Heart fire

Xi Yang is not modest, but really not very good at cooking. It took almost half an hour to cook a simple bowl of vermicelli in clear soup.During the period, Zhou Tong wanted to intervene several times, but was chased away. He was not allowed to approach him, so he could only fidget in the corner and watch his instructor clumsily chop the onion and fried oil with his injured hand. They were all making preparations to rush up to prevent him from being injured and send him to the medical office.

Xi Yang's back was about to be pierced by two scorching gazes, but he himself didn't know it, he was staring at the boiling noodles in the pot wholeheartedly, wondering whether he should use a big fire or a small fire, how could the water not rush out The problem is annoying enough.

He tried his best to recall the steps of watching his mother cook noodles when he was a child. He was not sure whether the scallion oil she fried was green onions or onions, so he simply chopped up some of both, and threw them all into the pot before the oil was hot.However, the expected "呲啦" explosion did not appear, and it took a long time to smell an unattractive burnt smell. Compared with Zhou Tong's sophistication in cooking last time, the whole process is really ......lame.

Zhou Tong was instructed to get soda from the refrigerator, but he clearly remembered what Xi Yang said just now that cold drinks are not allowed when recovering from illness.But then he discovered the reason why this seemingly calm trainer was inconsistent. When he opened the door of the refrigerator and turned to ask Xi Yang what flavor he wanted to drink, he saw his trainer secretly pouring a pot of raw noodles into it. Pour it into the kitchen waste bin specially prepared for Xiao Bian.

Zhou Tong: "..."

That's so cute.

Half an hour later, a bowl of raw noodles came out of the pot. The clear soup was watery, colorless and tasteless. Fortunately, the broth was ready-made, and the shredded egg and garlic sprouts added a bit of prestige. Although the scallion oil was not very fragrant It is also rich enough, and the most surprising thing is that two spoons of white sugar are added to the soup base, so that people can taste a little nostalgia from it.

Zhou Tong was so hungry that he took a large bowl full of noodles, picked up his chopsticks and ate them without a thought, like a storm, and drank the soup without leaving a drop.

After he finished eating, he wiped his mouth, looked contentedly at Xi Yang with questioning and slightly apprehensive eyes, and sincerely commented: "It's delicious! It's even better than my brother's, and I can eat ten more bowls."

There is still an unquestionable sincerity on his face.He didn't lie, even if what the trainer brings out is water for washing dishes, as long as it is in his hands, he can pour it down as fairy nectar.

With such exaggerated affirmation, Xi Yang originally wanted to give Zhou Tong the rest of the noodles in the pot, and he felt full and satisfied watching him eat, but when he heard Zhou Tong mention Zhou Yi, he seemed to be taken away from his confidence Usually, her straight back also collapsed, and she stared down at a chopped green onion that fell on the table without making any response.

Zhou Tong is not good at observing words and expressions, so he didn't notice any difference.After all, he is a young man with a good body. He regained his vigor and vigor after eating enough, and he talked a lot: "Instructor, where are you from? How can you make this kind of noodles?"

Xi Yang was evasive and perfunctory: "Southern."

Zhou Tong has been curious about this question for a long time, and finally got the chance tonight, so he couldn't give up easily, so he continued to ask: "Where is the south? Is it close to Jiangzhou?"

It’s okay to tell him, but at this moment, Xi Yang’s heart is full of uneasiness, and he dare not have the slightest carelessness or omission, for fear that he will notice something if he is not careful, so he casually said the name of a city adjacent to Yunling. .

"Oh." Zhou Tong didn't know much about what he was talking about, so he could only lick his lips, and stared at him with his hands on his cheeks, his eyes were as innocent as a child who couldn't grow up, full of foolish obsession.

"My brother did it once." He didn't want to end the conversation, so he acted as the active party, and simply felt that if he wanted to understand others, he must first be honest and let others understand himself.

"He only went home once after he served in the army. He said he learned from his comrades and cooked a bowl for me and my grandma. I didn't like noodles before, but I only liked noodles after that. Unfortunately, I never tasted them again. .”

"Actually, the noodles are very easy to cook, but this kind of wide noodles tend to be cooked on both sides first and the middle is still raw. If you can't judge, just take one and try it. And after the soup is boiled, add some cold water so it won't come out... ..”

It was a similar night five years ago, when Chonghuai was blown by strong winds from all seasons, blowing away layers of dark clouds and pairs of dragonflies foraging for dew.

At that time, the army had regulations that soldiers in ordinary companies had to take turns to work in the cooking class, steaming steamed buns, making dumplings, rolling noodles, and storing food for self-sufficiency.Xi Yang, who was spoiled and spoiled, doesn't know how to cook and is not good at cooking. When he first arrived, he couldn't even tell the difference between soy sauce and vinegar. Only by following Zhou Yi can he get away with it and avoid being laughed at.

Although he has proficient and solid dance skills, as a soldier, his training results are always failing. Therefore, Xi Yang has become the person who has been punished to work in the cafeteria the most times.

It was he who told Zhou Yi that Yunling had such a clear noodle soup, and he couldn't explain the specific method, so he asked Zhou Yi to go back with him in the future to taste the taste of his hometown that he had always dreamed of.

It's just that he never knew that Zhou Yi memorized his incomplete description after only listening to it once. Not only did he think about it, but he also made his younger brother act as a guinea pig.

It wasn't long after that visit that Xi Yang had an awkward relationship with Zhou Yi.He is a spoiled child, full of unrealistic longings for love, stubborn and worrying about gains and losses, often getting angry about trivial things, in order to find his own importance and sense of existence in the eyes of the other party , and regards the form above all else, and often gets angry because the other party refuses to admit it, refuses to establish a relationship with him, and does not give him a chance to cook a bowl of noodles to coax him.

If you don't want to miss this, you will miss your life.

Xi Yang didn't catch what Zhou Tong said later about cooking noodles. When he came back to his senses, he was still chattering, as if he hadn't seen each other for a day and a night, so there were more topics to share.

"...I'm really curious." He was rubbing his nose again, making Xi Yang frown, and wanted to slap his hand away, telling him that rubbing his nasal mucosa would damage his nose, and he would be damned if he didn't get a nosebleed.

But what Zhou Tong said next completely dispelled all his thoughts of trying.

"What kind of person is she?" The big boy on the opposite side was staring at his eyes and thinking about it. "I really didn't expect my brother to like little girls who love to dance and act like a baby. I thought he didn't like lively and troublesome girls, so he wasn't interested in this kind of girls."

"What?" Xi Yang didn't seem to understand.

So Zhou Tong explained again stupidly: "I'm talking about my brother's girlfriend." He lowered his voice pretending to be mysterious. "I found out he had a girlfriend during his time in the army."

Xi Yang looked at him blankly: "Girl...friend...?"

Zhou Tong nodded very firmly, and used all his favorite words: "Yes! And I found that she is very romantic, good at acting like a baby, and can dance. She should be the kind with small stature and round eyes. A girl who bends into a crescent when she smiles, is very sweet, proud, and delicate."

Listening to his messy description, Xi Yang lowered his head to clean up the dishes, lowered his eyelashes to hide the panic in his eyes.

Zhou Tong didn't mention the suicide note, thinking that it was the girl's privacy after all, and Wen Yue had already seen it once, so it's not good to tell it all the time.

Although he did not regard the trainer as an outsider.

Xi Yang is not sure who Zhou Tong refers to as Zhou Yi's "girlfriend".After all, there were many girls who actively pursued Zhou Yi at that time. Every time they went to the police, every time they went to the government affairs department of the detachment, even if they only suffered a minor injury and went to the hospital, they would always get a look of love at first sight, full of hints of love.

The more you have no status and position to own it, the less you can tolerate others coveting it.Xi Yang was mad with jealousy. He used to be a full-fledged, noble and reserved white swan, but now he gave up all his aura and wronged himself to be an ugly duckling that was overshadowed by another white swan. He is surrounded by dazzling birds and swallows, but he can't give himself a small piece of gorgeous feathers. Even a heart made of iron and a chest made of copper can't bear such a cruel blow from reality. Over time, there are cracks all over.

"It's a pity. If my brother is still here and develops smoothly, maybe I'd already be an uncle." Zhou Tong smiled regretfully. "In that case, mom and dad, as well as adoptive father and grandma, will be happy in heaven."

Xi Yang was speechless.

Who says no? How can any parent not want to sit in the hall in their later years, with their children passing by their knees, not to mention the two biological parents who passed away early, and even Zhou Jian, who has been a bachelor for half his life, cannot deny that adopting these brothers is not all. Out of sympathy, it is also to have something to rely on when I am old, and to continue a life that has not been good and cannot be taken away.

Xi Yang has both parents and is the only child in the family. From childhood to adulthood, whether in school or in the dance troupe, he has always enjoyed the treatment of stars and moonlight, and has had countless bright moments accompanied by flowers and applause.However, in the eyes of teachers and students, the proud son of heaven, the pride of the elders, chooses to take this road of betraying relatives and cutting off children and grandchildren, holding high that love is unique, love is a banner that transcends everything, in fact, it is ridiculously naive and childish, and it is in vain for parents and teachers to devote their efforts. Nurtured, selfish to the extreme.

If he wants to go this way and fall, why should he bring others along?Why should others sacrifice their precious future and family affection to cooperate with him and fulfill his shady affairs?

Zhou Yi was not wrong, it was always him who was wrong.

If he had known early on, killing Zhou Tong would not bring up the old incident again to hurt Xi Yang's heart, so that the gap between each other would change from a clear stream, a veil as thin as a cicada's wing, and a strand of veil covered by him. The morning mist that was gradually dispelled with full enthusiasm turned into lofty mountains, a vast ocean, and an impenetrable fortified barrier.

However, at this moment, he couldn't stop, and his desire to talk was extremely strong.

"Actually, I don't know what I can do to find her. My brother left suddenly, and I didn't see her for the last time. I think I probably... wanted to tell her for my brother that he didn't forget the promise and did it. I really like her and care about her..."

Suit?

"It's so boring to wear this camouflage uniform every day! You are so tall and have such a good figure, you must be very handsome in a suit! Let's get out of the army early, shall we? Go abroad to get married, I really want to see you in a suit."

Xi Yang still remembered that at that time, whether it was "suit" or "marriage", Zhou Yi's brows that were always frowned became tighter.

it's me......

He wasn't talking about anyone else, not some playful little girl with a round face and big eyes, but me.

Someone he could never have guessed.

"What's the point?" Xi Yang didn't dare to listen anymore, so he had to interrupt. "Did he go to the funeral? Did he take the initiative to contact you in the past five years? If he wanted to, it's impossible that he couldn't get in touch. The inability to get in touch can only explain one thing."

"It doesn't matter to him, he has long forgotten about it." Xi Yang picked up the bowl and chopsticks, turned his back and walked towards the sink. "This kind of ungrateful person, what is there to worry about?"

Zhou Tong couldn't believe that the trainer, who was always gentle, kind and understanding, would say such harsh words.

There was a sudden silence behind him, only the sudden sound of water was left in the warm kitchen, and the wide open water hit the bottom of the metal sink fiercely, and the water spray wet the absent-minded eyebrows and the corners of the sad lips.

I really want to take advantage of the sound of rushing water to cry happily, for the lost love and deep remorse, and also for that kind and fiery heart, and its wrong intention.

Come on, leave quickly, Xi Yang thought.He held back the tears that were about to burst out, and leaned slightly to pick up the bowls and chopsticks in the sink, when Zhou Tong who came quietly at no time suddenly circled him from behind and grabbed his wrist.

"Don't touch the water, I'll come."

After Zhou Tong finished speaking, he moved closer to Xi Yang, his whole chest stuck to his back, tightly wrapped around him with his strong arms, looked at his hand over one shoulder, and breathed in his ear .

"I don't think she's forgotten." He gently put those ten fingers that were not delicate enough but slender in his palm, treating them as carefully as if they were treasures. "She's just afraid. Girls are timid, so don't blame her. My brother has a weird temper and a cold personality. He refuses to hold hands and hugs, and he refuses to make it public. He must have caused her a lot of grievances."

"It's not a wild guess, I have evidence." Zhou Tong said. "She must be a very, very good girl, innocent, romantic, passionate, daring to love and hate, and worthy of the best love and care."

Two heartbeats are playing across the spine.Zhou Tong's lips and the tip of his nose brushed against Xi Yang's soft ears, and then moved around the back of his head to the other side. Suddenly he was lost in a burst of itching and intolerance he had never experienced before, his voice was intoxicated hoarse and chaotic. Qingdi murmured: "You smell so sweet...have you taken a bath? Why didn't you wait for me?"

Xi Yang closed his eyes tightly, resisting the temptation from body to heart with difficulty, his spine was limp and out of strength, and wanted to lean back unbearably, to grab him tightly, to entangle him, to indulge himself into the moment of tenderness he gave him, to sacrifice The pale and fragile back of the neck was exposed, allowing him to vent his ignorant love and lust wantonly on it.

"Tongtong..." He struggled out of the last bit of reason, turned around and pushed the person away, lowered his head and said, "You deserve to meet a good girl."

Zhou Tong, who was pushed away, looked at his empty hands, feeling inexplicably anxious, and said incoherently in a panic: "I don't want to fall in love now... no... I don't like good girls ...No...I've already broken up with my girlfriend! Anyhow...I can't tell what will happen next...Anyway...I like it I just like it, the feeling of heartbeat...it can't be fooled..."

"You can deceive me." Xi Yang lowered his eyes for a long time, and when he raised his head again, his eyes were dim and he had no emotion at all.

"People are easily moved, but there is a difference between heart and love."

The trainer knew everything, and with just a few words, Zhou Tong, who knew nothing about psychology and could only do physics problems, was bluffed.

Zhou Tong slowly withdrew his hand and hung it by his side, looking at Xi Yang unwilling to believe but unable to refute, seeing that heart-warming light mole looming on his lips, his eyes were full of loss and disappointment.

Xi Yang said: "The heartbeat is just a superficial resonance. It is short-lived, impulsive, and immature. It will give people a sense of freshness and make people uneasy."

"What about love..." Zhou Tong seemed to lose his confidence.

Xi Yang turned his head away from looking at him. "I don't know. I don't understand, and I'm not qualified to explain it to you."

"I can be your friend, comrade-in-arms, and teacher, and I can be your relative, attend your graduation ceremony, witness and host your marriage at your wedding, and do my best to take care of you and accompany you instead of your brother. It’s all I can do, all I can do.”

Zhou Tong finally understood.

The instructor said, you just regard me as the shadow of my brother, the comfort after losing a loved one.Your "heartbeat" is a stupid and reckless hallucination, whimsical and meaningless.

And I have no other feelings for you other than this.