blue marshmallow

I didn't go to work with Lu Youshan that day, because Brother Long came to pick me up early in the morning, and he promised me to take me to see Xiang Yun when I was well.

"Brother Long, why did Yu Wenchuan want to harm Xiang Yun? He is Xiang Yun's cousin..." This question has been in my mind for several months, and I have never had a chance to ask him.

"Our parents died in the same accident. He probably always believed that my father caused his parents to die innocently and made him an orphan. Although we grew up together, his hatred for us is something that I have recently experienced. Only then did I know that he was hiding too deeply. I had already found out that he was playing tricks behind the scenes when I missed the deal last time. Don't let it go!"

"Brother Long, can you...can you... stop selling drugs." I felt uneasy, what position do I have to ask him like this.

"I think Xiang Yun also wants to say this to me, that's why he used his own drugs to get revenge on me," he sighed, "I also want to quit, but...some things are involved, and it's hard to get rid of in this life , but Xiao Xiang, I promise you and Xiang Yun, I will try my best to quit, but it will take some time."

We were not talking along the way. In fact, I didn't want to make the atmosphere dull, but I couldn't find a suitable topic. Fortunately, he also felt that the atmosphere was a little bit wrong. He turned on the stereo at the right time, and the soft piano music quickly filled the car The gap inside drives away the heavy air.

After getting out of the car, he opened the trunk, and inside was a large bunch of bright yellow chrysanthemums. The light and shadow produced by the sunlight on them made me dizzy suddenly.

"What's wrong?" He looked up at me with concern.

"It's okay, it's just...it's nothing." It seemed that I remembered something, and a similar scene seemed to appear during the period when I was forced to take drugs, which made me suddenly feel very uncomfortable.

Seeing that I was fine, he picked up the chrysanthemum and walked forward. The staff in the cemetery he met along the way all got a pack of cigarettes and a card of four old men.

I silently followed behind him, watching his firm steps, straightened back, and an unusually peaceful heart. During my detoxification period, he should have come out of the grief of losing Xiangyun, Xiangyun, you You should also rest assured that the person you love will live well, because he is strong enough.

Brother Long bowed and put the chrysanthemum in front of the tombstone, and reached out to touch Xiang Yunhanxiao's face, my heart throbbed, and the picture of our past relationship came before my eyes again, it's really hard to believe that we can never see each other again in this life See, the eyes are wet unconsciously.

"Xiaoyun, I'm getting married."

"Ah!" I exhaled in surprise, realized that I had lost my composure, and quickly covered my mouth again.

"You know Xia Chuchu." After speaking, he fell silent, his broad back looked a little gloomy and sad under the sun.

After a long time, he turned around, "We made an appointment that when I get married, he will be my best man."

"Oh."

"Would you like to replace Xiaoyun as my best man?"

"Ah, of course I would, but I haven't done it..."

He came over and held my shoulders, "You just need to stand by my side."

"Ah."

The way back was even duller than when he went there. He didn't turn on the stereo, and seemed to enjoy the oppressive atmosphere.

"When is the wedding?" I couldn't take it anymore, I had to say something.

"The tenth of next month."

"What gift do I want to give you?" I have always disliked the red tape of reciprocity, but Brother Long got married, so I couldn't slap him empty-handed.

He parked the car on the side of the road, holding the steering wheel with both hands, his eyes seemed to be looking ahead, but he didn't seem to be looking at anything.

"Brother Long..." I was a little worried, and called earnestly, but he still didn't respond.

I lowered my head and snapped my fingers, my heart was in a mess, my nose was sore, and I felt the urge to cry, it was strange, just now in front of Xiang Yun’s tombstone, I held back my tears, why am I about to cry now? Am I really so dull?

"Xiaoxiang..."

"Ah..." I promised not to look up, for fear that he would see the tears welling up in my eyes.

"Let me hug..."

I looked up at him in panic, thinking I had heard wrong.

He was still facing forward, as if the person who spoke just now was not him, but his chest was heaving violently, and his face was full of tears. I couldn't hold it back any longer, and cried "wow" for no reason, and he also turned around at the same time, tightly Hold me tightly in your arms.

I don't know why I'm crying. He's about to get married and has his own home, and there are people who care about him and worry about him. I should be happy for him, but there's an unspeakable pain in my chest. I'm going to lose him, he is no longer the brother Long who cares about me, it's childish to think like this, maybe there are some other thoughts, I don't realize it myself, but all the emotions come together to form a feeling It's just uncomfortable.

I don’t know if you have ever encountered such a situation. When your best friend and classmate get married, while you are happy for him, you will also feel sad and lost. It’s not because you are unhappy, but because you are afraid of changes that will happen in the future. , haunted relentlessly by the feeling that he will never be the same again.

Brother Long, did you cry when you thought of Xiang Yun, who was not by your side during the most important and happiest moment in your life?

"Xiao Xiang, we will live happily ever after, trust me!" He let go of me after saying this, and wiped away my tears with his rough hands.

"Yeah." I was a little embarrassed about my inexplicable crying, but it must be embarrassing for him to burst into tears, so I raised my eyes to look at him when I thought of it.

We looked at each other, read each other's eyes, put our heads together and smiled knowingly.

Yes, as long as you grasp the present seriously and believe in the people and things you believe in, no matter what the future will be, at least you will be happy now!

After switching to a new server, the pictures couldn’t be uploaded. I tried a few times but it didn’t work. Alas, I just drew a picture of Jinghu and Naoe.