blue marshmallow

My mother was naturally overjoyed to see me come back. She notified all the relatives who did not communicate with each other from all over the country. My house set up running water mats, sending off and coming again. Of course, there are many matchmakers who come to propose marriage.

I was so annoyed, originally I wanted to go home to have a quiet time, but seeing my mother proud of me and blushing, she boasted about how promising I was, and opened up the world with bare hands in the big city. I can't help but feel ashamed.

Back then, in order to avoid my family’s opposition to me staying in the city and not going back, I made up a lie, saying that I worked as a department head in a large company, and after working hard for two years, I could be promoted to be a department manager. A person who hates lying so much also lied in order to achieve his own selfish goals, so there is a bottom line in everything, it is just to see whether it is worth it, there is no absolute right and wrong, only the interests of the time and place.

After a few days at home being manipulated like a puppet by them, I finally calmed down, not because everyone was gone, but because I was sick.

I don’t know if it’s lovesickness or not, but anyway, I’m exhausted, have a low-grade fever, have no appetite, can’t sleep at night, stare at my big eyes until dawn, my heart, eyes and head are all about him, my Ah Zheng, I’m leaving Are you going to let me go?

I don’t understand why my mother is so happy about my illness. She told me with great interest that I must owe her care. She acted like a baby when I came back, and said that whenever I was sick when I was a child, she would cook for me. The sugar water will be fine once you drink it. The sugar water she said is the exclusive secret recipe of unknown herbs and rock sugar boiled by her. She also said that when I was young, I often pretended to be sick in order to drink more of her exclusive secret recipe. Holding the medicine bowl in pain, it's worth me pretending to be sick to drink it, I guess I'll spit it out after drinking it!

It wasn't until I drank her medicine that I didn't get better for a few days, that she stopped her beaming expression and changed it to an anxious and nervous one. At that time, what kind of swine flu and SARS still had a heavy shadow in the hearts of ordinary people. She They started lobbying me to go to the hospital.

I won't go to the hospital unless I die, this is what I told myself when I pulled out my tooth last time, so I won't go to the hospital even if I die, even if my father persuades me.

I’m afraid they’ll worry, who told me that I’m the only seedling? I reasoned that I was tired from work some time ago, and this time I went home because the company asked me to take a vacation and recuperate. As a result, I would only get sick if they made a fuss. I rested quietly for a few days. As for why my mother’s medicine didn’t work, my explanation is that after eating countless antibiotics, Sudan Red, trans fatty acids, dioxins, tainted milk powder and various genetically modified foods, my body’s structure has changed. It is very different from when I was a child, and I have developed a strong drug resistance. My mother wiped her tears and felt guilty. I was secretly happy, and now I can be quiet for a few days.

He calls me every day, and often sends text messages. Sometimes in the middle of the night, he will receive text messages from him, saying that he can’t sleep and misses me, but I haven’t actively contacted him. I couldn't help myself getting deeper and deeper, and I made up my mind to leave him on the car back.

I am timid, and it is very simple to think about problems. The standard of measurement is the things that make me happy, so I will do them, and I will give up the tangled things that are not happy.

I started to play the pursuit game with him, I was very happy to enjoy it, so I continued to play, and later he said that it was really fun, he was very involved, and I felt happy, so let’s really play it, but now I know he has a family Lah, his so-called business trip and busy work are all because he has another home to take care of. Although I know he is very attentive when he is with me, I don’t want him to make it difficult for me. How can he talk to his wife and children? Say, he can't go home to accompany me?

He was not a person of the way, maybe I brought him down, I should not have fallen on him that day, and later I should not have applied for a job at his company, and later, I should not have gone out to look for a job in the rain, I I shouldn't have brought him home, I shouldn't have seduced him, oh, yes, he should have seduced me, right?

However, all of this is not important, I have already figured it out, I will not be happy with him like this, the simple me needs a pure love, pure trust, and a simple life, even if it is ordinary, but It is real and reliable, within reach, such a fairy-tale love that is out of reach is not suitable for me.

Looking back on our relationship which is as unreal as a Korean drama, I feel like I am watching a movie. I don’t want to find out that I am the protagonist of the tragedy when the show is over!

With my cold response, his phone calls and text messages also decreased. Did he also find that I was just his wrong choice when he was impulsive?Does he have a little heartache?That is inevitable, Ah Zheng, you are different from me, you will get better soon, forget about me soon, return to your family soon, and return to normal life, and me, don’t worry about me, as long as you are well.

I was getting weaker and weaker, and I could force myself to go for a walk by the river, but now I have to stand up and go to the toilet, I have to sweat and be exhausted, but I still gritted my teeth, and my mother started crying Please, my dad also prepared the scooter and said that he would drag me to the hospital. Looking at the white hair on their heads that seemed to appear in an instant, my eyes were wet with tears, maybe I really wanted to die like this Drop it, but I can't, I can't leave while they're alive.

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