A glance at the city-Star essay

When I arrived at the hospital, I saw many reporters gathered downstairs, arguing and negotiating to go up, the guards also performed their duties with due diligence and dedication, and the driver walked around the car quietly, Qin Qin patted Gu Qing s face:

"Gu Qing, we're here, wake up."

Gu Qing didn't sleep well, and woke up almost at the same time as Qin Qin was talking. The two actually quickly changed their clothes, wigs and masks, and after a while, two doctors came to help them avoid the reporters and went in.

There were people coming and going in the hospital, and the smell of disinfectant penetrated into the nostrils through the mask. Qin Qin suddenly grabbed Gu Qing and wanted to say what he wanted to say on the phone, but looked at those tired but still bright eyes. Suddenly, he was a little scared again, took a deep breath and squeezed Gu Qing's hand vigorously, as if to cheer himself up again:

"Gu Qing, I have something to tell you when I get out."

When seeing Tang Li, Gu Qing didn't recognize him. Gu Qing is not very familiar with this person, but Qin Qin likes him very much. There are many works of him in the room where the two live. Qin Qin keeps talking about Tang Li's works. There is a ruthless spirit on his body, unrestrained and uninhibited, and he can do whatever he wants.

But now he is like a burnt pine candle, pale and colorless, and all the flamboyant charm of the past seems to have disappeared in an instant. Only then did Gu Qing realize that there were traces of time on his face, under the exaggerated makeup Sad and indifferent.

The doctor at the hospital said that he was delivered in time, but only injured his cervical spine, but he might not be able to stand up again in the future.

Gu Qing remembered that Qin Qin said that he was the most attractive when he danced, and he might never see him again in the future.

Tang Li didn't respond to the arrival of the two of them. It probably didn't matter to him who they were. Qin Qinchong greeted him, but he didn't respond. He just quietly looked out the window without sadness or joy. They could hear each other's breathing. After a long time, Qin Qin suddenly asked:

"Were you scared back then?"

Tang Li finally had a reaction: "When did you jump off the building?"

The sarcasm he said seemed to disgust Qin Qin's hypocrisy. Qin Qin looked at him and said:

"No, no, I'm asking about telling reporters about my sexuality."

What did Tang Li want to say, are you here for the reporters outside?But when he raised his head, he saw the panic in Qin Qin's eyes. His eyes wandered to Gu Qing who was leaning aside, his dead eyes suddenly flashed, and he smiled:

"Don't be afraid, I like who cares about them, so there is nothing to be afraid of."

Qin Qin was puzzled: "Then why did you commit suicide?"

"Who said I'm going to commit suicide?" Tang Li's pale face suddenly came alive, his brows flickered fiercely with a slight smile: "I made a calculation, I won't die at that height."

"Then do you regret it now?"

"Of course I regret it, I may not be able to stand up, but let him go like this, then what's the use of my legs."

Everyone has their own story, and Tang Li obviously didn't want to mention him again, but seeing the look on his brows, Qin Qin knew that this person was still so flamboyant and unrestrained, doing whatever he wanted, gossip did not defeat him, his one The legs are just to keep his lover.

Then Gu Qing, how can I keep you.

Carefully avoiding the reporters outside the door, the few people left quietly again. Seeing Gu Qing, the little assistant hurriedly said:

"Gu Qing, Sister Su said that today's schedule will be postponed, you go back to the hotel to rest first, and continue tomorrow."

Gu Qing nodded, pinched his brows and asked Qin Qin:

"What did you just say?"

Qin Qin opened his mouth, and the words in his mouth were swallowed back and forth even more anxiously. On the day of April, his back was covered with sweat. This is not a good place, nor is it a good time. It can even be said that it sucks, but Qin Qin knows that if he doesn't say anything, he may never have the courage to speak again:

"Gu Qing, I..."

"Gu Qing, Sister Su is on the phone!!"

The little assistant handed out a mobile phone from the front, and Gu Qing took it and signaled Qin Qin to wait, the voice of Sister Su on the other side of the phone penetrated the entire carriage:

"Gu Qing, let me warn you, this is the last time, do you know how many times I bowed my head for you today, if you dare not let me disrupt your schedule next time, I will leave you alone, for a few days Didn't sleep."

"I'm sorry, Sister Su, I won't do it next time." He hung up the phone after mumbling and cursing a few more words, Gu Qing frowned helplessly, but his eyes were gentle, and he turned his head to signal Qin Qin continue.

But sometimes courage is like a balloon filled with air. If you don’t hold the vent tightly, it will slowly disappear, leaving only the dry and ugly skin. Qin Qin was a little frustrated, and then smiled and said:

"I just want to tell you that the company called this morning, saying that the concert has been postponed, and it is estimated that it will be the end of this year."

"En? Is it because of this incident?" Gu Qing asked, Qin Qin's nod must have had an impact, don't worry about it, go back to sleep first, I have to go back later, the phone is about to explode.

Gu Qing nodded: "Well, Brother Song will take you to the airport later."

The life of an artist will never have a fixed schedule. The two are busy with their own careers. "Song Qiu" has also been filmed to the end. The actor Song Qiu received an invitation from Xia Fangcao on the phone to attend the wedding in a month. After receiving the good news, she began to revisit the places she had visited with Xia Fangcao back then.

The last place he came together was a not-so-famous temple. It was built on the top of a cloud-shrouded mountain. The road up the mountain was very steep. He was already in his forties. A few students looked at him disdainfully and quickly passed by.

He didn't care about it, and continued to walk up slowly, and finally reached the foot of the temple after stumbling along the way.

There are many pilgrims kneeling on the [-] steps, with pious faces every step of the way.

Song Qiu didn't watch them casually walking upwards. There was only a few sandalwoods, which couldn't wash away his sins, and the Sanskrit chanting couldn't dispel his demons. He walked forward step by step. The past of 46 years is here The hundred and eight steps were hurriedly finished.

Standing in front of the huge incense tripod, the host asked him:

"If you can't ask for it, why don't you forget it?"

He replied: "Since you can't get what you want, how can you forget it?"

The host sighed: "If you are stubborn, you will be troubled in vain."

"Master's advice." Song Qiu turned and left indifferently. Looking at the mountains and mountains in front of him, he suddenly remembered that Xia Fangcao stood on the top of the mountain after kneeling step by step and shouted his name to the distant forest, word by word. All are sincere.

He suddenly felt overwhelming sadness hit him like a tsunami, making him dizzy and his throat astringent. He felt his face itchy, and when he wiped it with his hand, it turned out that he had already burst into tears.

He was so desperate and sad, and the pilgrims on the mountain looked suspiciously at the crying middle-aged man, with different expressions, until a child in the arms of his parents asked, "Mom, why is that man crying?"

The woman comforted the child and said perfunctorily: "He has done something wrong, and he is repenting."

The child nodded half-understood, hugged his mother's neck and left, then suddenly turned around and shouted:

"Mom, look, that person fell!!"

The distant bells rang through the top of the mountain, startling the tired birds to take off, and the huge golden Buddha statue showed mercy, saving all sentient beings:

"Amitabha...Amitabha...Amitabha..."

"cut."

The whole drama ended here. Qin Qin untied the wire on his body and exhaled softly. This scene was not foolproof, and I was a little scared when I danced just now.

The director came over with a rare and serious expression: "Qin Qin, believe me, I can't make mistakes in seeing people, you kid will definitely not stop here, I dare say, as long as this year's judges are not blind, you will definitely not be the winner of the Academy Awards." None."

"Then I will accept your good words." Qin Qin replied with a smile.

"You boy." The director patted him on the shoulder and greeted him: "It's time for work, pack up quickly, and the director can eat."

As expected, this movie later became the biggest dark horse of the year, and Qin Qin also jumped into the first-line actors and became the best actor of the year.

Later, someone commented that Song Qiu was a man, he hurt the two women who loved him the most in the world, Song Yu was unhappy because of his avoidance after marriage, which led to her husband's derailment and the marriage was broken, and Xia Fangcao because he gave up Everything, she couldn't fall in love with him because of Song Qiu's begging, and finally because of Song Qiu's obsession, she left the stage and fell into the world.

In Song Qiu's life, he couldn't get what he wanted, and he couldn't love it. These four words surrounded his lofty ambitions, his ambitions, and he had countless opportunities to make his status leap thousands of miles and turn his life upside down. , but finally gave up.

His sin, his pain, his tenderness, his cruelty, his loneliness, his despair, he has made mistakes all his life, but he has been in pain all his life, and death may be his best destination .

Many years later, Qin Qin thought of this passage, he couldn't get what he wanted, and he couldn't love it. In this short space of eight characters, his whole life was buried here.