Nana

I especially like the feeling that when the car enters the tunnel at night, it will be dark for a while, and then it will be illuminated by yellow street lights. The car stopped at a place to eat at about twelve o'clock in the evening. I didn't eat anything and looked for toilets everywhere. , to be honest, I was still a little flustered when I was in the car. There were a few uncles lying on the right, front and back of me. I was wearing fashionable shorts and shorts. Although I had annoying acne on my face, how do you look at it? They are all young and invincible silly girls. I hide when I see someone staring at me. I also fell asleep in a daze for a while, but I couldn’t fall asleep at all in the middle of the night. I ate white rabbit candy and looked out the car window. After a phone call and a text message, I was afraid that I would be kidnapped. Now that I think about it, she didn't sleep that night.. I was really stupid, and I didn't say a word of thanks.

It was already five or six in the morning when I arrived at my sister's place. My life in this province has officially started, but the days are too long and there are too many stories. Now let's skip all the unpleasant things that happened in the middle and go straight to the time when I met Nana .

After a few months of playing around, I found a job, lied about my age and said yes, took my sister's ID card and registered at random, and started to work.

If you want to ask why I don't say which province it is, actually, I don't like this province, but what happened to me doesn't mean that this province is like this, so I won't say where it is.

The people in this place are relatively indifferent and look down on foreigners. Although this phenomenon also exists in my hometown, there are still some politeness, but here it is obvious that other people’s tone and expression are tired of foreigners. It's not my problem. I always work more and talk less. At that time, my colleagues who worked together thought I was dumb. The work in the factory was not very easy. The day and night shifts changed like this, once every seven days or once every three days. I can’t remember either. I’m not happy anyway. There are very few people in the factory. They are all women who like to gather around and say bad things about others, men who want to have sex with the girls in the factory every day, and the smiling tiger management. The most impressive thing is the gentle proprietress and Shorty Boss.

Smiling tiger management is the person I hate the most. I scold her in the space every night, and she makes things difficult for me every day at work. I laugh at me, and I don’t care about those people. I do my thing and take it seriously. Really work, although they don't want to see me, but the lady boss likes me, she probably knows that I must be fine, oops, I guess everyone knows, the lady boss always gives me snacks and fruits, and teaches me a lot of things, But at that time, I suffered a lot of grievances, and I was bullied a lot. I will speak up, some people will scold me, and some will scold me. I guess I hate my baby voice. By the way, my baby voice was very powerful then. So powerful.. like five or six years old?You can probably guess what they said about me, ah, it’s a good pretense, what a disgusting voice, what a pretense to be cute, verbal attacks and cold violence have no actual harm to me, although it will still be sad, after all, I’m only ten years old. Children of five or six years old.

In this way, I have been working in silence until the day Nana came to work here. The factory worked very hard and the workload was heavy. Many people resigned, so that the proprietress had to find some relatives to work, and Nana was one of them... the son of a relative. Girlfriend, although there are many bad things in this factory, the lunch is still delicious. The rice is steamed with rice and a lunch box. The dishes and soup are made by the proprietress' mother. He said that the cooking was delicious, and he and Nana also met at the dinner table.

I was in that year, it was very popular and non-mainstream, I didn’t keep up with the trend, every day at work, my body was covered with engine oil, my clothes were dirty and my face was dirty, so I didn’t have time to dress up, but Nana was different, she knew how to dress herself up, It’s a little unorthodox. Now everyone seems to be disgusted with unorthodox, but it will be unconventional. Nana had a flower bud and wore a very unorthodox hair accessory that day. At lunch in the factory, she Sitting across from me, that was the first time we met.

In the morning, I heard that there was a newcomer in the factory, but I didn’t pay much attention to it. It’s none of my business. I thought to myself, but I was a little curious in my heart. From what they said, I felt that she should be a beautiful woman.

I guess my sexual orientation is a bit bent. Although I didn’t like women from the beginning, I still fantasized about marrying Prince Charming when I was young, but I didn’t really want to fall in love with men, and I didn’t want to chat with men. At that time, men in the factory often asked me out, and there were always boys whistling to me on the road. Even if I went to the small shop downstairs to buy something, I would be attracted by a little boy. , but there are quite a lot of people chasing me, and I am quite proud when I say it, girl, how many people chased me when I was young, wow hahaha, if it is too far away, I will not be interested in boys, so I will go around without talking. I care more about girls, I think the girl in the factory looks so cute when she eats, another girl in the factory has white and slender wrists, another girl in the factory has nice clothes, etc. No other ideas but pure appreciation?Having said that, I want to go back to the past again. It seems that I have been pestered by girls since I was very young. When I was in elementary school, there was a girl who blushed when she saw me and always secretly pulled my little finger. It was the one who rode all the way to my house and sang to me and kept kissing me on the face when I returned home. At that time, xxx (my name) was still written on the classmate record. I like you so much. I hope that I will always be in the same class as you in junior high school and high school.But tears filled my eyes, what a love from classmates, how touching, and now I still press the classmate book at the bottom of the drawer. I saved it when it was almost sold by my father as scrap, and then I flipped through it and found it A lot of girls say they like me so much, it’s not good, I’m going to be proud again, hey, I’ve dragged Nana’s matter away again, forget it, it’s been so far away, I’ll just talk about one more thing, I always feel In my life, I'm always very ambiguous with girls. Although I didn't understand anything at that time, the bloody thing of being kissed by a girl really happened to me.

By the way, it was dark and windy that night, I stayed at the home of a classmate in junior high school, and when we were lying on the bed chatting, she suddenly said something like this: I watched my dad’s porn,

I rubbed and rubbed, this was my mental activity at the time.

She said that I was wondering why that kind of thing was so strange. I asked why it was so strange, and she replied that it was that feeling. At that time, the room was turned off and there was a little light from the outside. I think this topic is too boring. And when I was sleepy, let me just say sleep, she patted my back and let me sleep facing her.. Then she touched my face and kissed me on the lips as soon as I turned around. I was a little surprised and asked her Why, she kissed me again, and she didn't make any moves even if I didn't speak. After all, it would feel like a little girl's night noise, and she wouldn't think about saying: Humph, since I was taken away by a woman The first kiss, she should be responsible for something.I forgot about that within two days. I always thought that the first kiss was given to Nana, and I don’t know when I was bent, but in short, I am always more ambiguous with women.

By the way, the person who took my first kiss was surprised when she knew I was Les. She didn't seem to understand what les was at first, so she went to Baidu, yes, she went to Baidu!Then I sent a QQ message telling me how women can love each other, and then doing such a thing is a bit disgusting, I still wonder what is disgusting, and I still don’t know much about sex, let alone sex between a woman and a woman Oh, she knew it before I did. Hey, I don't know if she still remembers that she kissed me, but I hope she won't misunderstand that I bent because of kissing me.

I am les because I love Nana, that was the first time I knew that I was in love, I understood love, and I also had my first love.

The feeling when I first met Nana was pleasantly surprised. I am the type who has been crazy in my heart countless times, but my face is still cold.

Later, I asked Nana what impression she had when she first met me. She said she just saw a little girl on the opposite side who didn’t speak or smile and was as cold as ice. I said, then I admired you a lot at that time. I thought to myself what a beautiful girl, she likes to eat shredded potatoes, her action of holding vegetables is so beautiful, her bangs are neither long nor short, just so cute, her face is so delicate.Nana laughed when she saw that I was speaking so meticulously and said, "You've been looking at me, but you haven't even looked up."I blushed and said, are you looking at me all the time?She nodded, and I was overjoyed.

That's right, Nana, from the very beginning we were seen by each other, not to mention appreciation or disgust, the way we lived in each other's eyes made us care more about each other.

Maybe it's a coincidence, the factory didn't turn on the machine in those days, it was just packaged and shipped, Nana was not in my shift, we had two fixed shifts, she was in the other shift, she was in the day and I was in the night, she was in the night and I was During the day, when the factory packs without turning on the machine, there is no need to change shifts. We usually go to work until 05:30 p.m. After getting acquainted, we often make appointments to hang out together.

I didn't see how you spoke.This was the beginning of our first conversation. At that time, Nana and I were making cardboard boxes, opening up the flat cartons and pasting them with tape. I was the one who made the cartons and she was in charge of gluing the tape.

Um.I answer her.

Well, do you usually play any games?She seemed to be smiling, but I looked down at her.

Hmm.. I've seen other people play games such as Zhu Xian Xuan Wu, but I haven't played it myself.

Well, then do you play YY?I will sing for you.She seems to like playing online things very much. At that time, I didn't have a computer, and I only went to Internet cafes occasionally. I didn't know much about those things, and I wanted to end the topic without talking, so I just said something casually. .

No.

So what do you usually do?She still seems to want to talk, what should I do, I don't usually talk to anyone, how to answer, what to talk about next, what to do if there is no topic.

I was expressionless but flustered in my heart. I wanted to answer every sentence she said carefully and find a topic. I also felt that no one cares about me and I was too lonely. After all, there was someone who was willing to chat with me without being sarcastic to me. How wonderful people.

In fact, I think too much, Nana is a person who is very good at finding topics, chatting with her softly, chatting about anything, talking about it, usually getting through a day's work becomes very relaxed and very easy Comfortable, aside from the smiling face, she said with some emotion, ouch, Nana, she started talking as soon as you came, she doesn't usually talk, she doesn't like to talk to us, it's the first time Listen to her talking so openly.

That's disgusting, I didn't say I'm bad, but you know how they treat me usually, I'll manage this... Before she finished speaking, she said you should do it yourself and find something to do, silly you , idiot, how stupid, a lot of bad words, including the attitude of every colleague who taught me how to turn on the machine when I first came, it is inevitable when I first came, I learned quickly, but when I first came If I fail to do a good job once, I will yell at those who are blind and pointing. I am not looking for a place to scold me. In fact, I have thought of leaving here countless times, but I am not old enough and other places will not want me, so I will. I have been enduring it, and every time they talk about me half-jokingly in front of me, I feel very disgusted. These people, I didn’t do anything. I did a good job. Well, what are you dissatisfied with? These are really, really, being bullied, this kind of feeling that it’s only natural to bully you, it really made me almost suffocate internally.