Inferior by Nature

After taking two bottles of intravenous drip at night, the symptoms of the eyes were relieved a little the next day, and finally it was no longer a world of high blur.

It was too boring to be bored in the ward, Ran Qingzhuang did not know where to get many puzzle games suitable for two people to play, such as Jenga, playing chess, Xiaoxiaole, knocking ice cubes... Just drag me to play one by one if there is nothing to do past.

Looking at the words "suitable for parent-child interaction" on the box, I wondered if he wanted to train my thinking ability in advance to prevent me from becoming demented when I was sick.

Among all the games, I like knocking ice cubes the most.Blue and white magnetic ice cubes form an ice-breaking platform. Players can get various game instructions by turning the turntable, and knock down the ice cubes of the specified color. Whoever makes the penguin on the ice platform land first will lose.

In the beginning, I always lost. When I lost, Ran Qingzhuang persuaded me whether to play other games, but I thought about getting up from where I fell, and refused, slamming on the ice.

After playing, I don't know if I really became better or Ran Qingzhuang let the water go, but three out of five times I always had the last laugh.

If he wins a lot, he feels that winning and losing are the same, not exciting enough, so he suggested to Ran Qingzhuang whether he should play something different.

"Different?" He reassembled the ice platform and asked me, "Why is it different?"

In fact, I don't have any specific concept of "different". The impressions of games in my memory are all stuck in college reunions and the tricks of team building at work. It's either truth or dare, or losing and drinking.

Alcohol is always inappropriate in a hospital, and I am not in the right body to do it right now.Remove one, and there are very few choices to make.

"Tell the truth." Finally Ran Qingzhuang made a final decision.

I agreed without hesitation.

Perhaps stimulated by the "different" gameplay, I won the first battle and won the first round of the ice cube competition.

After thinking about it, I asked, "Who did you drink with that day when you pretended to be drunk?"

This is also a question in my heart for many days. Since he didn't see Lin Sheng that day, who did he drink with?

"No one, just me." Ran Qingzhuang answered my question while restoring the ice platform.

"You drank so late alone?"

He glanced at me: "Can't a person drink too much alcohol? If you doubt it, you can ask Tao Nian to adjust the monitoring for you."

Not really.

I rubbed my nose, feeling like I was wasting this question.

After restoring the ice table, he handed me the ice hammer to start the next round of the game.

As soon as the second round came up, I could clearly feel the difference in Ran Qingzhuang, the other party's eyes staring at the ice seemed to be a little more serious.

After turning the turntable a few times, a large piece of ice was knocked off, leaving only two precarious pieces of ice to support the penguin.I bit my lip, I had no choice but to hammer down, and the penguin landed on the ground, the loss was obvious.

The loser fights to break the ice, this is the rule set from the beginning.Willing to admit defeat, I lowered my head and fought with ice cubes, telling Ran Qingzhuang to ask whatever he wanted.

"What was on your mind when you saw me again?"

After a pause in the stitching, I looked up and saw that Ran Qingzhuang put together two ice cubes of different colors and handed them to me.

"I think..." I took it, lowered my eyes, and put together the rest, "I can finally atone for my sin."

Ran Qingzhuang didn't answer for a long time, and when I finished putting together the whole ice platform, he put the little penguin on it, and laughed at himself as if he had finally realized the reality: "So you just wanted to atone for my sins at first, and you really didn't have anything wrong with it. "

At that time, I lost my memory, and I didn’t even know that I had liked him before. I just thought that the girl who was destined to fall in love didn’t show up, and I was only a friend to him, and I even let him relax in my heart many times. , Said that he would never like him.So it's okay for him to say that. At that time, I really didn't want to date him.

"You have the heart but not the guts, you are so fierce..." muttering, I hit the first hammer of this round.

Good luck doesn't come often, maybe he won too much in the previous rounds and used up his luck, and this time it was Ran Qingzhuang who won again.

I was a little bored after losing, so instead of going to the ice table for the first time, I picked up the cup and took a sip of water.

"Did you really report on me and Lin Sheng for money?"

I choked, and was caught off guard by Ran Qingzhuang's hot question.If I hadn't proposed this game myself, I would have thought that he dug a hole here to wait for me.

I put down the cup, stared at the transparent liquid in the transparent material, and said: "Half and half, my mother happened to be injured at that time, and the family needed money very much. The number of recommended places is really very important to me. It was very dark at that time. Sheng has everything, why do you still want to rob me? He robbed me of my quota, my credit, and you, he robbed you too." I said the last sentence quickly and softly, "Special It's you."

This is the first time I have shown the tangled, complicated, and depressing dark side of my heart to others. This "person" is still Ran Qingzhuang, which is a huge breakthrough.

After I finished speaking, I secretly raised my eyes and glanced at him anxiously, and quickly retracted before he noticed me.

"In everyone's life, there will be times when negative emotions take over. Human IQ determines that we are born with richer, more delicate, and weirder emotions than other creatures." Ran Qingzhuang said, taking over Pinbing The work of the platform, little by little, connected the ice platform piece by piece, "It's nothing. I asked the question, you don't have to be so careful."

"Don't you think my character is mean?" I also started to fight the ice table with him.

"Compared to the guys I've met over the years, you're as kind as a newborn baby."

I only heard that handsome guys are compared, but a good guy like him can be compared.Compared with Kong Tan and Jin Chenyu, who are so vicious and vicious, they will look kind and cute, right?

He continued: "My thoughts are also very dark, you just can't see it."

As soon as I heard it, I felt that he was comforting me.I believe anyone who is dark, but him?He can go undercover for five years, which shows his mental toughness.Since you are tough, how can you let yourself indulge in dark emotions?

"What is it?" I was sure he couldn't answer.

He was indeed not prepared to answer: "The one who wins can ask questions."

I pouted, picked up the hammer, and planned to do a big job: "Then let's start."

This time God helped me, the turntable was very easy to use when it was my turn, I switched to "rest for one round" twice, just watch Ran Qingzhuang swing the hammer.Not long after, the little penguin fell off the ice platform pitifully and stuck his head on the table.Obviously, Ran Qingzhuang lost.

"Okay, this is the last question." It's getting late, so if you ask Ran Qingzhuang a good question, this game can also be over.

He leaned back stretchedly, still holding the small hammer in his right hand, and knocked on the table: "Ask."

"What are the dark thoughts in your heart? If you want to talk about the present, it can't be the past. It doesn't count if Zhaofeng is not pleasing to the eye."

He hooked his lips and thought for a moment, but didn't answer right away.

I didn't rush him either, I picked up the glass and drank the remaining half glass of water.

"I often think, why am I the only one who has to experience so many deaths and so many separations?"

What I drank was water, I'm sure, but I still couldn't avoid the illusion that I was choking on the liquid I drank.It stuck in my throat, I couldn't swallow it, I couldn't spit it out, it corroded my vocal cords like thick acid, and made me unable to make a sound even though the pain was so painful that I went crazy.

Father, grandma, Xiao Hei, and in the past five years, I don’t know how many people like Chen Qiao have existed, and now I have to be added.Compared with ordinary people, he seems to have experienced a little more death.

"Whenever I thought I had a lot of time, God would slap me in the face."

"If the choice is mine, even if the other person can't speak, walk, or even control basic excretion, I will let the other person live without hesitation." "I want him to live for me, even if he will suffer and life would be worse than death, I still want to."

"That's the kind of... dark thought that's been running through my head a lot."

I held the cup tightly, and shuddered uncontrollably when I heard the words.

Ran Qingzhuang let go of the hammer, got up from the chair, and a tall figure enveloped him in an instant, and I subconsciously leaned back holding the empty cup.

After finishing, he felt that he was too obvious, so he hurriedly put the cup back on the table, got up and cleaned up the toys on the table with Ran Qingzhuang.

I am a person who is very afraid of gambling. I always feel that I am unlucky and easy to lose in gambling.Dr. Xie is good at microscopic tumor resection, saying that it can minimize the trauma caused by the operation, but there is still no guarantee that the operation will not damage the functional areas of the brain.

This means that if I survive by luck, there is a high probability that I will not be able to live like a normal person.I may not be able to speak or walk, because of paralysis and incontinence, I can only lie on the bed waiting to die without dignity.And Ran Qingzhuang said that he didn't care, he only wanted me to live.

This is the dark side that he can't tell - he wants me to live no matter what, the pain to live, and the remaining breath to live, because he needs me to live.

I don't know why, but I was a little happy, and had a strange thought of "he was finally pulled down by me".

The little penguin accidentally slipped from Ran Qingzhuang's fingers, bounced off the table, and got into the gap under the sofa, as if he was tired of the fragile ice and wanted to take risks elsewhere.

I stared at the direction where it disappeared, and was about to bend down to pick it up when Ran Qingzhuang suddenly grabbed my arm and pulled me into his embrace.

"You asked me to say it." He said angrily, "Don't be afraid of me."

"I'm not afraid of you..." I said a little weakly.

"You were obviously shaking just now."

I choked, and changed the subject calmly: "I'm not very good at reading people's faces, so you have to tell me clearly what to do, what to do, so that I can understand. As I said, you can ask me to do anything It's a matter, you don't need to have scruples about me. Now, you just need to tell me what you want me to do most. "

Ran Qingzhuang didn't speak anymore, just hugged me quietly for dozens of seconds.

After waiting for a long time for no response, I called him suspiciously.

Not long after, Ran Qingzhuang's voice came from above his head, uttering three words simply and clearly: "Don't die."

It's true that fewer words mean more things.I thought a little funny.

When facing Nanxian, I can still confidently express that I have thought it through thoroughly, and I just want to die calmly, and I don't want to live in embarrassment.But if Ran Qingzhuang threw the same question to me, I couldn't let him digest the fact that I was destined to die alone.

"Okay, don't die." I closed my eyes and agreed to him.

Before going to bed, Wei Daji sent two glasses of juice, saying that they had ordered takeaway to make up the extra.The two glasses are all watermelon juice, which looks particularly refreshing and thirst-quenching.

I thanked him, took two glasses of juice, turned around and took them into the room.

"Daji gave us juice." I raised my hand towards Ran Qingzhuang, put a cup on the bedside table, and was about to drink the cup in my hand, when Ran Qingzhuang came over and grabbed my straw, picked up both cups, and walked in Toilet.

I followed him strangely, and saw him pour both drinks into the toilet.

"What are you doing?" I was shocked.

Throwing the empty cup into the trash can, he pressed the flush button and said, "It's not clean."

Not clean?I thought he thought the takeaway items were unclean. Although I thought he was a bit exaggerated, he didn't say anything.

I slept until midnight, and suddenly woke up without warning, and then I felt that someone opened the door of the ward.

Before I could react, a big hand stretched out from behind and tightly covered my mouth.

"Hush." ​​Ran Qingzhuang whispered behind my ear.