dance like a butterfly

"A person will meet three people in his life, one is the person you love, the other is the person who loves you, and the third is the person you love and also loves you. No matter how many people appear in your life now, no matter what you are Whether the person you met gave you real happiness or unforgettable pain, please accept it with a grateful heart. Whether you are crying or smiling, what once belonged to you is the best moment and the happiest moment. "

Seeing that I didn't reply to him, Lao Zuo sent me this text message again.

I smiled and ignored it.

Not long after, Lao Zuo called. After thinking about it, I still answered the phone.

Lao Zuo said, "Hong Xiaojun, I want to see you."

I was taken aback, Lao Zuo called me by my real name directly, and he stopped calling me Xiaohui.

I said, "How do you know my name?"

Lao Zuo said, "I'll tell you when we meet again. If you want to come, you must come. I'll wait for you at the True Love Bar in Yuxiangmen. If you don't come, I'll keep waiting."

An inexplicable anger rose in my heart, why did you, old left, do this?What is this?Is it a threat or a lie?

I don't want to see Lao Zuo.However, in order to explain my thoughts clearly to him, I still had to go.

True Love Bar is 50 meters north of Yuxiang Gate.It's a well-reputed bar.

When I reached the door, the door greeted me and asked, "Who are you, sir?"

I said, I'm looking for someone.

"If you are looking for Mr. Zuo, please follow me."

The summer in Xi'an is really hot. Although the summer vacation is coming to an end, the streets are still sweaty, and the bars are cool and comfortable like spring.

In the bar, Phil Collins sang "All of my life" affectionately.

Lao Zuo was drinking Tsingtao beer in the innermost private room, keeping his eyes on the door.

I didn't speak, just sat down on the soft sofa opposite him.

When Lao Zuo saw me coming, he stood up immediately.

Lao Zuo said, "Xiaohui, you are finally here."

After ordering drinks and pastries, the waiter left.

"Old Zuo, you asked me to come, tell me directly, why?"

"Xiaohui, I have no other intentions, come here, drink some ice water first, and go to the fire." Old Zuo smiled hippiely, showing endless hospitality.

I pushed away the cup he handed me.

"Xiaohui, look at you, what a handsome guy, look at you, white T-shirt, white jeans, white net shoes, you look exactly like the one who walked off the wall calendar. If you get angry again, it doesn't match the atmosphere."

Old Zuo looked me up and down, and put a two-foot-five on my head.

I didn't pick up his boring topic, and sorted out my emotions, I said: "Old Zuo, to be honest, I don't plan to see you again. Didn't we just have such a thing once? It's over, don't Don't hold on anymore. Also, I don't like to hear your name is Hong Xiaojun. I don't know how you know my name is Hong Xiaojun. Do you know what politeness is? Thankfully you are still a teacher now!"

As I spoke, I became a little angry.

Lao Zuo said: "Xiaohui, I don't call you Hong Xiaojun, can you come to see me today? One of my comrades-in-arms is in the telecommunications bureau. If I ask for your phone number at the telecommunications bureau, don't you know your name? Through Another comrade-in-arms of the Public Security Bureau of mine, I also know that your family is in Hua County!"

I couldn't figure out what Lao Zuo was thinking about when he said this to me. After hearing his last sentence, I was furious, "Why do you check my details? What are you going to do? Are you sick?"

What kind of self-cultivation, politeness, I don’t know where I went at that moment, I was really hysterical.It's like walking on the street without any reason, and someone stripped naked for no reason, and exposed my naked body to the eyes of thousands of passers-by. He said that, I no longer have any cover.

I asked Lao Zuo, "Am I a thief? Did I murder and set fire? Between us, who forced whom? Did I ask your name? Did I ask where you work? I asked where your family is. Where do you live? What are you going to do?"

I was so furious that I questioned him like a cannonball.

Maybe I didn't expect that his words would make me fly into a rage. Lao Zuo propped his chin with his hands, and froze on the sofa without saying a word.

He originally wanted to show his credit to me, and he came to see me with excitement and joy, but he didn't expect that I would be so neurotic.

How did he know that even though we had sex for the first time, I didn't really like him from the bottom of my heart.That sex was purely a wild act of sex.

Poor old Zuo thought that if he was sincere to me, he would get my sincere feelings for him.He even stalked me a few times to figure out where I live, and was overjoyed when he found out that we were actually very close, and even kept flashing in his innocent mind how we went from now to gray hair The scene of Cang Cang holding hands with each other, he was ecstatic to meet me in the crowd.

Obviously, my performance was not what he expected.

I have worked in the army for more than ten years, and changed jobs for two years. I didn't expect Lao Zuo to be so naive. This is a later story.However, I didn't know this at the time. Looking at his tall and thick appearance, and his iron tower-like figure, I thought he was an old fritter.

I wanted to yell a few more words, but it didn't work, so I punched him.

Seeing that he didn't speak, and looked sad and wronged, my compassion prevailed.

I didn't speak, just gasping for breath.

The corridor has been replaced with "DoYoureMember" song.

Then came the song "Take Mealook".

For a long time, Lao Zuo saw that I was silent, so he sneaked a glance at me, grinned, and changed into a happy expression, ready to say something more.

After glaring at him, I threw a hundred yuan on the table and shouted, "Pay the bill."

Pointing to his nose, I said: "Old Zuo, listen carefully, don't look for me again, there will be no results. If you keep pestering me, you will have no good fruit to eat."

After finishing speaking, I walked away.

Only Lao Zuo was left in a daze.

I am a person, usually laughing and joking.I have nothing to do. I go to the sports center to swim and play tennis with my friends and colleagues. Occasionally, on a whim, I submit a manuscript to the supplement of "Hua Shang Bao" (sometimes it is published), and then I go to the mahjong parlor with my colleagues to play mahjong. Drink beer at the night market.

In the eyes of outsiders, he has a very good appearance, an easy-going personality, and seems to have a bit of literary talent. He is really an outstanding young man.

However, only I understand that I am that kind of embroidered pillow, the kind of gold and jade.I have no real skills, except for a little cleverness, I only have the most pitiful bit of pride and self-esteem in my heart. In addition, after knowing that I am gay, I feel that I have one more defect than others.When a person, after peeling off the camouflage, vulnerability and low self-esteem follow.

Fortunately, I now have a job that suits my personality, and the income is quite good.

Some people say that life is like a swing that I used to play when I was a child, sliding through leisurely swings.

The days passed quickly, and that was because of the ordinary life. When I suddenly woke up at night and knew that I was the only poor person in my bed, I felt like a cat scratching my heart.

It turns out that I unconsciously yearn for love, to be loved, and to have someone I like who can give me a piece of sky.This desire has been burning non-stop, and myself, like corn in a pot, may burst into flowers at any time.

Chatting in the virtual network is fine, but never meeting with netizens is my constant purpose.

Just met once, met an old leftist, and now he is in trouble.

I feel plotted against myself.

For a few days, Lao Zuo didn't call me or send me a message.

I am a little happy.I thought that was the end of the matter.At the same time, I also felt a little bit guilty, I was ashamed of my performance that day when I met Lao Zuo.

Originally, I almost never scolded anyone, and I never thought about fighting with anyone.

Thinking of the situation that day, I despise myself a little.