你 是 我 的 梦

"Are you smoking?"

"Well, smoked. Just for fun"

"When did you start smoking?"

"Why are you asking this? When did you start caring about me?"

"I asked when did you start smoking?"

silence

"I asked when did you start smoking?"

"Why should I tell you? What do you want if I smoke you?"

"No more smoking"

"I just smoke for fun occasionally, you don't have to take it seriously."

"Why do you want to smoke for fun? You are not allowed to smoke for fun. What kind of cigarettes does a woman smoke?"

"Okay! Do you want to smoke this bag?"

"No, the rest are not allowed to smoke"

“It’s too wasteful not to smoke”

"Waste is not allowed, I will give it to my brother tomorrow"

"Why did you give it to your brother? It cost dozens of dollars to buy it. Why can't I smoke it?"

"If you smoke again, we will be broken. I don't need a woman who can smoke like you."

"Get out, get out of here, I'm going to rest..."

A woman like me, what kind of woman is a woman like me?I almost don't know myself anymore.Now I live to be a money-making machine and increase the overall consumption of society.If possible, can you let me leave this world quietly.

But if I leave this world, who will visit my parents' graves? ? ?

Who will help me bury me with my parents. . . .

My name is Xiao Han, and I am 24 years old. The person talking to me is my boyfriend. His name is Zhang Yi, and he is 26 years old.

We met on a blind date and we have been together for two months so far.

When I met him for the first time, I felt that this boy looked clean and neat, and his face was quite fair. People with such a face should be very compatible with each other.Although he is two years older than me, but because of his white face, he looks like he is two years younger than me! ! ! ! !

At that time, a very funny idea came to my mind, thinking that if the two of us live together in the future, if there is any stumbling and quarreling, people like him should be easy to bully! !

Now that I think about it, what a ridiculous idea it was, and it made me deeply understand the true meaning of the words [A person should not be judged by his appearance].Because every time he quarrels, he will always be reasonable and never forgive others, and he will never give up unless he says you are downcast, speechless, and praying to the heavens and the earth.

Just like this time, no matter how much I make concessions, he can't understand what is the real way to use a lot of words such as peaceful coexistence, tolerance, and understanding.

As long as I talk to him properly, he won't be able to calm down, and he will always turn me into the legendary [Tigress] before he stops!

well!What evil did you do in your previous life! !

Although I was also wrong this time, a normal person would have some hobbies of one kind or another, and there is a reason for me, okay? ! !Can't you be more tolerant to me? ? ? ?

Honestly, since my parents left this world, my world has collapsed! !

I regret, I regret that I didn't stay with them, I regret that I didn't come out to make money early, I regret that I left without letting them enjoy enough happiness.What I regret most is that I was not by their side during the last journey they took. . .

I am silent, I just want to confess quietly, maybe I asked too much from my parents, and they left me after asking.

Therefore, I need to be quiet, quiet, and let my heart calm down to repent.

However, it is not easy to calm down the messy mind! !The family affection that I have had since I was a child, if I don't have it, I don't have it, how can I be quiet? ?

I didn't want my headache, my heartache, and my tears to flow endlessly, so I started smoking and drinking.

I find that cigarettes are really a good thing. Every time I smoke it, it reminds me of many good things in the past, and I don’t feel like crying.

Alcohol is even better. When you are drunk, you don’t have to pay attention to this lonely world. You don’t have to feel lonely, and you don’t have to tell yourself. In fact, in this world, you are the only one who cares about yourself.

It sometimes comforts people like an adult: Don't think about it when you are tired, go to sleep!After waking up, the painful days will be one less day! ! !

After living with Zhang Yi, I have controlled and controlled, and sometimes I really have no choice but to find a place to get rid of such distracting thoughts while he is away.

It was really bad luck this time. . .

All right!change! ! !

I once liked someone, no, it should be said that I loved someone.But then, I really don't understand what love is! ! !

Until later, I smoked cigarettes and drank wine every day, and let the tears fall from the corners of my eyes. I still didn't understand, what is love? ?

It is said that there is no reason to love someone, and you don’t ask for anything in return. I think: me too.

But can you give me a little care and warmth when I am sad, even as a friend.

But if you don’t wait, you really wait with your heart. Often, God will laugh at you for being sentimental, and make your waiting in vain.

I think I pursued him with all my heart. Apart from my parents, he is the first time I want to be nice to a stranger. I want to be like my parents and give him my best. Then I'm afraid he keeps refusing.

It was so good that my mother joked: "You can't stay in a female university, your arms and wrists are bent outward."

I would always smile and reply, "Don't say that about me! I'm just throwing myself out as bait, and then I'll catch you a big turtle!"

Mom will smile happier than me.

I don't care how much I pay, but a stone thrown into the water can also cause a splash!But what about me?In the end, I still didn’t get any response from him on the grounds that—[We are not suitable]—.

What is not suitable? ?Although I'm not a shameful woman with a closed moon and a beautiful country, I am also a small family jade!Without touching the figure, there is also an S-shaped line! ! !

Maybe this is what people often say about being cheap!You clearly say it doesn't matter, but you still want it when you can't get it.He clearly said that he doesn't care about giving, but he still hopes that his efforts will be rewarded.

Very contradictory, but I know I'm not the only one like this.Maybe he is too.

The first failure didn't hit me so badly that I couldn't stand up or feel that I couldn't survive. Instead, it made me face up to the difficulties, aroused my infinite fighting spirit, and pursued him until he became my long-term goal.

I think people's hearts are made of flesh, as long as I treat this feeling with sincerity, the iron tree can also bloom.However, I seem to have encountered a stone tree that will never bloom.

When I lost my spiritual support, when my world was dark, when I crawled out of the darkness, I froze my heart and everything I had, and he actually found me and said that he fell in love with me, Haha, what a ridiculous joke!

I used to follow in his footsteps and was willing to give my all. I just hope that when he looks at me with my sincerity, he will not take it seriously.When I turned my head and prepared to leave on the cloud, he held my hand and begged me not to leave.

I remember what he said at the time: "Xiao Han, just give me another chance!! As long as you are willing to be with me, I am willing to exchange my life."

hehe!Are you moved?What is there to be touched by! !

I can only sneer in my heart, my life is gone, what are we doing together, do you want me to accompany you to Huangquan Road as a companion after I agree? ?Do you really think that bragging will not be punished! ! !

I really want to say: "Life, is it yours? It was given by your parents. What right do you have to give it to whomever you want? Have you ever said such a thing to your parents?" But I didn't say it because I have never said that, Mom and Dad, I want to say to you: "If you can survive, I am willing to exchange half of your life, and use the remaining half to accompany you through the final journey..."

I allow myself to be cheap, but I have repeated it three times on the same thing, if I do it again. .That proves that I am terminally ill, and I can't be cured by taking medicine, so I don't want to be mean again.

I summed it up, people are cheap, they don't know how to cherish when they get it, and want it when they lose it.

The world really quieted down, and I accepted this reality! !I am the only one in my perfect world!It's really just me. . .

In fact, a person's day is also a day, what is so sad.

After I was silent for a while, I returned to work in the company and rented a long-term one-room small house near the company, and started a two-point-one-line life. The world is really quiet, working hard during the day, and smoking tobacco at night fall asleep in alcohol.

There is nothing special, I am almost always running between the company, home, home, and company, and it will not change a day.I went to press the road on Sunday. I didn't want to buy anything in particular. I just didn't want to make myself moldy and make others disgusted.

I no longer want to be a big man to make my parents proud of me, I no longer want to be a millionaire as my noble pursuit, I no longer want to buy a big villa, and the family of three live happily together.I don’t think about it anymore, find someone, make money together, have a child together, use the money we earn to raise the child together, and then watch the child get admitted to a prestigious university, make a girlfriend, get married, have a child, and I will hold a grandson Those long and great are unrealistic too. . .

But why don't you feel happy if you throw everything away? ?

Instead, I felt my heart sank to the bottom of the valley. . .

Zhang Yi!

Zhang Yi was introduced by my colleagues one year after my parents left my world.When I first met Zhang Yi, I thought he was polite, he had his own way of speaking and dealing with people, and his gestures complemented each other. As I said, his face was very white and clean. When I first met him, I thought his colleague was You're kidding me, the person in front of you is obviously a student who is still studying at school, okay? ! !

But he turned out to be older than me.

I was still very confused at the time, feeling that my heart was empty and lacking a lot of things, but I didn't know what to use to fill it.

Think about it, anyway, if one person is wrong, two people are too.

If someone is willing to walk into my heart and save my heart, that's fine too.

If Zhang Yi and I can get along, then there's no harm in trying to get along.

At the beginning, we met very rarely, at most twice a week, and each time we stayed at his home. His parents were kind and good at talking, and they treated me like their own children.Mother Zhang asked me what I like to eat, and I said I like fish, so she went to buy the most delicious fish for me to cook.Father Zhang sees me bored, and every time I go there, there are many books that girls like on his desk.

I still don't want to talk a lot, Zhang Dad and Zhang Mom asked Zhang Yi to talk to me, and when we couldn't talk about the topic, Zhang Dad and Zhang Mom came out to smooth things over.

This is the feeling of home, I used to have it too, I miss it so much! ! !

So greedy for this feeling. . . .

After dating for about a month, Zhang's father and mother said that Zhang Yi and I have also been dating for more than a month, and we should have a preliminary understanding.Zhang Yi is very satisfied with me, and they are also very satisfied with me. If I have no dissatisfaction with their family, then according to their customs, it will be easy to live together.

Zhang's father and Zhang's mother also said that their family just bought a house and it has been vacant all the time. I happen to be alone, so I might as well move in and live together.It just so happens that I can get to know Zhang Yi better.So many are just right, and I don’t think it doesn’t matter just so much, so let’s move in and live under one roof!