My destined love

Someone installed anti-theft windows on my windows early in the morning. I watched them walking around in a numb mood.My parents raised their opinions from time to time, and even stretched out their hands to test whether the window is firm. Only I know that it is useless even if it is installed, because that person will never come again.

Dad has always been very polite to people. He made tea for the little buddies who installed the anti-theft windows and allowed them to smoke in my room.The faint green smoke scattered in all directions, and I felt uncomfortable smelling the smoke, so I coughed lightly and walked towards the balcony.

The sun is warm outside, and the breath of spring is getting stronger day by day, and the occasional breeze seems to be mixed with the aroma of green grass.After the Lantern Festival, the school will start. I dare not think about what it will be like to meet Liu Yuechen in the student union after the school starts. Whether it is a light greeting or a complete turn of a blind eye, I can't accept it, but is there any? The way, after all, I gave up on him this time.

A long time ago, I left a message on someone else’s Weibo, “I don’t feel like I’ll love you anymore.” That comment received hundreds of likes within two hours, and it barely became popular, but it was just a follow-up joke, until Today I fully understand what it feels like to "never love again".Gaining and losing are always a pair of interdependent contradictions. They switch at will in your life and mine. Real life will always be [-] times more exciting than "you know it's not a blessing".I was thinking about these miscellaneous things in confusion, and my chest was very dull.

It was already afternoon when the window was installed. I sat at the end of the bed and stared at the anti-theft window net. I looked out through the cold metal frame. I feel more like this is preventing me from going out.However, I don't care at all whether I can go out or not. I would rather stay in the room like this for the rest of my life.

I vaguely felt something vibrating, and then I remembered that before Liu Yuechen gave me the phone back, I quietly took it out from under the pillow, it didn't ring, but there was a message on the lock screen.

"Sao Nian, are you okay?" It was Liu Sheng who sent it.

"Hmm." I thought for a while and still didn't send out the word "what about him".

After waiting for a long time, Liu Sheng replied, "Would you like to come out and I'll treat you to a drink?"

"No, thanks." I wasn't in the mood.

"Your parents still lock you up?"

"I just don't want to go out." I glanced at the anti-theft window. To be honest, I really don't know if they will allow me to go out now.

"He hasn't left the room all day." Liu Sheng changed the subject and mentioned him, "He didn't eat anything either."

"Oh." I replied, almost as I thought.

"A little indifferent, you."

"No..." I wasn't indifferent, but felt that I had hurt him so badly, and it would be hypocritical to say words of comfort.

"I know, I'll go and play with you when I'm free, and I shouldn't be kicked out."

"Unless I tell my parents that you are Liu Yuechen's younger brother."

"No, they have a pretty good impression of me. After all, I was the one who dragged you up the stairs alone."

"..."

"I went to see you two days ago and your mother asked me if I wanted to have dinner at your house."

"You and your brother have completely different personalities..."

"That must be, who likes his stuffy gourd—oh, except you."

Hehe, it's actually pretty amazing that I like him...

"It's better to hit the sun than to choose a day. How about going to your house for dinner tonight?"

"Tomorrow night, let me be quiet today." As soon as I returned to him, the sound of the doorknob turning startled me. I reflexively pressed the exit button and quickly stuffed the phone under the quilt, but it was still a step late. I The large movements were clearly seen by the mother.

"What are you hiding?" Mom walked towards me with a serious face.

"No..." I didn't dare to look directly into her eyes, my heart flustered like it was about to jump out.

"Hand it over!" she ordered me loudly.

"No..." I insisted on my lie, even though I knew it wouldn't help.

She pushed me away, lifted the quilt and rummaged through the things inside.I didn't dare to stop, my whole body was tense, and I was extremely scared.

"What is this?!" She still turned to the phone, "Where did you get the phone?"

Seeing that I remained silent, she became even angrier, and asked repeatedly: "I asked you where did you get this phone?!"

"He gave it to me." Knowing that I couldn't hide the matter, I decided to go all out and tell the truth.

"Oh! There is only one number in the phone book, exclusive?" She sneered and flipped through the phone, "Tell me to break up, and then continue to sneak around, son, you really have grown up!"

"No..." I wanted to argue, but I felt like I couldn't justify it now.

"Slap!" A loud slap hit my face, I didn't hide, I was too lazy to say anything.

"You are not allowed to step out of this door without my permission!" She took the phone away and slammed the door shut.

I don't feel sad but smile, I feel tired, what am I doing?Not only was there no love, but even my family was under suspicion. The door was closed, the windows were locked, and I was completely trapped in a cage. Living like this was really boring.

The dinner was delivered directly to my room, and my mother really put me in confinement this time.I took two bites casually, but I couldn't eat any more. In order not to have friction with my parents, I forced myself to finish all the meals, even the soup.After dinner, I didn't have anything to do. I hugged my knees and curled up on the head of the bed, and opened the novel I once liked the most.

Maybe it was because I was young and frivolous at the time, and I was also in junior high school like the protagonist in the book at that time, and I could find a lot of resonance, so I cherished the protagonist. When I saw him miss love, I also felt sorry for him Pass.Now, when I read it again, I don't have the same feeling as before, and I feel that what is described in the book is just a house-like emotion. Sure enough, time can change too many things.

I flipped through the pages one by one, and picked up the memories of many years ago bit by bit. The book said, "The reason why we are sad is that we have too many rules." I deeply agree with this sentence. There are no rules in this world. , no one can stipulate that a man must like a woman, and no one can stipulate that a man cannot like a former enemy. However, most people think that these are wrong. They only accept the facts that they can accept. After a long time, they become the truth. And I became an anomaly.

I read it until very late, and I had flipped through the whole book. I was lying on my side holding the book, the spine of the book hit my chest and it hurt, but the pain was even worse in my chest. Little voice.The pain will always be numb after a long time, maybe everything will be fine tomorrow, I comforted myself like this, and then fell asleep drowsily.