blue marshmallow

I don't know if I'm dead or not, I just know that my body has become so light and light, as if it's about to float into the sky, I try to keep my eyes open, but the surroundings are pitch black, I can't see anything, what about Ah Zheng? What about marshmallows?I anxiously stretched out my hand to scratch around, and suddenly grabbed a warm hand, that hand gently held me, and gently passed on the continuous love like water to me, my heart melted in an instant, and my body It also softened and fell into the infinite tenderness. It was so comfortable. I closed my eyes and fell asleep contentedly. It turned out that death is so beautiful, and I began to like death!

Seven days later, I was willing to wake up from such a sweet sleep. When I opened my eyes, I saw Ah Zheng's haggard face and the dazzling stars shining in his bloodshot eyes. I blinked twice in a daze , One is because I slept for too long, my eyes are uncomfortable, and I can’t see things clearly, and the other is that I am not sure if what I see is a real picture.

"Xiang, Xiang, you're awake, you're finally awake." His emotional call made me burst into tears, I didn't die, I was alive again, it was he who snatched me away from death came back!

Before I could react, "Doctor, come quickly, he's awake," as Ah Zheng shouted excitedly, a group of men and women in white coats hurriedly filed in, quickly drowning Ah Zheng out of sight. I was so anxious that I wanted to raise my body and look around, but those people were trying to beat me up and down, and I couldn't move at all.

"Well, he has already passed the critical period, what a fate," the leader in the white mask said while turning his head. I knew he was talking to Ah Zheng, but I couldn't see my Ah Zheng, "But don't Too tired, you need to rest more."

As if they had received a signal from Ah Zheng, these people suddenly disappeared quickly, leaving only Ah Zheng standing at the door and me lying on the hospital bed in the room.

We stared at each other silently, with all kinds of emotions surging through our eyes. In Nuoda's ward, we could only hear the ticking of monitoring instruments and our unsteady breathing.

"Who cut your hair, it's so ugly," I chuckled softly.

He was so amused by my words that he burst out laughing, and the tears in his eyes also fell, "Who told you not to teach me, this is the masterpiece I have been busy for more than an hour." He smiled and walked to the bed and sat down, Put your head close and look at me stupidly.

I looked at him seriously, and stretched out my hand hesitantly to see if he had no objection. I carefully wiped away his tears. In my impression, this was the third time he cried in front of me. I swore in my heart that in the future I will never make you cry again, but, Ah Zheng, is there still that possibility?

"I..." There is no way to say a thousand words, I stood there with my mouth open, what do I want to say, if I really die, then I have already said what I want to say, but if I am not dead, then what can I say? say what?

"It's my fault, it's all my fault," Ah Zheng held my hand and rubbed it against his stubble-covered face, "Xiang, I shouldn't have said those words, I shouldn't have doubted you, Please forgive me," My palms felt wet, and my heart also wet.

I don't know whether he chooses to come back or stay with Ah Hang, I can't say anything, I can only watch him cry silently, I only have the right to wait, Ah Zheng, I am waiting for your sentence, whether it is I will gladly accept any result, because you are my king, and what you say is destined to be my fate, and I dare not and cannot disobey it.

Maybe because he couldn't figure out my thoughts, he looked at me who had been silent all this time, his mood became a little uncertain, and his expression became tense, "Xiang, Xiang, you said that you love me, right? ?”

I looked at him uneasy, nodded with my lips tightly pressed, I love you, I love you very much, but, do you still love me?Can you still love me?Did you save me out of kindness because you couldn't bear to see my dead body exposed on the street?

"Xiang, can you say it again? I want to hear it," he begged timidly, with unconfident eyes revealing in his anxious eyes.

Ah Zheng, I really hurt you deeply, tears flowed wantonly on my face, who said that only women are made of water?

"Zheng, I love you," I said as loudly as possible, my eyes full of affection, "I love you very much, I want to be with you, is it okay now?" I finally mustered up the courage to speak boldly own voice.

I don't want to wait anymore, I want to be proactive, I don't want to be a coward anymore, Ah Hang can fight for it, why should I passively choose to accept it?What have I gained by running away all the time?What did I bring him?I must not repeat the same mistakes this time, I have to control my own destiny, even if he refuses, at least I have fought for it!

2011年6月30日06时53分，灰灰离开我投入了蓝天的怀抱，祝福他永远幸福平安……