoid one of my questions?

Old Han laughed, "Xiaohui is so narrow-minded! Don't even think about it, no matter what you do, you won't go to live with an old man! Let alone the only good brother in the world who is loved by you, brother Still not enough?"

With a word from Lao Han, I feel relieved.

"Are you really going to spend the rest of your life with me?"

"of course!"

"Then I'll ask you a few more questions, okay?"

"Just ask!"

I thought about it, and I no longer want to avoid those questions that I have wanted to ask but dare not ask for a long time.

I am so worried that this kind of life that has completely brought my happiness to nothing!I am so worried that this mature man who has completely conquered me will become a stranger in an instant!I want to grasp my happiness, I want to hold this person firmly, in my palm, in my arms!

"If Meimei and Haohao find out about our relationship, and refuse to let you and me be together, what are you going to do?"

I don't know if Lao Han has thought about this problem.However, this problem is no longer a hypothesis, but may become a reality at any time!I like Lao Han, I love Lao Han, love him, just like loving myself.I believe Lao Han feels the same way.From the moment we met, the sweetness in the pain, the joy in the bitterness, the throbbing, the trembling, the itching, have been caressing our hearts all the time, making our hearts and souls restless.

It is precisely because of this different kind of emotion and love, and precisely because of this kind of fireworks, we have gone through so many twists and turns, and after so many running-in, we always look forward to the same journey and the same goal.When we are struggling to achieve a positive result, who else will slash in front of Lao Han?Tian Zhenzhen can not be afraid, Lao Zuo can stop talking, Chen Hanzhang can turn his face, and Zhang Wenqing can ignore it.He can turn a blind eye to other people's eyes, but in the face of the obstruction of a pair of sons and daughters who say they are relatives like me, with his blood flowing in their bones, and relatives whose blood is thicker than water, what will he do? how to choose?

Old Han was startled, turned over and sat up.

He didn't smoke, and looked at me blankly.

I didn't speak, and looked at him blankly.

I think Lao Han must have thought about this question, but he definitely has no answer now.If there were, he wouldn't be in this demeanor now.

If I were a woman, and Meimei's mother passed away, it would be reasonable for Old Han Xuxian.Even though I am only a few years older than Meimei, the world has long been accustomed to love between men and women.

But, if I was really a woman, would Lao Han want me?

Besides, if I was really a woman, would I still have such a comradely complex?Will I still like Lao Han who is so much older than me?Am I going to be alone by now?

In the first love, I don't know, who, like me, thinks everything is too simple?

It's not that I'm trying to make things difficult for you, Lao Han. At another crossroads, I expect you to give me a clear direction of the way forward again!

When you sent me home for a banquet, when the second sister-in-law gave you my TOEFL after careful consideration and pressure, when this question came back to you again, brother, it's up to you!

Brother, if you feel embarrassed, you can keep this key for yourself for the time being.