You said you were a little hard to chase

It was a habit for Shen Shuwen to put away those things for Shen Shuwen when he left.Shen Shuwen was like this, and so was Shen Shu, even though he was already drunk and a little unsteady.

On the way home, for the first time, Shen Shu did not argue with Zhou Ce, but instead leaned on the seat and smiled at the man in the driver's seat.

The corners of the mouth were hooked, and so were the eyes, not at all like that Shen Shu who had no desires or desires.

Zhou Ce took advantage of a gap in the traffic light to look at Shen Shu, reached out and touched his face, only to feel that his face was as red as a cherry, as delicate and charming.

Not only is it red, but it's also very hot. It's obvious that it's because of drinking too much wine, and it hasn't slowed down until now.

The eyes are very blurred, and there is also a moist mist, which is cute.

Zhou Ce's heart was hit violently by something unknown, and he cursed at me, so I can barely recover, and put all my attention on driving.

The car was driving extremely erratically, just like Zhou Ce's state of mind, with ups and downs.

Perhaps it was Shen Shu's current appearance that made Zhou Ce's thoughts go around like the [-]th bend of a mountain road. He didn't have any other thoughts. He just wanted to go home immediately and hide Shen Shu from others to see such Shen Shu.

The cherries were too tempting, which made Zhou Ce short of breath.

However, Shen Shu was not easy, he lay on the seat and squinted for a while, he always felt uncomfortable, and after thinking for a long time, he realized that he was thirsty.Seeing Zhou Ce from the corner of the eye, he raised his hand and tapped Zhou Ce's arm without thinking much, muttering for a drink of water.

His tone of voice became very different from when he was sober, with a touch of sweetness, half coquettishly saying that he wanted to drink water.

Zhou Ce really couldn't stand Shen Shu acting like a baby to him. He thought about it the previous time when he was drunk and he wasn't that bad. Could it be that he was infected because he stayed with him for a long time?

But regardless of March 21, [-], Shen Shu said that he wanted to drink water and Zhou Ce dared not stop the car, so he found a convenience store and stopped the car, and told Shen Shu not to leave, and just sat in the car and waited for him.

Shen Shu nodded his head, his thought at that moment was how could he go through such experience.

Seeing that Shen Shu agreed, Zhou Ce lost his mind, pulled out the key, locked the car door, bought water quickly, and then returned to the car.

Opening the bottle cap, Zhou Ce took water to feed Shen Shu. Shen Shu stopped drinking after a few sips. He might feel that Zhou Ce was uncomfortable feeding him, so he raised his hand and picked up the water bottle to drink.

Zhou Ce was afraid that his water would drip onto his clothes, so he put his hand under his chin to catch it.

But unfortunately, even though Zhou Ce tried so hard, the water still dripped down and landed on the scarf on Shen Shu's lap.

"Drink less Ah Shu, drink cold water in winter." Zhou Ce said.

As he spoke, he was going to grab the water bottle, but Shen Shu frowned and refused to let go.

This is all he needs to quench his thirst, and no one can take away the life-saving thing.

In desperation, Zhou Ce had no choice but to grab the water bottle with one hand, and use the back of his hand to cool Shen Shu's neck with the other.

His whole body is about to burn up now, and he is completely red.

Shen Shu drank most of the bottle before putting down the glass and handing it to Zhou Ce again.

Zhou Ce took over and asked him, "Is it better?"

"It's okay." Shen Shu said.

I don't know if it's really okay, anyway, in Zhou Ce's eyes, it's really not good...

Pulling out a piece of paper for Shen Shu to wipe away the tears falling from the corners of his eyes, Zhou Ce knew that this was a human physiological reaction.Some people just can't control their tears after drinking too much, but he didn't expect Shen Shu to be such a person... It's very...unexpected...

After wiping his tears, he wiped the water from Shen Shu's chin.

In a worried tone, Zhou Ce said, "How grown up, you're still so out of tune when you're drinking."

Shen Shu was delighted to hear it, and one day he was taught by Zhou Ce that he couldn't drink properly.

But he didn't refute. Drinking can make people show their truest side. He likes to show his true self in front of Zhou Ce.

Zhou Ce looked at Shen Shu's expression of wanting to smile, but he laughed himself first.He helplessly rubbed Shen Shu's hair and adjusted his seat belt.

"Go home, Mr. Shen."

Then Shen Shu closed his eyes.

He slept for a long time, and he felt that it should be a long time. It was so long that he played out everything from childhood to adulthood... His father taught him to practice calligraphy, and he was framed by his stepfather. , and then met Zhou Ce, and then they broke up. After being decadent for two years, they met again, until Zhou Ce fed him water...

He remembers every moment very clearly and doesn't want to forget at all.

Shen Shu in the dream tried his best to remember everything, but in reality Zhou Ce looked at Shen Shu who was sleeping with frowning brows, and felt a little uncomfortable. He reached out and tried to smooth Shen Shu's eyebrows, but it didn't help.

Shen Shu slept for so long, as long as a century, that Zhou Ce said in his dream: "Ashu, let me take you to see the world."

When she was half asleep and half awake again, she was in Zhou Ce's arms. Shen Shu thought that she was going home, so Zhou Ce carried her home.

He murmured, "Go home, Xiao Ce."

Shen Shu seldom calls Zhou Ce a small policy, and more often calls him Zhou Ce by his first and last name.This happened so suddenly, I really thought that Shen Shu was talking in his sleep.

Zhou Ce stopped abruptly and observed Shen Shu, seeing that he was breathing steadily with his eyes closed, he must have fallen asleep.

Laughing out loud, look, Shen Shu even dreamed of him.

This kind of pride made Zhou Ce a little proud. It was only now that he realized how much Shen Shu cared about him.

It's him who is obsessed with it, it's him who whispers in dreams, and it's him who thinks about it on weekdays.

But Zhou Ce just couldn't figure it out, why Shen Shu didn't agree to chase him before?Why is Shen Shu always hot and cold?Why did Shen Shu let herself wait for him?

These questions Zhou Ce is still at a loss.

He didn't understand what Shen Shu did, and he didn't know the purpose of Shen Shu's doing so. He only knew that neither Shen Shu nor himself felt very good during that period of time.

After getting on the elevator and opening the door, Zhou Ce put Shen Shu on the bed, and was about to get up to take off his shoes when he found Shen Shu hugging his neck and refusing to let go.

Zhou Ce said softly, "Hey, I'll take off your shoes before going to sleep."

After finishing speaking, Shen Shu still showed no signs of letting go.Zhou Ce pressed a kiss on his lips, and said, "Ashu..."

The word Ah Shu has magical powers, and Zhou Ce discovered it a long time ago.For example, as soon as I called him Ah Shu, he put his thorns away.

This time it was no surprise, Shen Shu opened his half-closed eyes and said something in a half-dream and half-awake, but Zhou Ce couldn't hear clearly, he just thought that Shen Shu was so cute, so he couldn't help but kiss more.

Then he got up and took off his shoes, covered him with the quilt, and went to soak in honey water.

When he brought back the honey water, he saw that Shen Shu kicked off the quilt early because he thought it was too hot, and went to bed alone without any cover. It was a big winter, even though there was a heater, it was impossible not to catch a cold.

Zhou Ce resigned to his fate, put the honey water on the bedside table, picked up the quilt and covered Shen Shu again.

He wrapped Shen Shu in a quilt and wrapped it up like a prank, then picked up Shen Shu, patted him on the shoulder and told him to get up and drink honey water.

Shen Shu opened his eyes in displeasure, he didn't want to drink any honey water at all, he felt extremely uncomfortable now.

The honey water had a sweet and greasy taste in his mouth, Shen Shu raised his eyes to look at Zhou Ce, then looked at the honey water, and decided to finish it.

Watching Shen Shu finish drinking the honey water contentedly, a smile appeared in Zhou Ce's eyes.

He put the honey water away, made a quilt for Shen Shu, and let him sleep for a while.

It's just that Shen Shu couldn't fall asleep completely because of Zhou Ce's cup of honey water.

He said to Zhou Ce with strong drunkenness: "The honey water you soaked is too sweet."

Zhou Ce:? ? ?Some drinks are good.

But he didn't dare to speak like that, he only dared to nod in agreement with Shen Shu.

Dazed by Shen Shu's rare coquetry, he hooked Shen Shu's fingers and said, "I'm right here, you sleep for a while, and get up for dinner later."

"What to eat?" Shen Shu asked.

This really confused Zhou Ce. After all, he doesn't know anything. It's impossible for a drunk person to sober up to eat instant noodles, right?

After thinking about it for a long time, he said, "Is there a takeaway at the gate of the community? I'll order it."

As he said that, he was about to open the software and start ordering takeaway.

Shen Shu stretched out his hand to stop him, and then said: "There is contact information in the drawer, it will be faster, I'm afraid I didn't die of drunkenness, but died of starvation."

Zhou Ce: ...This man's words are not pleasant at all.

Putting down the phone, Zhou Ce smiled, covered Shen Shu with the quilt as hard as he could, and then turned to open the drawer.

He searched for two but couldn't find them. Originally, he wanted to ask where Shen Shu's contact information was, but when he opened the third drawer, his eyes were sucked away by a medical record.

Written in black on the white paper, Patient: Shen Shu, diagnosed with avoidant attachment personality.

Looking at the time, it has been a long time, and it should be long-term.

But why didn't he tell himself... Zhou Ce's originally happy mood suddenly dropped, and he couldn't laugh.

Facing Shen Shu's illness, Zhou Ce didn't notice it at all, not at all.

So that time when he ran away, and during this period of indecision, was it all because of this disease?

Turning to look at Shen Shu, his eyes were still closed.

Zhou Ce stuffed the medical records into the drawer in a panic. He wanted to appear calm but failed.

"Why don't you take your order, I'm hungry." Shen Shu said.

"Oh... I, I'm ordering now." Zhou Ce was about to look through the drawer again, but his hand refused to obey and opened the third drawer, where the bright medical record was placed.

Shen Shu waited for a while and didn't hear Zhou Ce's ordering. He laughed, opened his eyes, and saw that Zhou Ce was indeed in a daze facing the medical record.

He even forgot about himself, he took the medical records and put them in that place...

Sitting up suddenly, he wanted to grab the medical record, but he was still drunk and his strength was not as strong as Zhou Ce's.

Seeing Zhou Ce pick up the medical record, he sighed, knowing that he couldn't hide it anymore.

Shen Shu said, "You know."

"Yes." Zhou Ce replied.

No more words.

Zhou Ce couldn't speak, this incident shocked him too much, he originally thought that Shen Shu just didn't care about others, or was thinking about other things, but he didn't know it was because of illness.

Zhou Ce was not around so many times, leaving Shen Shu alone.

Zhou Ce raised his hand, his voice slightly hoarse, "You—"

"There are very few other side effects." Shen Shu comforted him softly.

For a moment, Zhou Ce felt sorry for this person.All these years of torture brought him only one sentence, "There are very few other side effects."It's light and easy to say.

Zhou Ce recalled that when Shen Shu was collecting songs, Shen Shu fainted with a pale face. He said that he was taking vitamins, but now thinking about how it is possible, Shen Shu's health is not that bad.

He got up to look through the cabinet, he wanted to see if there were vitamins in it.

After a while, Shen Shu's voice came from behind, "It's medicine, you don't need to look for it."

Zhou Ce's heart skipped a beat, he could no longer control his emotions.

Turning around, he said, "So you didn't tell me that you were sick, and you just supported it alone! After so many years, if I didn't find out today, would you still plan to hide it from you for the rest of your life!"

Zhou Ce has never been so angry before, he just ignored himself when he was angry a few times before, but this time, he really felt that Shen Shu was lying to him.

Shen Shu blinked, and he hid his tears back.

Shen Shu had known this would be the result, so Shen Shu chose not to say it. He didn't want Zhou Ce to worry about it, and he didn't want a gap between them.For Zhou Ce, maybe loving someone is enough, but for Shen Shu, loving someone is already trying his best.

"Do you know, I will blame myself..." Zhou Ce said softly.

Tears fell down unexpectedly.

I hate the me in the past, who made you suffer so much for no reason, and I also hate the me now, for not being able to find out that you were sick earlier.

Shen Shu's heart ached when Zhou Ce said that.

"I've worked hard to live," he said.

Because I want to be with you, I work hard to live without being tortured by illness.

The most tormented by this disease is not physical, but psychological.

He will become anxious about gains and losses, become not like himself, become not himself.

A long time ago, Shen Shu planned to cut off everything after knowing that he had this disease, but Zhou Ce was an accident.Chapter 57 The Avoidant Attachment Personality

That night was especially absurd.

They entangled each other to the death and expressed their love for each other. They never felt that their hearts were so close.

It was just dawn the next day, and when Zhou Ce came back from his morning exercise outside, he saw that Shen Shu had already woken up to make breakfast.

As soon as you step into the house, there is a burst of warmth, with air-conditioning heating and human heating.

He came out of the bathroom after taking a shower, picked up a bag of milk and walked into the kitchen.

He bit it open with his mouth and asked Shen Shu, "Eat a sandwich?"

Shen Shu didn't answer, looked up, reached out and took down the bag of milk that Zhou Ce was holding in his mouth.

Then, before Zhou Ce could react, he said, "You can't drink milk on an empty stomach."

Then he stuffed the milk into Zhou Ce's hand, and handed him the sandwich he just made.

The sandwich was beautifully made, and the eggs smelled delicious, but Zhou Ce didn't eat it. He just picked up the sandwich and brought it to Shen Shu's mouth. He had to watch Shen Shu take the first bite before he would eat it.

Shen Shu smiled helplessly, took a bite and said: "It can be eaten."

"Ashu's cooking is more than edible, it's at the level of a five-star hotel." Zhou Ce picked up the milk again, freeing up both hands to take out the two sandwiches.

He didn't want Shen Shu to move more, but he couldn't bear it.

Zhou Ce started to eat the mark that Shen Shu had just bitten out.

If Shen Shu remembers correctly, this person seems to be a little bit obsessed with cleanliness...

Seeing Zhou Ce eating so naturally, Shen Shu blushed unconsciously.

After the confession last night, the relationship between them seemed to have changed and became very ambiguous.

Sleep together and sleep together, and the heart is also handed over.

There seems to be a reunion between them.

But looking at Zhou Ce's attitude, it seems that he has no intention of reuniting.Shen Shu thought for a while, and he wanted to say, or else he would mention it.

So as soon as he opened his mouth, Zhou Ce asked him: "Is the avoidant attachment personality painful?"

The fingers couldn't help curling up. It would be a lie to say that there is no pain. The most painful thing is that you can't control your mind and body.

Shen Shu took a bite of the sandwich, pretended not to care and said, "It's okay..."

He didn't say the second half of the sentence.

For many days and nights, Shen Shu said to himself, it's okay, it's not too difficult.

But when it came to Zhou Ce, that sentence wasn't too difficult, but he couldn't say it after all.

The taste of pimples in the throat is very uncomfortable, but things are slowly improving, and Shen Shu is not a person who likes to complain, so naturally he will not tell the truth.

Zhou Ce knew this best. He clearly saw Shen Shu's hesitation, but he didn't expose it, because he knew that everyone needed a private space.

Not all of them are without secrets.Just because you don't know doesn't mean they don't.

Zhou Ce took the milk that had been warm in the kitchen and poured it into Shen Shu's cup.

He pushed the cup and said to Shen Shu: "I still have milk in the morning."

In front of Shen Shu, there was only a glass of ice water besides a sandwich. He was used to refreshing himself with ice water in the morning, but he never thought that drinking warm milk would be comfortable.

Zhou Ce, who took the ice water away, sat down in front of Shen Shu again. He hesitated looking at Shen Shu, picked up the cup and took a sip, the milk froth was still on his lips.

Shen Shu noticed it, and raised his hand to wipe off the milk froth.

That kind of demeanor is very pure, Zhou Ce has always thought that Shen Shu looks good when he shows such an ignorant and probing demeanor.

"Is it hot?" Zhou Ce asked him.

Shen Shu took another sip and said, "It's okay."

Zhou Ce's teasing heart was drawn out by the sentence, he raised his eyebrows, and opened his mouth to Shen Shu.

He said, "I'll test the temperature."

Shen Shu frowned and let go, reaching out to push Zhou Ce to drink by himself.

Zhou Ce was actually very surprised by this, but this surprise surprised him again.

He doesn't shy away from giving himself what he has drunk, doesn't it mean that he doesn't resist himself so much in his heart? !

Taking a big sip of the milk, the temperature was not bad, Zhou Ce pushed the milk back to Shen Shu.

Seeing Shen Shu drinking milk calmly, he suddenly made a sound.

"How is the treatment going?"

"Barely, what's wrong?"

Shen Shu doesn't like to talk too much when he speaks, he always likes to leave some leeway.But for Zhou Ce's question, he wanted to tell everything, but he couldn't, he had to be clear about this kind of thing.

In fact, the disease has rarely occurred over the years, except that it was too serious some time ago.

He really managed to hold himself up.

Zhou Ce laughed suddenly, and said, "You didn't seem to like drinking what other people drank before."

Yeah?Don't you like drinking what other people drink?Shen Shu's heart dropped suddenly, and he raised his eyes to look at Zhou Ce.

How does he know he doesn't like to drink what other people have drunk?

Just as he was about to make a sound, he saw Zhou Ce raise his hand to hook Shen Shu's chin. He hummed for a long time, and he looked at Shen Shu's expression.

He said a word in a beating manner, "I don't shy away from my contact."

Shen Shu: ...

Shen Shu raised his hand away from Zhou Ce's, and asked coldly, "If I avoid it, do you think you could sleep with me in the hotel that time?"

It’s true to say that, if you think about it on the good side, Shen Shu’s illness has improved at that time, and if you think about it on the downside, Shen Shu only kept tabs on himself at that time.

In any case, it was beneficial to him, so Zhou Ce temporarily forgave him for being impolite when he just put his hand away.

But looking at Shen Shu's cold look, he still couldn't help stretching out his hand to tease him.

Anyway, he finished his meal and drank his milk, so he waited for Shen Shu to finish his meal and buy glutinous rice balls and dumplings.

Today is the winter solstice, you must have a good festival.

Watching the sky in the morning and night, the weather must be very good today.

Zhou Ce scratched Shen Shu's chin, "Eat quickly, eat quickly."

It is common to be teased by Zhou Ce, but such a straightforward action is really rare.

Shen Shu was not used to it. He pursed his lips or kept his chin open, lowered his head and continued to eat breakfast.

I don't know if it was because Shen Shu was hiding or something, Zhou Ce insisted on posting it to tease Shen Shu, so the meal was late and late, and it started at nine o'clock after everything was done.

Shen Shu originally wanted to go to the vegetable market to buy ingredients and make them at home, but Zhou Ce said that it was too late, and since the Chinese New Year would be a while later, it would be difficult to buy new year's goods, so the task this time was to buy glutinous rice balls and dumplings In addition, I have to buy new year's goods.

Push the shopping cart and go inside. Today is the winter solstice, so many people are shopping in the supermarket. Zhou Ce is afraid that Shen Shu will get lost, so he holds his hand very firmly.

Shen Shu broke free twice at first, but later because he couldn't break free, he resigned to his fate and returned to hold Zhou Ce.

The temperature in the supermarket was not too high, but Shen Shu felt that the palm of Zhou Ce's hand was extremely hot, and the heat reached his heart.

The man beside him was tall and handsome, and he was justified in picking things up.Time seems to go back to the time when we were collecting songs, and Zhou Ce didn't seem to be like this at that time.

But it was clear that the time had only passed a quarter, how could he suddenly become so mature.

After thinking for a long time, I realized that it was because of Shen Shu himself.

Shen Shu said before that when Zhou Ce was appointed as a lighter, he felt that he was not stable enough and mature enough, but now Zhou Ce should be said to be the best Zhou Ce in his entire age.

He is mature and considerate, and loves Shen Shu as much as he loves his own life.

Shen Shu bent his lips, and squeezed the hands again.

After picking out glutinous rice balls and dumplings, Zhou Ce also bought some dishes, all kinds, anyway, it is impossible to have dishes that only he likes.

He was about to go to the New Year's shopping area when he received a call, saying that there was a problem with the studio.

Zhou Ce showed a solemn expression like never before. It's not that Bai Ying has never done anything to deceive Zhou Ce before, but this time it sounds very difficult.

After looking at the contents of the shopping cart, Zhou Ce had no choice but to take a step ahead and come back soon.

But Shen Shu looked at the few packets of glutinous rice balls and dumplings in the shopping cart and didn't say anything else. He waited for Zhou Ce to leave and went to pay the bill by himself.

He has never passed the New Year. For him, the New Year is just to let his mind empty.

So Shen Shu said that buying new year's goods was just following Zhou Ce's wishes.

When he took the glutinous rice balls home and put them in the refrigerator, he saw a message from Zhou Ce saying that he would not go home for lunch.

He sighed and poured out the half-cooked glutinous rice balls.

At this time, Zhou Ce stood in the office in the studio and looked at Bai Ying, neither scolding nor beating.

He was surprised, how could Bai Ying still have a relationship with Yang Yu? !

Yang Yu sat on the chair and looked at Zhou Ce, with the same tone, "I thought you were in a good mood, so I wanted to keep Xiao Ying from bothering you, but Xiao Ying refused."

Xiaoying? ? ?Zhou Ce was stunned, have these two developed to this point?

He stared at Bai Ying, wanting an explanation.

Bai Ying tugged at the hem of Zhou Ce's clothes and said, "Master Ce, please help me, I don't want to either, but I just signed the share transfer agreement in a daze."

"Did he sign you drunk?"

Bai Ying shook his head.

"He threatened you to sign?"

Bai Ying shook his head again.

"Then how did you sign this thing?!"

Bai Ying was frightened by Zhou Ce. He shrank his neck and continued, "I signed it when I was sober."

"What a fool!" Zhou Ce tugged at Bai Ying's ripped clothes, he didn't bother to care about Bai Ying, anyway, he was in love with giving away his shares, and now he was crying to him for help.After walking to the seat and sitting down, Zhou Ce said, "I think you should sell yourself to Yang Yu, and you will definitely pay it back within 20 years."

Zhou Ce has already started to smash the pot.

But Yang Yu really picked it up, and he also stood up and put his arms around Bai Ying, and said to Zhou Ce with a smile, "That's fine, then I'll thank Mr. Zhou first."

Zhou Ce: ...

Bai Ying: ...

The matter had gotten out of control, and there was no way to save it. Bai Ying didn't feel sorry for the shares, but he just felt a little upset that the studio he and Zhou Ce had worked so hard to do was divided into half for Yang Yu.

He said, "Can I buy it at double the price?"

As expected, Yang Yu has been with Shen Shu for many years, the corner of his mouth curled up, and he said firmly, "Not for sale."

In desperation, Zhou Ce had no choice but to let Yang Yu go out first, and chat with him alone.

After Bai Ying went out, Zhou Ce immediately said: "Comrade Yu, you also know that I am in a good mood today, and I will meet you, Mr. Shen, soon. Why do you come here for me?!"

Yang Yu chuckled, and dragged a chair to sit opposite Zhou Ce, "I really caught you. I... just feel that there is no one to accompany me during the holidays, so I need someone to accompany me."

Zhou Ce raised his chin outwards, "Isn't that right?"

"He always avoids me, since he was a child." Yang Yu said.

Oh... hide... This thing is familiar with Zhou Ce.

After thinking about it, Zhou Ce waved his hand and decided to ignore it.

He said: "Well, in this case, you will help him manage the money in the future, but let him be the president and report to you every day. You two take this opportunity to get in touch more."

"That's what I thought." Yang Yu said.

So, the Hard to Chase Alliance was established, they stood up, they were not afraid of difficulties and difficulties!

Until Bai Ying finished listening to what they said, his face was a little pale, and he said he wanted to go home.

Zhou Ce hinted to Yang Yu to act quickly, and Yang Yu gave a dazzling reply to show that he understood.

After dealing with all this, it was after dinner time that Zhou Ce remembered that he wanted to go home to spend the winter solstice with Shen Shu.

Taking a look at the phone, he found that Shen Shu had sent many messages asking him if he wanted to go home and eat dumplings.