our psalms

Only those who are deeply in love will understand that when you love someone, he really becomes your whole world.In this world, you will change because of his emotions, and you will be happy, sad, sad, and cry with him.When Lao Cao told me that night that I was his whole world, while I was deeply moved, I was also deeply affirmed that he was also my whole world.

I was also led by Lao Cao out of the gate of the detention center amidst the ridicule and scolding of the prisoners who were serving their sentences and the police who respectfully pointed at their boss, Lao Cao.The one-month and five-day prison is over, but sometimes I think of it, these days are the most peaceful time in my life, I can see Lao Cao going in and out of work every day, and I can see him beating me every day. With caring and loving eyes.All of this is the most real, and the least likely to change due to any external factors. I even thought crazily that even if I was locked up here for the rest of my life, as long as I could see my beloved Lao Cao, it would be a great happiness. Bar.

Going out of this world, even though the people in this world can't fully tolerate such an old and a young, at least no one dares to question and blaspheme Lao Cao's rights here.And when we really come out, what are we going to face, what kind of hardships and dangers are waiting for us behind Lao Cao’s contentment and smiling while holding my hand tightly, I really want to promise him, Fly away with him, but I can't be so selfish, I don't want him to give up his world for me, his world is so clear and thorough, no one has the right to deprive it, including me.All I have to do is to defend all of this for him...

Tears rolled in Cao Wenxi's eyes, completely different from the unrestrained and crazy girl I saw at the beginning.Standing in the court at this moment, when the judge declared her innocence, she suddenly looked so pitiful.From that moment on, I never thought about asking her why, because I understood better than her that the real culprit, besides me, would be anyone else.

Outside the high walls of the courthouse, she took my hand.It's so warm and so real.

"Forgive me..." Her smiling face was very gentle, but with tears, "Brother."

"I... my sister..." I didn't know what words to use to express my feelings at this moment. I seemed to tell her that everything was my fault, but at this moment I didn't have the courage to express my love even though it was well known in the world. true.The only thing I can do is to smile at her from the bottom of my heart.

Lao Cao stood silently at the side. Perhaps at this moment, his heart was churning more than anyone else, and his hidden thoughts were deeper and messier than anyone else.

"Let's go home, children..." Lao Cao smiled and took my hand, and I stretched out my hand to hold Cao Wenxi. The expressions of the three of them were so stiff at the moment, like friends who had just met.She smiled dryly, but was more sincere and relaxed than ever.

Lao Cao made a lot of delicious food, a member who celebrated this time at home, a rare member.He even happily opened a bottle of red wine that he had stored for a long time and poured it for me and Cao Wenxi.

"This first cup is for family affection!" Lao Cao said simply, and the three of them drank it without any objection.

"This second cup is for reunion!" He drank it down again.

"This third cup, for the future, forever..." He wept, and when he drank the third cup of wine, his eyes were red.Cao Wenxi couldn't help but turned her head and took out a tissue to wipe it.It seems that there is only me, like a wooden man, because the happiness at this moment is really a luxury for me, and I don't want to leave regrets and tears in such a beautiful moment.And at this moment, I don't have any reason to let my tears flow out.I know that they were moved to cry, and more, seeing my body and appearance, heartache and guilt.But I am really happy and satisfied. After experiencing so much suffering, I find that the happiness that is already lingering around me is more real and rare.It's like eating a mouthful of honey after a bitter medicine, which makes people feel endlessly beautiful.Maybe I have really grown up, no longer willful, and know how to cherish.This is what Lao Cao has always wanted to see. I think he should be happier.

I ate a lot this meal and drank a lot.I was hot all over, and lay unconscious in Lao Cao's arms.Cao Wenxi quietly covered us with a quilt.She walked to the balcony alone, already very drunk, but after picking up the phone and pressing the number, she cried loudly to her mother on the other end of the phone.

"I was wrong, Mom, I was really wrong..." She sat on the cold floor, tears streaming down her face, "I understand, what is love..."

"Love... child, do you love your uncle?"

"I don't even know that question myself, Mom."

"You love him very much, Wenxi. So does mom, but what mom didn't expect is that your uncle..."

The other end of the phone was visibly sobbing too.

"You did the right thing, kid. We have to help him. If I lost to a woman, I wouldn't regret it at all. But, now, your uncle will destroy himself, do you understand?"

"Mom... I've worked hard, but I'm at a loss."

"Don't be confused, Wenxi, it's easy to see what's right and what's wrong. We can't give up, we must save your father!"

"How to save it?"

"Of course you can't do those stupid things anymore, child, it takes your mind. Mom will return to China in a few days. He is your uncle, and even the man that mom loved very much. We can't watch him put himself It doesn't matter if you destroy it, right?"

"Um……"

Time has never forgotten to pass, just like the years have never forgotten to leave a mark on Lao Cao's face that has experienced enough vicissitudes.When I slept with him, when I woke up in the middle of the night, when my hand touched the warm and moist tear between the wrinkles on his face, all I had was infinite heartache.

"Uncle, why are you crying?" I asked him, although I didn't want to ask, but I really wanted to know.

"Uncle didn't cry." He was still trying to hide it, although his hands holding me were tighter, but I could still feel his inner struggle.

Sleeping with a young man who is terribly ugly, I can imagine that although he doesn't care about that at all at the moment, when he thinks of the joy and happiness that I brought him when I was intact, he must feel Very unwilling, very disappointed.From the moment he hugged me tightly and cried, my heart was bleeding.