Stand by me

(15)

The bones in Yuxiang Nakajima's legs have always been sore in the past few nights, and he is also prone to being hungry in the middle of the night. He guessed that he must have grown taller again, and now the students in the back row complained that they couldn't see. Yamada Ryosuke, who is stagnant, will definitely nag him, but he also feels that as a man, it is very cool to grow to 1.8 meters [-] in the future.

Under the light of the orange wall lamp in the corridor, Nakajima Yuxiang went downstairs quietly and went to the living room to get his snack bag.Walking to the corner of the stairs, he saw Dad and Mom Yamada sitting on the sofa with their coats on and talking.The hunger disappeared, and he never wanted to pay attention to them. He turned around and prepared to leave quietly.

At this time, Yamada's mother's elegant and soft voice floated into his ears lightly. "I know my physical condition, don't waste money for me anymore. This wealth is not only your own, but also the result of Miss Aihui's diligence and thrift in managing the family. Mr. Yuxiang is your only son, you should leave the money to him .”

Dad growled in a low voice, and he said: "Yaji, you are married to me now, you are the mother of the child, not only you, Liangjie is also my family. You must insist on treatment, now is more important than in the future, Health always comes first, and this is what Aihui taught me." He hugged her, who was covering her face, "As for the two children, I believe they will all be able to earn a living in the future. There are bitterness and sweetness, there are too many hardships, although we are a wealthy family, fathers have to be stricter, when they walk out of this family, they will not be afraid of anything."

Nakajima Yuxiang lay back on the bed, unable to fall asleep again.His heart is aching, just like childhood grievances, it's not that simple, and it's not that easy to resolve.In the early morning of the next day, Ryosuke Yamada knocked on his door and asked him if he wanted to go to school together. Nakajima Yuxiang yelled at Ryosuke and told him to go away and not bother him.

Christmas Eve is approaching, Yamada's mother and Ryosuke foolishly discuss going to the supermarket to buy apples tied with bows, even the calm father is also infected, saying that this time he will also join the ranks of exchanging gifts.

"Yuxiang-kun, do you have apples ready?" Yamada's mother asked him.

"No." Yuxiang Nakajima said indifferently.

"Then I'll buy you one too." Yamada's mother looked expectant like a little girl.

On the night of the festival, after eating roast turkey and Christmas pudding, Dad suggested to take a family portrait, "Let Yuxiang take it, his photography skills are super good." Dad flattered him.

Yuto Nakajima went to the dark room to get the Leica camera, adjusted the shooting angle, and there was a "click".This is his current "family", with "parents" and two "children", some people will say "be careful on the road" and "welcome back", some people will leave, and then others will take a picture together.

When Yuxiang Nakajima was woken up by leg pain again, he would always take his mother's photo and run away in the dark, from places with lights.He wanted to know why Weimeng Xianren didn't dream of Jun, he wanted to see the face of his mother who was like a bodhisattva, why he couldn't see it.

Nakajima Yuxiang leaned against the garden fence and sat on the stone path. He looked up at the stars and waited for the night to end.

"Yuxiang, aren't you going to sleep?" A familiar voice said.Ryosuke Yamada walked towards him along the wall.

"Sleeping too much during the day. How about you, why don't you go to sleep?" Yuxiang Nakajima asked.Ryosuke Yamada sat next to him, wrapped in a thick knitted cardigan with long sleeves covering the back of his hands.

"I want to talk to you."

Yuxiang Nakajima looked at him for a long time, as if waiting.He had known for a long time that there would be a day of showdown with Yamada, even though there was a voice in his heart clamoring: Don't talk, don't tell him, he will hate you, and the water will be hard to recover.

"You always look like you want to drive my mother away, and she always wants to be a good mother to you. Do you know how much work my mother has put in to make you like her? She really worked hard! Look Seeing that you always want to run away from your own home because of her, she doesn't know how sad it is." Yamada Ryosuke said, "Didn't we agree that we would introduce each other to our family after the college entrance examination? Now it's just a matter of advancing the time Why can't you accept..."

"Because it's not a real family! I want to be a lover with you, not a brother. It was your mother who wanted to come into my old life, but, that was impossible. It hurts me to look at her now, she is not me Mom, she's a stranger!"

"Nakajima Yuxiang, you shouldn't say that about her, she's already married to her uncle." Yamada Ryosuke reminded a little angrily.

Nakajima Yuxiang retorted impatiently: "Didn't you force me to curse my mother back then." He regretted it as soon as he said it.Those were just angry words from Yamada's embarrassment. After all, in a child's heart, no vow is as powerful as the deterrence of parents.But in my subconscious mind, I may have been regretting my rash attitude and contempt for the power of language at that time.

Yamada Ryosuke was startled, his beautiful eyes no longer made contact with Yuxiang's.He didn't excuse himself a word, and said in a voice a little louder than a whisper, "I'm sorry."

Nakajima Yuxiang saw Yamada's tears streaming into his temples, and felt as if a knife had been stabbed in the eye.But he also thought of the foam in the bathroom that burst after rising into the air, and the hot water flowing from behind Yamada's ear to his waist.He heard himself continue to say the horrible words: "So...do you want to sleep with me once?"

"What did you say?" Yamada Ryosuke asked.I don't know which emotion is more surprising, shyness or anger.

Yuxiang Nakajima said it again.He wanted to try Yamada.It's like being controlled by someone else's brain, with an inexplicable pleasure.

Yamada Ryosuke said, "Can you let me think about it?" Nakajima Yuxiang agreed.