our psalms

The child didn't answer, he looked so childish and scared, looked at Uncle He and me, lowered his head, gasped deeply, and ran out suddenly without saying a word.Leaving Uncle He and I surprised eyes.Uncle He didn't go into it any further. After all, it wasn't something he wanted to care about. While wiping my nosebleed that was still gushing out, he held my pulse tightly with the other hand and observed it attentively.

"You know, you can't be so excited in the future, you must not!" His voice was very small, but every word he said was very clear and serious.I looked over his head, smiled at him, and nodded.He patted my head with his hands, but he couldn't smile, he bit his lips tightly to try to look calmer. "You know, as soon as you feel something is wrong, you must notify me immediately, you must inform me immediately."

I smiled and continued to nod, looking at his deep and sad eyes, no one understands how fragile my life is, even myself, better than him.When all the sins fall peacefully, I would rather choose to forget than to ponder and fear, but whenever Lao Cao's tired smiling face appeared in my mind, I was so unwilling and so painful.

"I'm leaving here with my dad." When I said this, Uncle He's eyes became more puzzled and confused. He stared at me intently, and it took a long time before he spoke, " Leave? Where are you going?"

"A place where nobody knows us, he said," I said.

"But what do you do, he still doesn't know about your affairs?" Uncle He looked anxious, when he saw me nodding my head slightly and answered him yes, he suddenly stood up and said, "You can't do this , I have to tell him, it’s for your own good, you know, it’s definitely not the way to go on like this!”

"No, please, Uncle He!" I grabbed his hand and begged, "Don't tell him, I don't want to see him regret, cry, or despair, at least , at least in my last limited life, bring him happiness, okay?"

Uncle He's arm began to tremble, and suddenly, a crystal drop fell on my hand, and I knew it was Uncle He's tears.His words were frozen by the inexplicable touch, and he was stunned.I stood up and hugged him vigorously, and when my tears welled up from my eyes, his shoulders were gradually wetted.

"Thank you, if I hadn't met you, I don't know what would have happened to me. Thank you for letting me go back to my father, so that I can find his love, so that I can... take the last happiness Bring it to him. Really, thank you..."

I felt Uncle He's trembling hands gradually lifted up, hugging my waist.He said in a choked voice: "I have lived for most of my life, but I have never seen a child like you. You really moved Uncle He so much. I don't really understand it, but the only thing I can be sure of is that it is really great, very great..." After finishing speaking, he turned around and walked slowly towards the door. "Why are you so stupid? Although that thing can change you back to your original appearance, it will also kill you. You are still very self-willed. You never asked Lao Cao. What he wants is your appearance. You still live well!"

Looking at Uncle He's back, I sat heavily on the sofa, recalling all that, recalling how I was so persistent in wanting to return to my previous appearance, to return to Lao Cao, but would I lose him forever?

There is no worth or not, only willing or not.

I engraved this sentence deeply in my mind, supported my smiling face firmly again, and embraced the world that belongs to me.Only when I lie in his arms can I feel my real existence, and only in the environment of his breath can I breathe freely.

When he came home at noon, when he learned all this from me, he suddenly hugged me very hard, and kept saying sorry, sorry.Making a final promise, it won't be long before he can take me with him, nothing like that will ever happen again, he promises.And I just keep smiling, I know that such a smile will make him stable and reassure him, because I know that he is most worried about me.

"Cheng'er, you have become stronger than dad can imagine!" He said, "Actually, you should know a lot of things. It's my fault. I still treat you like a child, right?"

"Don't talk about it, uncle!" I shook my head, "It doesn't matter, it's over, isn't it, we won't be affected by those things, I want you to be happy, don't think about anything, okay?"

"But for me, the most important thing is that you are happy, kid!" He said seriously, "I thought this kind of love between comrades would never be so sincere in this life. I have been discouraged. God always likes to make such jokes. First, Xing'er, but his understanding of love is too selfish, and after meeting you, I realized that it really exists, it really exists..."

"say no more……"

"No, after listening to Uncle, that child is Uncle's fault." Lao Cao looked straight into my eyes and said without reservation, "That was 7 years ago, right? At that time he was 17 years old... "Old Cao's eyes were full of sadness one after another. When those memories came to his mind, he always looked so remorseful and helpless...

Seven years ago...

At a crowded intersection in Shanghai, a little boy in a white shirt and shorts sneaked in front of a police car parked on the side of the road.With the mobile phone in his hand, he looked at the middle-aged man in the car who was also holding a mobile phone and wearing a uniform and smiled at him. There was no mistake, it must be him.

He opened the car door tremblingly, and when he sat in, even his voice seemed weak and frightened, "Hello, I..."

"What are you afraid of, little thing, take it easy, uncle is a policeman, not a bad guy, haven't you seen it?" Although Lao Cao was nearly forty years old at that time, his youthful, restless atmosphere could still be seen It is vividly reflected in his body. "Don't you like uncle, think uncle is too old?"

"No...it's not!" said the little boy nervously, "You're fine... you're beautiful..."

"Hahahaha... Is this really the first time you've seen such a person?" Lao Cao asked in a questioning tone.The child nodded. Judging from Lao Cao's professional observation of people over the years, the child did not lie, and it was even obvious from his flushed face.

The car drove slowly and stopped at the entrance of a mid-range hotel.The child followed Lao Cao obediently with his head down, looking at everything around him in fear. Lao Cao took his hand and walked into the hotel. At that time, his face turned red again.

"Don't be afraid, take it easy, okay?" Lao Cao said with a smile.The child also smiled, but it was so reluctant and dry, "I'm not afraid, hehe, how can I be afraid..."

After entering the room, he still looked very reserved, and sat obediently aside, quietly watching Lao Cao close the door wearily.Lao Cao sat beside him, the child smiled nervously at him, Lao Cao seemed a little impatient, put one hand on his shoulder, and said, "It's just the two of us now, Don't be so cautious, okay. Didn't you always say on QQ that you want to be with your uncle, no, it's really together, happy?"

The kid nodded sheepishly.Like many comrades, although I learned about these things from the Internet or other channels at first, and learned what I wanted to do and what I should do, but when I was really on the scene, I was helplessly cramped.

"Uncle, isn't this your first time?"

"of course not."

"How long will you stay in Shanghai?"

"We have to go back after the meeting, so we have to cherish this precious time!"

"Hehe... yes... yes..."