blue marshmallow

I suddenly turned my head to look at Xiao Rui, he was lying on his side looking at me, the room was dimly lit, I could not see his expression, only his eyes were sparkling and watery, we looked at each other for a moment, he approached me, Kissed my lips lightly, his lips were very soft, with a hint of boyish sweetness, my heart trembled, I opened my mouth slightly without any reaction, thinking in my head that he and Ah Hang are getting better, I Do you want to wait for him, do you want to persist for him, do you want to find someone to make out with and take revenge on him?

Seeing that I didn't object, Xiaorui raised her body slightly and lay down on me, closed her eyes, slowly traced my lip marks with her tender tongue, and kissed me wholeheartedly, "No," I turned my head hard, thinking to myself He yelled out of his mouth, he froze there in fright, I felt warm tears dripping down my face, "I'm sorry, Xiao Rui, I can't..."

"Brother Xiang, I was wrong, woo woo, forgive me," he let go of the hand that was holding me, fell on my chest and began to cry.

I rubbed his head, you and I are not wrong, how can it be wrong to love someone, we just fell in love with the wrong person.

"Don't cry, brother is not angry with you, ah, good boy, don't cry,"

"Really not angry,"

"Well," I lay down with my arms around him, and put my head close to him, "Go to sleep, dear,"

Once upon a time, he coaxed me like this when I dreamed back at midnight, I still love him, I can’t accept another relationship, let alone Xiao Rui, I can’t harm him, even if I’m asked to find someone to vent to, I guess I’ll do it No way, how can I tolerate and accept loveless intercourse after countless times of physical and mental communion with him?

As usual, the first day of the new year is a headache for me to visit relatives to pay New Year's greetings. I escaped with the excuse that I wanted to accompany Xiaorui. I took him to climb the back mountain where I used to play when I was young. The woods have turned into villas for urban residents, the rugged mountain paths have been replaced with asphalt roads, and the caves where the mountain residents shelter from the rain have also been developed into tourist attractions. The boundaries between cities and villages are becoming less and less obvious.

When we went back to sleep at night, Xiao Rui walked slowly to his room. I knew he wanted to sleep with me, but because of what happened last night, he was too embarrassed to bring it up again.

This child has been afraid of sleeping alone since his mother left. When he was at school, he was accompanied by his classmates in the dormitory. During the winter vacation, some students had to work part-time and go home late. Everyone lived in the same dormitory, and he didn’t feel uncomfortable. Lonely, it would be a bit sad for him to spend the night alone in a strange environment, why didn't I think of it yesterday?

I stretched out my hand and pulled him, "Let's sleep together from now on,"

"Can you?" He looked at me timidly.

"I'm your brother, can you tell me?" I winked mischievously at him.

"Brother Xiang, I promise I will never..."

I put my finger on his lips, "Shhh, stop here, don't mention it, let's go to sleep."

For me, Chinese New Year is better than going back to work. It’s not interesting at all. Fortunately, Xiao Rui and I have learned to drive during this holiday. This year is finally rewarding.

It turned out that my father saw that my mother's business was going smoothly, and he basically didn't need his help. In addition, several civil engineering projects had been developed in the town, the transportation was excellent, and the money was easy to earn, so he bought a micro He started to run transportation, and the construction site was shut down during the Chinese New Year. He was also idle. He heard that neither of us could drive, so he volunteered to teach us how to drive.

In fact, Ah Zheng taught me before. At that time, I had a ready-made, easy-to-use and free driver by my side, so I didn’t have the heart to learn it, so I was like a novice, starting from scratch with Xiaorui.

Maybe it was stimulated by the last time I saw Ah Hang driving him off. I studied very hard, and I will be on the road soon. The only thing I lack is experience, which takes time to accumulate. Xiao Rui also learned a lot Come on, my dad saw his two apprentices blooming in style, so he was naturally happy in his heart.

In a blink of an eye, the holiday was over, and I returned to the city I was thinking about day and night with my parents' thousands of reminders and instructions, but did he miss me? I finally accepted the fact that he will not come, but this does not mean that I will stop thinking about it. On the contrary, the closer the time is to go back, the more urgently I miss him, as if I can see him as long as I go back, in fact , The city is so big, the sea of ​​people is so vast, we only met three times after we broke up, and he didn't see me one of them.

It took a few days to get used to the post-holiday holiday syndrome, and I started the monotonous life of two o'clock and one line. The only pastime was to visit Xiaorui at school twice a week.

Xiaorui's school is in the suburban university town. I also came from there. I am very familiar with it. Every time I go there, I will tell him which one has delicious and cheap food, which one has the most handsome men, and where you can get free drinks. In short, it seems that I have returned to the carefree days of my student days. I only occasionally think of the experience of bringing him to play, but I calm down after thinking too much. It is not difficult to leave him, I Isn't that nice?Other than being a little thinner, a little messier, rarely laughing, and often being called a robot, everything is okay, hehe!