Married?Amnesia, don't lie to me

When I came to Mei Qingyi again, it was Shi Nan alone like many times before.

It has been half a month since the last time I came together with Song Linsheng.

In the past half a month, nothing major happened. They went to and from work step by step, cooked and slept.

Perhaps the biggest thing of all was the first snow of the winter that fell the day before yesterday.

"Has he done anything special recently?" Mei Qingyi asked Shi Nan.

"No." Shi Nan shook his head, "I'm not here today for him."

"Huh?" Mei Qingyi was a little surprised.

"Me." Shi Nan pointed to his head, "Today's protagonist is me."

"I might have lost my memory too."

After Shi Nan finished saying this, Mei Qingyi's face, which always had a perfect smile on her face, couldn't bear it any longer. It's rare for a couple to lose their memory, so the probability of the couple losing their memory together shouldn't be high.

Is amnesia contagious?

Mei Qingyi didn't speak for a long time, Shi Nan coughed lightly, put his hands on the table and leaned forward: "Actually, I'm not sure if I have amnesia."

"Tell me." Mei Qingyi managed to find her voice.

"You should know about Song Linsheng Yingting and the others being trafficked, right? I am also one of the trafficked children."

"But I don't have much memory of what happened back then, so I think I lost my memory too."

"A kidnapped child?" Mei Qingyi was quite surprised.

Shi Nan didn't speak, Mei Qingyi immediately changed the question: "Tell me specifically about the symptoms of memory loss you feel."

Shi Nan said this time: "I was about seven or eight years old when I was trafficked. I don't remember any memories before that. It stands to reason that children in that grade have memories, but I can't remember anything. I didn’t even know that I had been trafficked.”

"Actually?" Mei Qingyi raised her eyebrows, and then asked, "Do you have any memories of the teens? For example, do you know the name of the Chinese teacher in the third grade?"

"Ah?" Caught off guard by the question, Shi Nan frowned and thought for a long time, "It seems that the surname is Xu? It should be, I don't remember deeply, but I remember that I really want to have a deskmate named Wang Dahai, because his name is very similar to Pang Dahai. Like, so the memory is deeper."

Mei Qingyi nodded: "The memory loss in early childhood is called early childhood amnesia. This is the loss of long-term memory, not short-term memory. Generally, in the adult stage, you will not remember your memories of two to four years old. Previous memories are also gradually forgotten as we grow older."

"Of course, things like memory can't be generalized. Some people still have deep childhood memories in their minds, while some people may not have much memory, and may not even have much impression of elementary school and junior high school."

Shi Nan was silent for a moment: "Do you mean that I may not have amnesia, but that as I grow older, the river of memory continues to expand and I forget the source?"

"That's almost what it means." Mei Qingyi said softly, "I can help you do a test."

Shi Nan didn't speak, but Mei Qingyi's statement was very convincing. Although Shi Nan didn't remember the primary school teacher's name, he still remembered Wang Dahai because there was a memorable memory point there. In the past, you basically couldn’t remember what you ate in the morning and what you ate in the evening, unless it was a relatively memorable thing, or you passed by that place occasionally, and suddenly remembered, by the way, he was in Have eaten here.

But he remembered Wang Dahai, that chubby boy, the white porcelain jar that the teacher carried every day in class was always filled with chubby Dahai.

He can remember such a simple thing, isn't that boy next door worth his remembering?

Could it be that Song Linsheng had no memories in his life?

Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu are not worth keeping even a short moment in his mind?

"Can you do a hypnosis for me?" Shi Nan said.

Mei Qingyi was silent for a while before she spoke: "Shi Nan, that's just a childhood memory. According to what I just said, many people don't remember what happened in childhood. I don't think it's a necessary memory."

Shi Nan raised his eyebrows, then smiled: "But I want to remember."

Mei Qingyi lowered her eyes slightly, and raised her head after a while: "You just said that you were also trafficked when you were a child, but you have no memory of that period. Don't you think this is a good thing?"

Shi Nan looked at him and didn't speak.

"A lot of things, listening to others and experiencing them are two different experiences, just like you now know that you have been trafficked, but you don't have the deep feeling of Ying Ting, Xiang Yang and Song Linsheng."

Shi Nan bowed his head and was silent for a while.

Suddenly thought of Song Linsheng.

He is committed to creating another personality, is it also the idea to make the other personality lose those painful memories, even if someone later tells him what he has experienced, he will no longer have the feeling of experiencing the pain himself.

Just like him, even if he met Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu, apart from being kind, he couldn't empathize with Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu.

Shi Nan raised his head: "Doctor Mei, I'm sorry to trouble you, but I want to remember."

He wanted to see what he and Song Linsheng looked like in that memory.

If there is pain that Song Linsheng can't face, that's just right, he faces it with him.

In the past month, Shi Nan always went out except for busy work, and Song Linsheng couldn't catch him to have lunch with him for several days in a row.

During the daytime, Song Linsheng could only get along with Shi Nan for a while during lunch, but now that he couldn't see Shi Nan, he was in a bad mood.

"Where are the Southerners?" Song Linsheng asked to send him the helpless Xiangyang.

"I don't know." Xiang Yang said carelessly, "Your partner, you ask me?"

Song Linsheng dismantled two pairs of chopsticks with a cold face, and threw one pair to Xiang Yang, who did not expect Xiang Yang to wave his hand at him: "Brother, I have something to do at noon, so I won't have dinner with you, bye."

Song Linsheng: "..."

The second snowfall of winter finally fell today, and Shi Nan received Mei Qingyi's hypnosis for the third time.

The first two times were regarded as adaptive hypnosis. Mei Qingyi did not guide him. Shi Nan had two long but quiet and soothing dreams. In the dream, there were cherries, cicadas singing and the smell of food. He sat barefoot On the floor, waving to the window.

In fact, Shinan would have this dream occasionally, there was a tree there, he would always stand under the tree and look up, as if he was waiting for something.

It turned out to be cherries.

No wonder he always thought that cherries would be particularly delicious when he was a child.

During the third hypnosis, the layers of mist seemed to start to thin out.

Behind the mist, there are rows of dilapidated one-story houses, the houses are so close to each other, as soon as you open the window, you can see what the opposite family is eating.

A seven or eight-year-old child was lying on the window sill wearing overalls and holding a wooden stick to poke the tightly closed window opposite. The stick made a "click" and "click" sound when it hit the glass.

It seemed like it took a long time before the opposite window was pushed open, revealing the boy's disgusting pretty face.

In his sleep, Shi Nan's body shrank suddenly, and a voice rang in his mind, so it turned out that this was Song Linsheng from childhood.

"Son, daddy is back."

The child threw away the wooden stick and ran out barefoot. A young man appeared in front of him. It turned out that Gu Shuwei was really white, tall and thin at that time. Shi Nan seemed to see a man wearing glasses. Own.

"Don't give him candy." The kitchen window was open, and the young, beautiful woman poked her head outside and said sternly.

Gu Shuwei smiled at her, then picked up the child and sat on his shoulders, walked into the house, turned around halfway, and bent down at the window on the other side: "Come on, Xiaobei, give the candy to me." Brother splits in half."

The child opened his hand and counted the candy in his hand. It was six yuan. It was actually seven yuan, but he just ate one piece of candy in his mouth.

Seven pieces of candy should be three and a half yuan per person.

The child counted three pieces of candy from the remaining five pieces and put them on the window sill. After thinking for a while, he crunched the piece of candy in his mouth and spit it into his hands, then bent over his neck and put it into the boy's mouth. Hello.

The boy turned his head back in disgust, and the child's eyes widened: "This is half a dollar."

"Oh..." Gu Shuwei took two steps back, "Son, who wants to eat your halazi..."

"Ah?" The child wrinkled his nose, looked at the wet half of candy in his hand, thought about it and stuffed it into his mouth.

"Ding Yu, come and see your son." Gu Shuwei burst into the room laughing, "Your son ate the candy he spit out again..."

……

A smile appeared on the corner of Shi Nan's mouth in his sleep.

In the next second, the screen changed, and in the dark night sky, the child was walking slowly along the wall, holding two pieces of mung bean cakes.

Mom and Dad worked overtime tonight. He had dinner at Grandma Liu's house. Grandma Liu's daughter brought over a box of pastries, which were mung bean cakes.

When he lived in Xiaoyanglou, his father bought him this kind of dim sum, which was delicious, but after he lived in Xiaoyanglou, he never had it again.

The little brother must have never eaten it, so he was not willing to eat it, so he carefully held it and gave it to him.

"Brother, brother..."

He yelled outside the window for a long time, but no one responded to him, so he stepped forward and pushed open the half-open door.

……

Shi Nan trembled violently in his sleep.

The vase was smashed on the head, and blood slid down the slender neck. The woman turned around, and her blank gaze fell on the child.

He started to tremble, started to be afraid, and unconsciously shouted: "Brother..."

The woman fell to the ground and let go of the boy's neck. The boy began to cough violently. The child took his hand and said in a trembling voice, "Brother, run..."

Then there is the endless night.

"Don't follow me, go home, don't follow me..."

"If I don't follow you, you will be afraid."

"Xiaobei, don't follow me..."

"Brother, come home with me..."

……

They were taken into a car with a bad smell, their feet were bound and their eyes were blindfolded.

The darkness and the unknown start to scare children.

"Mom, mom, I want to find my mother..."

"Dad, Dad, where are you?" The child cried helplessly until another warmth came from his arm, "I am here."

"Brother, I want to go home."

"Brother, can you take me home?"

……

The pain from punching and kicking, the phantom of extreme hunger, and the helpless crying seemed to come back again. Shi Nan curled up, and someone lay on top of him, shielding him from most of the damage.

"Brother, can we still go home?" The child's thin body trembled uncontrollably, terrified.

"Yes, I will take you home."

……

Mei Qingyi's face was covered with sweat, and she looked worriedly at the sleeping person: "Shi Nan, Shi Nan?"

Shi Nan curled up on the sofa chair, weeping softly, like a wandering and helpless kitten.

Fifteen minutes later, Shi Nan walked out of the hospital. Outside, it was snowing profusely, and a thick layer had formed on the ground.

After Xiangyang got off the car, he wrapped himself in a jacket, and when he looked up, he saw Shi Nan.

"Hey, Brother Shi?" Xiang Yang asked in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Shi Nan glanced at Xiang Yang in a daze, pulled out a stiff smile for a long time, then reached out and touched Xiang Yang's burr-grown head: "Good boy."

???

Xiang Yang said cautiously: "Are you okay?"

Shi Nan shook his head, then opened the car door like a wandering spirit and got in the car.

Xiang Yang rubbed his head, turned the car door and got on the driver's seat, because just now Shi Nan sat in the co-pilot in a trance.

"Where are you going?" Xiang Yang asked him.

"Go home." Shi Nan said.

Fine.

Xiang Yang picked up his phone and sent a message to Mei Qingyi, then started the car.

Along the way, Shi Nan didn't speak, but Xiang Yang started to brainstorm why Shi Nan came out of the private hospital, why did he look in a trance after he came out, could it be that he had some incurable disease?

Xiang Yang's body trembled, it's over, if Shi Nan has anything to do, his brother doesn't have to live anymore.

After sending Shi Nan downstairs and watching Shi Nan walk into the corridor, Xiang Yang immediately called Song Linsheng.

"Brother, I suspect that Shi Nan has a terminal illness."

"What?" If Xiang Yang was in front of Song Linsheng at this time, Song Linsheng would definitely slap him.

After Xiang Yang finished what he saw and thought, Song Linsheng was silent for a moment: "I know why he went, you don't have to worry about it."

"Ah?" Know?

His brother is so calm, it shouldn't be a big deal, Xiang Yang thought for a while: "Brother, Brother Shi won't be pregnant, right?"

After a long time, Song Linsheng said lightly: "Go and see your brain when you have time." Then he hung up the phone.

Xiangyang:? ? ? ? ? ?

Smart heads don't grow hair, don't you know?

Shi Nan raised his hand and knocked on the door, after a while someone came and opened the door.

Ding Yu was a little surprised when he saw Shi Nan: "Nan Nan? Didn't you go to work?"

"Who?" Gu Shuwei yelled in the kitchen when he heard the voice, "Nan Nan?"

"Your dad saw on the Internet that someone made that towel roll cake, which looks very delicious. He must learn how to make it for you and Lin Sheng himself. He is messing around in the kitchen."

"Soon, soon." Gu Shu poked his head out from the kitchen, "Don't worry, I will definitely make it today."

"Come in, come in, come in quickly." Ding Yu took Shi Nan's arm and led him in, "It's snowing outside, is it cold?"

After a long time without hearing Shi Nan's voice, Ding Yu turned around suspiciously: "Nan..."

The next second, Ding Yu was hugged by Shi Nan, and a choked voice rang in her ears: "Mom, I'm Xiaobei..."

Ding Yu's ears buzzed, and he froze in place, Gu Shuwei also froze.

There was a lot of snow outside the window, and it seemed to be getting bigger and bigger.

Shi Nan hugged Ding Yu and began to cry softly, like a child many years ago who did something wrong and was scolded by a woman, stretched out his tender arms and hugged the woman's neck, crying and acting like a baby.

"Mother……"

Adults are more used to calling "Dad" and "Mom". Shi Nan is also like this. When he called Shi Haiping "Dad", he also called Gu Shu "Dad". "Mom", also called Ding Yu "Mom".

It's just a title, Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu will be happy and happy if you call them out, so Shi Nan called them that.

It's just that many years ago, that child always called them "father" and "mother" crisply.

Shi Nan's crying became louder and louder, as if he had been greatly wronged.

He thought that his childhood was not missing, he thought that Shi Haiping and his aunt gave him a good childhood, and he got all the love from others, but only now did he realize that he used to have parents who loved him that much.

His dad would tell him stories at bedtime, his mom would cuddle him to sleep, and they would take him by the hand to take him to school.

Like many families, their family has a kind father and a slightly strict mother, but they love him very much.

I love him so much that I have never given up looking for him since he was lost, and I never thought about having a second child. I love him so much that my temples are graying, but I still want to travel thousands of miles to find that child back then.

But the thousands of children who were finally found back day and night only called them "Dad" and "Mom" politely.

When Song Linsheng opened the door and came in, he saw Shi Nan sitting on the sofa cross-legged eating towel rolls, and Gu Shuwei sat aside and looked at him expectantly: "Is it delicious?"

Shi Nan nodded vaguely, Gu Shuwei slapped his thigh and looked at Ding Yu proudly: "I think I can succeed."

Song Linsheng frowned slightly, Shi Nan's eyes were red, obviously crying, and Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu seemed to have cried too.

"Lin Sheng is back, hurry up, give Lin Sheng one." Ding Yu pushed Gu Shuwei to the kitchen, "It's time to make dinner."

Song Linsheng came to sit down beside Shi Nan, and flicked his fingers on his red and swollen eyes.

Shi Nan glanced at him, and stuffed the towel roll in his hand into his mouth.

The burnt smell hit, Song Linsheng frowned, and the sweetness that followed was even more unbearable.

"Just let it go." Shi Nan stuffed the remaining half into Song Linsheng's mouth. "That's what my dad did."

Song Linsheng looked at him and asked softly, "Why are you crying?"

Shi Nan lowered his eyes, and Mei Qingyi's words rang in his ears: "I suspect that you might have experienced hypnosis once when you were young."

Shi Nan raised his head and glanced in the direction of the kitchen. The kitchen door was closed, and the range hood inside was humming.

Shi Nan tilted his head and kissed Song Linsheng's lips, and there was a creamy sweetness on Song Linsheng's cold lips.

Shi Nan thought, he could even remember Wang Dahai, how could he forget his parents who loved him so much, and his little brother.

It turned out that you wanted me to forget.

"Brother." Shi Nan called him.

Song Linsheng froze all over, and all the kissing movements stopped.

The two wanted to stick their lips together, and their eyes met. Shi Nan's red and swollen eyes blinked at him: "When I call you that at night, will you..."

Song Linsheng's eyes darkened and darkened.

Eyes glanced at the clock on the wall, five o'clock in the afternoon.

Song Linsheng pulled Shi Nan to stand up, with a low voice: "At night? Let's do it now."

"I'm joking." Shi Nan panicked.

"I'm not a joker."

"Wait tonight..."

"Why, you're willing to be with him, but not with me?" Song Linsheng's voice turned cold immediately.

Shi Nan had already been dragged to the door by Song Linsheng, Shi Nan grabbed the door frame: "It's not very good..."

"It's already evening." It's dark early in winter, but it's only five o'clock, and the night has already fallen.

Shi Nan still hesitated, Song Linsheng suddenly let go, and opened the door with lowered eyes: "Forget it, if you don't want to, I won't force you."

Shi Nan:? ? ? ? ? ?

It's just such a little shit and you play psychological warfare?

"Hey..." The next second, Shi Nan chased him out.