Confessing to the enemy every day

In Ji Sitang's impression, he doesn't remember much about his mother.

His mother died when he was a child.

Because his father was busy with business, he rarely got together with him, and he rarely asked about his mother's affairs.

The servants in the family, including Aunt Lin, came to their home after the death of their mother.

What happened to my mother at that time?

That scarred body, pale face, and unrepentant eyes...

Was it his imagination, or something that actually happened?

Ji Sitang stretched out his hand and covered his forehead again.

The deeper he thought about it, the more his head seemed to explode, making him have a splitting headache.

Just thinking about it, he couldn't help but feel his whole body warm up.

He was embraced in a warm embrace.

"Did you remember something again?"

Only Xiao Yuze's voice came from above his head.

This sentence, Xiao Yuze asked himself the same before.

At that time, he didn't feel that there was anything wrong, but at this moment, when he was connected with what happened before, it gave him a chill down his spine.

Xiao Yuze... seemed to know something.

From the very beginning, he encouraged him to sign up for the performance club...

Later, he threatened him to participate in club performances by publicizing his illness...

Then let him wear women's clothing to attract serial murderers...

All of this seems to have been deliberately arranged by Xiao Yuze for himself...

Thinking of this, Ji Sitang couldn't help breaking free from Xiao Yuze's body in an instant.

This move made Xiao Yuze's expression instantly suspenseful,

"what happened to you?"

"You already knew I was mentally ill, didn't you?"

After seeing Xiao Yuze's suddenly solemn expression, Ji Sitang became more determined in his inner thoughts,

"Did you know me before?"

"It can't be regarded as acquaintance."

Xiao Yuze lowered his head, sighed lightly,

"Maybe you don't remember, we used to stay in the same ward together..."

a ward?

Ji Sitang covered his forehead again.

In his memory, the number of times he got sick was also one of the few, let alone hospitalized.

Thinking of this, he raised his head again and looked at Xiao Yuze suspiciously,

"When? Which ward?"

Xiao Yuze: "It was when we were eight years old, in the children's ward of the psychiatric treatment center."

eight years old!

Ji Sitang couldn't help taking a deep breath.

My own mother died almost at that time.

I only heard Xiao Yuze speak next,

"I was just in school at that time. I remember that in those few days, my mother found an excuse to be far away from home and sent me to a friend's house for a temporary stay. When I saw them again, they had become cold corpses. , I thought, at that time, maybe my mother had already made up her mind to die with my father, so she sent me outside."

There was a trace of sadness in his expression,

"After that, I was hit hard. I often had fantasies about my mother beheading my father. I was sent to that ward, but I didn't expect that there was someone more serious than me in that ward."

Speaking of this, Xiao Yuze met Ji Sitang's eyes.

At this moment, Ji Sitang seemed to understand something,

"You mean... I'm the more serious one?"

Xiao Yuze nodded,

"Although I was mentally traumatized at the time and had hallucinations, auditory hallucinations and other symptoms, I still had a sense of autonomy on the whole, but at that time you lost some reactions to the outside world, and your whole person was just Crouching in the corner trembling, I tried to talk to you at the time, but you were very defensive, and you directly raised your hands to cover your ears, refusing all communication."

"yes……"

Ji Sitang had no impression of this memory at all.

"It's been so long, how can you be sure that person is me?"

Xiao Yuze: "I also had doubts at the time, until we met the little bastard that day, and I saw your conditioned reflex actions and the unconscious murmurs in your mouth, which were exactly the same as the little boy curled up in the corner at that time. ..."

From Xiao Yuze's standpoint, there is no need to tell such a lie to himself.

And he had no reasonable reason to explain the curling up and fear that he had conditioned reflex at that time.

Could it be that he was traumatized because of his mother's death?That's why he left a hidden danger in his mind and made him suffer from mental illness?

only……

Why had his father never told him about it?

He remembered that when his father explained the cause of his mother's death to him, he said it was a car accident.

But why does the mother in my memory have scars all over her body, and even die with regret?

This memory is like some kind of untouchable forbidden zone, the more he thinks about it, the more he feels a splitting headache.

At the same time, a warm hand covered his forehead,

"Don't force yourself any more, it will be even more detrimental to your condition."

The people around him gently stroked his forehead, this extremely gentle touch seemed to give him some comfort,

"First make yourself a person who can face these scars, don't worry, I will always stand by your side."

Xiao Yuze's words lingered in his heart like a warm current.

He couldn't help but grab Xiao Yuze's hand...

Hold on tight.

After leaving the theater, it was close to 1:[-].

It's autumn, and the cold wind in the streets in the early morning makes people shiver.

The next moment, Ji Sitang felt warmth on his shoulders.

It was Xiao Yuze who took off his coat and put it on him.

Looking at the thin shirt on Xiao Yuze's body, Ji Sitang couldn't help but want to take off the coat and return it to him.

However, Xiao Yuze pressed his hand, and softly whispered in his ear,

"I'm not cold, be careful not to catch a cold."

Although the plot of the movie made Ji Sitang see Xiao Yuze's fragile side.

But after leaving the theater, Xiao Yuze returned to his original confident and powerful self again.

This couldn't help but add a touch of admiration to Ji Sitang on top of his feelings.

Even though he endured great physical and mental pain, Xiao Yuze was not defeated.

Relying on his strong willpower, he overcame obstacles, not only overcame mental illness, but also became a "god" on campus.

As his lover, what right does he not have to work hard?

Thinking of this, he squeezed Xiao Yuze's hand tightly,

"Starting tomorrow, I will study hard, listen carefully, and take notes carefully."

Xiao Yuze nodded with a smile, "Okay, I'll accompany you."

Ji Sitang: "I still have to take part in club activities and strive to become a regular member to stay and participate in school performances."

Xiao Yuze turned his head to look at him, and smiled again, "Okay, I'll accompany you."

Ji Sitang: "Also... I have to cooperate with the treatment and strive to recover as soon as possible."

At this moment, Xiao Yuze blinked at him,

"You seem to have forgotten something important?"

Ji Sitang turned to look at him.

After meeting his eyes, Ji Sitang seemed to understand something,

He approached Xiao Yuze with a smile, and pecked lightly on his cheek,

"Of course, we will also become a pair of Condor Heroes that the whole school will envy!"

"It's a fairy couple."

Xiao Yuze corrected him with a smile.