Bear Love◇Paradise Station◇

My favorite wife:

Forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye, because I have AIDS.

I can only blame myself for being too ignorant to suffer from AIDS. As for how I contracted it, I don’t want to tell you.These days I have been insisting on wearing a condom because of this, I am very careful, you will be fine.

I love you, and will always love you, please know this!

Originally, I wanted to cherish the days before the onset of the disease and live a good life with you for a few years. Unfortunately, during the last trip, as you know, I had a low-grade fever. After I came back, I went to see my personal doctor. The situation no longer allows me to continue to be by your side Well, I need to go to therapy, and that means I can't be by your side.

I don't want to think too much about the result. Maybe the treatment won't work. I will fester and die like those people who take drugs and get AIDS. Although under good treatment, the probability of this happening is not high, but I don't want you to see When I look like me, I don't want you to watch me slowly waiting to die, so I made a decision - to leave you.

Actually, in high school, from the first time I saw you, I fell in love with you.Haha, you were stupid and didn’t know anything at the time. At that time, I already knew about gays and bears, so I harassed you and flirted with you every day, hoping that you were also gay. At that time, I even prayed that you were also gay. I really bad...

I have to admit that maybe it is because of me that you became gay. Being gay is hard work, which hurts you, so I think there is karma in this world. God made me suffer from this disease in order to punish me. Don't blame anyone.

I was really happy in high school, at least I was able to see you every day, seeing your shy expression when I molested you, seeing your seriousness when studying, and seeing your grateful expression after being rescued by my hero. These are the most precious things to me. memories.

It's good to be young, but youth is very short.In a few years, when we all get older, we will miss our youth even more.I am glad to have met you, met and fell in love with you.If the day I grow old, I will say with no regrets, "Ye Zhen and I had the youngest time!"

The meeting between me and Marc was unexpected. If he hadn't appeared, I would have been very happy with you, and I wouldn't have this death-like disease.But in the end it was because of me, because of my wrong approach, that you were hurt.I'm sorry for ruining our pure love, but you must know that since I met you, I think about you all the time, before, now, and in the future!

I know you like to sing, although the idea of ​​being a singer seems a bit unbelievable to me, but I support you very much, people live to do what makes them happy, besides, it is worth encouraging to do what you want to do while you are young , I may not have this kind of courage when I get older, so you have to remember, I support you and always support you!

I didn't expect you to accept me this time. I thought that I would just sneak a glance at you and die quietly. It seems that God still has pity on me.During these days, I am very happy and happy. I feel at home when I am with you, as if my life has a goal again. Whenever I am full of ambition, I will think of my illness again and feel very lost again, but I I always hope to be with you for a longer period of time, one more day is a day, I want to love you well, and I try my best, I hope you feel as happy as I do during this time, that's enough.

I know Zuo Ming very well, I can trust him very much, he will love you well, promise me, live a good life with him, and forget me slowly, okay?

Marc should give you the passbook and real estate certificate. That is the 1000 two million I left you. Don’t worry, this money is nothing to my family. Don’t do what you did last time!At least this money can guarantee that your life will not be a problem in the past few decades, so I can rest assured. Please understand my painstaking efforts and accept it, okay?I have changed our house to your name, anyway, you can handle it yourself.

Wife, you must be very sad at this moment. I'm sorry, I said I wouldn't make you sad again, but I didn't do it...

No one knows where I've gone, please don't look for me, I'm a patient who is dying, just treat me as dead, just like your song "Heavenly Station", "Leave Tired of the world, the train took me to the happy world."When I die, I will bless you and guard you at the station of heaven. At that time, there will be no more sorrow.

Show me a smile, okay?Don't be sad, you have to be strong and live happily!promise me!

I love you!

love your husband stay

2007.10.27