our psalms

Lao Cao rushed in from the hospital gate in a hurry, panting while running.He rushed to my ward as quickly as possible, only to see a few nurses tidying up there, and the sheets and quilt covers had been changed.He called my name and looked for me in the hallway. When I came out of the bathroom, I changed my clothes with a smile on my face, "I'm here, uncle!"

I saw that heavy back slowly turning towards me, I smiled and looked at him smiling sweetly.I saw his tired expression gradually stretched out, and tears welled up from his eyes all at once.He smiled with tears and laughed happily.

"You...you finally changed back, finally recovered...Cheng'er..." He couldn't restrain the excitement in his heart, and hugged me into his arms with sobs.Yes, the former Prince Cheng came back. After removing the bandages and washing all the blood stains in the bathroom, I fell silent when I saw the restored skin and face. I never thought that I would really... Changing back to the way it was before, I thought it would be worse, I thought God would not give me back all the things I took away, even if it was the same, when I can stand in front of Lao Cao normally and see his past joy And excited, I'm really happy.He kept touching my face, with a look of surprise and joy, afraid that the smooth skin and pretty face were just things in his dreams, when I reluctantly held his hand and told him He hurt me, but he still couldn't calm down, so he changed his other hand and began to pinch my arm, "Is this true, Cheng'er, is it true..."

"Of course it's true, Uncle!" I stretched out my smooth palm and gently wiped the sweat on his forehead, "I'm fine, Uncle..." At that time, I had never seen him look so excited, He hugged me tightly, then let go, looked at my face, and hugged me tightly again, in this cycle, that kind of power made me faint and intoxicated.

Uncle He is also standing on the other side of the corridor at the moment. He is silently watching the pair of father and son embracing each other. In his heart, he can finally accept that kind of feeling calmly, and finally he can face this kind of feeling squarely. It really exists.Unknowingly, tears flowed from his eyes.When he finished removing the bandages all over my body, before I entered the bathroom, he said a word: "I really didn't expect, Zicheng, you are such a handsome guy..."

In the bleak cold wind, at the gate of the hospital.Uncle He bid us farewell, looking at the back of Lao Cao and I going away, Uncle He looked at the dark sky and sighed a long way.God, why did you let such a good child bear all this, what did he do wrong...

Sitting in Lao Cao's car, looking at his happy expression, my heart has not been settled like this for a long time. I really hope that it will be like this, forever, and nothing will happen again. What is life and death.Just looking at him and smiling, watching the whole world run peacefully.But I know that is no longer possible.I am not happy or sad because my appearance has changed to the so-called handsome or ugly before. I just want to know how I can always be by his side. How I wish I could be by his side Anything in his life will never change, just like the handsome uniform he wears, which accompanies him all year round, even if he can't move or speak.But this is such a luxury for me.

In the evening, he took me to the place we used to go to for dinner. The sound of the running water was still so familiar on the quiet riverside. I still remember that time, he naughtily handcuffed me and his hand tightly Together, but also told me that this will never be separated.Now, after more than two years, everything seems to be as clear as what happened yesterday. I really want to be like what he said, forever locked together and never to be separated again.

I know, he won't do such boring things again.After dinner, we took a walk along the river. I am not an old man who has returned from the outside world, but I still feel that in just over two years, too much has changed, and it is too fast.The only thing that remains the same is that the hand they are holding is still so rough and strong, and still so warm.

"Cheng'er, after a while, Dad finished his work and quit his job. Would you like to walk with Dad and leave together?" He suddenly stopped and asked me seriously.My face suddenly became stiff and uneasy. I knew what he was promising at the moment. He really wanted to let go of the whole world. He never joked with me. .

"You..." I was speechless, I was moved and shocked, "Uncle..."

"What's the matter, Cheng'er, don't you want to?"

"No!" I said aloud, "I want, I want, I really want to, Uncle, but..."

"It's nothing!" Lao Cao said firmly, "It's really not easy in a person's life, and there is only one sincere feeling. Dad is old, and I don't want to live this life with regrets. Maybe it's selfish. Be so selfish with Dad, okay?"

When Lao Cao, who has always been so steady, mature, and serious about things, actually said such words, apart from being shocked and moved, I really couldn't find any words to describe the overflow in my heart at this moment.I cried and nodded to him with tears, "Uncle, I promise, I promise you!"

The days go by like that day by day, but I know there will never be that kind of happy reunion ending.When I look forward to the beautiful future, I can't help crying.While wiping tears with a tissue, he sat in the empty room, waiting for his return.Looking at everything in the room, everything filled with his aura, I feel very reluctant to let go.Bright red blood sprayed from the nostrils, and it penetrated the white shirt on the chest. I can't forget what Uncle He said to me at that time, and I can't forget the final, truly cruel fact.

"Child, there is one thing you must know, must... No matter what you will become in the future, the poison in your body has spread, there is no way to cure it, do you understand what I mean, your life It's already very dangerous, forgive Uncle He for his incompetence, okay, forgive Uncle He..."

I seem to always see that shadow in a white coat sitting in front of me and crying helplessly. He told me to tell the people around me, especially Lao Cao, not to have any regrets and to live happily every day. one day.But he doesn't know that my biggest regret is that I can't accompany Lao Cao, let him stay alone in this place, and let him cry heart-piercingly.This is what I am most afraid of and least willing to see. I know that when I leave, the most painful person will definitely not be myself, but my favorite Lao Cao.When he vowed to be with me forever, I hesitated, because I didn't have that qualification at all, because I didn't have the blessing to be with him forever.I don't want to tell him, I don't want to reject him, I want to see him happy and happy in my lifetime, is this selfish, maybe God changed me back to the way I was before, just want me to say goodbye to him, but how can I I can't even imagine how painful and crying he would be at that time. When I think of this, my heart hurts one after another.

Thinking about it, I threw myself on the sofa and cried loudly again.Such a posture can only be revealed when Lao Cao is not around.When I heard the crisp knock on the door, I quickly suppressed my tears, wiped my eyes and stood up.When I opened the door and saw Uncle He, my tears fell again.

"What's wrong with you, tell Uncle He, what's wrong?" He hurriedly helped me sit back on the sofa, but I couldn't tell what was wrong with me, I just told him that I really don't want to leave this world very much, I really don't want to leave this world very much. I don't want to leave Lao Cao.

Apart from turning around and sighing, Uncle He rubbed his eye sockets with his hands.He didn't say anything, just put a bag of medicines in front of me, "These medicines must be taken on time, you know, every day..." As he spoke, his voice became choked Get up, "Why are you so stupid, is your love with a man so much older than you really so unforgettable?"

I nodded, nodded seriously, and picked up the medicine, "I will take it, I will definitely take it, Uncle He, maybe I won't die, right, I will finish taking these medicines seriously, and I will cooperate with you. I will do any surgery and treatment, I will never be willful again, I will not be willful... okay..."

Hearing what I said, Uncle He cried louder and louder. While wiping my tears, he shook his head helplessly. "I can't lie to you, and I won't lie to you, child, all of this is your choice, isn't it? Do you regret it, but regretting is useless."

"I don't regret it, Uncle He, but I'm really scared. Leaving Uncle this time will be forever. I don't want to, I really don't want to at all." Seeing how sad I was crying, Uncle He's heart was broken, He stood up and said three words to me seriously, sorry.I can still hear a whimper coming from his throat as he leaves.I think there is no more real voice than this.