reverse crush

Pei Zhenyan only flipped through a few pages and didn't read carefully. Firstly, the time did not allow it. Second, he was already feeling very uncomfortable just from the cursory glance. Year.

He carefully put the diary into the inside pocket of his coat, afraid that Lu would misunderstand that he didn't pay attention to it, so Baba explained: "I'll read it when I go back."

"Okay." Lu just nodded.

Pei Zhenyan said again: "But I didn't keep a diary, so I can't take you back to participate in my two years."

"It's okay, I've seen a lot myself." Lu only opened his arms slightly, and said, "Let me hug you."

Pei Zhenyan suppressed the turmoil in his heart, and gave Lu only a bear hug seemingly carelessly.

He really wanted to say sorry to Lu Zhi.

But he knew that Lu only gave him the diary, not to make him feel sorry.

As usual, Lu Zhi also prepared a cake for Pei Zhenyan.

Pei Zhenyan made a wish for the third time today.

When the school celebrates its birthday, the two expressed wishes are "friendship lasts forever" and "I hope that in June next year, everyone in the second and eighth grades of senior high school will be admitted to the ideal university".

When celebrating his birthday with his parents, he wished "Parents are in good health" and "Parents will celebrate my birthday with me next year".

Together with Lu Zhi, he made a wish "I hope we will be together forever" and "I hope we can get the understanding and support of our parents".

These wishes are of course his heart's desire, but more or less it has the meaning of watching people order dishes.

There was only a third wish that was silently muttered in my heart, and it was the same every time.

He promised: "I hope that Lu can realize his dream only through recruiting."

He has a lot of reluctance and selfishness, but he gets rid of them all in order to bless Lu Zhi's future.

On the first night at the age of 17, Pei Zhenyan stayed up all night.

"April 20, 4XX

Today is the third day since I broke up with Pei Zhenyan. I have never had such a long fight with him.

If not, let's make up with him tomorrow. "

"April 20, 4XX

There is no reconciliation.

Because I can't look him in the eyes anymore, if I stay by his side like this, he will soon find out that something is wrong with me.

Lu Xuewen hit my mother again.

A little numb. "

"April 20, 8XX

Today is the 118th day of breaking off diplomatic relations with Pei Zhenyan.

I used to think that it didn't matter where I was, but when I came to a strange place and surrounded by strange classmates and teachers, I realized that I was really lonely.

He never expected to meet Pei Zhenyan in Minghui.I thought he was going to Jialan.

I know he is for me, in fact, I am very happy, and I no longer feel lonely, at least in the next three years I can still see him often.

I'm in class 1, he's in class 20, maybe not often.

But enough. "

"April 20, 8XX

Today is the 121st day since I broke up with Pei Zhenyan.

The past few days have been military training, very sun-dried, and my face and neck are peeling.

Pei Zhenyan really can't get a tan no matter how much he tans. Yesterday he was thinking that his hair was too long, but today it just happened to be short.

He is still very popular and has many friends.

happy for him.

But I should have been the one with the best relationship. "

"April 20, 3XX

On the 357th day, it has been almost a year. I don't know when I have adapted to the life of not being friends with Pei Zhenyan.

I won the monthly exam, Pei Zhenyan, and I heard him calling my name while chatting with his friends on the cafeteria road, so I guess he was talking about the monthly exam.

I haven't heard him call me for a long time, so I was happy for a day.

This month saw the third pair of new shoes on his feet.

My height is 183.9, can I stop growing, I don’t even eat dinner, I’m so hungry that I’m dizzy. "

"April 20, 9XX

Today is the 514th day of breaking off diplomatic relations with Pei Zhenyan

She is a sophomore in high school, assigned to Class 7, and Pei Zhenyan is in Class [-] next door.

I can really see him often. "

"April 20, 11XX

Day 599.

In today's monthly exam, I made a mistake on the last big math question.

Barber? Barber shop tony cut my head, and the asking price is 200, which is a low level.Just straighten your hair, it's a little cold.

Happy 16th birthday to Pei Zhenyan. "

"February 20, 2XX

Today is the 682nd day since I broke up with Pei Zhenyan.

I don't want to stay at home anymore, I'm so bored.

If this is marriage, then fortunately I don't have to get married in this life.

Among the several houses in my family, I still chose Jiangnan Huating, which is well decorated and not far from the school.

The most important thing is that Jiangnan Huating has Pei Zhenyan.

It's really strange, even though I can see him every day at school, I miss him more and more.

The essence of human beings is indeed greed. "

The diary records the day of their reconciliation.

Lu Zhi flamboyantly wrote:

"Reconciled, no more fucking diaries.

because I can't remember

end of text

I can't remember a few characters written in a large size, and I can feel his ecstasy through the handwriting.

Through those records that did not need to be repeated, Pei Zhenyan accompanied Lu Zhi to walk through the turbulent years again.

His soul seems to be attached to Lu Zhi's body, to personally experience the youth's forward and backward, unspeakable loneliness and sorrow, groping at a loss in the small and taboo feelings, wanting to get close but not knowing what to do. Unable to suppress.

He kept thinking, if only he could like Lu Zhi earlier.

If he hadn't been so self-righteous about his identity as a straight man, Lu Zhi would not have dared to just run away from him.

If he wasn't so stubborn and could stalk Lu Zhi like he did in kindergarten, it would be impossible for Lu Zhi to push him away?But he, who didn't know anything, regarded coming to Minghui as a great compromise and gift to Lu Zhitian, and blamed Lu Zhitian for not knowing good and bad.

On the night of his father's wedding, Lu Zhi came to look for him, and he punched Lu Zhi in anger. Lu Zhi didn't say a word, just endured the pain, nosebleed, and carried him off the roof step by step. Blood dripped onto the back of his hand.

Putting himself in his shoes, he felt so wronged that he was about to die.

With no friends and disharmony in the family, Lu was just like a lonely planet at that time, only chasing dreams, and even a full meal was a luxury.

His Lu Zhi could have spared so much suffering.

After entering December, the early enrollment of all famous schools has started one after another.

Almost all the students who meet the enrollment qualifications have signed up. After all, if they can be successfully recommended, they will be able to get out of the misery early.

Although high school is a time when many people dream of going back after leaving, the students in it can't feel its beauty. In the face of the temptation of getting admission tickets to prestigious schools, ending high school career early is just a trivial matter. the price.

It's not even a price at the moment, but an additional surprise.

According to Pei Zhenyan and Lu Zhi's results and previous competition records, they can all be eligible for recommendation.

On this day, Tang Ning told the students of Class A in class: "The admission registration for University B has started. Students who are interested will come to me after class and ask for the registration form."

The early enrollment of top-level colleges and universities, even a school like Minghui, can't have a few students a year. ?"

"That's right." Tang Ning also smiled, looking at Pei Zhenyan meaningfully.

Lu only noticed Tang Ning's eyes and expression, and after a little thought, he understood something. He asked Pei Zhenyan, "Are you reporting?"

"No report." Pei Zhenyan without hesitation.

Tang Ning asked about his favorite school before, and he said that he planned to take the college entrance examination.

Tang Ning tried to persuade him for a long time but did not persuade him. As Pei Zhenyan's teacher and cousin, she was so anxious that she wanted to knock open Pei Zhenyan's head to see what was inside, so that a person could be so stubborn. : "Give me a reasonable reason, don't tell me you want to win the first prize, I don't believe you can spell it like this for such a false name."

The reason I just made up was preempted, so Pei Zhenyan had to make up another one: "I don't want to part with my classmates and friends."

"Are you in a relationship, huh?" Tang Ning narrowed his eyes suspiciously, "There's no need to deny it, no matter how deep a friend's relationship is, it's impossible to reach this level."

"No." Pei Zhenyan bit him to death and refused to admit it.

"Are you a fucking stubborn donkey? The chances of you guys making it to the end at this age are almost none. After three years, there's a high probability that you won't even remember her name. Why are you taking such a big risk for her?" Tang Ning Looking at him is like looking at a mentally retarded person, "Is it uncomfortable to go home and sleep late? Isn't it good to have a long vacation? Doesn't it feel fulfilling to see your classmates are so hot?" feat..."

Pei Zhenyan: "..."

Lu Zhi also couldn't understand Pei Zhenyan's choice, and asked with a frown, "Why?"

Pei Zhenyan raised his eyebrows. What do you want to say next? It is inconvenient to say it directly. The Journey to the West group is in front of you, and the walls have ears.

He sent? WeChat.

pzy: "Are you willing to bear me?"

If Lu just wants to participate in the recruitment, he has to pass the college entrance examination. If he passes the initial and re-examination, his college entrance examination score must be at least higher than the local first-line. If the final score is exceptionally good, he can also get an additional top level A university degree, that is, dual enrollment status.

Of course, Lu Zhi could guess that Pei Zhenyan chose the college entrance examination because he wanted to stay with him for a few more months, but there are uncertainties in the college entrance examination after all, if the exam fails, both ends will fail.

lj: "It has nothing to do with reluctance, why don't you let me try to fly if you are reluctant to part with me?"

"You go to your sister after class and ask for the registration form"

They tacitly agreed to make progress together and become better people together. The two have different ideals, and a temporary parting is inevitable.

If the two feelings last for a long time, then? How can it be day and night.

But Pei Zhenyan was determined to stay and take the college entrance examination, and no one could persuade him.

After returning home that day, Lu only planned to do his ideological work again.

Pei Zhenyan waved his hand to stop him: "I have confidence and ability. This is my choice after careful consideration, not on impulse. Just trust me and stay with me at ease."

If the odds of winning the college entrance examination were not great, he would never be so willful.

His grades have always been stable. Even though he can't guarantee that everything will go well, he can afford this small probability risk.

99.9% of the students take the college entrance examination, so why not?

Just like he once gave up Jialan's early enrollment for Lu Zhi and successfully entered Minghui with the high school entrance examination.

But Lu Zhi didn't want Pei Zhenyan to go through the same thing again.

"Let me ask you, if our roles were reversed today, would you take the walk or the college entrance examination?"

After Pei Zhenyan asked this sentence, Lu Zhi finally had nothing to say.

If it were him, he would definitely make the same decision.

And this time is different.

In the third year of junior high school, Pei Zhenyan was disappointed and unwilling, and spent the years before the high school entrance examination alone.

But this time they will go through this journey together. All the pressure and fatigue of the third year of high school will turn bitterness into sweetness.

Before you spread your wings and fly high, you must have the most relentless watch.

Lu just couldn't resist Pei Zhenyan, but he didn't forget to give him a way out: "There is still a period of time before the registration deadline, and there will be early admissions from other schools in the future. If you regret it, go for it."

"I actually gave up my recommendation twice for the same person." Pei Zhenyan didn't listen to what he said at all, and was already moved by himself, "Is this enough to be recorded in the annals of love history?"

Lu just looked at him, and suddenly felt a little regretful: "It's a pity that you can't have children, otherwise when I get old, I can give my grandson a good show."

"?" Pei Zhenyan was puzzled, and he didn't have time to refute Lu Zhi. He still couldn't have children, "What are you showing off? Shouldn't it be me and my grandson who show off?"

Lu just touched the corner of his mouth lightly: "I can show off to my grandson how much his grandma likes me."

The author has something to say: I know what you are worried about! !

Take it easy, Proverbs' college entrance exam will go very well