dance like a butterfly

As Tian Zhenzhen dropped the wad of money like a charity and walked away arrogantly like a princess, my tense nerves finally relaxed.

I also collapsed like a collapse, without a trace of strength, and the wound started to hurt like countless centipede bites.

I'm not rich, but since I started working, I haven't felt hard on myself for not having enough money to spend.I am a child from the countryside, and like many people, I am envious of the glamorous life of city dwellers.But the aloof character that I have cultivated since I was a child, even though it is well concealed on the surface, is always influencing my behavior.I never accept gifts from others for no reason.

I admit that compared to the sharp words of the woman in front, this wad of money was like the last straw on the camel's back, and it completely broke me-this is the greatest insult to me!

However, at this moment, I am like a baby who cannot speak, and all needs are expressed through crying, and I have no strength to shout: "Come back, take your money away!"

As the door of the ward behind her was closed, I finally admitted that although I didn't think I was a loser in my heart, Tian Zhenzhen did win this time, and there was no suspense in winning, and the score was still the same. Disparity!

Tian Zhenzhen has gone away, but my pain is gradually approaching.

I don't know how long the pain in my body will last, but what is this pain compared to the pain in my heart?Who can heal the wounds of my soul?Besides myself, only Lao Han!

Old Han, brother, I don't want to lose you!

I'm injured now, and I'm badly injured, but I'm not dead yet!Brother, my soul belongs to you.Even if I die, my body turns into powder and is blown away by the wind. As long as my soul is still clustered together and I can still have a little thought, I will always think of you and fall in love with you!

Brother, you know what?I only have you in my heart, how much I miss you!

Brother, where are you now?are you thinking of me?Will you still love me again?Will you still love me forever?

I'm going to get the phone, I want to call Lao Han.I want to tell him all this, I want to say Lao Han, I love you, and I can't live without you for the rest of my life.Even if everyone knows that I am gay now, even if everyone points at me, even if each of them spurns me with disdain, I still have to say: I am gay, I love Lao Han!

Gay is gay, what's wrong with being gay?I didn't kill, I didn't set fire, I didn't steal or rob, I didn't harm anyone, I was living my own life, I just fell in love with a man!In other aspects, I am not inferior to anyone else, you don’t need to look at me like a monster, because I am a human being, and I have the right to fall in love with someone!

I started to call Lao Han with trembling fingers.

However, I didn't finish dialing the number, so I gave up dejectedly.

Unable to lie on my back, I tried my best to turn my body sideways, lying on the bed with a pillow on my right face, and I cried aloud.

I still can't make this call to Lao Han!

Yes, how do I know that Lao Han will love me again!Who is he?He is the head of a village with thousands of people!In the past, I could appear in front of everyone as a dry brother, even in front of his family. At that time, I just kept silent and stood in front of everyone with a smile on my face. Supporting decent things is a beautiful landscape in front of him.And now, I'm so ugly, do I hide from people all day long?Or continue to go in and out with Lao Han like before?I love him, but can I blacken his face?Tian Zhenzhen's visit this time really stimulated my fighting spirit. I knew that I had to live a good life, and I wanted to carry on my love with Lao Han to the end, so as to show Tian Zhenzhen that comradely love is so indestructible.However, these are all my wishful thinking, will Lao Han think the same as me?How can I know that he will grow up with me side by side? !

Thinking of this, I feel that reality is so slim and cruel to my love.

At some point, the nurse came back quietly.

She poured a glass of water and said, "Young man, just cry a few times when you're sad. Crying too much won't do your injury any good. You need to open things up. Come, drink some water."

I stopped sobbing, I didn't want to be seen as a joke.

The nurse wiped my face with a hot towel.

While I was drinking water, Chief Qi came in and said, "Hong Xiaojun, that old Han called just now and said that he was already on his way to Nanzhang. He asked if something happened to you, and said that he was visiting Hubei. Satellite TV reported the news, saying that they already knew about the accident in our factory. I asked if you were among the injured, so I had no choice but to tell him the truth.”

I almost choked on a mouthful of water.

What?Lao Han knows, Lao Han already knows!

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad to hear the news from Chief Qi.

However, my heart immediately calmed down.Now, it's useless to think too much, I have to face the most realistic problem.

If Lao Han still loves me, I will no longer hide, I will hold a kind of gratitude, I will love him more than before, and I will cherish the second spring of my life even more.In case Lao Han doesn't like me anymore, I can't blame him either.After all, everyone has the right to choose each other.I will accept this fact calmly, and I will live on.It's just that in the future, I will live in winter forever, and there will be no warm spring in the four seasons of my life, and I will never love anyone again.

I have to believe in fate and the words left by the old man: It is yours, and no one can take it away.If it is not yours, it will slip away if you grab it.

In this way, I was sad for a while, calm for a while, and suffered for a while. I waited for Lao Han, just like a serious criminal waiting for the sentence. I came to a crossroads in my life again.

When it was getting dark, I was still in a drowsy sleep, and I woke up suddenly.

There is a feeling that makes me involuntarily look towards the door, and my heart starts to beat faster!

This is a very strange feeling, as if someone is shouting in my ear: Xiaohui, someone is coming, someone saw you coming!

Listen carefully, discern carefully, but the sound disappears in an instant.

I couldn't help but shuddered.When I looked towards the door again, I heard the footsteps of several people coming closer and closer.Then, the door was pushed open.

Several people rushed in from the door.The first to bear the brunt is a person I am both familiar with and unfamiliar with.

Who else but Lao Han!

Behind Lao Han, Zhang Wenqing followed.Next to Zhang Wenqing, there were two people I didn't know. One was very tall with a crew cut, and the other was short and very strong. Both of them were in their 30s.

The last ones were Section Chief Qi and a clerk from one of his departments.

The small ward suddenly became cramped with so many people pouring in.

The nurse looked at me, smiled and went out.

Lao Han didn't speak, but Section Chief Qi quickly flashed out and said, "Old Han, come in quickly, Xiaojun is so happy to see you."

As if he didn't hear Chief Qi's words, Old Han stared at me blankly.

He took a few steps forward and stopped two meters away from me.

It's been a few days, it's really like a few years.

He stared at me leaning on the bed in a daze, just like looking at someone he had never met before, his eyes were so strange.

Seeing Lao Han with an unshaven beard, bloodshot eyes, and blisters on his lips because of getting angry, I felt distressed for a while, and the eye circles immediately turned red.

His eyes are so strange, such eyes make me suffer.

Could it be that Lao Han thought that he had gone to the wrong room when he saw my injured appearance?Or is he already planning to leave me when he sees me like this?

For a moment, he and I were stunned there.

After the accident, the relatives I missed countless times are now standing in front of me, but I can't be happy.The joy that suddenly rose up just now disappeared immediately.

It was as if after a long drought, I finally saw a huge cloud, which was about to gather into rain, and a gust of wind blew away the cloud, blowing it away without a trace.

For a while, I didn't know what to do, and my heart became cold.