blue marshmallow

I ran along the dark coastline, the soft sand under my feet was like a scarred heart, recording the footprints of my messy journey, not knowing right or wrong, not sure about the direction.But when the tides come and go, the sandy beach will return to its smooth appearance, and my heart, she is already full of holes and dilapidated...

I stopped suddenly, staring blankly at the surface of the sea with a touch of moonlight, could my heart be as pure as before after being soaked by her?

I tentatively walked forward, felt the coolness on my bare feet, and my calves slowly satisfied my desire... until the sea water overflowed my heart, I closed my eyes and raised my head, stretching my arms to the silent night sky, feeling the cold pressure from the Attack me from all directions, please use your strength, please use your strength to drive away the timidity, cowardice and those unspeakable sorrows in me...

Suddenly the direction of the water was changed, and the pressure tilted uncontrollably. I swayed a few times with the waves and fell backwards. Could it be that I am too filthy? Do you want to clean my whole body?

The back unexpectedly leaned against the strong chest, and the waist was also surrounded by strong arms. What a familiar feeling, hallucination, definitely hallucination, how could Ah Zheng appear here?God must have pity on me and let him comfort me, right?

I closed my eyes, I didn't want to move or think, I just breathed slowly and felt quietly, but how could the warm breath and rhythmic heartbeat be fake?

I closed my eyes and turned my head. It’s okay if you don’t see me. Kiss me, Zheng, I miss you so much!

I kept the posture like this, as if I had waited for centuries, until a tear from the corner of my eye fell down my cheek and was kissed tenderly by him. I turned around abruptly, wrapped my hands around his neck, and fell on his shoulder and wept bitterly.

At that moment, love, hatred, hatred, I don’t care about anything. If a wave hits us and drowns us, I will smile and go with him without regret. Whether it’s self-willed or irresponsible, I’m really tired. ...

He patted my back lightly and didn't say a word until I stopped crying and we stood quietly in the dark sea and embraced tightly for a while, then he took me slowly back to the shore .

We sat on the beach wet, I didn't dare to look at him, and I didn't dare to speak, I was afraid of hearing the news that I couldn't accept, and I was even more afraid of facing the dilemma. At this moment, I knew that I had always been a coward, I always want to shirk responsibility, always hope to get away with it by luck, now that the situation is imminent, there is no escape, I see my ugliness clearly, I want to tear up this ugliness, Zheng, help me!tell me what to do!

"Brother said that my father was not in good health, so I came over to have a look, and by the way, I attended a client's reception. I didn't expect to meet you...I'm sorry..."

I know he is explaining to me why he and Fang Weichen are together. I admit that I am a little concerned about their appearance at the same time. Although you are brothers, you, your brother, used such despicable means to hurt us back then. , you don't mind, but please at least consider my feelings, and, how can you make yourself so thin!

"Well, it's okay, it's all over."

"are you OK?"

"okay?what is goodWhat is bad?Can you be more specific?

"Is Lu Youshan good to you?" Ah, is this your specific?

"Okay...very good!" I didn't know why I answered this way, and I regretted it after I finished speaking.

He smiled softly, but he couldn't tell whether it was happiness, helplessness, or self-deprecating.

"Are you... and Ah Hang... okay?" I asked cautiously, afraid of getting an affirmative answer, and even more afraid of getting a negative answer. You'd better not answer me, to see how hypocritical I am!

"what……"

What kind of answer is this?Good or bad, together or not?I turned my head to look at him, and his handsome face was also turning towards me in the night, his eyes shining brightly pierced into my heart, "As long as you live well, I will be at ease."

"Bullshit!" I pushed him violently. I admit that I am very contradictory now. In short, I am angry. At the beginning, you said that it was for my own good, and you gave up the pain caused by our relationship without asking for my opinion. Haven't healed yet, are you going to take another pinch of salt now? "What do you care about? Ah? Tell me, do you still have me in your heart? What am I in your heart? If you want it, you want it, and if you don't, just throw it away?!"

"Xiaoxiang, calm down, what do you want me to do? Do you want you to leave Lu Youshan and come back to me now?" He who had always been calm suddenly became very excited.

"Can you say it? As long as you say it, I will do it!" I looked straight at him, with an inexplicable sense of arrogance surging in my chest.

He looked at me for a while, then lowered his head and smiled, "I wouldn't say that, and you wouldn't do that, I understand you."

I held my breath and stared at him, suddenly discouraged, yes, he knows me too well, I don’t accept other people’s favors easily because I know I can’t afford it, but once I accept it, I will pay it back a hundred times and a thousand times go back.

Lu Youshan's sincerity to me, I'm afraid I will spend my whole life repaying it, so Ah Zheng, how about you?How can I repay you?

"What do you want me to do, Ah Zheng, what do you want me to do, tell me, you tell me?" I felt like I was going to cry for nothing again, in front of you, I never had so many scruples, My true nature is only for you.

"Xiao Xiang, don't cry, let me hug you." He smiled and opened his arms to me.

I cried and threw myself into his arms, "Zheng, I'm afraid, I'm afraid..." But, I don't know what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid I love you too much, I'm afraid I don't love him, I'm afraid I don't love enough You, I'm afraid I can't love him, I'm afraid...

"Don't be afraid, Xiao Xiang is good, Xiao Xiang is not afraid...be obedient, love him..."

I froze in his arms, my heart hissing and hurting, I couldn't stop beating his chest with my fists, "Bastard, you bastard, I hate you, I hate you..."