[Tutorial] Self-indulgence

I think what happened today can be used to illustrate the true meaning of it.

It's called: You never know what's going on in a teenager's mind.

For example, after Xiaochun fell into the water today and was rescued by a boy whom he had never seen before, Gangji boy surprisingly ignored me, and as a result, I had to go to school again under his identity.

I don't care if that's the case, really.After all, this young boy's mood has a lot of ups and downs, but I can barely analyze it.

...but can anyone tell me what the short-legged baby told me about the idea of ​​adding Skylark?

I was invited by Gokudera and Yamamoto during the class break, or dragged one by one and brought to the school rooftop for lunch. When the two teenagers, Gokudera and Yamamoto, were having a daily right-handed battle, Reborn jumped out of nowhere. It means that the family of the stupid gang needs to expand, and the chairman of the committee should be tricked into the family with a sack.

Leaving aside the content of my summary, "I just don't think it's unrealistic..." I opened the bento box without even looking at the contents inside, just picked up a chopstick and stuffed it in my mouth, and then muttered vaguely. "I want Hibari to join..." This kind of thing can be seen by anyone as impossible.

Wait for now, when did Brother Que join?

In the past few days, my mind has been dealing with the things I watched ten years later and analyzing the mind of a young boy who has reached puberty, so I can't think of the plot direction, which I have played with a few years ago.

"...Wait, what's this smell like?" I suddenly felt a weird sour and bitter taste in my mouth, and I wanted to spit it out but was hindered by the presence of those two people, so I had to take out the furoshiki of the bento box to block it mouth, then turned his head and spit out the food that he had only chewed two or three mouthfuls.Then he quickly picked up the water and ran to the side to rinse his mouth.

"What's the matter Judaime?! Could it be that the food was poisoned by someone?" Seeing my wrinkled face, I don't know where I was thinking, and suddenly I ran out with a bomb between my fingers to kill the so-called poisoned food. The guy found it and fried it to pieces.

I didn't have time to stop it, so I could only wave my hand weakly. Fortunately, Yamamoto, who is all-round in sports, quickly grabbed him from behind the prison temple, otherwise I don't think the three of us will be used to go to school for the next week.

It must be lying in the hospital, the cause is a fracture or fracture, various internal and external injuries, and the murder weapon is always someone's kidnapper.

"Did you notice something was wrong at the first time?" The baby showed a smile that looked bad, and then looked at me and blinked. "Although the weight of Biyangqi's poisonous food has been reduced, she can still detect it within five seconds after taking it in, and quickly use water to remove the aftertaste in her mouth, and when she spit it out, she can cover her appearance with something... this is considered You are excellent."

The little baby said that he was satisfied with my behavior, and then jumped to Yamamoto and Gokuji to say something.

I leaned on the wall with one hand, and because I was a little exhausted by the food, I could only stare weakly at his back to express my indescribable indignation.

Even though I usually look careless and behave vulgarly, I am still a woman who cares about other people's eyes, okay? Even after ten years have passed, my soul still maintains the heart of a 16-year-old girl!

Just when I was thinking about whether to go to the infirmary, Guiji and Yamamoto walked towards me at the same time with a worried look, and then supported me from left to right. "Mr. Reborn said that Judaime caught a cold and hurt your stomach because of what happened this morning. Please let me, who is right and left hand, take you to the infirmary." He said to me with a smile on his face, and quickly twisted Eyebrows put on a fierce look and stared at Yamamoto. "Baseball idiot, let me go."

"Gang, if you don't exercise a lot, it won't work. Didn't you just go to the infirmary to lie down in the infirmary not long ago? Let me help you." Completely ignoring the malice of the prison temple, even poisoned me According to my own understanding, the poisonous matter turned out to be that Yamamoto, who had not exercised enough, leaned my whole body against him as if he was competing with Guiji.

I have no idea about your energetic disputes, but can you stop torturing me... Now I don't share any sense of exhaustion with that boy hiding in my space.

"Idiot doesn't seem to want to go to the infirmary. You can send Idiot to the school's reception room. It's a good place to rest there." Uncle Reborn flashed his dark and malicious eyes and made a suggestion.

I shook my head violently, "No, no, there's only me—uh," halfway through the words, the impact of Reborn's kick on the stomach was forcefully suppressed, and it made me bend down in pain and think It's better to shrink into a ball.

But this Mr. Mafia, who has made me so miserable, has no intention of letting me go. "You can see that the stupid gang is already a little delirious from the pain, take him to the reception room quickly."

With trembling hands, I pointed at him with the last bit of strength. Before I passed out, my only thought was: You are cruel, Second Generation Ancestor.

When my consciousness sank, I happened to see Ah Gang squatting in the middle of that space in a daze, I don’t know what he was thinking, his face sometimes smiled and sometimes worried, just when I was about to step forward, I saw him suddenly showing extreme grievances After the expression on his face, he stopped in his tracks.

[Gang Ji. ] I called him in a low voice, but I didn't know what to say, so I could only sigh. […This is really…]

Although I don't know what he's wronged...but it's better to let him be alone at this time. This child, Tsuna Ji, is the type who endures everything in front of others and rarely cries even behind his back. He's obviously just a child. …Although in shonen comics, 14 years old is almost old enough, but for me who almost watched him grow up, I still think this boy is a little more ordinary.

An ordinary boy who can act like a baby and cry, and sometimes relies on his momentary bravery to be quick, but when he turns his head, he still thinks about going to play with his friends.

I looked at him, who was almost turning his back on me, bent his eyes with a smile, and said softly, "Thank you for your hard work."

In short, this boy is destined to be difficult to be ordinary, so until he is completely extraordinary, I'd better stay with this boy.

Well, although I thought as if I could leave immediately, but thinking so, I actually didn't know if I could leave or how.

All in all, that ten years later is probably ten years after the normal Tsunayoshi Sawada without me in his body.

In other words, if I am not like this, what kind of future will I be in?

...I really can't think of it.

"...Gakudera, Yamamoto..." After my body almost recovered, I opened my eyes and saw the ceiling of the reception room of Chairman Hibari, whom I had the honor to meet once. "If you don't die, you won't die. Why don't you understand." I almost cried and said this sentence, and then jumped off the extremely elastic sofa. "I'm fine now so let's go."

"Judaime...?" Gokuji, who hadn't caught up with my rhythm, looked at me blankly, as if he was about to ask me why I was so anxious, when the door was suddenly pushed open.

I was so scared that I hugged my head and squatted down, only to find that a large group of French plane heads walked in.By the way, I didn't know anyone in the nose of the plane except Sokabi, and there was no Sokabi.

Probably because he misunderstood my actions, Gujiji immediately put on an expression of "how dare you scare Judaime" without hesitation and used a few bombs to bombard a group of people who saw outsiders invading the Chairman's site and were about to bombard them. The discipline committee member who went out was blown unconscious.

I guarantee the power of the bomb is super effective, and it can immediately hurt you when it hits the street, but it is obviously not suitable for such a medium-to-long-distance weapon in this environment, so the athletic boy with melee attack ability Yamamoto used his potential as a future killer with one blow.

The people who poured in were almost knocked down, and the expression on my face was almost numb.

"You guys? What the hell is this?!" The last one to enter the arena was Kusakabe, who I know well, when he saw the disciplinary committee members all over the floor, and the prison temple Yamamoto, who was obviously the one who made the shot, squatted behind them and kept holding his head. For me, his expression also went numb. "What's going on... Sawada."

"Caobier, I can explain it! Really! I'm about to cry╥﹏╥" I quickly stood up and looked at him with the expression of a strong man trying to save me.

The expression on his face and facial features shifted by two centimeters and then floated back. "What's that thing behind the grass wall... and this kind of situation," he froze on the spot suddenly, then turned his head and shouted with the last will, "...Chairman..." Then he was kidnapped Pulled aside.

"You are blocking the way." Chairman Yunque, who said this without any sense of guilt, raised his eyebrows after seeing the scene in the reception room, and fixed his eyes on me who was huddled up and wanted to reduce my sense of existence to zero. "Wow, nice job."

I remember the last time he cried three or five high school students who had been blackmailing outside the school all the year round, or the judo club who came to Bingsheng Middle School to find excitement in a group, that's what he said.

I feel that if things go on like this, my heart will go into cardiac arrest.

"That... I can explain it, Chairman Skylark." I made up my mind to stand up straight and prepared to speak eloquently, but before I could organize my words, Prison Temple rushed over.

"This place has been occupied by our Pengelie [-]th generation family as a secret stronghold, you bastard...!" As a young master of medium and long distances, the consequences of recklessly rushing up to fight against the king of melee combat can only be In the middle of speaking, he was pumped to the abdomen, and the whole person lost consciousness and collapsed to the ground.

Yamamoto stepped forward and prepared to say a few words, but how could the chairman of the committee allow the prey who came to his own site to say a word or two leisurely and then put it back, so he took the lead and yanked it.

"Wow, it's so dangerous." I don't know if it's because of his intuition or because of his so-called killer's potential, Yamamoto dodged Hibari's kidnapper two or three times in a row, and then confidently grabbed Chairman Hibari's kidnapper, and his preparations continued. When talking about the previous topic, Skylark, who had already seen Yamamoto's routine, took out another kidnapper who didn't know where it was hidden, and now the two main combat forces on my side were completely declared dead.

The only thing that can be said is that the chairman was merciful and didn't break Yamamoto's arm.

"...Wait, don't throw it away!" Seeing him leading a person with one hand and about to throw it out of the window, I hurriedly called out to him, "Throw it down the cliff and something will happen, Chairman, for the sake of Bingsheng, it has been built...built all the year round... "I was stared at by him and couldn't think of anything to say for a while, but seeing him in the posture of saying it or throwing it away instantly activated my whole brain. "For the sake of the beautiful campus environment that Bingsheng Middle School has built all year round, you must not do this, Chairman! Isn't our school proud of the fact that all the students in the school have a good campus environment and beautiful campus scenery? If you fall like this, you will die Things are not in harmony and the evaluation may be..." I gestured with my finger. "Down a little bit..."

In fact, it doesn't feel like it's going down at all. No one seems to be surprised by this school except for what. Some parents even send their children here because of the name.

In the name of chairman Mu Yunque, send off children who don't listen to discipline.

In short, the parents of the school and even the chairman himself expressed their satisfaction, so no one can say anything.Not only can the school make money and students, but it can also make parents feel at ease about their children. Chairman Skylark can also exercise his body occasionally. It's really... not bad.

I swallowed my saliva and continued, "And we came here to find... you."

He stopped and raised an eyebrow at me. "Huh?" He said and threw the two people in his hand to the ground.

Listening to those two dull crashing sounds, I could imagine my fate would be even more miserable if I didn't agree.

[What is this scenario? ! ] I suddenly heard Tsunaki's panicked voice, but it's a pity that I can't take care of other things at this time.

So I yelled at him loudly, and even felt that this kind of myself was a bit tragic. [Quiet, in short, life or death depends on this battle——! ] After I said this to Tsunayoshi, I began to focus all my attention on Hibari.

He raised his eyebrows and looked at me with a look that was better than nothing, but it made me extremely nervous.

If it hadn't been for seeing him kill that large group of people and the misery of that group of people, I certainly wouldn't be as scared as I am now. "That..." I took a deep breath, trying to keep myself as usual. "Chairman..." I tried to speak, and after confirming that my voice was not trembling, I immediately spoke to him in a more cheerful tone.

"Chairman, Chairman, are you interested in fighting with a ridiculously strong baby! Not only the baby, but also Italy's most potential killer and a hidden character, so that the chairman will never be bored in his life!" I looked at it Looking at the table behind him, he quickly turned around and grabbed a pen and paper to quickly write a few words on it. "If you are interested, please join us..." I paused, and then quickly made up a plausible name. "The newly established clam club...only by joining can we have so many privileges."

"No." He refused flatly. "Are you ordering me, herbivore." The next moment, the chairman raised the duckweed cane to me.

I spared a little energy to analyze his words a little bit, and thought that he might think that he can fight whoever he wants to fight, and he can't use a piece of paper to restrain the class, and then quickly started the second round of favors Raiders. "...Please save face, think about the mobile phone back then, Chairman, I lent you the mobile phone without saying a word."

At the same time, I didn't feel that Hibari was in a state of attacking for a while, and I even started talking to Tsunayoshi.

[In short, are you not angry? ] I looked at the chairman while talking to Tsuna. [I figured it out or what?Well, I was wrong, taking away the dominance of your body or something, but you always felt something was wrong at that time. ]

When I saw that boy appearing, I felt an inexplicable sense of panic. If I let him out, I always feel that I can’t apologize to others, and... I still have a little selfishness.

The boy's gaze made me feel like I was being watched, not looking at Tsunaki but looking at me in Tsunaki's body...

[Is it because of me that Zero will do this? ]

...It's better not to say this well.

[Well, this sentence expresses a bit...]

Suddenly, I remembered something like a memory fragment.

It seems to be me when I was a child, I was like a little fool in the countryside and fields, and then I was besieged by a group of geese and chased me around for a long time, and my ass was screwed by the geese, which caused me to run away when I saw the geese for a while... ...Wait, why do you recall this kind of memory that almost everyone has?

I subconsciously glanced at the chairman, and felt that the memory scene was a bit similar to the present...the kind of behavior that saw the geese that attacked me fiercely, which caused them to run away immediately when they met again...

"What are you thinking?"

"Damn it, I almost died!" I hugged my head and shrank to the side because I was too far away and was almost hit by the kidnapper that Lark suddenly swung over, and because Lark kicked the prison temple and Yamamoto on the ground, I had no choice but to Stand back. "...I... I'm not thinking about anything, I'm just thinking about what to eat tomorrow... Hmm... The buns on Bingsheng Street are super delicious, juicy and thin...or the fried shrimp burgers recently launched by fast food restaurants..." I randomly picked one The reason is trying to muddle through.

[Do you know that it's too dangerous to be in the next Olympics...] I couldn't help but complained to Tsunayoshi, and then continued the previous topic. [Your expression of that sentence is a bit wrong...forget it. ] I secretly sighed and tried to express my feelings to him as straightforwardly as possible.

Although I don't know what he is upset about, but at least tell him that I don't have the idea of ​​replacing him.

After listening to my words, he suddenly asked such a question that I didn't know how to answer. [...Zero has been staying here, won't it be boring? ]

At that time, when Gangji was still very young and his self-awareness was not yet strong, I stayed here almost all day, unless he talked to me.

If you want to say whether you will...

[No, and I still have those games in my mind.Hey, I don’t know if I don’t tell you. Although I don’t remember many things, I do remember many games. If it doesn’t work, I can watch TV and so on based on the memory in my mind. ]

I stopped.

Is it really not boring, I asked myself.

Maybe it wasn't boring at first.But the longer the time, the more negative feelings accumulated in this state.

I want to talk to someone, I want to communicate with people, I want someone to see me, I don't want to be here alone.It's boring to keep playing games that can recite the ending of the route over and over again, it's boring to keep reading graphic novels that can already be recited backwards, and it's boring to stay in such a place with nothing.

I want to be discovered by someone, I want to be watched by someone, I want to get rid of such a place.

But can't take any action.

If you do something, then the child who is with you will definitely be hurt. The child's spirit has not yet fully possessed the awareness of the difference between himself and others, so he can only stay in that space day after day, and then wait for that space. Child... Waiting for the day when I can speak and communicate normally with the only Tsuna who sees me.

Some things are not the parties involved, and it is impossible to understand such feelings. If you look at it from one side, you can only see half of everything.

[...So I won't feel bored. ] I lowered my voice and finished the last unfinished sentence.

To be sure, I asked Gang Ji again, [Is Gang Ji really not angry? ] Having received a definite answer, I concentrated all my energy and never cared about Tsunayoshi again.

The young man in front of him can't just say a few words--!

"...Wait, are you going to kill me with a kidnapper? You won't kill me with a kidnapper, Chairman." I looked at the kidnapper who almost brushed my side with a dark face, staring but didn't dare to look He could only look down on the place where Lark's face was lowered. "Fortunately, I escaped..."

"Wow, I actually escaped..." I don't know what his expression was when he said this, but just based on his almost emotionless words, I intuited that this person should be in a normal mood?

"...bring it."

"What?" I looked at the hand stretched out in front of my eyes like a fool, and stared blankly at Yunque's expressionless face. "What... this?" Then I reflexively took out my phone and handed it to Skylark's hand.

He put the phone in his pocket expressionlessly, but reached out to me again. "Bring that thing."

I frowned and thought about it carefully, and suddenly realized what he was talking about, and quickly handed him the piece of paper that I wrote casually into the Judaime small workshop family.

After he signed his name smartly, he turned around and said to me, "Clean up this place within 5 minutes", before turning around and leaving.

"Wait!" I remembered the mobile phone I handed over before, and wanted to ask him to get it back, but I saw him staring at my hand holding his arm with a cold face and raised eyebrows. "I..." Now it's not loose or not, so I had to bite the bullet and make up another sentence. "Because I'm new to the agency... so can you give us a word..."

Unexpectedly, Chairman Yunque agreed boldly and domineeringly, picked up the pen on the table and pulled out a piece of white paper to write down a line of big characters.

"By the way, breakfast tomorrow." He suddenly looked back at me after putting down his pen, "Two copies."

After saying this, Chairman Hibari walked away without looking back.

So I didn't have time to reach out this time, so I could only stare at the paper he threw in my hand, with the four Chinese characters of "Only me alone" written on it in a daze.

Why don’t you write about the sky and the earth, I am the only one respected? Mr. Chairman, and the last sentence is asking me to bring breakfast... Is it the day when I didn’t return my mobile phone...

I suddenly want to cry, Gangji.

The author has something to say: I was a little sad to have something growing in my eyes, so I went to the hospital in the morning to have my eyes fixed, and after it was fixed, I could not open my eyes and squint all afternoon... This is the great sadness...

I'm sorry Chairman, I couldn't hold back and played with you...