Decisive

Song Jingcheng and him haven't seen each other since that night.It's a lie to say that you don't miss it, you can get used to it.Song Jingcheng was not used to it.When I got home, I could only face the empty room, and the feeling of wanting to meet was strong.It's just that he knows what is important and what is not, what can and cannot be done.

Chen Yuan and him can only be brothers.Song Jingcheng was lying on the bed, thinking about what he and Chen Yuan should do in the future. "Shape of My Heart" blared in the empty room.Song Jingcheng picked up the phone, and on the other end of the receiver was a super childish voice that was beyond his age.

"Chengcheng~ Do you miss Mommy, Mommy misses you so much."

Song Jingcheng rubbed his eyebrows and smiled, his mother has always been his pistachio, she will not give him any demands or pressure, she only wants him to be happy.

"Yes I do."

"Then you haven't come back to see me for more than a month. Do you have the heart to let your mommy be alone in an empty room?"

Song Jingcheng knew that although his father looked serious, he loved his mother very much.How could she be left alone.There was another burst of soft grinding and hard foaming, and it was already eleven o'clock after coaxing his mother to agree to go back on the weekend.Song Jingcheng was in a better mood, his mother always had this magic power.Children's heart.

Chen Yuan was about to graduate, and the graduation ceremony was held on the weekend, Song Jingcheng decided not to attend.He is very clear about whether he likes him or not, but this brother Chen Yuan is really too important to him.

In retrospect, Chen Yuan's bit by bit liking was actually so clear, he was always by his side, wherever he could see and where he couldn't see.He doesn't talk much, but as long as he talks, he won't embarrass him.His eyes followed him all the time.He was always the one who couldn't see clearly.

In Song Jingcheng's house, there are green chrysanthemums planted in a huge circle along the road. They are not high, and they bloom one after another. It looks like a big green wreath from a distance. It is a variety that his mother particularly likes.It is not as precious and magnificent as the green cloud, one of the top ten exotic flowers in Molan.But it is small and exquisite.

The lively and lovely little woman is already waiting at the door, wearing a sleeveless light green dress, the years have not left traces, her eyebrows are curved, looking at her will make you feel that everything in the world is beautiful and comfortable.Song Jingcheng parked the car and hugged her with open arms.His mother was walking ahead, scolding him for not going home, Song Jingcheng also felt very happy listening to her voice, and the troubles of the past few days were also relieved a lot.

As soon as he entered the door, he saw Papa Song sitting in the living room reading the newspaper, with a faint smile on his face and crossed legs.His upper body is sitting upright, and his facial features are very similar to those of Song Jingcheng. Seeing him, he can probably imagine what Song Jingcheng will look like a few years later.Seeing Song Jingcheng arrive, he just nodded lightly.Song Jingcheng called Dad lightly.

The relationship between Song Jingcheng and his father is not very close. When he was a child, he felt that he was too serious and not easy to get close to. The nature of children is also the same.People who don't look close don't like it.Even his mom was close later.Because that little woman is a person who likes to go around very much.She likes to travel.As Song Jingcheng grew up, she gradually settled down.

Among the three people at the table, Song's mother was talking, Song Jingcheng listened, she never said that she wanted Song Jingcheng to meet that celebrity, or how to improve the company's performance.What she talks about is what she saw and heard during her journey, which is interesting, fresh and positive.

"Xiaocheng, are you upset??" Song Jingcheng didn't know why it became upset.But he understood. "Why do you ask like that?" Mother Song said with an inscrutable look, "Because your dark circles are serious, and your brows are deeply wrinkled." Father Song also looked at him, as if waiting for an answer . "Hmm. There's something bothering me." Song Jingcheng also looked at them.Song's father and Song's mother did not ask.It was only later that Song Jingcheng found that his work was much easier.Song Jingcheng was also speechless about the way Papa Song expressed his concern.

After watering the flowers with his mother, Song Jingcheng planned to go back after talking with his father for a while. Even though he was alone, he still wanted to go back.feel at ease.Although I was nagged again.Overall, Song Jingcheng is happy.

The car was walking in the wind, and the wind blew across the body, making a whoosh sound. Song Jingcheng looked out the window, thinking that today is Chen Yuan's graduation ceremony, and this time should be at the graduation reception.In Song Jingcheng's memory, Chen Yuan's capacity for drinking is relatively poor. In the past, when everyone went out together, Song Jingcheng blocked him for him.Today he is alone, Song Jingcheng is a little worried.It's just that Song Jingcheng felt that this was not the right time to meet.

The lights were bright, and Song Jingcheng saw Chen Yuan standing under the streetlight with his head down, carrying a wine bottle. His fiery red hair was like a sign.He was wearing a formal suit, a white shirt, black trousers, and straight and slender legs.Against the backdrop of the shirt, her fair skin was as white as snow.Song Jingcheng didn't know how to describe the feeling at this moment, there was joy, there was unbearable, and there was entanglement that he didn't know how to face.

How to face this person, Song Jingcheng didn't know, when they were brothers, no matter how much they made trouble, they could still fight without a heart, but this person said that he liked him.

Seeing Song Jingcheng's car coming, Chen Yuan showed her iconic smile, but she looked so sad under the dim light, and her heart ached.I want to tell him not to be sad, not to be sad, but to hold him.But no.Some people say, if you love, please love deeply, if you don't love, please leave.Don't be ambiguous, hurt others and yourself.He can't be selfish and give him illusory hopes in order to ease his distress.cannot.

"Brother." Chen Yuan looked at Song Jingcheng, as if nothing had happened.

Song Jingcheng looked at him a little flattering, with a slightly worried smile, only distressed.Chen Yuan was never such a person.He's very personal.Song Jingcheng had never seen him show a flattering smile to anyone.Song Jingcheng has always protected Chen Yuan and even spoiled him.Chen Yuan didn't like to socialize with people, so he dealt with those people for him. Chen Yuan didn't want to give someone a smile.Chen Yuan doesn't want to do something, he is the one who tries to let him do what he wants to do.But now the person he has been protecting has shown him the most disgusting smile ever.You said that he can do nothing but feel sorry for such Chen Yuan.

"Well, Xiaoyuan has also graduated." Downstairs, Song Jingcheng stood in front of him, looking at this person who was half a head shorter than him, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable.It was the first time that Song Jingcheng was at a loss.

"Brother, can't I go in?" Chen Yuan kicked the smooth ground with her feet.

"Little Yuan..." Song Jingcheng wanted to say something but was interrupted by Chen Yuan, "It's okay, I just want to have a drink with you. If you don't want to, then I'll go back."

Chen Yuan brought the wine to Song Jingcheng, turned around and left, her shadow was dragged for a long time.Song Jingcheng's gaze followed him, and action preceded thinking and grabbed his arm.

"Go up." After speaking, Song Jingcheng saw the smile on Chen Yuan's face, happy and relieved.Song Jingcheng also felt happy after seeing it.

There is still a photo of the military training at the entrance, which Chen Yuan misses very much. It has only been two months since Song Jingcheng knew that he liked him, but he felt that it seemed like centuries had passed.If he hadn't been busy writing his graduation thesis, he might have gone crazy.Finally, there was an excuse to see him, but he didn't go.Song Jingcheng didn't know that at the graduation ceremony, his mood went from anticipation to disappointment and finally despair.Looking at the lively meeting place, the crowd was jostling, but he felt so empty. Occasionally, a few acquaintances passed by and asked why Song Jingcheng didn't come. Just one sentence made his heart ache.

He was in the graduation ceremony venue, and some juniors and younger sisters came to wish him well. He didn't know what he said, whether he laughed, but he knew that he was shrouded in great disappointment and was stunned.Those people at the graduation reception saw him looking devastated, so they didn't drink or anything, and no one even stopped him from going back to the dormitory.

Our extremely wise Lord William, with sharp eyes, saw Comrade Chen Yuan's illness at a glance, and once again awakened our classmate Chen Yuan with his lips and tongue comparable to Zhuge Liang, and then taught Chen Yuan how to speak (although Chen Yuan It's useless.) Finally, Chen Yuan appeared at the door of Song Jingcheng's house.

"Why are you standing there, go in." Song Jingcheng pushed Chen Yuan who had been standing at the door as the door god.Chen Yuan picked up the photo and shook it at him.Song Jingcheng also laughed, for some unknown reason.

The two sat in the living room as usual while watching a football game. Chen Yuan went to get two glasses and a few bottles of beer from the refrigerator.Song Jingcheng's eyes fell on the TV screen, and the teaser of the late-night red wine was playing accordingly. When Chen Yuan watched, it happened to be the scene of the two male protagonists in the bathtub. In the large bathtub, a stronger boy was lying Below, a thinner boy straddled him, with their naked bodies intertwined and their red lips meeting.Chen Yuan couldn't help thinking of the kiss that day, it wasn't even a kiss, but the cold touch was engraved on his heart.Song Jingcheng obviously thought of it too.He coughed lightly and changed the channel.

Such an obvious evasive attitude made Chen Yuan a little disappointed.But he still sat down next to him, and William said that Song Jingcheng actually hated him, no matter what the reason was, Song Jingcheng hated him.This is his only bargaining chip.And the only hope.

Chen Yuan deliberately brought up the encounter between the two people. They knew each other. Song Jingcheng knew his intention, but he also followed him. Memories are always good. They talked about the ball games they played together, and talked about watching them together. Movies, books read together, interesting things about traveling together.Very happy, both Song Jingcheng and Chen Yuan felt that the troubles of the past few days had dissipated.The TV was on and they chatted happily.

Before I knew it, it was already late at night, and the wine bottles were all empty.Because Chen Yuan was not able to drink as much as Song Jingcheng, she lay down on the table early. Song Jingcheng just wanted him to go back to the room, when Chen Yuan called brother like a sleepy voice.Song Jingcheng stayed where he was, not knowing what to do, as if his "brother" was the switch button, reminding him that the boy who was sleeping soundly on his stomach had said that he liked him not long ago.

He knew that this was a serious boy, he would never joke about his feelings.But because of this, he would not know what was wrong.Not to mention whether Song Jingcheng liked him or not, Song Jingcheng felt uncomfortable just because they were all men.But at the same time, Chen Yuan is no less important to him than his parents.He doesn't want to lose him.Song Jingcheng took a thin blanket and covered it for Chen Yuan, and he also covered it with one and lay on the sofa, looking at the bright or dim stars outside the window, and sighed softly.

When Chen Yuan woke up, Song Jingcheng was still sleeping.The morning light hits the face, delicate skin, closed lips.Chen Yuan couldn't help reaching out to kiss him, Song Jingcheng woke up as soon as his lips touched, but he didn't open his eyes.Let Chen Yuan sweep his mouth, the tip of his tongue was slightly numb, he kissed very carefully, not letting go of every place, the tip of his tongue was grinding his teeth.His eyes were closed, his breathing was a little unsteady, and his lips were trembling a little, either because of nervousness or something.He followed the shape of his lips and ended up with a shallow kiss.

Song Jingcheng didn't find it annoying, he opened his eyes and looked at Chen Yuan.Just looked at him so quietly. "Xiao Yuan, what do you like about brother?" Chen Yuan thought he would be angry, but Song Jingcheng just asked in this light way.

Chen Yuan asked herself, yes.What do you like about him? Why doesn't he have what he has.What do I like about him, maybe his eyes, his eyebrows, his nose, his ears, his lips, his gentleness, his tolerance, and his pampering.Ah, it doesn't matter what you like, if you like it, you like it.

Chen Yuan tried to hug him, but Song Jingcheng hugged him unexpectedly.Song Jingcheng's deep and hoarse voice rang in his ears. "Xiaoyuan, I'm neither used to nor like living without you, but my liking for you is not your kind of liking." Chen Yuan's eyes turned red immediately, he forced a smile and waved his hands to say it's okay.

"It's okay, if I'm not used to it, if I don't like it, I will continue to live with my brother. It doesn't matter if my liking is not that kind of liking. I just wait for my brother to change my liking into that kind of liking. But, can you do it for me?" I'll give it a try, like me, fall in love with me." Chen Yuan looked at him, the red corners of her eyes looked very pitiful against the backdrop of her fair skin.Song Jingcheng frowned and looked at him.This is a choice, if he does not agree, there will be no possibility for the two of them, that is, there will be no intersection of eternal life, if he agrees, then he will have to fight against the world.

But in the same way, when Chen Yuan knew that he liked his brother, how panicked, how disturbed, how painful he was.Song Jingcheng felt distressed.He could only hug him, and then nodded gently.

William said that to make love, that's what wine does.So William asked Chen Yuan to bring wine.But Chen Yuan feels that love is born in an instant and conceived in the ordinary.His advantage lies in Song Jingcheng's feelings for him, distress and habit.

He knew very well, Song Jingcheng's temperament, so what if he did it, he was not the traditional kind of person who wanted to get married after doing it, even if he did.I'm afraid it just made him worry and added to his troubles.

But now, he promised to try to like him, and according to his temperament, he would definitely be serious.Chen Yuan was very happy. He knew Song Jingcheng, and he believed that he knew Song Jingcheng.So he had a chance, a chance that he might like it.

He doesn't care if such a liking is too humble.Because he knows that Song Jingcheng is the person who loves him the most besides his parents in this world.He won't be willing to let him be wronged.

Later Song Jingcheng thought, that's it.What was supposed to be impossible turned out to be like destiny, and he would agree to Chen Yuan's attempt to like him.He has always followed his heart, he just doesn't want to make Chen Yuan sad, doesn't want to see him sad.

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