Inferior by Nature

After a night of tossing and turning, the next morning, after breakfast, we didn't plan to stay any longer, and Ran Qingzhuang and I were going to set off for Chonghai.

"You wait here, I'll drive the car over." After Ran Qingzhuang instructed, he took the car keys and left.

The road in front of the small hotel is crowded with people, and there are sellers along the street.Hearing the lively sound, I glanced casually, and found that there were all kinds of chicken, duck and fish, and there were even pots and pans selling fruit, cakes and pans.

"It's a market, haven't you seen it in a big city?" The proprietress was eating breakfast, and seeing me curious, she brought a bowl to the door and explained to me, "It's just that many people come together and sell things in different places every day. Here today, there tomorrow, it’s called going to the market. Today is just the turn of the street in front of my house, and tomorrow these people will go to other places.”

It turned out to be the case.

There was a sudden explosion not far away, the sweetness spread, and a new batch of popcorn came out of the box; a tall and strong man carried a large bag of fresh cabbage on his shoulders, shouting "Let me go, let me go!" It's gone" striding past the door of the hotel; the old lady pushed a small cart and parked in front of the stall selling twists. There was a pile of white fluff in the cart, and when I looked closely, it was a white puppy.

Bustling and bustling, the traffic is heavy, the market is full of fish and salt, and the cloth is like a cloud of smoke.This place may not be as prosperous as Chonghai, but it does not have a lively scene.

When I got into the car with a bag of popcorn in my arms, Ran Qingzhuang's eyes stayed on the plastic bag in my arms for two seconds, then moved away, and started the car slowly along the crowded road without saying anything.

"Eat? Sweet." I held the popcorn to his lips.

Maybe because of the experience and lessons from the previous two times, Ran Qingzhuang opened his mouth very quickly this time, and consciously ate the popcorn without letting me coax him.

The soft lips touched my finger inadvertently, and I retracted it as quickly as an electric shock. After it was over, I felt a fuss, and I didn't understand why I reacted so strongly.

Picking up another piece of popcorn from the bag and stuffing it into his mouth, the sweet taste melted away from his mouth, but strangely, there were not many comments about the popcorn in his mind, but a line of words popped out like a bullet screen inexplicably — just now same location.

I lowered my head, staring at the still tactile index finger for a little while.Suddenly the radio in the car blared, my heart skipped a beat and I dug my fingers into the popcorn.

"Chocolate bars, popcorn... It seems that you really like to eat these." An old man with a white beard drove two sheep past the car, slowly and not in a hurry.Ran Qingzhuang simply hung up the idle gear and waited for him, and turned on the car radio by the way.

Actually I don't like it.When my dad was still alive, he would often buy me snacks like candy and biscuits. Later, when he was gone, and my little sister was born, my mom wished to break a penny into two. Naturally, these flashy things had to be discarded. .After leaving it for a long time, I will not want to pick it up again.

Buying chocolate bars and popcorn is not because I like it, but because I remember the sentence that Ran Qingzhuang forgot, and I want him to be happier.

I knew I didn't please him, so I could only hope for something else to make him feel better.

But none of the above can be said, and there is no need to say it.

"Well, I like it very much." I said, and stuffed him with another popcorn.

There was a section of the road back to Chonghai where there were no cars, and there were grasslands on both sides. The sun was shining high, and the front was ups and downs and the end could not be seen.In a trance, there is an illusion that only our car is left in the world, and only the road in front of us is left, and we can drive along the road until we reach the end of the world.

I pushed down the car window, and the scorching wind blew in. The noise suddenly became louder, and the music in the car made it very difficult to hear each other's voices.

I suddenly turned to Ran Qingzhuang, and said in a normal voice: "We don't want to go back."

He couldn't hear clearly, glanced at me, frowned suspiciously, and asked loudly, "What?"

Let's not go back, just go anywhere along this road, and find a place to live.You can go to the market every day, you can buy sweet popcorn, you can bargain with the boss for a catty of pork... No one there knows us, no one knows the United Group, there will be no danger, and there is no need to worry about being sunk anytime, anywhere ocean.

He thought a lot, but looking at Ran Qingzhuang's side face, those wild and unrealistic imaginations were all stuck in his throat, and he couldn't speak out smoothly.

That is a plot that would be too bizarre even in a dream.

We are desperate together, regardless of the Jin family, regardless of Lion King Island, regardless of whether we will die tomorrow, whether our relatives will be anxious or not... Unless we both lose our memory immediately, it is absolutely impossible.

Leaning back in the seat and raising the windows, the car was instantly quiet, except for the sound of brisk music.

Those things that were blown by the strong wind were about to move and come out, hibernating again, hiding in dark corners that even I couldn't find myself.

"Nothing." I said softly, "I just wanted to ask you, how long is the journey?"

Ran Qingzhuang glanced at the time on the car, and said: "It will be about three hours, you can sleep for a while."

I did feel sleepy, but it wasn't because of the environment of the small hotel, mainly because I couldn't fall asleep after Ran Qingzhuang said that last night.

I don't know if he thought I was asleep and said that, or if he really said it to me.

No nostalgia, no retreat.Those two short sentences made my mind in a mess, and I didn't know how to reply to him for a moment.I thought about asking him bluntly if he was an insider, but felt that this was not something I should know.In the end, she could only turn her back to him and pretend to be asleep without saying a word.

Lowering the back of the chair, I folded my arms around my chest and squinted for a while, then fell asleep in a daze.When he woke up again, he was already at a gas station, and Ran Qingzhuang was filling the car with an oil gun in his hand.

Seeing a toilet not far away, I stretched my sore muscles and got out of the car, greeted Ran Qingzhuang, and walked there.

The toilet environment is fairly clean. After running out of water, I walked to the sink and saw myself pale in the mirror, with red threads under my eyes, haggard and tired, and I was a little scared.

I really don't know how long I can last...

He took off his glasses and put them aside, bent over and washed his face to wake up, without paying much attention, the water slipped down his neck into the skirt of his clothes, wetting a little.

I didn't care, roughly wiped the water droplets on my face, put on my glasses and left the toilet.

Ran Qingzhuang had already filled up the gas and waited for it. I planned to go to the convenience store to buy two more bottles of water. I knocked on the car window and asked him what he wanted to bring.

He looked up in the direction of the convenience store, and took out a one hundred Zhang from his wallet and gave it to me: "Red bean bag, thank you."

I didn't answer: "The red bean buns don't cost so much money."

Ten yuan is too much.

He handed the banknotes to me, and said, "You can buy the rest if you want to eat, and we won't stop on the way."

It's almost 12 o'clock, and it's time for lunch.

I nodded, took the [-] into the convenience store, bought two bottles of water, two red bean bags, passed the snacks shelf, and added two chocolates, a bag of hard candy and a rice ball.

Carrying the bag back to the car, Ran Qingzhuang picked out his red bean bun, unscrewed the water and ate it quietly.After eating quickly, he took out a paper to wipe his hands, looked up at me, and gave me one too.

"Ah, thank you..."

I thought it was my rice ball that got to the corner of my mouth, so I took the paper and wiped it away.

He gave a soft "tsk" sound, as if he disliked my clumsiness, grabbed the tissue in my hand, and pressed it directly on my forehead.

"Did you go to the toilet to wash your hair?" He wiped my forehead hair not very gently, and brushed the corner of the paper towel across the left cheek.

"I just...washed my face." I subconsciously closed one eye, feeling a little itchy.

After wiping my hair, he dropped the tissue to my collarbone again without stopping, as if trying to absorb the moisture from the skirt of my clothes.

The tissue swept over my Adam's apple and rubbed against my skin, making me tremble uncontrollably. I had to hold his hand tightly to force him to stop.

He raised his eyes to look over, not much surprise, and his expression was calm.

I just wanted to explain that it was because he made me very itchy, and I didn't even open my mouth, but my whole body was pulled forward by a force.

Ran Qingzhuang's handsome face suddenly enlarged, he grabbed my collar and got very close to me, almost nose to nose.

The radio was turned off by Ran Qingzhuang when refueling, and it hadn't been turned on in time, so there was no other sound in the car except for the slight panting of the two of us intertwined.

He seems to be looking at me, and he seems to be hesitating, hesitating about what kind of lesson to teach me, so that I can remember the warning not to touch him.

I swallowed unconsciously. Although he said that my apology was just a product of knowing my mistakes and not correcting them, it seems that I have no other choice but to apologize at this time.

"right……"

His eyes fell on my lips, and he took the initiative to move closer to silence me, and opened his eyes slightly.

Why...why do you think...he wants to...kiss me?

We were so close to each other that we could hear our breath, I stood there stiffly, one second I was thinking what would happen if Ran Qingzhuang really kissed me, and the next second I was pushed away mercilessly.

My back hit the car door, and with some pain, I looked at him blankly, not knowing what he meant.

Ran Qingzhuang stared at me blankly, looking even more dazed than I did, as if he didn't even know what was going on with him.

"You..." He paused, threw away the tissue in his hand, and didn't continue speaking, as if he was considering his words.

After a while, he finished deliberating, started the vehicle and said, "We did a lot of things that ordinary people think are too intimate, but it was forced by the situation and forced us. As I said, whether it is true or not, I You don't need to pay anything for me."

In the last sentence, when he stepped on the accelerator, he said word by word: "It's impossible between us, it will never be possible, you'd better not have any misunderstandings."

I froze for a moment, a bit speechless.

The vehicle drove on the road again, and the scenery on both sides has changed from barren to residential buildings, which indicates that we are getting closer to Lion King Island, and farther and farther away from peace and comfort.