Stand by me

(16)

After that night, Ryosuke Yamada was always worried.Although boys really want to get tired of each other, they can be more open than girls, and he likes Yuxiang Nakajima and is willing to be hugged and kissed by Yuxiang, but he doesn't know how to do it really, and he is a little timid in his heart. Not only was he afraid of the pain, but he didn't like the way it was done, it looked like a meaningless deal.Ryosuke Yamada had a lot of grievances in his heart, but he had to suppress them and put himself in the shoes of Yuxiang Nakajima.He doesn't want to depend on others and be a man who can't say no, but he can't help fantasizing that Yuxiang Nakajima will untie his knot and the two will get back together.This is too difficult for Ryosuke Yamada. He is a single-minded person, and he will do it when he has an idea, but now there are too many ideas in his mind, and he is about to explode.He was restless, didn't hear Coach Fujii's whistle, and kicked the empty goal twice in a row, so frightened that the coach straightened up the glasses that didn't exist.

Yuxiang Nakajima was much more relaxed. That night he was just fighting for a moment of enthusiasm and having a mouthful. Ryosuke Yamada looked too moving under the moonlight, which made him a little confused, and he didn't really take the follow-up things seriously. .At the beginning, he looked at the picture of Ryosuke Yamada covering his face between gay people on Google, secretly amused in his heart, but later, he simply forgot about it, and seized the limited time between classes to fight with his friends up.

On the day the spring break ended, Mama Yamada awoke from a sleeping spell.Dad was very happy and insisted on driving her to the thousand torii gates in Kyoto to pray for the new year.After school, Yuxiang Nakajima bought a pizza at a fast food restaurant on the side of the road as dinner for him and Yamada.

He wrapped half of the pizza in plastic wrap and put it in the refrigerator for Yamada to eat when he came back.At this time, Ryosuke Yamada came down from upstairs, which surprised him.

"Ryosuke, why are you at home? Isn't today the football club's training day?" Yuxiang Nakajima asked.

"I'm curled up. I can't go on practicing at all." Yamada Ryosuke said, taking him by the hand and leading him to the sofa, "I've already thought about it, let's do it."

"What?" Yuxiang Nakajima felt like a fool after finishing speaking.

Yamada Ryosuke took off the white sweater on his body, and only wore a black bottoming vest, "Let's agree first, after we are done, you must forgive me for what I said that day, and truly accept my mother." He bit His lower lip, his face was burning hot, "Well... I'm afraid of pain, please pay attention..."

Nakajima Yuxiang grabbed his hand to untie the belt of his jeans, and said angrily, "What are you doing, stop!"

"It's okay if you don't forgive me, but please be nice to my mother."

"I told you to stop! What are you doing, are you doing business with me like a nightclub?" Yuxiang Nakajima roared.

Ryosuke Yamada was also a little confused: "But...you said that..."

"...I was just joking." Yuxiang Nakajima licked his lips. He had been feeling thirsty since just now, "I didn't accept her to sleep with you." It happened so suddenly that he hadn't Be ready, and I have no confidence that I won't hurt Ryosuke.

The corner of Yamada Ryosuke's mouth touched his stiffened face, "You mean, this is a joke of yours?" He lowered his head and put on his clothes one by one.Yuxiang Nakajima wanted to touch Yamada, and he withdrew his hand in a big reaction, as if there was something on Yuxiang Nakajima that would burn him.

"For the past half month, I've been worrying about your words like a fool. When I was alone, I was terribly sad, but I was desperately worrying about your feelings. When everyone else has faced reality and taken the first step One step, you still refuse to accept it, you are too difficult to deal with, don't you know that you are deceiving yourself?"

Yamada Ryosuke is not a person who is used to being honest with each other, and he can't say anything better, but he knows that he is also afraid, afraid of illness, afraid of the dark, afraid that he will not attract any attention, and will fall into loneliness again.

"I want a father, and I want you, but now I understand that it's impossible to have both, because I'm right next to you, and you keep looking at the past." Ryosuke Yamada said, "I won't do it again It's useless, I just hope that I won't disappoint those who trust me again, I want my uncle to recognize me."

"So you want to fight with me?" Yuxiang Nakajima said, clenching his fists.

Yamada Ryosuke looked at Nakajima Yuxiang as if he was meeting him for the first time, turned around and walked upstairs step by step, "You are not qualified to be my opponent." Yamada Ryosuke said.

Nakajima Yuxiang cursed loudly and smashed the box of pizza.