My destined love

I was the only one in the ward. My parents had been out for a long time, but they didn't tell me where I was going.After tossing and turning for 10 minutes, I decided to get out of bed and sneak out.When Liu Yuechen fell down, my whole heart was raised. I watched the doctors and nurses rush to lift him out, but they were powerless and unable to help.

I planned to sit up first, but my muscles couldn't use my strength, and I struggled for a while before I managed to get up a little bit, and my head was still dizzy for a while.My legs were still weak, so I slowly moved to the edge of the bed and put on my shoes.

"Where are you going?" Mom and Dad pushed the door open as if they had timed it right.

I looked down at my toes. When I first woke up, the picture of my mother holding me and crying was still clearly imprinted in my mind. I felt ashamed to face them, and I couldn't even utter the idea of ​​going to see Liu Yuechen.

Seeing that I didn't answer, my mother sighed and turned around and walked out again.I raised my head slightly to look at the toe of my father's shoe, and said "I'm sorry" in a very low voice.They spent more than [-] years raising me, but I chose the most useless way to try to end my life.

"As long as you're okay," he said, "don't be so stupid in the future."

"Okay..." I tried to suppress the bitterness in my heart and answered him.

After that, I was speechless until my mother pushed a wheelchair back to the ward. "Come up." She handed over the coat and reached out to help it. I thought it was going to be checked, so I sat down on the chair obediently.

This is the first time in my life that I have been in a wheelchair, and I can't help but flinch when my fingers touch the cold metal.The corridors of the hospital are very deep, and there is no heating outside, so I still feel a bit cold even though I tightened my neckline.After turning two corners, I realized that this did not seem to be taking me for an examination, but the answer was quickly revealed as the door was pushed open.

In the empty room, there was only the sound of the air conditioner running. Liu Yuechen lay quietly on the hospital bed, sleeping deeply, breathing steadily but frowning, and his face was very pale.I leaned forward a little worried, wanting to see what was wrong with him, and wanted to smooth his brows, but didn't dare to reach out.

"It's just that I was too tired and fell asleep," my mother explained, and then added after a pause, "He has barely rested these days."

"Hmm..." I was a little choked up, these days I have been dreaming of him waking me up over and over again, but it is more real than other dreams.

My mother didn't say anything, and left the ward silently, leaving space for us.Hearing the slight sound of the door being closed behind me, I leaned over his bed and couldn't hold back my tears.

"Senior, am I being too selfish..." I muttered to myself, "I am the one who wants to escape, but you and my parents are the ones who hurt..."

He moved slightly, but did not open his eyes, for fear of waking him up, I stopped talking and just watched him sleep quietly.Liu Yuechen's sleeping appearance is very good. When he is asleep, he doesn't move around like me. His long eyelashes are slightly curled up, covering his beautiful dark brown eyes. Small pimples, thin lips that were tightly pursed without curvature, and blue-gray stubble gave him a sense of decadence.I touched my chin, it was very clean, someone should have carefully shaved it for me.

I greedily looked at his sleeping face, and wanted to engrave this moment deeply in my mind, so that when I was about to die, I could recall this scene.I gently held his hand, but I didn't want to be held by him instead, but I didn't wake up, it was like an instinctive reaction to grab my hand in the palm of my hand.

"Idiot." I was trying to slowly free my hand when someone came in from behind and said a word mockingly.

"Hush..." I made a silence gesture to Liu Sheng.

"Don't worry, I won't wake him up." Liu Sheng walked up to me nervously, "I just sang "March of the Volunteers" in his ear and tried it."

"Bad fun!" I pulled out my last finger, "You haven't started school yet?"

"Spring break." He smiled, and I couldn't tell if he was telling the truth or not.He suddenly stretched out his right hand and made a shooting motion at the person on the hospital bed, "I'm going to take this trouble back later, I might as well kill him, it's so annoying!"

"Thank you." I knew he wouldn't hurt him. To be honest, although Liu Sheng said he was unforgiving, he was actually quite kind and a good person.

"Oh no, after all, you are enough." He paused for a while, "It's just to go to your house for dinner, so you don't have to cut your wrists, right?"

I am silent...

"That day I knocked on the door for a long time and no one answered, and then I pushed the door and saw blood all over the place... Tsk tsk, that scene was very exciting. Fortunately, I was still breathing when I was sent to the hospital. When my brother arrived, he almost lost his mind and went crazy. "

I looked at Liu Yuechen who was still sleeping, feeling guilty for a while. "It won't happen in the future..." I continued, "I'm thinking about it."

"What? You really don't plan to be together?"

"Yeah." I nodded, "No fate, I'm tired..."

"Then can I still play with you? Your parents already know that I'm this guy's younger brother." Liu Sheng kicked the foot of the bed and complained, "But the meal hasn't come yet..."

"I don't know..." I replied lightly, I really don't know if I will have a chance to associate with Liu Yuechen in the future, as a friend or an alumni.

The two of us chatted one after another, although we were talking to Liu Sheng, but I was only looking at his brother's face the whole time, but he didn't mind, and finally pushed me back to the ward in a wheelchair.

I lay back on the bed and looked at my tightly wrapped wrist, feeling a little pain. "It's so stupid..." I laughed at myself, I had another scar on my body, I'd better not find a girlfriend or get married in the future, otherwise I would scare people so much that they would think I was somewhere.

The dinner was brought by my mother from home. Although it was porridge like noon, it was much better than the porridge in the hospital canteen.I eat very slowly, waiting for my stomach to adapt a little bit.The light fragrance of rice grains spreads between the lips and teeth, soft and sweet. I think of the bowl of preserved egg and lean meat porridge that I ate a long time ago. It is not delicious but very unique. I will never eat it again...

After finishing the dinner, I felt that my limbs finally had some strength. My mother helped to clean up the tableware. I looked at her gray sideburns and said seriously: "Mom, thank you." Thank you for letting me see him, thank you for helping me I cook porridge, thank her for caring for me, and thank her for always loving me.

She paused for a moment, continued to fold the lunch box, and said, "Rest well tonight, we will be discharged from the hospital and go home tomorrow."

"Yeah." I looked at her back after she turned around, and said in a tone that we could all hear clearly, "I won't go to him again, and - I won't do stupid things again."