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When the crisp gunshot sounded, the moment I turned my head, a blood red sprayed between my eyes.

"I... really... love you very much, Uncle..." These were Yang Xing's last words, blood poured out from his forehead, he smiled and fell down slowly.Lao Cao held me tightly with trembling hands and slowly released them. Two drops of tears fell from his eye sockets and gently fell on my cheeks.He walked over slowly and hugged Yang Xing. I stood aside blankly, watching him with a look of despair and collapse.

"Why...why..." Lao Cao asked over and over again, but Yang Xing in his arms had not moved at all.

I slowly lowered my head, who does this moment belong to.What I never imagined was that the moment I met Lao Cao would be like this.My heart was twisted like a knife, and an inexplicable guilt slowly surfaced in my heart.

When we saw Cao Wenxi again, we were all sitting in the inquiry room of the police station at the same time.She didn't seem to want to say anything to me. When the truth of everything finally surfaced, I was shocked when everything happened because of her.Lao Cao stood outside the transparent glass window, looking at us expressionlessly. What is he thinking at the moment, I really want to know, can he forgive "us"?Cold handcuffs were shackled between Cao Wenxi's weak hands. She raised her head, smiled at her father, and followed the policemen out of the detention center without changing her expression.

"I'm sorry..." She turned her head and said to her father.

Lao Cao's tears flowed slowly, he nodded to his daughter and wiped his eyes without saying anything.

Is everything supposed to end like this? Looking out of the iron fence window and the cold walls around, it seems to be swallowing up my last attachment bit by bit.What exactly am I looking for, I started to ask myself blindly again, is it Lao Cao, or endless hatred.In the detention center, I'm tasting what I, or someone else, has sown.The death of Yang Xing brought everything to an end, and Cao Wenxi could not escape legal sanctions. I will always think of the moment when she stood with me and was handcuffed, her eyes, unwillingness and despair.It seems that to her, I am her end, her end.Until now, I still don't understand why she hates me so much.When I knew that everything was controlled by her, I didn't want to believe this cruel fact several times. I wanted to ask her softly why she hated me so much.But seeing her helpless and resentful eyes, I really couldn't speak.

This has been the tenth day since I was detained for the crime of private use of firearms, and I still haven't seen Lao Cao.Thinking that I will spend the rest of my prison life in this place for more than a month, what I think of is not fear or despair, I only think about Lao Cao, how is he now, he must be immersed in boundless pain and cannot extricate himself , Can he find a way to save his daughter, that way, at least it can make him feel better.

I suddenly felt that I was so hateful. If I hadn't appeared in the first place, Yang Xing's return might have been the beginning of Lao Cao's eternal happiness.But because of me and hatred, everything has become different. I began to miss the past, when I was a simple boy who knew nothing, and when I and Kuang Li kept bickering, and I remembered When the old man Jing Xiaodong kept telling me the truth, he thought of Lao Xie, Lao Jiang, and Uncle Tian... thinking about it, his head started to feel dizzy, I still hope that I don't understand anything, A child who knows nothing.

I lay on the hard bed, looking at the light coming in from the window, and fell into a deep sleep.

"Cheng'er..." In the middle of the night, I was awakened by a deep sigh, and saw myself lying in Lao Cao's arms, and he was smiling at me, a very natural and relaxed smile.It's been a long time since I saw him smile like that.He finally came to see me.

"You are my whole world!" I felt his embrace more and more forcefully, I couldn't say anything, all I could do was to shed tears of happiness and emotion.

"If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have endured these hardships." Lao Cao said while weeping, and he gently lowered his head and kissed my forehead.The moonlight outside the window shines into this small room, and I really feel that the person holding me at this moment is the person who has been driving me crazy and decadent, making me miss and yearn for me, the one I love the most people.From this moment on, I don't want to think about anything. From now on, no matter who is right or wrong, there will be no right or wrong. No matter what kind of disaster I encounter, as long as I am by his side, I will never be afraid of being with him again. Fear.

I reached out and touched his face, "Uncle, we will never be separated again, okay?"

Lao Cao kept nodding his head, "Uncle has been looking for you for a long time, do you know that uncle has been looking for you very hard, do you know? I don't know how happy you can show up again. Even though all this happened, uncle still love you so much."

"I'm sorry, uncle, I'm sorry..." Hearing what Lao Cao said, I burst into tears.

"Uncle doesn't know you are enduring such a great ordeal, uncle is really heartbroken..."

"It's all over, uncle..."

"Can you forgive your sister?" Lao Cao hugged me, "Forgive her..."

"I won't blame anyone anymore, Uncle..." I said.

"Uncle is also sorry for her." Lao Cao sighed and said, "I divorced her mother when she was very young. Going home, for work, or something else. Do you understand? Cheng’er, she almost never feels father’s love from me. That’s why she has that kind of character. Now that she’s grown up, I want to make up for it, but I don’t have it anymore. That ability, she is my uncle's daughter, and my uncle loves her very much. But you, my love for you, Cheng'er, I'm afraid I will never be able to change it. I really love you, Cheng'er!" He said , Tears kept pouring out of my eyes, I understand that what this person hugging me is enduring is beyond what I can imagine.Everything I have experienced is nothing at all. I still can't change me, a willful young man who doesn't understand the world. !