self strategy

The next day I greeted Ren Qi's family members and said that a friend of mine was coming. Ren Qi was very excited and kept asking me if the person who was coming was Bian Yiyang.

There was no other way, I could only agree with it, Ren Xun immediately screamed, took my hand and told me to talk more about her in front of Bian Yiyang, I was a little ashamed by her pestering me, and in the end I had to I can agree.

It was quite cold, so I took out my phone to check the time. The hot air I exhaled hit the screen of the phone and immediately turned into a layer of mist. I calculated the time and went out. When I arrived at the destination, it was estimated that the time was almost the same. .

It's the Chinese New Year, I looked at the busy shops around me and thought while rubbing my hands.

In the impression of my previous life, I have been to Ren Qijia three times. The first time was during the summer vacation of my sophomore year. Speaking of it... now this time is much earlier.

The snow on the road was swept aside by the sanitation workers. There are always some children who like to bury their feet in the thick snow on the side of the road. I like that too, but at my age, I still do that kind of thing. Can not help but feel a little naive.

I exhaled slowly, and immediately I could see the water mist appearing in front of my eyes and then disappearing completely. I shrunk my neck and buried my chin in the scarf. While watching the continuous traffic at the station, I stomped my feet and waited for the arrival of the bus.

In the past, I never took the bus, but since I was reborn, taking the bus has become commonplace.

When the car came, it aroused a lot of heat. I hurried into the car and sat in the corner of the last row. There were not many people in the car at this time.

The last row of glass was covered with thick white mist, and the pattern drawn by the previous person's finger could still be vaguely seen.

A heart with several capital letters in the middle, it was probably drawn by a little girl... Those letters may be the name of her lover.

I let out another breath, and I didn't know when my fingers had been put down on the glass.

What is Bian Yiyang doing now?Has he already reached his destination?Or maybe, he's still at home?

Suddenly, I found that I couldn't think about Bian Yiyang's thoughts with my previous thinking.

Bian Yiyang is me, but at this moment, I am no longer Bian Yiyang.

why?I think this way, his various actions, his words, his actions, and his every expression are not within my control. I used to think that I am him, and I will be able to easily grasp his weaknesses. , I will be able to avoid him perfectly.

But gradually, as time went by, I found that I was wrong.

Bian Yiyang is indeed me, he was me once, but not me now.

I met Ren Qi and turned myself into a person who can be silent, endure and avoid.

And when Bian Yiyang met me, he...has long since stopped approaching this "me".

I even feel that Bian Yiyang and I have gradually differentiated into two people, two completely different people.

Bian Yiyang is not me, I am no longer Bian Yiyang, and I have never admitted that I am Ren Qi...

What if it is said that what I like is not myself, but Bian Yiyang?I don't like myself, but I like him...

Before he knew it, Bian Yiyang's name appeared on the glass.

I closed my eyes and gradually realized that whenever I recalled, the protagonist of that memory gradually changed from Ren to Bian Yiyang.

So this also means that I like Yi Yang above, right?

why?Why did Bian Yiyang quietly change my relationship with Ren Qi for six years, a time of rebirth?

you are tired.

There is a voice telling me that you are really tired, whenever you look at that person from a distance, whenever you think about that person at night, whenever you close your eyes and dream about that person...you are thinking about that person Tired of never getting him...

I never think of myself as a flirtatious person. I used to think that I would love Ren Qi forever. However, nothing in the world is constant. A relationship that can never be reciprocated cannot be indefinite. When your heart has exhausted all its strength for a person, you will also be desperate.

So, why do you look at Bian Yiyang, but hesitate to move forward?Is it because of your concerns?Bian Yiyang is paying for you, can't you see?Don't you know that pain?

Since you really like him, do you have the heart to watch him suffer for you?

For the person you like, you have to have the courage to say you like it!

You know, Bian Yiyang likes you so much, he is so...used to forcing a smile.

Ding-dong-

When the car arrived at the stop, I stood up and got out of the car with my head down. The cold air enveloped my whole body in an instant.

I took a step forward and walked towards the agreed direction. From a distance, I saw that slightly lonely figure leaning on the tree.

Today's "I" is still so handsome, slowly raised the corners of his mouth, and walked towards him, "Little Bianer." I called him.

Bian Yiyang turned his head and smiled too. I saw him carrying two bags in his hand, squinted his eyes, wondering what it was, and then, Bian Yiyang handed a bag to me.

I smelled a strong fragrance, similar to coffee chocolate, and as a result, the temperature of the milk tea spread from the palm of my hand to my whole body in an instant, and I suddenly felt much warmer.

"It's said on the Internet, drink chocolate-flavored milk tea to warm up." Bian Yiyang said to me, with one hand on my cheek, "Is it cold?"

An indescribable feeling spread all over my body in an instant. I looked around and found two girls looking at me in amazement, so I felt even more embarrassed.

"Not cold," I replied, and then thought I should say something, so I asked him, "Are you cold?"

His hand suddenly grabbed mine, and I froze immediately. He grinned at me and said, "Come and feel it."

I handed him the milk tea, "It's cold, drink chocolate milk tea."

Bian Yi was stunned for a moment, "Why do you feel like you are advertising when you say this?" Then he put his mouth close to my ear, "Actually, my hands are naturally cold."

Thinking back while walking, Bian Yiyang's hands are naturally cold?It seems that this is indeed the case, he belongs to the kind who can't even cover it.

"Cough, I heard that people with cold hands are devoted to love." Bian Yiyang looked at me and said bluntly.

"Are you so self-proclaimed?" I feel a little embarrassed, and now I understand why girls are shy when they listen to their boyfriends talking about love. After doing it for a long time, it turns out that this feeling is... weird.

"Do you want to buy anything at your house?" Bian Yiyang asked me suddenly.

I glanced at him and didn't know how to answer. I remember when I went to Ren Qijia...

"Okay, go buy it!" Bian Yiyang was not polite, and said buy with a wave of his hand.

When I brought Bian Yiyang into the house carrying a small bag, I suddenly had a very strange feeling...

The family members were quite enthusiastic when they saw Bian Yiyang. When Ren Yan saw Bian Yiyang, he hurriedly dragged me into the bedroom.

"Fuck, big brother! You are a handsome guy in the golden dormitory!" Ren Wei was very excited, "Why didn't you tell me earlier! Ahhh! I haven't dressed up yet, no way..."

"Don't think about it, everyone has someone they are dating." I don't know why, that's what I said.

"Ah..." Ren Tao's mood immediately sank, and then, she looked out the door, I was wondering why she blushed so suddenly, and immediately, someone's arm was on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry little sister, I already have someone I'm dating." Bian Yiyang's exhaled air hit my ear pinna, I don't know if it's because of the high temperature, I feel my ears are a little hot.

That night, Bian Yiyang spent the night at my house. We were lying on the same bed, and Bian Yiyang held me with his arms, preventing me from moving.

Like a cat, he licked my ear, then turned his head to kiss me.

I was made a little strange by him, and felt that this kid seemed to have taken an aphrodisiac suddenly, and there was something wrong with him.

Pushing his face away, "What are you doing! Bian Yiyang! Go to sleep, what kind of sexual harassment are you having at night?" Thinking that Ren Wei and Ren Qi's brothers are still in the next few rooms Lying down, I feel a little flustered.

Bian Yiyang not only didn't stop, but the quarrel became even more merry, "Isn't night time for sexual harassment?" As he spoke, he put his arms around my waist.

I'm ticklish, and the bed is small, so when the two of us made a fuss, I lost my balance and fell under the bed with a thud.

"Ah Qi! Calm down! Go to sleep!" Ren Qi's mother's voice came from the next door.

"Look, tell you to stop making trouble!" I gouged out Bian Yiyang's eyes, the sound insulation of Ren Qi's home is really not good, sometimes when I sleep on Ren Qi's bed, most of the night I can hear his brother Ren Qi watching A'V the sound of.

"Go to my house in the future, my house is soundproof, so you can make any noise." Bian Yiyang stretched out his hand to me and asked me to get up, and said there.

No matter how I heard it, I felt that what he said was wrong, and when I finally recovered, I was pinned on the bed by Bian Yiyang.

"Good night." Bian Yiyang kissed my ear and said softly.

"OK, good night."

In fact, I originally planned to find a time to talk to Bian Yiyang, but listening to his even breathing, I knew that there seemed to be no way tonight.

Time to tell him the truth, I am him and he is my truth.

In fact, I was a little afraid to tell him this. I was afraid that he would not believe it, and I was also afraid that he would have the same worries as me from now on.

But, I think, now that I have recognized everything, there is no need to hold back.

Choose a day and confess your love to Bian Yiyang.

In fact, I like to confess, but I don't like to be confessed, because I always feel that... the confession party has more initiative.

How long?I want to choose a time.

Preferably an auspicious day, and it's not too far away.

It's January now, so let's take February NO.14, Valentine's Day, which is quite emotional.

Do you need to buy something?

I was thinking like this, and I thought the plan would be foolproof, but I didn't expect that a phone call in early February completely negated what I thought.

"Ren Qi, I plan to go abroad. Well, my dad arranged for me. You talked to me so much in those few days, and I understand. I think I should go through more experiences for the future... Thank you, "There was a long silence, he seemed to be brewing something, "Can you... can you wait for me?"

"Ah."

"One and a half to two years..."

"Ah."

"Thank you...I like you."

He hung up before I could respond, and I don't know if I should call back at this point and tell him I like him.

After hesitating on the phone for a long time, I finally gave up.

I probably understand what Bian Yiyang is thinking.

Bian Yiyang loves freedom. He doesn't want to be tied down by his family's property, but he has no choice. The thing of inheriting the family business is what he has to do. He has only two choices, one is to stay here forever and be himself What I want to do now is to graduate directly, take over the company, be completely restrained, and do what I don't want to do.

The second is that he receives training, becomes stronger, becomes able to control his own property, and can do what he wants to do, the premise is that he has to go for a period of time.

He needs to become more powerful so that his future is no longer bound.

So, he chose that path.

Would he feel at ease if I called back at this point and told him everything?

Well, if that's the case, I'll wait for him, it's nothing.

I'm not afraid that he will have someone else he likes in the future.

Because I am him.

So I trust him.

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Also, Xiao Bianer is leaving T^T