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Wen Youxia wanted to communicate with him, exchange information and understand each other.

This is a good signal of "love". Qiu Sheng shouted rationally "tell him quickly", and emotionally shouted "let him know how miserable and pitiful you have been in these few years", but his lips and tongue were like Get stuck.

Since Wen Youxia is curious, he can completely throw away the bloody past, the missing half a year in memory, diagnosis sheets, inspection records, and empty medicine bottles. regret.Based on what he knew about Wen Youxia, the other party would definitely fall into endless sympathy after fully knowing about it.

At that time, no matter what Qiu Sheng said, Wen Youxia would agree, and he did not hesitate at all.

Qiu Sheng, don't be like this, he has never been the weak side, and he will never be like Wen Dechang, Wen Haoqian, Bai Yanhui and others who bound Wen Youxia with all kinds of hurtful shackles.

He knew that he was not the puzzle piece that Wen Youxia was looking for.

But are they destined to be parallel forever?

Absolutely impossible, Qiu Sheng thought: I will force it, so what if it is not suitable?

Due to the side effects of taking sedatives, Qiu Sheng fell into depression the second day after recording the variety show.He was silent for a long time, depressed, and the overdose of drugs made Qiu Sheng lose his appetite and spirit, and he slept with his eyes closed during the rest time.

Returning to Donghe from Yawan, Liu Wangyu, who heard about the performance accident, immediately came to their rehearsal room in Taiguo.

Seeing Qiu Sheng, the usually vigorous and uncompromising gold medal manager weakened a lot. She pursed her lips, and did not say a word about the cause and effect of the accident: "Why did Xiao Qiu lose so much weight again?"

"I'll eat it soon." Qiu Sheng joked, "Has Jinshi's money arrived?"

"It's halfway there." Liu Wangyu began to talk about work with him helplessly, "I will send it to you all after the finance side's verification. After this recording, the contract with Jinshi will be over. What's the next plan?"

"Our tour can be arranged. After the Chinese New Year at the earliest, we should go to the south first, and the audience will be wider. The venue...doesn't need to be too big, it mainly depends on the equipment."

Liu Wangyu asked Allen to record Qiu Sheng's request in detail: "What else?"

"I want to click on the re-recorded version of "Respect for Freedom" and play it before the Chinese New Year."

"Row."

"A new song may be released in these two days."

"No problem." Liu Wangyu agreed without hesitation, and suddenly realized, "Ah? New song? Have you finished recording?"

"I'll post it after recording." Qiu Sheng said naturally.

A Lian slowed down his record, and interjected in a ignorant way: "Is it "Flying Bird"?"

The eyes of Gu Qi and Lu Yining were sharp for a moment, and they all looked at Qiu Sheng.

Before "Birds", there was only a demo version made with computer software, and the score was restored later. Gu Qi and the others had never heard the rough full version.The demeanor is clean and innocent when playing at the seaside, but Gu Qi vaguely feels that things are not that simple.Especially, the second she heard the title of the song, Wen Youxia immediately lowered her head to play with her phone as if feeling guilty.

This is not right.Gu Qi frowned.

On the other side, Qiu Sheng didn't seem to notice Wen Youxia's abnormality, and said, "There are only two songs in stock, one is "Flying Bird" and the other is "Night Snow". Either you listen to it and decide which one to release?"

"I don't understand." A Lian quickly waved his hand and asked curiously, "But "Night Snow" is...?"

Lu Yining answered flamboyantly: "Wen Xia wrote it before, he thought it was childish, so he hid it from us, but I think it must be very good - you haven't written a new song in the past two years, Qiu Sheng, Can you be more professional?"

Qiu Sheng sneered: "Isn't all the songs I wrote exchanged for copyright fees? Together, I can buy ten of you."

Lu Yining: "...Be more successful, use me as a counting unit."

A Lian couldn't help laughing when she heard them bickering. After the atmosphere relaxed a bit, she returned to the subject seriously: "I still think "Asuka" is more suitable. You just performed the unplugged version in the show "Watching the Show". I have communicated with you, they should choose this song to broadcast, and when the song is released, the promotion can keep up with this wave of enthusiasm... how about it?"

She analyzed it with marketing thinking, and it sounded good-sounding and justified. Qiu Sheng nodded: "Then we will record first recently. I will mix this song myself. You can make an appointment for me in the recording studio."

"The shed of Teacher Yue Sun." Liu Wangyu urged, "That shed is bigger."

Allen nodded: "Then I'll call him now."

Anyway, with Liu Wangyu here, A Lian didn't have to keep watch. She checked the other precautions with Qiu Sheng, said hello, turned around and went out to do business.Lu Yining followed behind and poked his head. When he was slapped on the back, he was taken aback, but he couldn't "fuck it" yet, and he looked a little teasing at Shang Wen Youxia.

"Like Alian?" Wen Youxia asked.

Lu Yining: "..."

He blushed, as if he had been caught sending a love letter to a girl, and changed the subject awkwardly and awkwardly: "Fuck, I, I thought you had business with me, what the hell!"

"It's business." Wen Youxia slipped a few pieces of paper to Lu Yining secretly, "For the score of "Flying Birds", you re-arranged the drums, and the rhythm is faster than the one without electricity. Just write it quickly in the past few days."

Lu Yining is straight-hearted, thinking that Wen Youxia was worried that the recording time would affect the progress.He has improved his drumming skills in the past two years and wanted to show it to the band members, so he immediately patted his chest and issued a military order, saying that he would be able to do it in a few days, so that Wen Youxia could rest assured.

After Wen Youxia nodded calmly, and went back to playing on the mobile phone on the sofa in the corner of the rehearsal room, Lu Yining pinched the score and realized something was wrong, and murmured: "Hey, isn't this Qiu Sheng's handwriting?" ...Fuck it."

Damn, that means, Qiu Sheng asked him to weave drums?

Wait a minute, why did Qiu Sheng take the initiative to give the score to Wen Xia and let him pass on the message?

Lu Yining stood on the spot with his limbs stiff, and for a moment he didn't know which news was more shocking: "Qiu Sheng didn't make up his own music" or "Qiu Sheng and Wen Xia seem to have reconciled".

At the end of December, the local news in Donghe began to focus on this year’s extremely cold weather, icy and frosty roads, rain and snow in the hills of the northwest, but the self-media were all looking forward to “whether it will snow this year”.

After the climate has warmed, Donghe has not had snow in winter for several years.

The second episode of "Watching the Show", Yawan, needs time to be edited, and it will be broadcast after the New Year's Eve. A week before that, Yinshan rejected two platter performance invitations, leaving only the event on the 31st.What they said to the outside world was that the company had other arrangements, but in fact, because Qiu Sheng needed to rest, he couldn't bear the noise during the performance for the time being.

Qiu Sheng has maintained a rigorous working state for two consecutive years, writing songs, recording, mixing, and then listening to feedback after release. Even if the state is not good occasionally, it will be adjusted within five working days.

But it can't work now, Liu Wangyu ordered Qiu Sheng to take a serious rest at home until the recording studio has time to spare.

This day was his normal check-up day, and Qiu Sheng went to the hospital.

After the performance accident in Pingzhou, Qiu Sheng finally stopped avoiding the matter of stopping the drug without authorization, and called Dr. Zhang.After he recuperated from Pingzhou until he was able to go to the field and returned to Donghe, Dr. Zhang made a complete measurement and assessment for him. Qiu Sheng's anxiety had obviously caused a series of health problems. At the same time, in the column of personality risk, The data of "paranoid" and "compulsive" are far higher than the normal reference interval, and the state is very bad.

Doctor Zhang suggested that he should be hospitalized for treatment. Qiu Sheng refused at first, but the other party's attitude was unprecedentedly tough, and he was almost forced to accept it.

During that time, he was alone in Donghe, with no relatives or friends, facing the white walls of the ward and piles of bottles and jars every day.I received a lot of injections and took a lot of medicines. During the period, I also found gastric polyps and duodenal ulcers. The polyps were removed, but the stomach and intestines became chronic diseases due to eating problems for too long.

Going to the hospital again this time, after Dr. Zhang heard about what happened to him in Yawan, Qiu Sheng thought she would be angry.

But she didn't, and just poured Qiu Sheng a cup of hot water: "Don't be afraid to admit your weakness...it's not shameful, and it's definitely not pitiful."

She seldom gives advice to Qiu Sheng. It was the first time she was hospitalized, and now it is the second time.

Qiu Sheng agreed: "I will try my best to adjust."

Dr. Zhang didn't believe his "try your best", and smiled: "But at least you said a lot today, which is a good change. Qiu Sheng, don't underestimate your own strength, and don't overestimate it. Setting goals is In order to let us have someone to look up to, not to make you feel insecure all the time, so what if you can’t achieve it? Try to think about this question.”

"Okay." Qiu Sheng said, his eyes were a little confused, "but I'm afraid that others will be disappointed."

"Qiu Sheng, be yourself first, and then be yourself in the eyes of others." Dr. Zhang sat down opposite him like a close aunt, "Others will see what you are, and believe that the people you care about are also the same care about you."

After a while, Qiu Sheng finally nodded.

Dr. Zhang did not say, "Everyone you love will love you", and she probably knew that this was impossible.Flowers in the mirror and moon in the water can sometimes cheer people up for a short time, but for Qiu Sheng, this kind of encouragement has no effect.

Because of his family of origin and his growth experience, Qiu Sheng is a sensitive person who is almost suspicious. His personal emotions dominate him. He is subjective and one-sided. He is prone to tension in intimate relationships, whether it is family, friendship or love.The strong uneasiness made him instinctively not to trust easily. Once he had something to rely on, he would bind all the good and bad emotions to the person closest to him. In this case, if the other party had a conflict with him, it would bring Qiu The blow of the sound is very fatal.

From the standpoint of professional ethics, Dr. Zhang shouldn't be too curious about Qiu Sheng's private life, but when she sent Qiu Sheng out of the clinic that day, she saw a vaguely recognizable person at the end of the corridor.

"Is that your friend?" she asked Qiu Sheng.

Qiu Sheng's expression was also very surprised, and then he shook his head: "...It's a colleague."

Dr. Zhang was thoughtful and asked, "Are you still living alone?"

"Well, friends occasionally come to see me."

"Perhaps," Dr. Zhang said hesitantly, "As one of your... acquaintances, not a doctor, let me make some suggestions in private. You can just listen to them and ignore them if you don't like them."

She looked forward and backward, but Qiu Sheng became interested: "It's okay, you say."

Doctor Zhang looked pointedly: "If someone who cares appears in the future, it may be a good thing to properly open a safe distance to him... It's not ashamed to show your weakness."

Qiu Sheng pulled the corner of his mouth reluctantly, but did not express any attitude towards this sentence.

After each psychotherapy, Qiu's voice would be depressed, and now he only felt more depressed after seeing Wen Youxia - it's not surprising that Wen Youxia knew this place, he had accompanied him once or twice before.

Qiu Sheng went straight to the elevator, caught a glimpse of Wen Youxia following him out of the corner of his eye, and said angrily, "How do you know I'm here?"

"Gu Qi said, you check on the 23rd of every month."

Qiu Sheng: "..."

He really has given up hope for Gu Qi's bad mouth.

They are all here, and it is not easy to drive people away.

Qiu Sheng recited silently three times, then pressed the down button of the elevator.

There were only the two of them in the elevator, and a hospital bed came in when they went down to the seventh floor.The nurses blocked the front one after the other, and a woman squeezed in while crying, and finally had to stand close to the elevator door.She held onto the metal railing of the hospital bed and kept sobbing. The nurse comforted her and gave her the side seat.

As if preparing for an operation, Qiu Sheng listened to it a few times, only to feel that life and death were parting again, and turned his face away in discomfort.The space was suddenly compressed to tightness, Qiu Sheng stared at Wen Youxia's shoulder.

The coat was worn out, and there was a thread coming out. He raised his hand and twirled it twice.

Going down to the third floor, the hospital bed and the crying family members were hurriedly pushed out of the elevator room, and the child with a plaster cast came in.

Qiu Sheng couldn't bear to watch, the smell of disinfectant in the air irritated his nasal cavity and made his eyes sour.He closed his eyes and thought about enduring it for another minute, and he would be fine after going out.The ability to bear has dropped to a critical point, and the mind is chaotically imagining the pains that have been experienced, and the face is pale from being tortured.

There was not enough oxygen in the elevator, and Qiu Sheng was gasping for breath.

She hugged him with one hand, patted his back, and let him lean against her.Qiu Sheng immediately seemed to be saved, and quickly buried his face in Wen Youxia's shoulder.

The old coat held Wen Youxia's body temperature, and the smell of cigarettes was very light.

"It's all right." Wen Youxia whispered, a simple sentence could actually calm Qiu Sheng's trembling.

"I don't like hospitals." Qiu Sheng said nasally.

His eyes were slightly closed against Wen Youxia's shoulders. When the elevator sounded, Wen Youxia still didn't let go of him. He didn't press Qiu Sheng's back lightly until the elevator descended to the first floor and the crowd left one after another.

"Let's go, let's go eat." Wen Youxia said, "I'll feel better after eating."

He was coaxing a child, Qiu Sheng listened, and couldn't help but smile on Wen Youxia's shoulder.

The author says:

rest tomorrow! ! !The days are getting better and the word count is still a lot, let me take a breather QAQ