Brother Jack, don't kill me!

Xia Youjie held onto his palm tightly, and Lott could feel the tense fingers, and the other's fingers pinched his clothes, creating a layer of wrinkles.

"It's not like that."

Xia Youjie said, "I didn't lie to you."

Lott could hear the rapid and heavy breathing coming from his ears, Xiang Xing was too anxious to make a sound, Xia Youjie opened his lips many times, and when he was about to speak words of defense, he closed them again After opening his mouth, he fell into silence again, a long silence.

It seemed that only the sound of breathing sounded in his ears, giving Lott the illusion that both of them were actually dead.

Xia Youjie rested his head on Luo Te's shoulders, and with this movement, his scorching breath also touched Luo Te's bare/naked neck.

Xia Youjie hugged him tightly.

Xia Youjie didn't want to let go of himself.

Is this star illusion?

Lot raised his eyes, and for a moment he felt that it was difficult for him to breathe. The heavy and stagnant unwillingness was deposited like sludge, but at this moment it surged like a star being stirred.

He felt that he wanted to vomit, complex emotions clung to his body, disgusting like tarsal maggots, for a moment, he felt that everything he did was meaningless.

Those 24 deaths don't make sense.

It doesn't make sense to start over.

What's the point of dying?If Xia Youjie said that he didn't want to die, what kind of mood did he have when he killed himself?

Lot closed his eyes, turned his head, and said silently: Why?

Luo Te didn't know what he was asking, maybe Xing asked Xia Youjie why he wanted him to live, or maybe Xing asked him why he didn't leave here with him.

However, Xia Youjie only stared at him, and they hugged each other like lovers, the bed sank deeply due to the weight of the two of them, the dim light shone down, and the places that were not illuminated were dark.

After a long time, there was a sound in the room.

Xia Youjie took a deep breath, and said in Lott's ear, "I'll explain, and I'll make you believe it, Lott."

This star was in an extremely intimate posture, Lott could hardly move, and the tightly pressed bodies brought extremely high temperature, Lott felt as if his head was going to burn.

The previous roles seem to have changed positions at this time. In the past, Lott thought he was the one who was concerned about gains and losses, but now, everything has begun to change.

Xia Youjie grabbed Luo Te's palm, and deliberately put his fingers intertwined. The place where the palms meet is hot, and it is easy to be burned like star magma. At this time, he also turned his head , looked at Lott.

Xia Youjie's voice sounded a little sad for no reason. He took a deep breath and said, "Besides me, you have family and friends. They all want you to live and live, and Bu Xing reads it in the newspaper." news of your death."

Lott shook his head, he opened his eyes, looked at Xia Youjie, and said, "I have no family anymore, Jie."

Xia Youjie's throat was blocked, and his comforting words sounded a little dry at the moment.

"No, my star said..."

Lott said: "My mother passed away very early, she told me to get away, and I never saw her again. I couldn't remember what she looked like very early on."

"Father didn't come back, except for sending money." Lott said in a low voice, "He may have other children, and he doesn't miss me."

"Jay, they don't want me to live."

Xia Youjie said, "Yes."

"I hope you live, and they will hope so too..." His usual gentle voice was full of anxiety, and became very urgent.

Lott shook his head, he put his arms around Xia Youjie's neck, feeling the warm breath from his neck and shoulders.

Lott said, "I... seem to be the only one left, Jay."

Xia Youjie's Adam's apple rolled, and he gave a "hmm" and said, "I will always be with you."

Tears oozed from the corners of Lott's eyes, and he began to whimper, feeling as if Xing's heart had been grabbed. He could barely breathe, and could only stare blankly at Xia Youjie.

He knew this lie all too well.

Past experience has proved that what is forever?

Xia Youjie sighed, his voice sounded very dry, "I know, Luo Te will feel that Xing lied to you. But Xing, trust me again, okay?"

"I……"

Luo Te raised his head, he and Xia Youjie looked at each other.

Xia Youjie's black hair was hanging down, his hair was wet after washing, and the dripping water was like star tears, wet and cold, he was frowning, his narrow eyes were drooping, looking eager to get affirmation answer.

At that moment, Lott remembered his childhood.

Xia Youjie also comforted himself so seriously when he was a child.

It would be nice if Xing never grew up.

"Jay..."

Suddenly, under such serious eyes, Lott was in a trance for a while, making him unable to make up his mind to say the words of rejection.

When he was killed, he felt that his favorite was like Xing Xia’s ice cream, sweet, but Xing quickly melted under the steam, turning into a puddle of sticky and dilapidated sugar water, which flowed into the In the sewer, mixed with sewage.

Now he wanted to believe something again.

Perhaps Xing, facing Xia Youjie's earnest voice, Luo Te couldn't ignore it.

He felt that the ice cream that he had melted seemed to stick to his fingers again, and it became sweet and hopeful.

Lott said in a low voice: "Then I will, for the last time, trust you once."

While speaking, Luo Te raised his hand, he raised his little finger, and placed it between the two of them, in front of Xia Youjie's eyes.

"Pull the hook?" Xia Youjie laughed at this moment, it could be seen that he tried his best to guide the atmosphere in a happy direction, but it was a pity that under such circumstances, no one could be sincere. laugh out loud.

As Xia Youjie said, he also stretched out his hand and hooked Lott's fingertips.

They pulled the hook and made promises to each other, but there was no relieved smile on Xingwu's face.

After the last vow was made, the little fingers of the two who were raised loosened.

Lotte lay on his back on the bed, he forced a smile, and then he saw Xia Youjie who was hugging him loosen his hand.

Xia Youjie put his hands on the bed, and Lott could see it when he turned his head.

Luo Te blinked his eyes, and then, he saw Xia Youjie lowered his head and approached.

Lotte was kissed.

Xia Youjie kissed his lips, he was a little dazed and at a loss, but Xing didn't want to break free.

The tongue was inserted into the mouth, and then the gums were kissed, licked/licked, a kiss like a comforting star, but it became more and more intense under the gentle surface, and the crisp/numb feeling disappeared with the touch of the gums. The tailbone spread up, making the person groggy, as if he had been paralyzed.

Pain is temporarily forgotten at this moment.

Luo Te closed his eyes, and he also hugged Xia Youjie, and he smelled the scent of shower gel on Xia Youjie's body, which was light.

Yu Xingluo gripped Xia Youjie's clothes tightly, he even wanted to cry again because of this kiss.

At this time, Lott felt liquid on his cheeks, which was wet. Lott couldn't distinguish the drops of water dripping from Xing Xia Youjie's hair, and Xing Xia Youjie also wanted to cry. ?

After a long time, Lott was let go.

At this time, Lot raised his eyes and said, "I don't want to go back to that town."

Xia Youjie smiled, he had a pretty smile, his long and narrow eyes were narrowed, and the tails of his eyes were raised, which cleared up the tiredness around him, making him look more like a youth in full bloom.

"Okay." Xia Youjie said, then leaned over to look over again, and said, "Then we won't go back. Let's go to Tokyo, to my place."

Lot was stunned for a moment, then he nodded and said, "Okay."

"Would it bother you, Jay?"

After hearing this somewhat unfamiliar question, Xia Youjie frowned.

Xia Youjie said, "No way."

Xia Youjie said, "You are never in trouble."

……

Lott was taken to Tokyo and never returned to that town.

Xia Youjie's mother called repeatedly after that, asking where they had been.Once when Xia Youjie received a call from her, Lott was sitting on the chair next to him. Seeing that Xia Youjie was about to leave the room, he jumped down and trotted and held Xia Youjie's arm.

Xia Youjie frowned, and he shook his head at Lott, signaling to Lott not to listen.

Many times before, when Xia Youjie received a call from his mother, he just walked out without letting Lott hear it.

But Xing Luote thought it was strange.

When the two of them ran out, Xia Youjie's mother would always say some worried words, but it wasn't like this.

Lott still grabbed his arm.

Xia Youjie sighed. He reached out and stroked Lotte's white hair before answering the phone.

A woman's voice came from the phone.

Xia Youjie's mother asked, "Where did you go? I'm very worried."

Xia Youjie told her that he brought Lott to Tokyo, just like every time before, but Xing's mother had to ask him repeatedly every time, like a machine that Xing stipulated a standard question and answer.

His mother sighed and said, "Lott is still studying in town, and his friends are looking for him."

Xia Youjie said: "He will be bullied there. I won't let him continue to study there."

The mother's voice suddenly became sharp, and she said, "What do you know!"

No one thought that her reaction would be so big. Xia Youjie's mother's voice became harsh, like a star out of control, and she was no longer as gentle as Lott remembered.

The woman seemed to be overly anxious. She said, "The exam is coming soon. What Lott said before is to study hard if he wants to be admitted to Dongdae University. It can't be like this..."

"He needs to take good medicine at home. Also, his friends are looking for him."

Lott interjected at this moment, and he mouthed and asked, "Who is the star?"

Xia Youjie glanced at him and asked something, then he gave the flip phone to Lott.

Lott took the phone and put it to his ear. Not long after, a voice came from inside.

Xing Anli's voice.

An Li asked him why he didn't go back.

An Li's voice sounded a little hysterical, and there was a taste of questioning in her words. She asked Luo Texing if she didn't want her only friend?It was also said that Lott had someone else.

Lott said, "An Li, I'm not going back. You don't like me either."

"Tell me, you've had enough of me talking nonsense about cats, aliens, oracles..."

An Li, who was on the other side of the phone, seemed to be choking, and she didn't speak for a long time.

Lot paused for a moment: "The discarded medicine bottle, the dead bug cat, the words on the cabinet...you didn't show up at that time. My friend, the star will help my people."

An Li's sharp voice rang through the phone, and she said angrily, "Then don't come back. An Li doesn't want you as a friend anymore! Go to hell—"

Luo Te heard that Xia Youjie's mother seemed to dissuade An Li, but Xing quickly hung up the phone.

A beep sounded from the phone. Luo Te was holding the phone, he was a little dazed, then he raised his head and looked at Xia Youjie.

Xia Youjie said, "Don't pay attention to her words. Anyway, we won't go back."

"Ah."

The transfer of student status was a bit troublesome, and he stayed in Xia Youjie's apartment until it was completed.

At that time, Lott didn't realize that time passed so quickly, maybe it was too relaxing for Xing to stay with Xia Youjie during this time.

For a relaxed life, Zong Xing will soothe people's nerves, although Lotte still needs sleeping pills to fall asleep now.

Since the suicide was prevented, Xia Youjie kept Luo Te's medicine bottle.

I give him one pill every time before going to bed.

Soon, Christmas is here.

It's snowing in Tokyo.

Xia Youjie is very busy as a super conjurer master Xing, he is running around exorcising curse spirits, but Xing is on such a day, he also asked for leave and came out with Lott.

Two people are wearing the same scarf.

Lotte's neck was tightly covered, as if he was afraid that he would freeze. When Xia Youjie wrapped it around his neck, he adjusted it repeatedly until he was satisfied.

Lot held Xia Youjie's hand with his gloved hand, and the snowflakes fell wantonly, and the ground was all white, leaving footprints after people walked by.

Street lights flicker, conspicuously at night.

Christmas Eve was very lively at night. Fireworks were set off in the square in the center, and the gorgeous fire light illuminated half of the sky. Lot raised his head the moment he heard the sound, and he held Xia Youjie's hand, and the other Pointing at the sky with one hand, he turned his head to let Xia Youjie look at it.

Fireworks bloomed in the night sky and slid down like shooting stars.

Xia Youjie raised his head. He looked at the fireworks in the sky. It seemed that Xing had thought of something. He laughed and asked, "Lotte, do you remember? The spring festival when I was a child."

Lotter replied: "Of course I remember."

Xia Youjie asked: "At that time, what did Luo Xu wish for?"

Lotter froze for a moment, he shook his head.

It occurred to him that making a wish under fireworks would not work at all.

But Xingluo returned Xing and said, "I'm sorry, Jie."

Lott said: "Because it hasn't been realized yet, I can't tell Jie."

Xia Youjie seemed to have seen Luo Te's lonely expression, and Yu Xing didn't care too much about this issue.

Xia Youjie said: "Then let me know when it comes true."

Will there be such a day?

Luo Te raised his eyes. He looked at Xia Youjie who was facing him against the light. Xia Youjie had a gentle expression on his face, but he knew that Xia Youjie was actually very tired.

Ji Xing's calm these days concealed the contradictions caused by that failed escape experience, making them feel like they were living in their youth.

Lott said, "Okay."

Xia Youjie led him along the street, surrounded by bustling shops and dazzling neon lights.

While walking, Xia Youjie asked, "I remember, I bought a mask back then."

Lott said: "Stars. I put them all at home."

In that small town home.

Lott kept them in the cabinet, together with the kimono he wore that day.

Xia Youjie turned his head, he seemed to have seen something, and asked, "There are still goldfish?"

"Yeah." Lott said, "The one you... fished for me is at home in the small town."

Lott spoke intermittently, and he couldn't help thinking of the white-turned goldfish before his first death.

It was lifeless, its scales had lost its luster and floated to the surface.

"Lotte, do you still want to raise one?" Xia Youjie said, "I remember you liked it very much when you were young. Didn't you say it before, take care of it?"

Luo Te looked in the direction of Xia Youjie's finger, and there was a goldfish shop there.

Behind the glass window, there is a fish tank with goldfish swimming in it.

Its bright red scales seemed to glisten against the light.

Bubbles were spit out one by one with the goldfish's breath, floating up, and then shattered.

At this moment, Lott trembled unconsciously.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-05-0820:25:39~2021-05-0912:53:25期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: I am very happy today;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：祈尔诗伊31瓶；今天也很开心呢27瓶；balllll、萧萧w10瓶；成精的蚊子5瓶；柑橘与柠檬啊、末2瓶；解凌1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!