Window 2, Seventh Canteen

The night is getting darker and the wind is getting colder.

Han Zilu and Lu Teng walked against the cold wind for four to ten minutes, and finally stopped at the gate of the community where Han Zilu lived.

Along the way, Lu Teng walked on the right side of Han Zilu, keeping a distance of about 25 centimeters from him.

Lu Teng has worked with Han Zilu for more than a year, so he knows his temper somewhat. The 25cm standard was also found out in getting along.

Han Zilu usually doesn't talk much, and he has an aura of not being close to strangers. He has a very clear safe distance when dealing with unfamiliar people.

There seems to be a circle that divides the boundaries. This "circle" is centered on him and has a diameter of about [-] centimeters. Once a stranger enters this circle that belongs to him, even in the elevator, he can clearly feel Han Zilu's resistance.

It was a very subtle change in expression, maybe it was just looking away, or slowing down the breathing, or just a few tenths of a centimeter at the corners of the mouth.

For colleagues, this circle is usually kept at about forty centimeters.

Friends are closer, 25 to 35. Of course, these are ordinary friends. Lu Teng knows that Han Zilu has many close friends, but he has never met any of them.

When he was in Huasheng together before, Han Zilu gave Lu Teng a distance of about [-] centimeters. Of course, later he deliberately flattered Han Zilu again and again to make Han Zilu feel disgusted. Before he left Huasheng, the distance was back to the strange Human eighty centimeters.

Just because he knew Han Zilu's temper, Lu Teng didn't dare to get too close to him easily. When the two of them walked side by side, he also tried patiently, starting to approach slowly from 25 centimeters, and didn't realize that Han Zilu was turning to the left until [-] centimeters away. Take half a step.

This is the shortest distance Han Zilu can bear, and Lu Teng fixed the distance at this point.

Although not close, he was already very satisfied.

Seeing Han Zilu tonight was already a pleasant surprise, things will take their time in the future, don't rush.

Of course, this is not to say that Lu Teng is not in a hurry. When he was in the bar, he was very impulsive to get Han Zilu drunk directly. .

Not to mention that the possibility is slim, even if it is a fluke, and something happens to Han Zilu, after that, it will only end in a complete goodbye.

Lu Teng felt that Han Zilu looked like a cat.

It's not a domestic cat that can be seen everywhere, but some kind of wild cat. With a beautiful protective color, he will hide in the shade of the tree and observe humans condescendingly. If you want to approach him, you must not impulsively climb the tree. Stay under the tree, keep a distance, be able to see him, and let him see you.

Then one day, the feral cat finally gets interested in you, and that's it.

It sounds simple, but Lu Teng knows the difficulty. As a hunter, he can't take the initiative to attack the prey. The anxiety often makes him uncomfortable, but he can't bear it.

It was difficult at first, but gradually I got used to it.

Sometimes Lu Teng even felt that it was good to be able to wait passively like this. Or, the reason why Han Zilu attracted him so much was because of his untamed wildness.

Lu Teng looked at Han Zilu's profile all the way, and the more he looked at it, the more he liked him, and he didn't even care if he liked someone else.

Instead, he felt that the current Han Zilu had a more alluring aura.

Like a wounded wild animal, it has become more unpredictable, licking the wound alone, exuding a desperate and dangerous breath.

And the red color on the wound also made his vigorous body more attractive.

To catch such an animal, one must be more careful and cautious.

If you catch it, you will feel more fulfilled.

After Han Zilu stopped for half a minute, Lu Teng took a half step back knowingly, "You don't want me to know where you live, do you? Then I won't let you in."

Han Zilu: "Well, I'm leaving."

Lu Teng paused for a moment, then suddenly caught up a few steps, breaking through the 25 cm limit.

Han Zilu showed a patient expression, and didn't back away immediately, "What's wrong?"

Lu Teng pretended not to know, "Can I come to you again tomorrow?"

"I have to get ready to go home, I don't have time."

Lu Teng: "Then give me your new number?"

Han Zilu's expression changed, and he took half a step back, "Don't contact me in the future."

Lu Teng: "Then I won't leave today. If you don't tell me, I will follow you all the time. Unless you kill me, I will go home with you."

Han Zilu: "What's the point? I can't do it with you."

Lu Teng: "I know, it's okay, I can wait, as long as you give me a chance, I'm sure, you will fall in love with me sooner or later."

Han Zilu: "Then wait until the day comes." After he finished speaking, he turned to leave.

Lu Teng blocked his way, "I'll be your ordinary friend now, can't you! You can use me as a spare tire, and you can just sit here and watch, can't you!"

Han Zilu: "Is it useful if I say no? Even if I move house and change my job and change my number, if you want to find me, you can still find me."

Lu Teng: "That's because I care about you! Even if you like others, I don't care, because I believe that no one will love you more than me, and I believe that you will change your mind, so I will wait for you! Even if you take me now I don’t care whether I’m a substitute or how long I’m playing, isn’t that enough?”

Lu Teng's words made Han Zilu's chest tight, inexplicably angry, and his expression quickly cooled down, "I don't want to give you the number, and I can't stop you. If you want to follow, just follow."

Lu Teng thumped in his heart, knowing that he had taken that step in a hurry just now, and provoked the wild cat to blow his fur, and retreated to a higher branch.

He didn't dare to follow any further, he just stood there and said good night softly.

Han Zilu returned home drunk, full of unexplainable depression.

When he was in Huasheng before, he had an inexplicable dislike for Lu Teng, but now that feeling is stronger, it seems that the more cautious the other party is towards him, the more disgusted he feels and feels wrong.

He took a good hot bath, temporarily forgot about those troublesome things, and went back to the bedroom with a little drunk.

The moment the light was turned on, the line of sight was attracted by the wreckage of the mobile phone on the ground.

His bedroom is small, and it belongs to the compact and safe layout. The bed is against the wall on three sides, so there is not much space.

Han Zilu threw down the bath towel, squatted down naked, picked up the pieces bit by bit, put them back together, and glued them together with tape.

After finishing it, he stared at the dead body of the phone in a daze.

At this moment, in another bedroom in another city, Jiang Wei was also staring at the phone in a daze.

But unlike Han Zilu, he didn't just stare, but moved.

It's a Nokia I've had all semester, and the numbers on the keys are blurred from the rough treatment I've been having.

Jiang Wei was lying on the bed, listening to rock and roll, and her fingers kept "clicking" on the keys following the rhythm.

He flipped through the text messages, read them all, and started over from the beginning.

He didn't have many text messages with Han Zilu, and the name that appeared more often in the inbox was Zhao Siyuan. At first, Jiang Wei skipped these text messages one by one, and then deleted them all, leaving only Han Zilu in the inbox name.

These are quite normal text messages. They used to look unambiguous, but now my attitude has changed. No matter how I look at them, I feel that there are secrets hidden between the lines.

Jiang Wei tried to send a text message to reveal the secret, trying to find out when Han Zilu started to like him, the more he found out, the more he felt narcissistic.

Because at the end of his excavation, he simply felt that Han Zilu fell in love with him at first sight, otherwise why would he cook noodles for him after get off work?

Otherwise, why is that bowl of noodles so delicious?

Whenever such shameless thoughts popped up, Jiang Wei would have an awkward smirk on his face.

Whenever this happens, he is also very impulsive to send a message to Han Zilu, asking him when he fell in love with him.

But just think about it.

On the train back from Beijing, Jiang Wei thought it over very clearly. He couldn't contact Han Zilu before he figured out how to answer him.

If unrealistic hopes are given to others, the damage will only be greater in the future.

Jiang Wei hoped that he could think about this matter thoroughly. Of course, this issue was more complicated than he imagined.

The sketchbook was used as a diary, recording Jiang Wei's bad things.

First of all, is he gay?Or is he bisexual?To put it simply, whether he can accept having sex with a man, here refers to Han Zilu.

Secondly, does he like Han Zilu?If so, what kind of liking is it, enough for the two to fall in love smoothly?

Furthermore, can he learn the new skill of falling in love with men?After all, he has been heterosexual for more than [-] years, and he has not learned the skills of being in love with girls. Now that he has changed his gender, the situation will only become more difficult.

Furthermore, if he is really with Han Zilu, will dad agree?Grandparents, do you want to explain?

Furthermore, two men live together, even if we leave aside the family aspect, what is the end point when we talk about it?The two men can't get married and have children, and face each other every day, will it be annoying, will he feel regret after decades?

Of course, those "second" and "further" are things to talk about, and Jiang Wei has not struggled with the first one yet.

To be honest, up to now, he also feels that he has nothing to do with the word gay, and he is full of plans, that is, he is bisexual.

He recalled according to a more scientific theory that his previous yy objects seemed to be girls, but that was before, since Han Zilu confessed his love to him, he tried yy kissing Han Zilu a few times, and it seemed that he also had feelings.

In addition to more scientific theories, he has also done a lot of nonsensical aptitude tests, which are of no reference value, so it's fine to have fun.

In general, regarding the first question, he can only guarantee that he is not disgusted with the intimate contact with Han Zilu. Although it has not been further confirmed, Jiang Wei intuitively feels that it should not be a big problem. After all, he also took the initiative to kiss Han Zilu's, and I think it's wonderful when I recall it.

Of course, intuition cannot be used as a basis. According to the conclusions drawn from the Internet for a few days, it is actually very simple to determine the first question. Find a chance and try it with Han Zilu.

Well, it's that thing that Jiang Wei has been thinking about for more than ten years and brainstorming for seven or eight years, and now it seems that there is really hope to experience it.

In fact, if Han Zilu didn't like him, the two of them would try it, and it would be clear at a glance whether it would work or not.But Han Zilu liked him, so he couldn't have the mentality of trying it out.

If it doesn't work, it will be too hurtful.

And then again, if Han Zilu didn't like him, why would he try?

At this point, the first question is stuck.

Jiang Wei was idle and bored, so he thought about the next few questions. Relationships and the like are too complicated, so just skip it. Family and social issues can still be considered.

The main problem here is the family. After all, the current society has a high tolerance for homosexuality. The people around him, let alone discrimination, even many people think that gay is trendy and les is cool.

As for the family, it was mainly his father's attitude. Based on Jiang Wei's understanding of his father, his father had a [-]% chance of accepting that he liked men.

He remembered that during the summer vacation when he first entered college, there was a program on TV that interviewed lesbians. He watched it and thought it was very good, so he yelled that he supported homosexuality. His father was sitting in the back and said that he should support it.

But he added, "Of course, if my own child were gay, I'd still be depressed."

From this, Jiang Wei concluded that the possibility of being accepted is about half.

As for classmates and friends, Jiang Wei didn't have much entanglement. After thinking about it, he didn't think that anyone around him would be against the same. It seemed that his friends, more or less, liked to joke about homosexuality.

For example... Jiang Wei remembered that the night he first met Han Zilu, Zhao Siyuan made fun of him and asked him if he had changed his interest and liked men.

Thinking about it now, that bastard is really a crow's mouth.

Jiang Wei struggled while looking up information at home, time passed quickly, if it wasn't for his aunt who came to clean and cook every morning, noon and evening, he would even forget the time.

It was because the aunt told her that she would not do it today after finishing it, and he realized that the Chinese New Year was coming soon.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve.

Auntie told him Happy New Year in advance, helped to paste the couplets, and then left after filling the refrigerator. At this moment, Jiang Weicai was completely alone.

Dad and the others will not come back in another five or six days.

Jiang Wei thought for a while, took out her phone and read Han Zilu's text message again, thinking about whether to make a phone call to celebrate the New Year, but in the end she didn't do it, and pressed Zhao Siyuan's number instead.

On the other end of the phone, Zhao Siyuan's voice was lazy, "You have no conscience, you still know how to find me?"

Jiang Wei: "What's wrong with me? Why are you always dissatisfied?"

Zhao Siyuan: "Hehe, think for yourself, brother asked you to think, when was the last time I contacted you? It was so easy to find the door god's phone number for you, but you are good, just send me a text message and send me away without a call. At that moment, I thought, if you don't look for me, I will definitely not take the initiative to look for you."

Jiang Wei was too busy to accompany him, so he had a lot of good things to say, it was finally back to normal there, and the topic naturally turned to holiday arrangements and preparations for the New Year.

When Jiang Wei said that he wanted to spend the New Year alone, Zhao Siyuan cursed that he deserved it.

After chatting for more than ten minutes, before hanging up the phone, Jiang Wei suddenly had a flash of inspiration.

Ask Zhao Siyuan, "What do you think of homosexuality?"