our psalms

I can doubt and give up the whole world, and I can walk out of any haze with style and grace, because those are not the things I need to live, except Lao Cao.In fact, when something that you have longed for for a long time actually appears inadvertently, all you can do is to guard and trust it.Although there may be no reason or reason, life has been inadvertently drawn into a straight line, and at the end of the straight line, there is only that familiar shadow.He is the goal I want to live, struggle, and pursue. No one or anything can stop me. This is an irresistible force.Whether the so-called is evil or just, he only belongs to me!

He must not be so cruel to me, he must have his own difficulties, he must be crying in pain now, thinking of this, my heart really hurts.He needs me, and I have to come back to him, no matter what.The star and Cao Wenxi's mother, saying that I have no combat power, is really wrong.

"Hahahaha..." I stood on the edge of cowardice and persistence, watching the things that slowly passed by, I took out the bottle of blue liquid and filled the syringe.Looking at the blue ripples and Kuang Li's desperate eyes, she asked me, "What is that?" I just smiled and said, "It's happiness."

She just looked at me blankly, watching me stab the needle into my arm, watching the blue liquid slowly inject into my body.When the last laughing tear rolled down my face, all I could say was: I really love you, Uncle...

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"Uncle loves you too, Cheng'er!" Opening his eyes, the burly shadow standing in the sun smiled at me, bent down and kissed my forehead. "Uncle went to work, breakfast is ready on the table, you can only sleep until nine o'clock at most, otherwise the meal will be cold, you know my dear." I smiled and nodded, and straightened the tie of his uniform.Touching his face, "Uncle, come back soon..."

Time, how much time has passed, if this is the end of everything, then it doesn't matter.Standing in front of the mirror, the young and energetic face showed a smile, maybe Wang Zicheng is not the most handsome, maybe I can’t compare with that star named Han Yongzhe, but this is what Lao Cao wants, this is what Lao Cao chose, He makes me happy, he makes me happy, he makes me happy, everything is perfect.

When Uncle He knocked on the door and came in, he was still carrying a large bag of medicines as usual, and his camouflage satchel was filled with such and such western medicine boxes.

"Daddy's breakfast, porridge, do you want some Uncle He?" I said to Uncle He who was sitting tiredly on the sofa while scooping up the contents of the pot with a bowl.He smiled wearily, "I've had it a long time ago. I got up at six o'clock to exercise and run, and I ate soybean milk and fried dough sticks at seven o'clock. I brought the medicine for this month. You must take it on time, I don't know." Did you finish eating on time last month?"

"I've taken it." Under Lao Cao's coercion, I did take the medicine obediently and on time every time.

"Then I don't worry, with Lao Cao here, haha, you won't be crazy."

"Hehe, thank you Uncle He!"

"I didn't expect it." Uncle He suddenly said thoughtfully, "I hardly recognized you that day, I mean, you recovered, I never thought that that Prince Cheng, it turned out to be so Handsome boy."

"You're making fun of me again!"

"I'm telling the truth, Zicheng..." Uncle He was about to say something, but he hesitated, "I never believed in love between the same sex before, really."

"Why did you suddenly think of saying this?" I put down the chopsticks in my hand and said, "I actually don't know. When I did a lot of things, I didn't know why at the time. When I calmed down and looked back, it was already like this."

"I just...forget it, hehe, are you really going to leave with Lao Cao?"

"Yes what's the matter?"

"I'm just asking, then I have to prepare your medicine, it will take a lot..." Uncle He's eyes suddenly became a little disappointed, "A lot..."

"Uncle He, I will come back to see you..." I went to sit beside him and hugged him tightly. "Thank you, if it weren't for you, I might be dead."

"Zicheng, you're right. There are many things that I don't even know I've done. When I look back, it's already like this." With tears in his eyes, Uncle He said, "How long will it be before Lao Cao can finish his work?" After handing over the things on the board, when he is finished, where are you going to go?"

"I don't know, and he didn't tell me. He said he was going to a place where no one would know us. No one would find us."

"Will there really be such a place? Hehe, Uncle He is also yearning for it." Uncle He looked at me with an indescribable attachment, "Uncle He doesn't know what to do, he is suddenly sad..."

"No need to do this, Uncle He, I..." Such a sad atmosphere made me suddenly feel sad, "I will never forget you, never will."

"Have you ever thought about Lao Cao, in the future, he will leave this world before you!"

"Let's talk about it when the time comes. It's really scary for me, so scary that I don't want to think about it!"

"Do you still remember what Han Yongzhe said that day. In fact, what he said was not wrong at all. No one lost in all this, and you didn't win. The final result will eventually be ... despair."

"I don't care anymore, Uncle He. You should understand what uncle means to me."

"When he's gone, you must still remember Uncle He, okay?" Uncle He couldn't help but burst into tears, "If I'm still alive at that time..."

"Uncle He...what's the matter with you today..."

"Zicheng, why?"

"what why?"

"Why did you kiss Uncle He that day? Was it really just to stimulate Lao Cao?"

"Uncle He..."

"You tell me, you know, I've..."

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I had already collapsed, and my whole body was exuding extremely high heat. At that time, Kuang Li picked me up with crying and carried me across the street corner and the busy crowd. I could still hear her shouting for help. The voice, so weak, so helpless, standing in the middle of the crowd, people coming and going, why are you so indifferent, so indifferent