Nana

I went to Hubei for the Spring Festival. Just like when I first arrived at my sister’s place, I was not acclimatized on the first day I arrived in Hubei. I was lying in bed feeling exhausted and didn’t want to eat anything. I had a lot of candy in my pocket and didn’t have a single one. I moved, I told Nana that I was not feeling well, and she said that when I came back there would be a gift for me, she immediately felt much better.

I like all the places where it snows, I think it’s amazing, my hometown is frost at most, I hope to live in places with snow for the rest of my life, but the doctor told me it’s better not to go to very cold places, that’s all, just look at it good.

I was wearing a black dress and a black coat on New Year’s Day, and there happened to be a wedding banquet here, so I had to close myself in the room to warm up by the fire that day and almost escaped the smoke. Looking back, I feel so ashamed.

After I went back, I told Nana about it and she didn't laugh, so I patted my head to let me not be entangled.We met on the bridge that day, the wind was quite strong, and our hair was blown around without any sense of beauty. Fortunately, the atmosphere was not too bad. At this time, Nana took out a pink heart-shaped box with two rings inside. She gave I put it on and I put it on for her. There was no sweet talk at the time. I went to see the ring with her, but in the end I chose it and didn’t know which one to choose. I didn’t buy it at the time. Why did she suddenly buy a ring? In fact, when she came to me after being hurt by her boyfriend N times before, I asked if she wanted to date me. She didn't have a definite answer but she didn't object. Then she bought the ring as soon as I came back. Even if you agree, right?

How should I put it, I was so happy that I was about to fly, I wanted to laugh but I wanted to cry even more, I was very touched, this shows that she loves me, the ring on the ring finger and full of love.

At this time, I really want to ask, Nana, should I come first or him first?

Of course you, fool.Get an affirmative answer.

I laugh and kiss you.

Nana, you have always pampered me, you have satisfied me with all the pampering I did not get from my relatives.

We don't have anyone right or wrong, only who loves whom more.

You don't mention anything about your boyfriend to me anymore, does that mean you love me more.

A new job will start soon. I am much more cheerful than before and have a few good colleagues.

Later, my sister also worked here. One day, my sister told me something that I found very interesting.

She said that every time a man talks to you, I will always look at you very unhappy, and then a man talks to me, and you will do the same.

We both care about each other and don't want others to get close, a bit selfish but cute.

I'm sorry, Nana, actually I played a little tricky, remember that male colleague who kept pestering you for your phone number?You chatted with him so happily, I was so angry.

I came half an hour earlier to pick you up because I wanted to chat with you for a while. You kept chatting and I couldn’t get in. Later, after you came back from work, that person kept coming for a stroll. He likes to tease me but he doesn’t talk to me. I chat like you, I don’t want him to be so close to you anymore, so I took the initiative to talk to him, he is very nice and a very nice person, he likes to call me Huamao, after you left that factory, he is the best to me That person, he often asks me for a hair root, I ask him what he does, he says to slap his ears, what does that mean?

If he talks to me, he won't keep looking for you. I can refuse to chat with him at any time but you can't seem to do it. You won't talk to me as soon as you talk to someone else. I hate this.

It is also very happy to have Nana at work every day. When we meet in the morning, I will secretly kiss her when no one is around. She used to be very happy, but I don’t know when she was embarrassed, and I followed suit.

I started to have some thoughts again, suspicious.

Are we dating?I ask her.

You are still young, I don't want you to bear this, there will be a lot of pressure from all aspects of this society.she says.

I smiled and said to her, anyway, you like me and I like you, it’s fine, right?

She was silent.

Why did we have a problem again, and there was a problem before there was a dispute, and it was just her unilateral emotion that affected me the most.

Nana, we don't need to get married or have children, and you don't need to be responsible to me. What pressure is there?

I've been waiting for you to move out, say goodbye to the man who hurt you, I've been waiting for our future, I've been waiting since you said you love me.

Everything was messed up, and before I could sort out my emotions another thing happened.

There is a girl in the factory who is about the same age as us. She has a very straightforward and generous personality. She didn’t like me before and she can’t say she likes me now. She has a good friend like Nana and I in the factory. Their friendship has really reached that Kind of like a homosexual realm.

I don't understand, they wear the same rings, they also take intimate busts, and they get tired of being together every day, but the girl said to me in a very bad tone like scolding me: gay.

I began to understand the seriousness of the matter. I said that I am not gay, and neither is Nai Nai, as long as we have a good relationship.

The girl said you guys are gay anyway, it's disgusting.

In fact, I have no confidence to refute at all. I feel that I am really gay. Bisexuality is like an excuse for myself and there is still a chance to redeem it. But homosexuality can only feel like this. It would be like calling someone gay. Similarly, I can't stand that tone, I guess I'm guilty of it, although I always deny it, but I still think about it very seriously in my heart.

I asked Nana, are we gay?Are we gay just because we like each other?

Nana just said something that has always been said before, I don't want you to bear these pressures, it is very difficult.

Is it difficult?Okay, if liking Nana is gay, then I am, so what if I am, I just love her.

Well, I'm gay, and it seems to have been foreshadowed from the beginning, and I just deny it myself.

At first, I just had that feeling that I could be forced to deny by myself. I thought I couldn’t be gay, it was too sudden, but in the end I was gay, and I was very happy that I fell in love with Nana.

Nana, maybe you are not Les, but what does it matter, I love you and you just care about me.

But you must never tell me that you just want to have a deep friendship with me, but it will become like this if you accidentally ambiguous, I will go crazy, for a woman who has decided that she will always be Les, You can't bend me and say no it's not love, I'd be crazy.

But I don't want you to accept me because I love you so much because you pity me, so I will go crazy, I hope I didn't force you, after all, I just hope you can be happy and I can always be with you.