My destined love

I was tidying up the room and trying to find all the things I used in junior high school, because I moved once and lost a lot of things, so it was not easy to find.After turning over for more than an hour, I looked at the pile of things in front of me and sighed.

Pulling aside the patched school uniform, I took out an exercise book and opened the cover. My name and class were written on the title page. After flipping through a few pages, after each question, it was full of mine. The problem-solving steps are next to the handwriting that I corrected with a red pen.Turning to the back, it really became more and more perfunctory, and occasionally there were pictures of villains I drew casually, but the second half of the book was simply blank, not even a doodle.

I snorted self-deprecatingly, threw the workbook aside, and picked up a novel I was super obsessed with at the time. I bought it secretly with the pocket money I had saved for a long time. Before I went to college, it had been hidden in a stack of reference books. In the middle, in order to conceal people's eyes and ears, it was even wrapped in a book cover.Its author was once a frivolous teenager, but now he is a father. This book still has his own shadow more or less, but it is a pity that the ending is a tragedy.

The old pencil case on the side is full of small cards, all of which are gifts from crispy noodles. I think I spent a lot of money to buy that kind of junk food in order to collect them. When I was not bullied very badly at first, I There are also cards exchanged between Mood and other students. Sometimes I have insomnia because I didn’t get a card I wanted very much. It’s really funny to think about it now. The biggest change in growth is that what I wanted to get now I don’t want it at all. wanted.

My fingertips touch a hard-shell notebook, which still has a password. Combination lock notebooks were very popular when I was in junior high school. Even if this kind of lock can be broken with a little force, we still believe that it can keep our secrets.The lock on the book has rusted, I thought for a while, adjusted the number to "107" and pressed the button, and the lock opened with a "snap".

Most of my experience in junior high school was recorded on the slightly faded paper. I didn’t actually have the habit of keeping a diary. It’s just that the class teacher at the time said that it would be interesting to write down the current things when I grow up. I listened to her if.

At the beginning of the diary, there are only a few sentences in each entry, and the records are very simple, such as "I finally quit the team today, otherwise I always feel like a primary school student." Dare to say." Wait.Looking at the next chapters, Liu Yuechen's name gradually appeared in my diary. From the grievances and complaints at the beginning to the vicious curses later, I was taken aback by the resentment revealed in the diary.

"October 10th, it was raining. It was raining heavily. That person threw my book out of the window. I didn't bring an umbrella. When I picked up the book, my coat was all wet, and the book was all wet. It was so cold."

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"November 11th, cloudy, that guy hit my head with a ball while playing basketball, and said I was in the way, why did he target me like this!! I obviously didn't mess with him!!!"

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"January 1th, sunny, it's almost a holiday, so bear with it!! You won't have to see that pervert soon!!! Bear with it!!"

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"March 3rd, sunny, the pervert tore up all my homework, school starts tomorrow, it's too late to make up! Why doesn't he die!!"

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"May 5th, Yu, I don't want to smoke, why didn't someone kill him!!! I really want to push him on the road and let him be hit by a car!!"

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"October 10th, Qing, my birthday present is gone, Liu Yuechen, why are you still alive!!!"

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"December 12th, Liu Yuechen, one day I will kill your whole family!!!!"

This article was written with a red pen. I can’t remember the scene when I wrote the diary, but judging from the handwriting that pierced the back of the paper, I definitely didn’t write it with a smile.The strong resentment came to my face through time and space through the words, I smiled lightly, if that fool saw this diary, I really don't know how he would react.

Afterwards, I was not in the mood to read the diary anymore, so I tidied up my things hastily. I took out the mobile phone under the mattress and sent a message to the only phone number inside: Can you come tonight?I have something to say to you.

"Okay." As expected, he replied in seconds.I threw the phone on the quilt casually, opened the door and walked out.

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It was only after eight o'clock when Liu Yuechen came, and there were still passers-by downstairs, he stepped on the outside unit of the air conditioner and flipped up the window without paying attention, and landed neatly in front of me.

"What, miss me?" Because he was worried about alarming my parents, he almost only pronounced it with breath.

I didn't answer, I stretched out my arms to hug him, put my hands aside his coat and hugged him around his waist, the familiar temperature and breath made me calm down a lot, I put my chin on his shoulder, the height was just right. "Yeah." After hugging for a long time, I finally hummed softly.

He didn't push me away, and patted my back lightly with his palm. We maintained this posture without moving, and time seemed to be frozen. "You seem to have lost weight." I stroked his back, "You must not have eaten or slept well recently."

"Are you calling me today to tell me your final choice?" He is always smart, how could he not know what I was thinking.

I opened my dry lips: "I..."

"Wait," he interrupted me suddenly anxiously, hugging me even tighter with his arms, "wait a minute, let me hug you one more time, just one more time."

I closed my eyes, the warm liquid ran down my cheeks, and wet his coat along my chin. The winter coat is heavy. Although I couldn't feel whether my shoulders were wet, he breathed in lightly. Sound proof that he is the same as me now: pain, but unable to speak out.

Time passed by, and he finally let go of me. I stood one step away from him, but felt that the distance between us had never been so far away.The pair of eyes I am most familiar with in front of him are already red, and the water on the eyelashes has not completely dried up. He looked at me sadly, with endless sadness and hopelessness revealed behind the dark brown pupils.

"Let's break up..." I murmured after thinking for a long time, and the tone became uncontrollable and weird. I tried not to lose control of my emotions, and repeated, "Let's break up..."

"Rao Che..." He obviously expected this result a long time ago and was not surprised.

"I'm sorry!" Hearing him call my name, I could no longer look into his clean eyes, "Senior, I'm sorry! I can't take it anymore, I'm really sorry!" I took two steps back, my heart felt like it was being torn ground pain.

He was about to say something when the door of my room was pushed open, "Son, what are you shouting all by yourself..." When my mother saw Liu Yuechen in my room, her voice instantly raised an octave, "Why did you come in? Is it not enough for my son to be harmed like this by you?! How else do you want to harm him?!"

"Mom, I asked him to come, we already..." I was anxious to explain.

"This is breaking into a private house!" She didn't listen to what I said at all, "Call the police! This kind of murderer should be arrested!!"

I saw her turn around and wanted to find the phone, I walked over quickly and hugged her, almost collapsed: "Mom, I beg you, we have broken up, I will not see him again, let him Can you go?! I beg you! I really beg you!!"

My mother struggled to get her mobile phone to call the police. I firmly stopped her and shouted at another person in the room who was stunned: "Go away! We have nothing to do with you, go away!"

He raised his hand to wipe away the tears seeping from the corner of his eyes, without another word, he took a deep look at me and walked towards the door.Seeing him open the door and leave, I let go of my mother and fell to the ground, feeling like I had lost all my strength.