our psalms

When I woke up, my whole body was wrapped like a mummy.Only the slits of the eyes were left, and the weak and tired eyes looked out through the white bandages, and I saw the sour and painful tears of Lao Cao.He didn't realize that the person lying beside him had woken up, just crying secretly.Even though my whole body was hot and painful, I could still clearly feel that my firm belief was never missed, that he loved me, and loved me deeply.At that moment, I felt so happy and happy.

I gently grabbed his hand with my clumsy bandaged right hand, and at that moment, he turned around, looked at me carefully, and cried out ecstatically, "Wake up, he's awake, doctor!!! I was moved by that anxious and joyful look, and the saliva sprayed from his shouting mouth drew a beautiful arc under the light.That was his smell, a smell I am all too familiar with.

I've been in a coma for days and I don't know it.This is what the doctor told me later.Uncle He's expression was always so nervous, but now, he seemed a little arrogant.Carefully mixed the water and the finely ground medicine powder, and fed them into my mouth bit by bit. Lao Cao saw it in his eyes, but felt pain in his heart.

If he leaves me, he can find his own world, so why not.Why time and time again, Lao Cao can't get out, and I still can't get out.When Han Yongzhe came to my hospital bed with flowers and wished me a speedy recovery, I thanked him gratefully.When Lao Cao sent him out of the ward, I sat up and looked at my reflection on the glass window, what would become of me, what would I have, what would I get, what would happen in this life.I looked at myself, but I thought about Lao Cao, but I began to think about what is his happiness.

"Sorry, I didn't help you!" Han Yongzhe said apologetically to Lao Cao while walking in the corridor of the hospital.Lao Cao smiled wryly, and said to him, "I don't blame you. In fact, I'm really touched that you can do this this time."

"I thought that such deep feelings no longer exist in this world, but unexpectedly..."

"Appeared unexpectedly on two men?" Lao Cao laughed, "I don't know what is the reason why you have lost confidence in everything, this child, in fact, in this world, you have not seen There are more things."

"What I'm saying is true……"

"I know it's true, I really love Cheng'er, to me, he is my whole world!"

"What I'm talking about is... I really want to be someone else's world..." Han Yongzhe suddenly looked at Lao Cao with an extremely confused gaze, "I have always been a tool used by others. I have no father or mother since I was a child. I was adopted by others, and then went back to my country on the road of circle. In my life, everything about people is involved by countless interests. I finally want to believe, and when I finally feel that this is the truth, you appear Yes, I never thought of betraying Ouyang Qing, because it is a lot of money, which can have a lot of benefits, but I don't know why, that night, watching you call Wang Zicheng's name woke up many times, Watching you look at me in surprise, watching you feel guilty and crazy..."

"Stop talking!" Lao Cao suddenly interrupted Han Yongzhe, "I'm sorry for you, really, after all, I still did that kind of thing, and you still help me like this...I don't know what to do..."

"I don't blame you, Uncle Cao..." Han Yongzhe didn't know when his smile became so pure and sincere. He looked at Lao Cao and said, "This may be the biggest gift in my life, please don't treat it as a gift anymore. Why is it wrong, okay?" After listening to his words, Lao Cao felt a numbness all over his body. Many times, many emotions, he could not choose, he should choose, but once he chose, he thought he would know what to do. How to do it, how to maintain it.But at this moment, he suddenly looked very confused and confused.

"I hope you can have a good time with Wang Zicheng and don't hurt him anymore. It's pointless to do that kind of thing. The only way to protect him is to stay by his side." Han Yongzhe said seriously.

"But..." Lao Cao sat down helplessly, "he can't get happiness with me... all he gets is hurt again and again, those people, I don't know what else will happen, I don't want him to be happy again Because I get hurt. Really don't want to."

"Ouyang Qing, I will find a way. You have to cheer up. Your Cheng'er needs you now, really needs you."

"I don't know what kind of tricks she will use, really." Lao Cao said very dejectedly, "She can do anything to me, but I can't let her hurt Cheng'er again, I finally ruthlessly I made up my mind to scold him away, but I didn't expect him to be so strong, such a strong child...why."

"Actually, you became strong in the end, didn't you?" Han Yongzhe said, "You promised to leave with your ex-wife and daughter and live in peace, but you still didn't do that in the end. I know, that's not What is the perseverance of being a people's policeman who is not afraid of anything, but you really, really care about him."

"You?" Lao Cao looked at Han Yongzhe in surprise. He had never tried it before, and he was thinking of being seen by a stranger like this.But this boy did it. He thought that only his Cheng'er could do such a thing, but he didn't expect that there could be others.

"Don't run away anymore, no matter what difficulties you have, let's face them together. I will always silently support you." Han Yongzhe said firmly, "But I... hope you can remember me, no matter what time, remember me I, a child who is grateful to you for giving me happiness." Han Yongzhe turned around, Lao Cao couldn't see his deep and melancholy tears, this is the first time that this big star boy who has no desire for anything I deeply felt the unspeakable pain when I want to let go of the things I love.

"Will I still be okay?" I often ask Uncle He like this, "What will I look like?" I can see the disgusting green color of my body through the gaps in the bandages. I am afraid, really Afraid, afraid of going through those years with the one I love, I am just a monster who is by his side.Uncle He was silent, always shaking his head at me impetuously, until Kuang Li came in, he left indifferently, leaving the whole room to us.More than once, I persuaded that girl not to come, to give up, and there will be no more love in my life as she talked about, never will there be.I know there is nothing more cruel to her than this, but her persistence also shocked me.

She always brings a lot of food, but it will never be KFC or McDonald's, which she used to love most. She learned Baotang by herself, and often asks her mother for advice, and always hides it Her mom brought these things to me.Because for her mother, and even for anyone in her family, the groom who abandoned her at the wedding is the most evil person in the world, even if there is such a "retribution" as it is now Got it, of course.

I still can't move and it's been over a month.I still can’t move. For so many right and wrong, this girl who used a spoon to drink soup for me in front of me knows nothing. She still thinks that I’m ugly because I’m inferior, because I don’t want to let me down because I’m special. She became special, looked down upon and ridiculed by others.I simply thought that my indifference was only for her.But whenever I think about it, it's all because of a kind of selfishness. Although some people have said that love is inherently selfish, but when it is really selfish, the degree is so deep.I didn't want to feel sorry for her, not at all, I spit out the soup she fed, and suddenly told her frantically, just like Lao Cao did to me that day...

This scene was seen by Lao Cao Quan, who suddenly opened the door of the ward. Seeing Kuang Li running out with tears of grievance, and seeing me sitting and standing on the hospital bed, panting heavily, he fully understood, what to do? This kind of hypocrisy is so uncomfortable, so painful.He didn't say anything, just walked up to me and sat down, he knew that at this moment, I needed his shoulder...

Now, there are more and more people who care about me, more than I can imagine.When Cao Wenxi's mother appeared in a certain corner of the hospital, she was so inconspicuous, but what she wanted to do, maybe only a genius really knew.But what is certain is that she will not let me go, and will the sky not let me go?

She handed a large bag of banknotes wrapped in an envelope to a doctor in a white coat, and that long-lost, dark smile appeared again.

"So, he may have skin ulceration all over his body?"

"Yes, Ms. Ouyang."

"That would be worse than anything?"

"It's like the whole body is burned, it's extremely disgusting."

"Hahaha, I don't believe it, Brother Yong will still..."

She smiled wildly and looked at the boy standing by the door outside the window, very delicate and handsome