[Tutorial] Self-indulgence

This is already the third day that Zero suddenly fell over.He sat alone on the edge of the hospital bed, staring at that person's face, slowly thinking about the previous things.

Even he couldn't figure out why Zero was suddenly angry.But I still remember that at home, he was unwilling to say hello to his father before going out because of his inner grievances, but this kind of thing made Ling suddenly become strange.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help reaching out and grabbing the man's wrist hanging on the bed.

At that time, that person seemed extremely confused, like a lost child, standing there alone and motionless.It seems that he will leave here immediately, and then run away like crazy, which makes people feel very uneasy.

So he simply stretched out his hand but didn't dare to hold her all at once, but only dared to hook her index finger with his hand.

That person used to say something like "ten fingers connecting hearts" to him, but he was young at that time, and the Chinese pronunciation of ten and food was mixed together. Maybe it was his action that brought that person back to his senses. It's just that there is still a little confusion on his face.

He thought it would be fine as long as he didn't always show that expression, so he left a note and hooked Ling to go out. On the way, he was also very uneasy, and wanted to ask what happened to Ling before, but he didn't know. Should you speak up.But I didn't expect that Zero suddenly stretched out his hand to hook his neck and took him aside, and he happened to turn his head in surprise...

The lips of the two people just touched together.

"Hmm..." Thinking of this, he suddenly bit his lips, and fortunately, he was the only one in this ward except for the sleeping person on the bed, and no one saw him in such embarrassment.

And later, when Scuvaro and Baguir were in a mess, he wanted to rush forward, after all, he also knew that the tutor would not put him in danger, and this in itself was an established thing, and it would always be his turn his.But he wants to rush forward, but Zero has to keep up. Usually he can have no scruples, but the opponent is a seasoned assassin after all, if Zero is hurt...

He shook his head, thinking about what Ling said at the time, but he could guess that it was his indecision that made Ling angry.

What's more, even if he hadn't seen Zero before, he had unintentionally learned Zero's occasional slapstick. What's more, he had paid more attention to Zero than to others, so he could understand Zero. temper character.

But when things basically settled down, he started to blame himself, not only that, but also zero, thinking that that person must also hate his incompetence and cowardice.But what I didn't expect was that the man suddenly became angry and even broke the chain suddenly.

"Hey... Let me tell you, am I a little self-inflicted?" He lay beside Zero, his fingertips gently poking down on Zero's arm. "Obviously it's my own problem, but I still blame you....Sure enough, I should have told you earlier, right?" He lay on his stomach and looked at the person lying motionless on the bed, and then stretched out his hand to poke the person's face. cheek.

At that time, he was at a loss and didn't know what to do, but he saw the chain on Zero's chest slowly floating up and pouring into the body on the hospital bed. A beam of light emerged, and then slowly rotated, and finally the zero on his back also turned into a light spot and was integrated into it.

As soon as Zero was integrated into it, the light disappeared.And no one in the hospital noticed this matter except him, so he didn't say anything to anyone, and just sneaked in after the special training every day.But his behavior was surprisingly not noticed by anyone.

"... Would it be better if I told you earlier, or if I knew Zero's thoughts?" He propped himself up in frustration, and then put his hands on his face. "Actually, I've come back ten years after that incident, and I'm still a little uncertain. I always feel that Zero will keep nothing from me, but I also feel that there are many other things that I will not tell me." He suddenly laughed as he spoke. "When I say that, I feel super contradictory. ... It's all because I'm not confident, but I still feel that it's zero..."

That person once told him that he always acted like 'no, can't do it', and would even blame other people.At that time, he always felt that he hadn't vented his anger on others, but was always complaining about himself.

Maybe it's because he's grown up than before, or maybe it's because of a change in mood, he noticed that he always complained to Zero when he couldn't do it. 'It's all zero's fault, I obviously said no! ','Why doesn't Zero help me, as long as Zero helps, it can be done. He seemed to have said these similar words to Zero countless times, and then showed his grievance countless times.

Together with his eagerness to go deeper, when he was in contact with Zero like a lover, he always showed such an aggrieved expression.

He always thinks that Zero is omnipotent. This feeling is like a child’s simple dependence on his parents and elders. He relies on Zero. Even after he has made his mind clear, he subconsciously believes that Zero will always accommodate him. of.

He held Zero's hand, and pressed that slightly cold hand to his face. "Obviously I hope that Zero can see me as independent and equal, but I still rely on Zero....Even though I was determined to become stronger when I was fighting against Liudao Mukuro, but I am still like this...Hey, Zero. I really am ..." He said, his body trembling slightly, "Please, wake up quickly."

The doctor and him told him yesterday that all aspects of this body function began to weaken, which was completely different from the previous stable state. Regardless of the reason for the time being, but if this continues, that person will not be able to sustain life.

Zero must wake up, otherwise, he dare not think about it.

Maybe it was because the special training during the day was too tiring, or maybe he would relax as long as he was around that person, but he just held that person's hand and closed his eyes and fell asleep.

He fell into a drowsy sleep, and suddenly saw the shadow of Yue Mo squatting in front of him. He was startled suddenly, and wanted to run forward, but found that the surroundings were dark and strange.

He tried to open his mouth to speak, but there was no sound.As a result, he became a little flustered, and looked at the shadow with a flustered mood. At this moment, the black surrounding the shadow seemed to be cracked, and it shattered into pieces.

Not knowing what was going on, he just stood there.Suddenly, he found a girl squatting on the ground beside him, poking the ground with her fingers as if bored.Seeing this, he suddenly bent his mouth and smiled, but the girl suddenly raised her head, glanced at him, and then ran over quickly.

He was startled suddenly, just because the girl was very similar to Zero.

"...Zero..." He whispered, but the girl suddenly passed through him and ran behind him. He quickly turned around, only to see that the girl was held on the shoulders by a thin man. The people walked forward talking and laughing.

He didn't move, but the surrounding scenery was moving.He vaguely understood that what was shown here might be Ling's forgotten past or some other scene. He didn't make another sound, but quietly looked at the backs of the two father and daughter.

Not long after, the father-daughter figure disappeared, and turned into a normal picture of a certain family, and the girl seemed to be a little longer than what he saw at first, but she just squatted on the ground He hid far away and watched a man and a woman arguing there, and he stood beside the girl.

Suddenly, the girl seemed to cast a glance at him, "... I knew they would quarrel if there was anything wrong with me." That tone seemed extremely cold, but because he was the closest to the girl, he really Feeling that when the two people were so angry that they threw some teacups and chopsticks to the ground, the girl's body obviously trembled because of fear.

He felt a little sad.

Although his father left home to work when he was very young, since he can remember, he has never seen his parents quarreling or even wanting to smash things so viciously.So now, he even felt a little sorry for the girl who was huddled in the corner.

Before he could reach out his hand, the girl stood up suddenly, rushed to the man and woman who were arguing endlessly, and shouted loudly, "If you have the ability, smash it! If you have the ability, get a divorce!" Although the girl spoke Chinese, he But he could understand it, but he was frightened by the fierce look of the girl who rushed over suddenly. Before he could recover, the girl was slapped by the woman on the side.

When he saw this scene, he simply didn't care if it was a dream or not, and the others couldn't see him, so he just ran over to protect the girl.

But before he stretched out his arms to wrap around the girl, the man beside him picked her up and coaxed her.

The two who had been arguing endlessly stopped arguing because of this incident. The girl who was comforted ran back to the room angrily and closed the door vigorously as if to isolate the two.

But his surroundings became the scene of the room following the girl's vision.

After entering the room, the girl rubbed her slapped cheek with a wooden face, and then seemed to go crazy and threw all the pillows, quilts and even plush dolls on the bed to the ground.Others don't know, but he is watching.That appearance was exactly the same as the one when the man and woman quarreled and swung the cup on the table to the ground.

The girl swung the thing on the ground, and suddenly lay down on the bed, and he stood by the bed and looked at the girl's body on the bed, not knowing what he was thinking.He was thinking about whether to go up and take a look, but he didn't expect the girl to suddenly turn her head to face him, her eyes were open but there was nothing inside, it was very scary.

He was suddenly frightened and stepped back quickly.But the scenery around him suddenly changed.

This time, the surroundings were gray, but it was still the same as before. He saw a girl who looked like she had grown up a little. Even if he stood there from a distance, he knew that her appearance was nothing. appearance.

That girl is zero.

He didn't quite know what happened this time, he only knew that it was probably not a good thing.The people around him were all crying, and the bright red subtitles in front of him made his eyes hurt.Zero standing next to him—the girl seemed to dislike the typesetting, and blocked it with her hand in disgust.

He walked in with the girl, and then saw the man he was looking at before lying safely in a coffin.Even he knew what was going on.

And the girl seemed to be ignorant, she didn't cry or laugh, and she was even able to play peacefully during this period.From then on, he always looked extremely innocent in front of people.

Everyone is saying that person is ignorant, everyone is saying that, including that person's mother.

He felt it was unfair.

Maybe it's because he took advantage of it in this way, he knows things that others don't.For example, that person always slept restlessly in the past few nights, and would suddenly be in a daze during the day, or was alone in bed at night, covering his head with the quilt and crying, and then his tear-filled eyes would suddenly glisten. look in his direction.

The most important thing is that compared to before, that person seems to have thorns hidden all over his body. No one is allowed to play with his name. He treats everyone very well but always likes to walk alone.

He watched from the side, and subconsciously felt that something in that person's heart seemed to be peeling off.But he didn't know what it was, and no one seemed to know where something was collapsing.

He felt sad, uneasy and even wanted to cry, but found that the scene around him turned into that person's room.

Not knowing what happened again, he hurriedly looked around for the trace of that person, but suddenly saw that person suddenly appearing next to him, but it was much smaller than what he looked at before.But this place is a dream after all, so he didn't care so much.Immediately afterwards, he saw that person hesitantly pulling down the black cloth that suddenly appeared in front of him like a curtain.

Maybe it wasn't black cloth in the first place, he suddenly thought.

But when he lowered his head, he suddenly heard the man's sudden scream.

He was also taken aback, and quickly raised his head, only to find that the woman who had slapped that man with her hand was sticking together with another man he had never seen in these scenes.

He is not too old or young now, and he understands many things because of Zero's personality. When he saw these things, he knew it was a bad thing, so he quickly wanted to turn his face away, but when he saw the woman's face, he couldn't help it. He raised his eyebrows.

Although he hadn't seen that woman much, he had carefully looked at the woman's face because of the slap on the girl back then, so he could see that the woman on the bed was basically the same as the original woman.But they look very similar.

The man seemed to be stupefied by fright and stood there, and only looked at the two of them with his eyes as if he had stared at him before.

It seems that from here on, the scenes in the dream became a mess.

Seeing that he was discovered by others, the man jumped up and grabbed that person's neck in a rage. In a blink of an eye, he became that person again and was pushed down the stairs, and finally the surrounding area suddenly turned into a vast expanse of whiteness.

The sudden change in the surroundings gave him a bit of peace. Before he could recover from the previous environment, he saw Zero who was silently squatting in place.

He walked over to pat the man on the shoulder, but found that the man was actually squatting in front of the tombstone, but he was not crying.Looking at the photo on the tombstone, he vaguely guessed who the person in the photo was, so he squatted on the ground with Ling.It didn't take long for Zero to stand up, walking forward as if in a trance.

The surrounding scene turned into the black cloth in front of the messy room before.

He suddenly became frightened and wanted to stop Zero, but suddenly noticed that the person who was hesitant before looked exactly the same as Zero but was much smaller in stature.

And because of this, he didn't have time to stop Zero.And Zero's expression was also different from that of the much younger man, but he tore off the black cloth entirely with impatience on his face.

Behind the black cloth is the woman who slapped Zero before. The woman looked at Zero and waved and smiled as if she was saying something, then she carried a small bag and pushed Zero forward as if she wanted to go out with Zero.

He guessed right, the woman was indeed going out with Zero, and Zero's behavior was also in line with his cognition.After going out, Zero goes to the bookstore besides the snack bar, and he always listens to music when he hitches a ride.

Suddenly, the woman beside Zero gradually became transparent, and then Ling was left sitting alone in the car, still leaning against the window and listening to music with earphones, but his angry face still turned dead Shen Shen no longer saw any light.

He suddenly felt a heart-wrenching pain.

The man got out of the car suddenly and seemed to be walking aimlessly.Suddenly, there was the screeching sound of a car slamming on the brakes from far and near, and the man seemed to have heard it and took a step or two back and covered his face with his hands, as if he was blocking something.

Immediately afterwards, he heard louder shouts from all around him, and the dark scene in front of his eyes returned to the original one.

And in front of him was Ling who was squatting on the ground alone.

As if someone shouted something, Zero suddenly raised his head, then stood up and looked in a certain direction.

He also looked over, and in front of him was the figure of the father and daughter whom he had first seen before.The father and daughter didn't notice him and Ling, but they were happily talking and walked forward, and the father who carried his daughter on his shoulders walked very smoothly with every step.

But even so, he followed Zero and chased after the father and daughter's back, but he still couldn't catch up.

He suddenly understood something, reached out and grabbed Zero's arm. "Zero." He shouted tremblingly, and the man seemed to have heard it, and suddenly stopped, but looked around.

He followed and saw his young self squatting on the ground in the same shape as Zero before.

Zero seemed a little hesitant, but he still walked in the direction of his childhood.

"...Hey..." He suddenly heard such a voice, and suddenly woke up from the dream, and saw Ling looking at him weakly.

He didn't know how he was feeling right now, so he just yelled blankly. "Zero,... I'm here."

That person curled his lips in disdain. "Of course I know you're here...you're pressing my hand." When he said this, the man's voice was also very hoarse, which contrasted with the pale and sickly, making him very unbearable.

He froze for a moment, and quickly pulled out the hand that was pressed under his head.But because he didn't know what to say, he fell silent with that person.

In the end, he could only be the one who spoke first, after all, Zero looked like that "Well, do you still remember..." He asked cautiously.

"What……?"

"Well, nothing."

The man hummed, raised his hand and tapped his head. "I just remember I kind of snapped the chain and... felt like my hand was being crushed."

That person's voice was as innocent as possible, and he could only smile helplessly. Fortunately, the chains that connected him to her were restored to their original state that day.

But what he will worry about next is the attack of those assassination troops.