blue marshmallow

I knelt down and looked at the photos scattered on the coffee table and on the ground. Each of them was a group photo of me and Xiaorui, some were hugging each other, some were smiling and holding hands, and some were photos of us in Beijing. I sprained my foot and I carried him on my back. I remember that when I entered the hotel gate, he was afraid of being tired and I insisted on clamoring to walk by myself. This photo made my eyes widen. It was a photo of me and Xiaorui hugging and kissing. I don’t remember that we kissed. The photo was not very clear. I picked it up to get a closer look.

"Why, do you appreciate what you have done? Don't worry, I will give it to you as a souvenir."

"You..." I was so angry that I couldn't speak for a moment.

"You're right. Ahang told me years ago that you and Xiaorui had an unusual relationship, and showed me the photos. I don't believe it. I went to your house to pick you up during the Chinese New Year. You're fine, relying on my favor." You love you more, don't you?"

What, Ah Hang?My head buzzed and became big, he said I would lose Ah Zheng, he said he would not let go!

Years ago?Could it be?I looked at the photo carefully again, and I remembered that it was because I knew Ah Zheng had a wife and child and took Xiao Rui to drink with me that day. Drunk and kissed me?Yes, he said he liked me since we first met, and if someone I secretly liked was drunk in my arms, I'd take the opportunity to get fucked, oops, what's the point of getting fucked now The problem, it's important to do business, no, I can't let Ah Hang succeed, I have to make it clear to Ah Zheng.

"A Zheng, listen to my explanation, this is not the case, I, I, I..." I am a team that gets more and more confused the more anxious I am, although I usually have a poor mouth, but when it comes to serious matters, I get stuck. No wonder Ah Zheng made fun of my performance on the day of the interview, no, thousands of words were choked in my mouth, my head was in a mess, I just didn’t know where to start.

"Where did the money in the drawer go?" His tone was aggressive, and it seemed that the freezing three feet did not happen overnight.

I was shocked when I heard the money, "Hmph, don't tell me it's not for that kid, right?"

boom!Something is broken, I have been with him for more than a year, I have never considered whether we are a good match, whether I am a high climber, because I think two people love each other, and all other conditions are sidelined, I have never thought about myself It's just a big rooster, and when he met him, he flew up to the branch and turned into a phoenix. Besides, he never showed a sense of superiority in front of me, which made me ignore this problem all the time, but he mentioned money today, which made me I had to face this problem, I stood up and looked at him silently, I am a man, I have my self-esteem, I spend your money because I love you, you give me money because you love me too, but And now you're mentioning to me - I spent your money, that makes me feel so humiliated, I can't forgive it, never forgive it!

"That's right, I'm a flower, I'm just giving flowers to Xiao Rui," I started to sneer, and I could only sneer, Ah Hang, you're ruthless, it's impossible for me to be together with Ah Zheng at this point, he That sentence was too hurtful, and I was so desperate to save face, "You are so rich, right? If you have money, you can doubt me and find someone to follow me? Yes, I spent your money, but my mother Everything is accounted for, I will remember it for you, and I will return it to you!"

He looked at me with a livid face and didn't speak. I pointed at his nose and trembled angrily. Come to provoke me, are you sorry for me? You also said that you love me all your life, why do you love me, huh? You say, ha ha, you want to dump me, you don’t need to find any reason, you don’t need to find any excuses, it’s just that you are tired of me Do you want to be with Ah Hang? I will give you my blessing, and I will go by myself!"

I was so angry that I realized that what I said was too much after I finished speaking. Although he has a wife and children, he has always left time for me. Like splashed water, I really hated myself for being so slippery at this time, I didn't dare to look at his face, I picked up my bag and turned around to leave, the sound of him jumping like a thunder and smashing things came from behind.

Rushed to the quiet street at dawn, I wandered aimlessly, and walked to the riverside unknowingly, I sat down by the embankment, looked at the surging river in front of me, and tears rolled down my face.

What is this all for? It turns out that my love for him has always been conditional. It is because he deceived me, so I take it for granted that he should tolerate me endlessly, accommodate me, and not treat me the slightest bit neglect?How could I say such heavy words? Didn't I just push him into Ah Hang's arms? But how could he say he loves me, but at the same time he doesn't believe me, and even sends someone to follow me? What's even more annoying is, How can he blame me for spending his money, he can't treat me like this, I have accepted that you have a family, I have given in again and again, why do you still treat me like this!

I don’t know when the sky started to rain. I sat on the ground crying and crying. I guess someone would be shocked if someone came over. Fortunately, the light rain soon turned into a heavy rain. This time I don’t worry about scaring others, because the whole I am the only one left in the world. Realizing this, I am even more sad. Why is it that I am always left alone in the end?why?Is it because my chromosomes are different from yours, is it because I am a gay looking for true love, is that sinful?