Inferior by Nature

Nan Xian thought I was gay before, and Ran Qingzhuang also thinks I am now, but I don't have any strong evidence to prove that I am not.

How to explain it?Said that he was actually dying, so his conscience found that he wanted to atone for the mistakes he made in the last few months of his life?

There is no way to say that.

"I..." It wasn't until I arrived in Chonghai, when Ran Qingzhuang handed over the car to the parking boy, and the two of us walked one after the other on the long and narrow pier, that I finally found a suitable opportunity to say, "...I know it's impossible for us. "

Ran Qingzhuang stopped and looked back at me.

The sea breeze was so salty that it made the hem of my coat flutter in the wind, and my hair also fell on my face, blocking my sight.

"You don't like me like this, I know. Don't worry, I won't misunderstand." I approached him, raised my head and smiled at him, "Acting, I understand." After that, I ignored his reaction and walked forward alone head to go.

Although the two didn't quarrel, it was somewhat embarrassing.I was afraid that I would make too many mistakes, so I avoided contact with Ran Qingzhuang after boarding the boat, I didn't want to squeeze him together, I sat very far away, and when I got back to my residence, I went straight into the room without saying a word.

That night, I dreamed about the high school sports meeting again.

On a sunny afternoon, the basketball court was full of onlookers. Ran Qingzhuang leaped high, and relying on his height advantage, he blocked his opponent for a dunk like a wall.The two fell back to the ground, and Ran Qingzhuang scooped the ball into his hands.Then, without giving the opponent a chance to react, he jumped up again and slammed the ball into the basket.

The entire basket was shaking, and the momentum was too shocking. When he fell back to the ground, the player closest to him even subconsciously took a step back, showing a look of fear.

I leaned on the wall and looked at him from a distance, feeling some inexplicable emotions surging in my heart, both happy for him and envious.

Ran Qingzhuang is like a blue sun, before he gets close, he will only think that he is cold, but once he gets close, he can feel the continuous heat from his body.The heat not only made him dazzling and became the focus, but also infected the people around him, making them scorching hot.

I'll never be like him, I'm not even a star, more like a cloud in a clear night sky.Always shrunk in the corner, unable to shine, unable to be the protagonist, and no one cares.

"Isn't he handsome?"

I was startled, turned my head quickly, and saw Lin Sheng standing behind me with his hands behind his back, looking at me with a smile.

I was so focused on watching Ran Qingzhuang's game that I didn't even know when he approached.

"Hmm..." I nodded, admitting Ran Qingzhuang's handsomeness without hesitation.

Lin Sheng smiled even wider upon hearing this, glanced at my knees, and said, "Are you injured?"

I uncomfortably moved the leg that had been handled by Ran Qingzhuang, and said "hmm" again.

I don't have much friendship with him. The last time I talked to him was when I asked him to return the umbrella to Ran Qingzhuang. I can't be considered a friend, but at most a familiar stranger.He suddenly talked to me, not flattered, but surprised.

Interpersonal communication has always been my shortcoming. When facing unfamiliar people, I have always spoken very little.It's not indifference, it's just that I don't know how to respond properly, and I'm afraid that if I accidentally say the wrong thing, it will make the other person feel uncomfortable.

"I also think he is handsome." Lin Sheng politely asked about my injury, and then returned to Ran Qingzhuang.

At that time, I didn't think it was wrong for a boy to praise another boy for being handsome. I just thought that Ran Qingzhuang had won the game for his class, and he expressed his feelings.

"He's good at sports," I said.

While speaking, the whistle sounded, the game ended, a small group of people around cheered, and the rest were downcast.

Ran Qingzhuang did what he said, and he really beat the third class to the ground. A three-on-three match seemed to be his personal show, and he stole the limelight on the field.

After bumping fists with his teammates to celebrate, Ran Qingzhuang walked through the crowd to the field.

Sweat trickled down from the roots of his temples, his neck was covered with sweat, and the neckline was wet.

Panting heavily, he sat down on the auditorium, lifted the hem of his t-shirt and roughly wiped his face, revealing his tight abdominal muscles, quite predictable.

Why didn't anyone bring him water?He sweats so much, he must replenish water in time...

I glanced around the field, seeing no one bringing water to Ran Qingzhuang, I couldn't help frowning.

Looking down at my injured knee, I turned to Lin Sheng and said, "I... I'm going to the commissary."

He nodded with a smile and said goodbye to me.

The commissary is not far from the playground, but for me who was injured, it was a very scary distance.When I got there, I glanced at my knees to see a little more blood oozing from the congealed wound.

Gritting my teeth, I didn't take much rest. After buying the water, I limped to the auditorium where Ran Qingzhuang was, trying to deliver the water to the other party as soon as possible.

However, before I approached, what I saw through the crowd made me stop unconsciously.

Ran Qingzhuang raised his head and gulped water. Lin Sheng sat beside him, looked at him with a smile, and fanned him to relieve his fever.The two of them didn't know what they were talking about, but Ran Qingzhuang suddenly burst out laughing, and punched Lin Sheng on the shoulder.The two looked intimate and very familiar.

They are the kind of people...

One is like the sun and the other is like the moon.

And I'm just a cloud like a clown.

The hand holding the water dropped to his side, and the body of the bottle pressed against the wound on his palm, causing a continuous tingling pain.

I shuffled, turned and left in the opposite direction, passing by a junior student who had just finished running 100 meters, and gave the water to him.

Birds of a feather flock together, people are divided into groups, and only the same kind will be together.People like Ran Qingzhuang naturally only see the same luminous body as him.It is quite normal for him to like Lin Sheng.

He has no reason not to like it.

Just as moths are attracted to light, we will always be attracted to those who are good.He will like him, sooner or later.It can be said to be a kind of destiny, or it can be said to be an established destiny.Can't escape, can't break free, the ending has already been written at the first sight of the other party.

I was awakened by the pain.

The severe headache swept away the drowsiness in a short period of time. I kept changing my position on the bed, trying to relieve the pain, but to no avail.

In the end, I could only curl up in the quilt, groaning in pain from my mouth in vain, and I didn't even have the strength to move my fingers.

I don't know how long it took, maybe 10 minutes, or maybe only 2 minutes, before the severe pain that tormented me gradually disappeared.

Sitting up from the bed, I found that there was a thin layer of sweat on my back, and even my pajamas were slightly wet with sweat.

Everything in the dream was still very clear, even the pain on the knee became extra real because of the pain in reality.

The sky was already pale, I held my forehead, got out of bed and poured myself a glass of warm water, after drinking, I lay back on the bed and wanted to continue sleeping, but I couldn't fall asleep anyway.

He took out his phone, flipped to Lin Sheng's name in the address book, stared at it for 2 minutes, then put it down again.

With the screen of the phone facing down, I buckled it on the bed. I turned over, buried my whole face in the quilt, and completely emptied my mind.

Forget it, don't think about things that are too troublesome for the time being, I feel that the brain capacity is not enough.

In the next few days, my relationship with Ran Qingzhuang was very delicate, somewhere between stiffness and embarrassment.

Of course, it's me who is stiff, and it's also me who is embarrassed. Ran Qingzhuang actually hasn't changed, he's as indifferent as ever.

The atmosphere on the island began to become tense, with tighter security checks, more diligent patrols, and no random departure from the island.If you must leave the island, you need to explain the reason for leaving the island, and act in groups of two to monitor each other in disguise.

It's not that no one complained, but he was directly interrogated by Kong Tan in the small black room. He was locked up for three days, and when he came out, everyone would be stupid. He didn't dare to comment on the eldest son's decision.

"The eldest son is also for the good of everyone. If the ghost is not eliminated, the island will not be peaceful for a day." When Mochi told me this, he didn't feel anything wrong at all, and even blamed that person for being too ignorant, "This kind of person should Check it carefully, otherwise who knows if he has any problems?"

After Chen Qiao's accident, Mochi completely took over his job and began to take me to and from get out of class every day, acting as my life assistant on the island.

Unlike Chen Qiao, Mochi almost regards the Jin family and Jinchenyu as his belief, and fully approves of every decision made by the other party. He will not question it, and will not allow others to question it.

He and I are always not on the same page, and we often start to have disagreements without talking for a few words, and gradually we don't talk much.

It was only then that I realized that although Ran Qingzhuang and Chen Qiao, who I had been in contact with since I went to the island, looked alike on the outside, they were actually not so much like real club members on the inside.Mochi is a typical disciple and running dog, and most of the people on the island are like him.

After class, I will accompany the young master to have afternoon tea as usual.While eating snacks, listening to children talk about some weird daily troubles, although most of them are confusing, it is also fun.

"Brother said, there are thieves who want to steal something, so we must send someone to watch it." Jin Yuanbao shook his short legs, bit off the melon on the fork, and said proudly, "But they don't know, they all stop it." Don't live with me, I have a secret passage, I can go anywhere."

The island's defenses have been upgraded, so naturally the castle is no exception. There are so many security personnel that it can almost be described as "crowded".

It doesn't matter to me as an outsider, but Jin Yuanbao is very troubled, and feels uncomfortable when there are too many people.

Because he didn't want a large group of people to follow him, he even used the secret passage in his room to sneak into the kitchen in the middle of the night to steal food.

He took this behavior as an adventure, proud of never being caught, and never tired of it.

"You know... what the thief is trying to steal?" I asked as casually as I could.

I remember that on the day of Mrs. Jin's birthday party, Ran Qingzhuang appeared near the castle in the middle of the night for no reason, alarmed Kong Tan, and then broke into my room by mistake.It is reasonable to speculate that he wanted to sneak into the castle.And if this kind of plot is put in a movie, it is either an assassination or a theft.Based on Ran Qingzhuang's hidden identity, I am more inclined to the latter.

In addition, in the last Amy incident, as soon as I revealed the news about the secret passage in the castle, he showed an unusual interest.Nine times out of ten, there was one very important item that he knew where it was but couldn't get to.

Got it...maybe it will be over.

"I don't know, my brother didn't tell me." Jin Yuanbao bit his spoon and said, "But it should be in the study, right? There are many people watching in the study. Normally, I can't go in casually. If my father finds out, he will scold him."

study?Not a surprising location.

It only took two seconds to make a decision: "Yuanbao, isn't practicing the piano very interesting?"

Jin Yuanbao hesitated a little, not daring to look at me: "I like the teacher, but practicing the piano is quite boring, and it's different from what I thought at first."

I smiled and suggested: "After that, let's not practice the piano, use that..." I pointed to the huge oil painting on the wall on the right that blocked the entrance of the secret passage, and said, "Come and play hide-and-seek? But you It’s not easy to tell others, if a third person knows, I won’t be able to stay on the island anymore.”

If the third person knows, I can only go to sink the sea.

The little boy's eyes lit up, and he said excitedly: "The teacher said, we sneaked into the secret passage to play hide-and-seek? No more classes?"

I nodded: "Well, there is no class, if you don't like it, we won't go to class."

I don't know what else I can do for Ran Qingzhuang, but if I can figure out the secret passage in the castle, maybe it will help him.

Since there is no retreat, we can only work hard to blaze a trail.