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After making a decision, life will not be so painful,? Lu Xingwan spent the next time in numbness and busyness.

After many days of preparation, Lu Xingwan planned to report the progress to Mu Qingxue in the first three days of the celebration. He heard a familiar song before he entered the courtyard.

She couldn't help but pause.

The sound of Lingling Qin is like a cheerful and clear stream, and people who hear it feel carefree and comfortable from the bottom of their hearts.

A thought flashed across Lu Xingwan's mind, and he couldn't help but stand coldly at the door.

At the end of the song, the piano sound inside stopped.

"Oh, it's been a long time since I haven't played the flute." It was Jiang Lianyi's voice, her tone was a little regretful and she seemed to be acting like a baby because of the extra tact.

"No, it's as good as before." Mu Qingxue's voice was still difficult to detect emotion, but it was comforting.

There was a moment of silence inside, Jiang Lianyi seemed to ponder for a few moments before making up his mind and said, "Master, we have lifted the restrictions on other peaks, can we revive the sect?"

Mu Qingxue was silent for a long time, her voice was as soft as a sigh, "Okay. I... haven't fulfilled my duty as head of the sect these years, I really feel ashamed of my seniors and you all."

Jiang Lianyi quickly comforted her softly, "Master..."

"I'll be your pride."

"Ah."

Lu Xingwan stood at the door, thinking that it would be a better choice for him to leave now, but Mu Qingxue's voice quickly came from inside, "Come on, come in."

Lu Xingwan walked in in a daze, his soul was divided into two halves, one half screaming in pain, and the other half reported the progress calmly and methodically.

"Everything is ready. You have also read the list of banquet guests. Do you want to go through it again to make sure there are no omissions?"

Mu Qingxue quickly browsed through the list, closed the list, and said with a little appreciation in her tone, "You are always reassuring in what you do."

Lu Xingwan lowered her eyes slightly, she would never be happy with this simple compliment again.

"Go down and get ready." Mu Qingxue noticed that she had been silent a lot recently, but she herself was not a person who likes to talk and make a lively atmosphere, so she could only say so in the end.

"Yes." Lu Xingwan replied, and the moment she walked to the door and looked back, she saw Mu Qingxue looking at Jiang Lianyi, it was a tenderness she didn't know.

And where Jiang Lianyi sat, the music Jiang Lianyi played, and the familiarity of Jiang Lianyi, wasn't she the same as she used to be.

No, it should be said that Jiang Lianyi has never looked like anyone, and the one who is really a counterfeit is herself.

No wonder Ding Suisui looked at her so strangely, obviously disgusted and nostalgic, no wonder the elder sister had such a complicated expression when she saw her in red that day.

No wonder... She always felt that the master was looking at her, not just her.

She fully understands that the warmth she once had was also fake, and she has nothing from the beginning to the end.

Lu Xingwan walked out of the courtyard quickly, with intense emotions surging in her chest, and even her stomach felt like she wanted to vomit. She leaned on the tree and wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit anything. She wanted to cry but felt her eyes were dry.

Su Jingyun's surprised voice came, "What's wrong with you... are you okay?"

Lu Xingwan raised his eyes to look at Su Jingyun in a daze, and asked in a daze for a moment, "Senior Sister, do you need me?"

Su Jingyun nodded, "If you're not feeling well, let's go back to your yard and talk."

Lu Xingwan shook his head lightly, and stood up straight again, "I'm fine."

Su Jingyun hesitated a little, "Then let's take a walk around the garden."

Lu Xingwan responded, and the two walked to the garden one after the other.

Su Jingyun thought for a moment, and saw that there was no one around who made up her mind and said, "Junior Sister Lu, I know you may feel disappointed, because Master cares more about Junior Sister, but these things belong to her."

Lu Xingwan's reluctant smile completely disappeared because of her concern, and the chill slowly flowed through her blood until it froze every inch of her heart and lungs. "What does senior sister mean?"

"This matter is not Junior Sister's fault, nor is it Master's fault." Su Jingyun sighed, and said gently, "So Junior Sister Lu..."

"So it was me who was wrong. I was the extra person. I shouldn't have stayed ten years ago, right?" Lu Xingwan stared coldly at the senior sister she respected for the first time.

"I don't mean that. I am very grateful for what you have done for us. I am just afraid that you have a psychological gap. You are a smart girl, but smart people tend to go astray." Su Jingyun eased her tone and quickly explained.

"You are afraid that I will hurt Miss Jiang, are you too confident in me?" Lu Xingwan's sneer was too sharp, and even she felt that she was a joke, and the anger rose from her heart but could not melt the frozen ice .

"Calm down...that's all, what I want to tell you is that you will never be able to take the position of junior sister, whether it is in Master's heart or mine, but you can be another good junior sister." Su Jingyun said seriously, with a look of A few words of caution.

Lu Xingwan looked at her for a long time, and suddenly understood why the dream had reached the most unbearable step. She thought that there was at least affection and trust between them, but it was her wishful thinking from the beginning to the end of the past ten years.

It's like Su Jingyun sleeping in her own world in the past ten years. She played the piano to her and talked to her about her thoughts.

And these days, even just now, she still warned herself not to get angry for something that didn't happen, which made her look like a joke, and I'm afraid there is no one in this world who is more ridiculous than her.

Lu Xingwan was silent for too long, Su Jingyun

Under the gaze of her pitch-black eyes, there was a bit of panic, as if she had done something wrong just now.

She was about to open her mouth to ease the atmosphere, but she saw Lu Xingwan suddenly smiled, as if she had encountered the happiest thing in the world, her smile bloomed like a sea of ​​flowers on the other side of hell, coquettish and gorgeous.

Su Jingyun shook her head.

Lu Xingwan suddenly said sincerely, "Senior sister is worrying too much, how could I have such thoughts?"

Her tone was extremely calm, "The only advantage of me is that I can clearly recognize my position."

Su Jingyun observed her for a while, and found that she was not perfunctory, and was slightly relieved, so she ignored the slight uneasiness in her heart caused by her overly calm attitude, and comforted her softly, "Junior Sister Lu, don't blame me for being too strict just now. "

Lu Xingwan seemed to put on a mask called calm suddenly, "It's okay, you are the best senior sister."

Just not mine.

She turned and left, Su Jingyun watched her walk away, feeling relaxed and uncomfortable, is this a little unfair to Lu Xingwan?

It was a long time later that she realized how decisive emotions were hidden under Lu Xingwan's calm appearance, and she personally handed over the last straw that broke the camel's back.

On the eve of the celebration, A Luo also came back.

She was very pleasantly surprised when she received the notice. Who would have thought that the second senior sister who had been away for so many years would actually come back.However, her impression of the second senior sister has been blurred. Su Jingyun has been sleeping all these years and has no chance to talk to her. Mu Qingxue is not someone who likes to express her feelings and thoughts with words. she understands.

But this doesn't affect her excited mood now, after leaving Shenyin Island, she took a skyboat to Yuncheng, and even Bai Qinhe didn't even care about staying with Bai Qinhe, so she came back directly with Yujian.

But because of the rush to come back, the panacea bought for the senior sister and the gifts for others were all ready, but Jiang Lianyi was forgotten.

She thought about it for a while and decided to give Jiang Lianyi the share from Lu Xingwan. First, Jiang Lianyi just came back. don't mind.

Of course, the most important reason is that she was angry with Lu Xingwan for not contacting her for so long.

What she was going to send Lu Xingwan off was a step shaker with shiny tassels hanging on it, and the blue butterfly fluttering its wings was even more lifelike and very agile.

But at this point, she was already planning to give it to Jiang Lianyi.

Jiang Lianyi liked Bu Yao very much after receiving it, and put it on her head on the spot, "Thank you, little junior sister, I have always liked these beautiful things, let's go to the jewelry store at the foot of the mountain someday, shall we?"

A Luo was also very happy to see that she liked the things she gave so much, and she was a little glad that she didn't deliberately pick the stars when she chose the style of the step shaker, "Okay."

Su Jingyun smiled at the side, "Seeing that you get along so well, I feel relieved."

A Luo made a grimace, "Eldest sister is always so old-fashioned, obviously this sentence should be said by the master."

"You."

The sound of laughter drifted out of the house, and Mo Zhushou, who came with Su Jingyun, heard the harmony inside, sighed slightly for some reason, and looked at the flying birds in the distant sky.

Lu Xingwan didn't care about whether she received A Luo's gift or not, no one called her when everyone got together, the celebration was about to start, even though she transferred a lot of people from down the mountain, she was still very busy.

Because there were so many people helping, and because Lu Xingwan was on alert in advance, this celebration was not as annoying as it was in a dream where there were constant small mistakes and tossing people.

Although there were some mistakes in the process, they were harmless.

It's just that the celebration took place for three days, including her birthday, and it was the first time that she didn't wait for gifts and blessings from Mu Qingxue and A Luo.

But it doesn't matter anymore, the important thing is that she has done the last thing without leaking, and she can leave.

Early this morning, she went to say goodbye to Mu Qingxue.

"You are here, but I don't have time to play chess with you these days."

Mu Qingxue was still browsing through the lists of congratulatory gifts sent by various sects, weighing the current attitudes of various sects towards the Cold Sword Sect.

"It's okay, I'm not here today to play chess with the head, I'm here to say goodbye." Lu Xingwan's tone was flat, as if he was talking about an insignificant matter.

Mu Qingxue looked up in surprise, her clear amber eyes showed confusion, she looked at Lu Xingwan's calm face and suddenly remembered that her birthday had passed, she thought she was being left out and was angry.

"Sorry, I forgot your birthday. I'll give you another gift in two days." Mu Qingxue said this and signaled that Lu Xingwan could leave. When she was working, she liked to concentrate on finishing one thing.

In the past, Lu Xingwan would naturally say goodbye, but now his face remains unchanged, "It has nothing to do with the gift, I should go."

Mu Qingxue only thought that she was throwing a temper tantrum, and felt a little unhappy when someone interrupted her a few times, she frowned, "You have never been a willful person."

This kind of conversation will no longer disappoint and anger Lu Xingwan.

After talking with Su Jingyun, she felt calmer than ever.Pain, anger, unwillingness, all seemed to be burned by flames.

She stared deeply at the person she once regarded as a sustenance of family affection, and felt that all the warmth was slowly turning into fly ash.

"It doesn't matter if the head doesn't believe me, as long as the head knows about my farewell today, you don't have to look for me in the future."

If you will.

Mu Qingxue's heart froze, she put down the gift list in her hand, and motioned for Lu Xingwan to sit down and talk.

Lu Xingwan remained motionless, even

Even his expression didn't fluctuate in the slightest, as if someone had suddenly led him into the ruthless way.

Mu Qingxue found that her attitude was indescribably indifferent, and for a moment she didn't know what the problem was, "Why?"

"I have guarded the Cold Sword Sect for ten years, so I should have my own life." Lu Xingwan said flatly.

"If you really think so, why stay until today?" Mu Qingxue still didn't believe that she would leave, everything happened without warning, so naturally it was hard to believe.

Because I used to have delusional thoughts in my heart, thinking that I could have a home.But what's the point of saying these arguments, to embarrass myself more or to make Mu Qingxue sympathize?

"The Cold Sword Sect ceased to exist the day the disciples were dismissed, and I am not a disciple of the sect. I stayed only to repay Senior Sister Lu for saving her life."

Mu Qingxue frowned slightly when she heard this, but she didn't interrupt her. She knew that Senior Sister Lu that Lu Xingwan was talking about was an inner disciple named Lu Qingkong.

"Senior Sister Lu is an orphan. She was adopted by the sect since she was a child, and she is dedicated to winning glory for the sect. She left too early, so I am willing to repay a little on her behalf. Now..." Lu Xingwan moved the corner of his mouth and found that he could still laugh It came out, "I have neither fetters nor feelings with you. I have repaid the ten years of kindness, and I should leave."

For the first time, Mu Qingxue's expression changed, she was both sullen and shocked. She didn't seem to believe Lu Xingwan's words, and seemed to think that such heartless words could not be said by Lu Xingwan.

The two were silent for a long time, and Lu Xingwan felt that penetrating gaze seemed to be examining her soul.

Mu Qingxue was silent for a long time, and she realized that she couldn't understand Lu Xingwan.

Although Lu Xingwan's mind has been calm for so many years, she can easily understand it in front of her, and her admiration, yearning and care are always in her eyes.

Even a few days ago she could see clearly, but now the eyes are empty, like an empty mirror with clean but nothing.

Mu Qingxue was a little uneasy, but soon she felt that after ten years of devotion, she would not lose any emotion.

So what caused her to change like this?It seems that after Rianyi came back, she became more and more silent.

Mu Qingxue consciously found the reason, and her somewhat turbulent mood became calm again.

Probably because she felt aggrieved by being left out in the cold. Although she is sensible, she is also young. It is normal for her to crave attention.

Mu Qingxue thought about it like this, thinking that she missed her old friend through her, and thought of her candid devotion in these years, she felt a little bit ashamed, "It's fine to go out for a walk, just don't say such angry words again."

It's good to let her go out to relax, and I can also adjust my attitude towards her. After all, Lianyi has returned, and Lu Xingwan is just Lu Xingwan.

"It's better to let A Luo accompany you."

Lu Xingwan sighed lightly like a cloud, not for others, but only for himself.

All the dedication, all the warmth, all the forbearance these years are actually worthless.Outsiders think she has some schemes, and those in the game probably regard her sincerity as a bitch.

How humble she is in the eyes of others, no one takes her seriously even after she said such ruthless words.

But she didn't have the strength to argue anymore, she just wanted to leave this place she once regarded as home as soon as possible.

So she just said with a disheartened heart that no one else could detect, "Why should the masters be separated when they are reunited?"

Mu Qingxue hesitated for a moment, then realized that Ah Luo really needed time to get along with Jiang Lianyi, so she changed her words, "Then you go."

She added, "Pay attention to safety, and contact the door through sound transmission in case of danger."

Lu Xingwan turned and left in silence for a moment.

Mu Qingxue picked up the gift list again, and couldn't help but look up at her, only to see her clothes disappearing at the door, a few strands of unexplained uneasiness resurfaced in her heart.

Lu Xingwan walked out of the yard. As soon as he stepped on the stone steps of the promenade, he saw A Luo rushing over with a painting. The direction should be Su Jingyun's yard. After all, Jiang Lianyi lived with her these days, and they got along with each other as teachers and sisters. It's quite peaceful.

A Luo was also stunned when she saw her. The two of them haven't had a good word these days, and they haven't even hit each other face to face.She waited awkwardly for Lu Xingwan to bow her head to her, and deliberately slowed down her pace.

Unexpectedly, Lu Xingwan didn't speak to her, he walked up the stone steps and passed her by the corner of his skirt.

A Luo pretended to be calm and turned the corner, and couldn't help but look out. Seeing that Lu Xingwan didn't seem to see her, and didn't hesitate in his steps, she snorted angrily. If she didn't apologize, she wouldn't apologize. Who cares?

Lu Xingwan walked back to the room without stopping. Her own clothes and things had already been put into the storage bag, but there were only a few pieces.

As for other things in the room that do not belong to her, she will not take them away either.

Lu Xingwan sat down in front of the vanity mirror for the last time, and pulled out the wooden hairpin from her head. She picked up the hairband that Lin Luoyue gave her, as if grabbing the last trace of warmth and sticking it to her chest.

After a while, she tied her hair neatly with a headband and turned to the table.

She laid out the paper and dipped the pen in the ink.

The kindness and righteousness are exhausted, and there is no end to this.

When writing these eight words again, Lu Xingwan sincerely felt the contempt and mockery of fate towards her, she curled the corner of her lower lip and smiled self-deprecatingly.

Everything has been done, and there is nothing worthy of her nostalgia.

Lu Xingwan went out the door and went down the stone steps of the mountain path, rubbing shoulders with the self who was going upstream back then in a trance.

When walking down the last stone steps, she looked towards the direction of the sword mound and bowed deeply.

"Senior Sister Lu, I'm leaving."

Since then, the mountains have been high and the rivers have been long, and we will never look back.