Bear Love◇Paradise Station◇

I don't know how I spent the days after Zhao Xiaoyu left.I was like a walking dead, with erratic eyes, sometimes smirking, and sometimes crying bitterly.Zuo Ming has been by my side all the time, afraid that I might not think about it and do something stupid, yes, I know it's all because of me, and the idea of ​​committing suicide appears again and again.

The murderers were arrested by the police, and they confessed to Liu Tao. Liu Tao could not escape legal sanctions, but no matter what, he couldn't change my Zhao Xiaoyu. He really went to another world.

November 11th was the day when Zhao Xiaoyu was buried.In the gray sky, it seems that God is also regretting this young life.

Zhao Xiaoyu's parents, Marc, Zuo Ming, and Wang Boyi, all appeared at the funeral.Zhao Xiaoyu's mother fainted several times from crying, but my tears have already dried up. Looking at Zhao Xiaoyu's innocent smile in the photo frame, my heart was broken over and over again.

Relatives and friends walked around Zhao Xiaoyu's body one by one. He just lay there peacefully, still so U, so beautiful!At this moment, he should be in heaven, right?When it was my turn, I rushed to Zhao Xiaoyu's body and cried bitterly, hoping that he could hear my voice, regardless of the obstruction of the people around me. This is the last time I saw him. Zhao Xiaoyu, can you hear me? ?

During the burial, no one made a sound, the silence was terrifying.Snowflakes began to fall from the sky, Marc walked slowly to the grave, and said softly:

Don't stand at my grave and weep please don't stand at my grave and weep

I am not there; I do not sleep. I am not here, I am not asleep

Iamathousandwindsthatblow, I am the breeze that blows

Iamthediamondglintsonsnow, I am the diamond of light

Iamthesunonripenedgrain, I am the sun in the ripened grain

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awake in the morning'shush

Iamtheswiftupliftingrush I am the moment a bird hovers and flies away

Ofquietbirdsincirclingflight.

I am the soft starlight at night. I am the star in the night sky

Don't stand at my grave and cry, please don't stand at my grave and cry

I am not there; Idid not die. I am not here, I am not asleep...

I looked at Marc silently, his round face could not hide the deep dark circles under his eyes, he noticed that I was looking at him, he pulled me aside, and said: "Ye Zhen, Xiaoyu made a decision, But I didn’t expect to end my life early in this way, he asked me to bring these to you, you take them.” After he finished speaking, he handed me a bag, and then said: “Here is also a piece of paper I wrote to you. Letter, I ask for your forgiveness. I hope you can think about it, this is a kind of relief for Xiaoyu."

I'm not in the mood to listen to what he said, just hug this bag tightly, this is the last thing Xiaoyu wants to say to me!

Zuo Ming has been standing beside me, he said softly: "Xiaoyu, I hope you can live happily in that world, don't worry about Ye Zhen, I promise you!"

I looked at Zuo Ming, and lost my voice and felt pain again. Zuo Ming gently stroked my head and let me cry on his shoulder.

Zuo Ming sent me back to the place where Zhao Xiaoyu and I lived. I asked him to go back, but he refused because he was afraid that I would do something stupid. I understood his painstaking efforts, so I didn't say much.I know this house will make me sad all the time, but I still can't bear to leave here.Although the days when we were really together with Zhao Xiaoyu were very short, those days were happy, never-before-seen happiness. There are shadows of our past happiness everywhere in this room, and it seems that we can feel Zhao Xiaoyu's breath when we touch every place.

I opened the bag, and there were three letters inside, one from Zhao Xiaoyu to me, one from Zhao Xiaoyu to Zuo Ming, and one from Marc to me, as well as a passbook and real estate certificate.

Zuo Ming opened the letter addressed to him, and the letter reads as follows:

Good brother Zuo Ming:

Remember when I said I'd introduce you to a bear you're guaranteed to like?Now I want to introduce Ye Zhen to you, I hope you will like him~haha, didn’t expect that?

I have AIDS. The incubation period is three to ten years. I seem to have developed it earlier. I can no longer give Ye Zhen a happy life. I hope you understand!

I have known you for so long, I believe in your character, and I also believe in your feelings for Ye Zhen. I know that you will treat him very well, no worse than I treat him, so I entrust him to you. The most assured choice.

I'm sorry, I thought it would be good to see him silently, but he bumped into me. In fact, I've been very guilty of you these days. Haha, you are very suitable, but I came to make trouble Come on, don't be angry with me!

I'm sorry for Ye Zhen, he did something very bastard back then, and he should hate me.When I knew I was suffering from AIDS, I knew that I would never have the chance to make up for him in my life, and all I could do was beg his forgiveness.Thank God, he forgave me, I really have no regrets, although the time I lived with him was very short, but I was satisfied, really satisfied.

I will no longer have any contact with Ye Zhen, time will dilute everything, he will forget me, and I will find a quiet place to spend the rest of my life quietly.

Hope you take good care of him, I'm sure you will!

Zhao Xiaoyu stayed

2007.10.27

When Zuo Ming read this letter, his tears couldn't stop streaming down on the letter paper one by one, and then he lay on the bed and cried loudly, "Xiaoyu, Xiaoyu! How could you just leave like this! Ye really needs You! We all need you!" He kept pounding on the bed, venting his emotions.

I didn't know what to say, so I slowly took out the letter Zhao Xiaoyu wrote to me and opened it.