Me and Boss Bear

The boss drove me home quickly. I just had a cold, but he seemed to treat it as something serious.

I opened the door, told him to sit down and drink water, sat on the bed by myself, and found cold medicine, anti-inflammatory medicine, and headache medicine from the cabinet next to the bed...

"Wow! So many medicines!" The boss came over and sat next to me, and said in surprise.

"Yeah, I hate taking medicine the most. It's just a cold, but I have to take so many medicines! I can't bear it!"

"Don't take the cold seriously! Get well soon, or you will suffer!..." The boss looked at me with concern, lectured to me, and stretched his big palm on my forehead to test my temperature .I just listened to him quietly like this, looked at his gentle and worried eyes, felt the temperature of his big hands, and the warmth of love swept over my whole body in an instant.

boss.I'm sorry, maybe we should be able to be together, but we may lose a lot this way.You have head, face, money and status, but I have nothing, maybe you don’t care about these, but I care about my own status, I can’t indulge my emotions like this, maybe I can’t control my love for you, so I have to choose as soon as possible clear relationship.Although what I said was reasonable and euphemistic, it still hurt your heart. I can only say sorry to you.Or maybe it’s because I care too much about the ethics of this society, and I can’t get rid of the secular restrictions. I know my sexual orientation and I know that I like uncles, but I can only think about it. People found out and received strange contemptuous looks. After all, I have seen such things before... It's because I worry too much, it's because I'm too weak, boss, I'm sorry...

"Little fool, what are you thinking?" Dad saw me in a daze, pouted and complained, and even tapped on my forehead lightly.

"Huh? Haha, no." I responded with a smile.Such a cute boss, if it was before, I would definitely hug you and kiss you on the face, but not now.

The boss got up, poured me another cup of hot water, then sat down again, looked at me kindly, "How is it, does your head still hurt?"

I took a sip of water and smiled at him, "There's still a little more, but it's okay, I'll be fine tomorrow after a good night's sleep."The boss frowned when he heard this, raised his hand to look at his watch, looked at me with concern, and asked, "It's still early, let me take you to the hospital, get an IV, it will be better Hurry up, how about it?"

I really can't be entangled like this, otherwise I really can't control my emotions.Boss, go back quickly! ...

"No boss, I'm really fine, I don't need to go to the hospital!" I said firmly.

"How can I do that? What if tomorrow is not good? I have to ask for leave again. I give you so much salary a month, but I don't want you to ask for leave!" The boss pouted, half-truthfully said, I really Speechless, he was still joking at this time...

"Okay, okay, I promise it will be fine tomorrow!" I forced a smile.After hearing this, the boss didn't force me, sat down quietly, stared at me, and suddenly smiled.

"What's wrong? What are you laughing at?" I asked suspiciously.The boss closed his smile, breathed out through his nose, looked into my eyes and said, "I found that you always smile every time, and I have never seen you laugh out loud!" I was taken aback, I didn't expect him to ask me this , Looking at his sincere eyes, I also smiled slightly, and turned to look at the already dark night sky outside the window. "Smiling is an etiquette in daily life, and it is a necessary courtesy. Of course you have to smile when you meet people. As for... laughing? Should you laugh when you are very happy? But... what's so funny? I don't have any I found out that there are things that make me happy and laugh, so naturally I seldom laugh. My life is very simple, that’s all.” After I finished speaking, I turned my head to look at the boss and gave him a different smile , I wonder if he understands what I mean.After hearing this, the boss was at a loss for words and didn't know what to say.

"Boss, it's getting dark, you should go back early! I need to rest early!"

I issued an eviction order.The boss listened and looked at me with wide eyes, obviously surprised by my words, then there was a silence, sighed softly, then turned around and held my shoulders, and looked at me affectionately "Then you should rest first! Call me if you have anything to do, you know?" I smiled and nodded at him, and he smiled too, patted my head, and got up to leave.

Looking at his back slowly leaving, how heartbroken I am, how much I want him to stay with me until the sunrise tomorrow, but I can't do this!I watched his back reluctantly until he closed the door, and his back was cut off at that moment...he left.I lowered my head in despair, hugged my knees with my hands, wrapped in a quilt, and quietly looked at the city and night sky outside through the window...

I drove him away, I think he understood what I said today, I gave up every last chance, and left no way out, I am very heartbroken, very heartbroken!Why should I do this?Why are you so cowardly?I love my boss, but I can't face it bravely. I can't grasp this emotion. Do I really want to watch him slip away?Just because of the damn ethics?Just because of his worldly ideas?I finally met my boss, but I was self-righteous and wanted to give up...

Recalling the scenes with the boss these days, they are all so warm.I still remember that dark street, our chance encounter, which sent me to the hospital, and the scar on my arm and elbow is still there.I still remember that every time I dined with you in a restaurant, you always made me laugh because of your ugly appearance, and you always smiled at me immediately afterward, which I will never forget.I still remember working with you every day, you can always find an excuse to grab my arm, and then look at me warmly, this seems to have caused a conditioned reflex, if someone grabs my arm from behind me next time Arm, the first thing I think of must be you.The most memorable thing is the night you were together, all my desires were inspired by you that night, and I completely showed my heart to you.How can I forget all of this?How much I want to go back to the boss's arms, hug him tightly, and never separate.But is it all over?Am I looking forward to the future?Maybe the boss listened to me and really gave up on me!The sweetness and beauty of the past, as well as the future development, may all be wiped out in an instant because of my decision...

Looking at the bustling city outside the window, the lights are bright, the traffic on the road is surging, the flow of people is endless, and the shops of all sizes are reflecting gorgeous lights.The colorful neon lights on the high-rise buildings kept shining, reflecting half of the night sky red.In such a noisy city, my heart is empty, and I only feel that my drowsy head has become heavier and more painful.Suddenly, tears rolled down my cheeks, and I cried!Today, six years later, I finally cry again!Tears kept pouring out of my eyes, as if my heart was bleeding, but I just didn't cry out... The night was so quiet, what was left was my cold heart...

"Beep beep!" Suddenly, the phone received a text message.

I wiped my tears indifferently, picked up my phone and looked, it was a text message from my boss! "Are you asleep? Kobayashi"

I was hesitating, holding my mobile phone indecisively, I have told you so much, why do you keep invading my inner world... Finally I replied a text message "not yet"

"Does your head still hurt?"

"A little bit, okay"

"I'll take you to the hospital to have a look! Don't let yourself suffer!"

boss!Why are you so nice to me?Are you still not giving up on me?do you still love meI really couldn't control the sadness in my heart, and the unbelievable tears poured down again.But I have already said what I said, so I am not allowed to change my words casually!I was cruel, and I replied to him, "No boss, it's not that serious. I'm already asleep. Good night."

Boss, thank you for loving me so much. I feel so blessed to have met you.Everything is my fault, I am cowardly, I worry too much, and it is you who are really sad and wronged!boss!Don't do this again, okay? I'm really afraid that I won't be able to bear it. How hard-hearted I was to say no to you so resolutely. You kept showing me your heart Heart, how can I not understand your mind?We are still just friends, okay, boss?

The night was very quiet, and with mixed feelings, I fell asleep deeply.When I woke up the next day, I finally felt much better, my headache was gone, and I became more energetic.Regarding emotional issues, let's not think about it for the time being!work hard!